Memory or Dream?

So yesterday, I felt sick and went to sleep early. The sad thing is that I started dreaming... but it was a combination of dreaming and I believe parts of a memory.

 In the dream I was about 9 or 10, and I was in a place that I have been before which is place that is a series of aqueducts. At this place I met familiar people, supposedly my family and close friends.... but they are not.
It was always this way... the sound of moving water and the feeling of cold.... with these people I know but don't know.... and half way through the dream it turns bad....

What I mean it turns bad is I am in the white room. It has very plastic/porcelain like features, like four table with blue head rests. I am always standing looking around, knowing that I am waiting. Then the dream shifts back to my mom ironing at night and I watching TV with her. I fall asleep.

Then its the next night. It was in the bedroom, it was night and a familiar noise woke me and my mother up.
The light ine the room was a dull blue grey and ambient. She then screamed and said "no no no" she got in between something and me. I screamed recognizing it and was pressed against the wall, my mother between me and it. "It" was them, one was standing there in the space between the beds. All the features were fuzzy/blurred as if it did not want me to see it, but I was fully aware what it was. It said "You are ready. He is ours". Then the dream with the place of the aqueducts played out, the people who are my "family" but not my family are there. Even a lil dog to ease me. However, it feel wrong... all the rushing water and I feel cold. It is not right. Then I awake on the white table with the blue headrests, get off the table and look around.

My mom is ironing, but it seems like she is in a trance doing it. I am on the couch and watching TV. I feel exhausted and fall asleep....it is a repeat and is a common real occurrence in my life.

The entire dream repeats all over again, as if they had happened many times... and however the 2nd time after they came my mother panics when I am returned. She gets some of our belongs and we take off in the car. She is telling that she is sorry, that she never should have gone to this group somewhere in Pico Rivera (a place by the the Rio Honda river). Apparently this group was trying to make contact. She kept apologizing as she was driving and crying.

Not entirely sure what to make of this. I felt scarred and disturbed... especially which this seems to be more of a memory.

Archangels Among Us

Last night I had an odd dream. It was brief, but very real. Apparently an individual I knew named Raphael came (he felt like my best friend I knew for years). He said he wanted to show me something. We went to the kitchen.

With a white slip a paper, he took a black maker a drew a pentagram on it. He then litt the the side of the paper he drew on fire. That side turned jet black, while the other side remained white. He then rubbed the paper against the wall in the kitchen, and said "The Devil is truly here", as various pentagrams appeared.

I said "Wait a minute, those a regular pentagrams, sigils of protection, and these here look" pointing to four sigils "are additional protections" are they not? Before the fourth glyph showed I awoke as there was some noise.


In the morning I awoke, my bedroom door was locked. I didn't lock it. My aunt claimed she heard my door handle being jarred as if something was trying to open the door in the middle of the night.

My conclusion of this dream. I may have been visited by an Angel... namely Raphael.. since he appeared as the only Raphael I know of. Strangely I felt safe and knew him for quite sometime. Raphael is an Archangel, and his name means "God Heals", "God, Please Heal". He is known as a patron of healing, who restores direction. Within the Tree of Life, Raphael holds the place as a Guardian of Knowledge which ironically share at times with Michael. The Sephiroth here us called Tiphareth, and is number six. It is also known as the sphere of harmony. The behavior of "Raphael" and the spell he showed me lend proof this was Raphael.

When Raphael revealed the glyphs, his remark seemed to mean more "There is certainly a lot of protection here, you are being constantly attacked". He did not correct me, and that was the feeling I had when I spoke to him as if confirming it so.

The Glyphs I saw were a pentagram. Those glyphs were all wards of protection. However, four glyphs also appeared. At first I thought these were runes (Futhark), but I also saw them as Greek.
These glyphs have meanings as well.

Norse
Isa: A challenge or frustration. Psychological blocks to thought or activity, including grievances. Standstill, or a time to turn inward and wait for what is to come, or to seek clarity. This rune reinforces runes around it. Isa Merkstave (Isa cannot be reversed, but may lie in opposition): Ego-mania, dullness, blindness, dissipation. Treachery, illusion, deceit, betrayal, guile, stealth, ambush, plots.

Ehwaz: Transportation. May represent a horse, car, plane, boat or other vehicle. Movement and change for the better. Gradual development and steady progress are indicated. Harmony, teamwork, trust, loyalty. An ideal marriage or partnership. Confirmation beyond doubt the meanings of the runes around it. Ehwaz Reversed or Merkstave: This is not really a negative rune. A change is perhaps craved. Feeling restless or confined in a situation. Reckless haste, disharmony, mistrust, betrayal.

Uruz: Physical strength and speed, untamed potential. A time of great energy and health. Freedom, energy, action, courage, strength, tenacity, understanding, wisdom. Sudden or unexpected changes (usually for the better). Sexual desire, masculine potency. The shaping of power and pattern, formulation of the self.

Laguz: Flow, water, sea, a fertility source, the healing power of renewal. Life energy and organic growth. Imagination and psychic matters. Dreams, fantasies, mysteries, the unknown, the hidden, the deep, the underworld. Success in travel or acquisition, but with the possibility of loss.

or

Thurisaz: Reactive force, directed force of destruction and defense, conflict. Instinctual will, vital eroticism, regenerative catalyst. A tendency toward change. Catharsis, purging, cleansing fire. Male sexuality, fertilization. (Thorr, the Thunder god, was of Giant stock.)

Greek
Iota: There will always be hard work; work is never done. Hard work is the surest means of success. When you have lost all other possessions, you still have your labor as an asset. The oracle recommends elbow-grease.

Sigma: Neither advance nor retreat; wait or hold your ground, as appropriate; the best action is inaction. “Phoibos” refers to Apollo as Bright and Pure, which also characterizes His advice in this oracle.

Pi: If you persist in your struggles, after many trials you will succeed. Perseverance through adversity.

Gamma: You will have a successful harvest, or you will reap all your profits from the Earth. The Mother of All will bring your labors to a fruitful conclusion. Gaia will give you your just deserts.