The Players

 The first encounters I recall that I know 100% are called the greys. A few variations have shown up throughout my life. The first encounters were these types wearing a silver jumpsuit. Later one the other types would appear in various skin tones from almond to to tan almond, and various heights. The tall rarely made an appearance..... and from time to time the would show up using the following proxies. 

This one I think might be a Nordic, but seems to be off. He is very tall and very fat, blond hair and has the bluest of eyes. Apparently he deals in artifacts and information, and I call him the archivist. Apparently I been working for him for years, dealing with data management, storage, and retrieval. I have detailed knowledge of where information can be located and what certain subjects/artifacts do. His interest concerns technology, culture, history, biology, literature, geography, and other natural sciences. He can be impatient at times, but overall interested in hos work. There are other working for him, but he keeps us apart.

These are some the fake animal the greys seem to show up as. The eyes are often a lot larger though, these particular animals are always seen staring face forward...clearly showing there large dark eyes, nostrils, and mouth. They stare and don't behave as normal animals would. Patiently staring...and always watching.

 

  This one appeared only once while I was with my wolfbrother. I think this one my have been a bybradized grey of some sort. It was mostly human, with the exception of being sallow skinned with long dark hairs and big black eyes. She also had four fingers. She sticks out as she was giving an injection of cytoplasm to my wolfbrother. She was caught off guard that I was lucid and asking questions. When she was aware that I was awake...she become stressed. 

These are grey pretending to be women. They are originally from the group that has had an interest in me, but split up from the others. They will appear as Caucasian women with blonde hair, always wearing a grey suit with a long skirt. They come off as very business like, and remind me of British nannies. They are mostly involved with my wolfbrother and do not like me.

These appeared once, my hybrid offspring. There is one male and one female. The female is the youngest. They are four years apart. a grey showed up one night and introduced them to their biological father as the girl was curious about me. It also served as a test for the boy to see if he had an attachment to me. Both had paper machette like skin, very thin and frail. They had sparse thin hair, and big black eyes. No teeth really. They were wearing regular human clothes. The female seemed more emotional.

 

 

These guys, MILABS have only shown up a couple of time. My first encounter with them was during my time at SoCal Edison, ironically within the city of Irwindale.This is were I was first abducted.

In that incident I was with several of my coworkers who were all out of it. Just sitting in a cell being quiet. I felt I was sleepy, but managed to wake myself up. Since everyone was quiet I just sat there until the door open and a uniformed soldier told us to get up and follow them. We were lead to a large hanger like structure, were we formed into lines. Other groups of people were bought down here. We were under ground. There were several military officers were grey fatigues making sure we were formed into lines.... and medical personal doing check ups and then inoculating us. I made the mistake of asking what I was been injecting with....then the guards got called over. Fortunately other alarms went off....and they turned to focus on that.

 

The second strangest one involved a grey walking into my room. It levitated me off the floor and left. A few moments later a black ops soldier walked in and took a picture and left. I was confused as I was levitating off the floor by 5 feet. Then I was dropped... I was awake during the entire time....as the humming was heard before the grey walked in.

 

Although not military there is a period of missing weeks in which I worked for a company that doesn't exist. During a period in which I was looking for work, I happened upon a data entry job in a brick building near 110/105 freeway by railroad tracks and a residential area. They tried to make sure we always drank the free coffee and at the donuts before selections began for the day...and the rest would be sent home to return tomorrow. This went on for a few weeks. However I have no record of this.....but my aunt recalls I had a job for a few months were I would leave and sometime get back before noon.

 

The last of MILABs involves being off world. Apparently I work in some sort of administrative roll, and have a husband who is an officer. He was killed during an attack by the Draconians at our base. Though this one is on the fantastical side for me, too many of the events echo information I did not know at the time. I have no idea.....what this was...but it hurts when I think of him and knowing that my memories have been tampered with.

 

 

These guys like hiding in the background, usually using a tall white as a proxy. However the other I had a vision/dream seizure. I felt off and had to lay down. It was around 3:45pm, and I immediately knocked out. I ended up outside in the front, and could hear my neighbors. When I looked to the roof...there was a 1 1/2 tall plump mantid ....watching  them from the roof. It was not aware of me watching it. When I saw it...I knew I had to wake up. I woke up and it was 4:00pm.   

Lights and Shadows

Date: 7/10/2025
Type: Unknown
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 12:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 1:00am
State of Mind Before: Me (Tired, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Upset)
State of Mind After: Me (Depressed, Tired, Apathetic), Wolfbrother (Happy), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: White Flashing Lights
Odd occurrences after: Shadows

So this is a bit of a report of some odd occurrences that have been occurring for about two to three weeks. At fist I didn't think much of this and attributed it to old age and eyesight.....but that is just me not wanting to deal with the "weird". Every so often I would see a flash of light in specific spots, as people may be aware it is often attributed to Posterior Vitreous Detachment were you eye gel starts to not be as effective due to old age. However I was seeing flashes of light at specific point in my window....and the light source inside was not experiencing a surging in power. To make it more interesting...yes I paint my windows black...but as time has gone on there are small pinholes here and there. So every once in a while when I am outside depending on my POV and if the lights are on I can see the light very clearly...which is white-yellowish. However the flashes I was seeing where white light from on specific pinhole. At first I thought someone was in the room walking by the light...then I realized that is not possible as the would have to be standing on the bed. Plus there was no fluctuation in power that would cause the light to "flicker". I cannot explain this particular anomaly.

The second odd flash of light which are more of 4 second projections happen during the day in the same room. As it has been warm I tend to keep myself in the dark and in the cold as much as possible. While laying down for a nap several times.... there would be a flash of light and then a projected image on the ceiling about 4 inches long of a parallelogram (a lopsided rectangle). Again I though it was my eyes.... but it has happened at least four times....in the same room...and during the afternoon and evening. I keep that room dark....no outside light should cause that image to appear....and nothing within the interior of the room should cause such an image to appear either. Again I cannot explain this.

My wolfbrother has shared that he is likewise seeing the flashing lights every once in awhile too outside and inside of that room. He like myself thought it was his eyes....but again..... does not seem likely that it is tied to a problem with our eyesight.

The second thing is that he and my aunt have been reporting more frequency of shadowy figures. For my aunt it is usually a group of two shadowy silhouettes that come into the room and stand at the foot of her bed....then leave. My wolfbrother sees them outside in the walkway facing him or inside the house within the room at night. Likewise last night...around 4:30am I woke up spooked....and lay there for a while on the floor. Sometime when I get up I kick to get some momentum going. There is very soft background light from the power strips and chargers around the room that provide a minimal amount of light...but are great indicators of something is moving around in the dark. When I got up....and kicked...at the foot of the bed something small was caught off guard and moved toward the door. It was a small black mass around 3 feet that was crouched by the bed. Again I immediately dismissed it thinking it was just the silhoutte of my leg kick.....but quickly realize my leg went in the opposite direction and there is no lights to cast a shadow. I turned on the lights quickly .....but nothing was there. I was already awake for some five minutes so I wasn't "asleep".

 

 

 

Mass Experience and Very Weird Stuff

Date: 9/5/2024 and 9/6/2024
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: N/A
Attempted Time of Sleep: 12:00am/2:15am and 12:00am
State of Mind Before: Me (Tired), Wolfbrother (Bothered)
State of Mind After: Me (Bothered), Wolfbrother (Bothered), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: Regression Session on 8/30/24, Sensitive Ankles, Darker Than Normal
Odd occurrences after: 9/6/2024 Wolfbrother Intrusive Communication

Yesterday Wolfbrother's father comes for a weekly visit and I retire to our "guest area". My other roommate come home and we eat some food and hag out there watching the Sausage Party series on Amazon Prime and the Lottery movie with John Cena. Around 12:00am we call it quits and I go and preform my duties of getting my Wolfbrother and Aunt ready for bed. We needed to go to sleep since my wolfbrother had a doctor's appointment. I finally relaxed and tried to sleep around 2:15am. Things were just bland and nothing of any interest.

At 4:15am I woke up cause I heard/felt someone outside in the front "communicating". It was two individuals. The communication was voiced in my head "Is he in there or in the house?". I just went back to be since it was hot and I need to get up in a few hours. The crickets sounds were on and that sort of masked things since I concentrated on the crickets to go back to sleep.

An hour later..around 5:15am my Wolfbrother is woken up when he hears a loud bang in the room bear his dad. He doesn't see anything and his dad is asleep. He sense something in the room.... and he texts me that he is spooked by this. Meanwhile my phone is buried under my hat and clothes, so I do not hear anything. At 5:35am... I wake up startled as something hit the shelf behind me. I start looking for my found...can't find and go for the remote to turn on the lights. My thoughts are "I can sense someone is behind the shelf...and not moving". I wait for a few minutes and it leaves....by fading away. I find my phone and go see my Wolfbrother. He tells me what happen and I let him know of the weird stuff too.

At 6:00am as we are deciding to start the day, and my Wolfbrother points out a weird triangle mark on his chest. My other roommate is sick, throwing up, has vertigo, and chills. He claims it is food poisoning....but I am okay. He is very hearty when it comes to food.....and I try to take care of him. He decides to try to rest and I get supplies for him, and if he feels worse we will go to the emergency. I take my Wolfbrother to his doctors appointment and comeback. He is feeling a bit better and wants to rest. I do some errands and comeback around 1:00pm and take a nap. I note this is very weird..... he never gets sick like that.....and given the unusual things experience by Wolfbrother and myself.... I think they may have taken him. He would not admit it.... even though they have taken before back in 1997.

Around 3:00pm we leave to see Beetlejuice Beetlejuice, my roommate is fine as if nothing happened. That was odd as the state he was in...should have lasted a day or two. As we were at the theater... an intrusive communication from "them" is received by my Wolfbrother. They are trying to stir animosity and a fight between us by triggering some thoughts on his end. We talk about it.... and it simmers down before the movie. However it does have an effects were I am very depressed now and is bringing up some of my own issues. We get home and things are relatively normal. We eat some salad and watch TV.  Just to kill time I put on 411 David Paulides on Youtube around 11:00am. We watch one story on a missing person in Lake Arrowhead and my Wolfbrother knocks out. I assume he is tired and just lay there watching the next story, but my ankles feel real weird and I start to feel woozy. For the next two espisodes I am falling in and out of consciousness trying to stay awake cause I wanna play World of Warcfaft why my Wolfbrother is asleep...so I have no interruptions. I can't take it and when the video switch to a Marvel Comics Recap concerning The Maker, Dr. Doom, and Ironlad....I shut the TV off and tried to just sleep.

The odd thing is, I feel really groggy and its not from the lettuce....my ankles feel weird, and despite the laptop being on with the screensaver....its really dark in the room. I though I saw a black figure by my Wolfsbrother bed...but I am  really sleepy. A weird ringing starts in my ear, and it last for a minute or two I think its like 12:15am before I knock out...

Dream 1

I am outside the house and it is daytime. My roommate who was sick is outside looking at the commotion going next door. Apparently the police are there and have taped off the property and moving boxes out. I tell him "You will get in trouble. It is a crime scene, let them do their job. Plus you can see the stuff from our yard". I see that there are photographs from the 1930s and that the police men say that there are two bodies in the home. Another comes out and says they found several bodies out in the backyard and they are gonna need to call for back up. Apparently the home was a brothel in 1930s... and I am confused cause that is not true. I realize this is a dream and am bored...so I walk to the house because I don't want to be here. When I open the door inside I transition.

Dream 1 "Wolfsbrother"

My wolfbrother is in a dark room talking to someone about what he saw the other time and early today. They are trying to convince him that the shadowy thing with big red eyes was not what he saw. It had eyes that were different and.... my Wolfbrother hears my voice... he knows I am about to thrum. Something is wrong. The he hears me thrum and wakes up. He starts t yelling my name to wake me up. The room is dark......

Dream 2

I am sitting in a room in the dark working on my blog. However the computer is off and it is really really dark. I hear my wolfbrother talking to someone. I think he is talking to the nurse provider we saw to day. He is trying to convince him that what he saw was not what he saw. He also asks "So I see you and you Wolfbrother went to bed early tonite. It is good you slept at 9pm. I am surprised I finally got you both together at the same time. What changed? Where has he been? Tell me where he is". I stand up up and say "NO!", despite the darkness I can barely see them ...He tells my Wolfbrother to sit down. He says "You are a hard man to pin down *******. You shouldn't be here and awake, your supposed to be busy outside". I say "***** doesn't make house calls. You are not him. What are you". He starts coming closer to my and begins to reach out. RDE is with me and I hold him in my arms tight. I can see what he is... it is a dark grey "grey". "You really shouldn't be here when I am talking to him *****. You are so much trouble. You need to go back to sleep. You are truly defective. Perhaps there is no saving you". I look at it and begin to thrum. It doesn't like that. I thrum louder. I wake my Wolfbrother up and then he wakes me cause I am Thrumming. The room is really dark...that makes no sense.... my laptop screensaver should be on????? We exchange what happened..... and decided to go to bed. I quickly text myself before I go to sleep.... the urge to fall asleep is strong. He knocks out..... I wonder why I went into such a deep sleep.... I was only asleep for an hour??? Something is not right.

Lost Accounts 02: Petition for Invitation

 This account would happen in 2016 with my wolfbrother. As some may have noticed for a while, there has been a category known as "Dreams". While there are physical abductions, there are a series of one that are described as AE1 and AE2, meaning that there are Lucid Dreams...but are mindscape created by the individual or another.

During this time period, my Wolfbrother was insistent on achieving CE5. We both have been abducted and have had CE1-CE3 encounters. He wanted true interactions and help from these beings. He was trying everything and anything. Since he seemed to have verified myself as a "real" abductee" he thought it was a great opportunity to get in contact as I was "the real deal". We would report anomalous dreams to each other via text as a log. Despite his interest and wanting this experience, he is also very private and jealous of any experience....as it is his experience despite may active involvement. This is why it is a lost account.... he forbade me from sharing this, and sadly I change my number quite often, and as many long time readers know...we have had some personal issues.

The AE1/2 begins with us aboard a craft and we are flying through the clouds. It is a small orb "shuttle" room for 4 riders and two operators. We are in seats and I am looking out the orb. The interior of the orb is a weird milky white and like plastic, seats are like contour pods with a red velvet feel. You can see the outside if you want, as there is a semitransparent aspect to the interior wall which allows one to see in or out. At the controls are two greys, beige in color flying us in. They are talking with one another, and know I can hear them. They keep saying "How does he hear us. He is defective. He should not know". I continue to look outside and we are in the sky... it is daytime and blue...and alot of white cloud cover. There is a beautiful blue ocean beneath us  and we are maybe a few hundred feet above as we are flying in. Ahead is a mountainous and lush island, with a beach and cove. There are no visible structures as we fly over. We soon land in a clearing surrounded by evenly spaced and stacked slate rocks and there is low cut grass. The trees are of a tropical like nature. when the door opens the air is not humid, but you can smell the rocks and grass. They walk out and indicate for us to wait. My wolfbrother is in a happy and loopy state. A few minutes pass and they come and release us so we can get out of the chairs. I lookdown at my feet and do not want to look at the greys eyes. I motion to my wolfbrother to give me his hand, as if we are united we can remember and not be overwhelmed. He swats my hand away... angry and says "I am not gay. Quit it", and then resumes his loopy and content state of being. So I follow behind with my head down. We walk only a short distance until there is a group of individuals in front of us.

The greys bow out and walk back to the orb. Before us are two tall Sasquatch one brown hair and one black hair, and Winged Draconian dressed is red plated armor and robes, a second set of greys, and a tall white. I am cofused as to why I am seeing all of this. I immediately supplant myself on the floor, and tug to my wolfbrother to do the same. He is lost in his state and ignores me. In my head I hear a "chuckle" and comment from on of the Sasquatch "You didn't tell me this one knows the old ways". The other comments "Unexpected. Was the dog supposed to come with his master?". The Dracon is irritated and comments for the Sasquatch to use their words and stop keeping secrets, he has more important things to do. The Sasquatch tell my Wolfbrother, "Welcome. We have heard that you wanted to speak with us. This is your opportunity to do so. What is it that you want". They look at him and my wolfbrother is lost in the moment and just giggles. The Sasquatch looks confused. At this point I interject "If I may honorable one, we thank you for seeing us. However I do not know If you realize, but contact with the greys sometimes scrambles our thoughts. My wolfbrother hear seems to be suffering the side affect at this moment". They look at me and are about to communicate when the Dracon interrupts, "Know your place dog. You were not addressed." He looks at me oddly and then to the tall white and the greys. "I know this one. What is he doing here. He was claimed by our long ago. Why is your mark upon him". The tall white and the greys look at him. I keep my face to the grass as best as possible, one of the greys are trying to "zonk" me out by staring. The Dracon and White are having a discussion. The Sasquatch looks at the grey and says "None of that now". The grey looks to the white, but he is pre-occupied with the irritated grey. The Dracon storms off. The White looks at the Sasquatch. "It seems we cannot go any further. You speak the truth and explains why you don't respond. Tell your master dog what has happened. It is funny that a dog can speak so very well. You are a good boy and you know your place well". He pats me on the head and the two Sasquatch walk off. The Tall white summon the other pilots and tells them to take us back, He also wants to know why I was bought along. They communicate "Same-Same". He looks at us.... and looks back at the greys. "Not Same-Same. That one can hear and see, he is defective". I get up and we walk back to the ship and we are taken home. 

Odd Dream of Something to come

Date: 8/23/2024
Type: Dream
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: N/A
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:15am
State of Mind Before: Tired
State of Mind After: Me (Tired), Wolfbrother (Confused), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: Wolfbrother Seeing things, Unusually sleepy
Odd occurrences after: 8/23/2024 Afternoon Doorbell Aunt Only 8/24/2024 Morning Doorbell Me only. Aunt is seeing worms again.

As mentioned there an incident earlier this month. It has bothered me to the point were I have decided to seek help with Yvonne. I been having some weird dreams, with Wolfbrother confirming some unusual activity. One such instance was our dreams being observed by someone in which we were part of some challenge. We were working together, but I was getting frustrated that he was slowing me and not allowing me to accomplish the task at hand. I was willing st stay with him, but he had to let me do my job and stop questioning me every five minutes. I also got an intrusive thought from "S.G", it is a military guy I met briefly..... he was kinda of in the same boat as me. He wanted me to get a message to Yvonne. I though it really silly as I don't believe in channeling, plus why me? I said we will see and felt bad, as he was worried about his daughters and son, I told him, last I know they moved back to **** and that his wife really didn't want to communicate with Yvonne. If you need to say something go ahead. I do respect you and see you as a professional S.G.

Dream 1
I was at a university of some sort, as many of my past classmates from elementary
to college were present in the background. The odd thing was they were all age appropriate
as young adults. I walked toward an area which seemed to be lounge area with two large
tables and provisions behind me. I sat down and began to read my book and take notes on a
few thoughts I had on vibration levels. A group of male friends (mixed) came to the table
and sat down. They were goofing around and one of them ordered me to prepare them some drinks
and snacks. I got up and began doing so without question because I knew them. As I was
finishing they got up and left, laughing that they got me to do it. I just put some of it down
and went back to my studies.
To my right the other table was occupied by some of the popular girls. White and blonde
haired, no one I knew and were generic "Barbies". Their spokesperson looked at me and said
to the others " He is always so selfless, helping others, caring, and being ever so
thoughtful. He is so powerful and yet he chooses to serve others. It such a shame
that they are so mean to him all the time." At this time I looked directly at her and
she continued addressing her peers "If only they knew who he is, they would dare not
ask or treat him this way." She know stares at me "If only he were with us once more. We
would honor him and appreciate him. We know what he can do. He would have all that he wants
and more. I know you hear us Michael Arellano, MAKE YOUR CHOICE."

Dream 2
I transition to another place that was a department store, but was an administrative
office as with open desk areas. They were many people they were interviewing, looking
for qualified individuals for some project that is fast approaching. The place made me
think of AT&T/Kaiser Permanente. I didn't want to be here and was observing the layout
of the place, looking at the paperwork on the desks, and computer screens. Like everyone
they were processing, they were treating me as if I was an idiot. However, they seemed
just as lost. As she was making a despairing remark about me, I said "I worked her before.
Check my file". My name is *********. She was extremely confused, she said "You shouldn't
be talking". I stated once again "Check my file". These people did not know what they were
doing. The catalogues and forms were all wrong. Once she verified my name and looked at my
file she was in distress. "There is some kind of mistake. YOU....You are not supposed be
here. You know why...... leave now". She was terrified. Meekly she said "We know what you
can do. Just go..."  

Dream 3
I must have got up an left, because I am outside of that department store in a huge parking
lot. No cars. Just the department store behind me and in the corner is a large building like
a bank. Two floors, outer walls were dark glass windows, with a white roof, and cement pillars.
The who area was outlined by green trees and a very pale blue clear sky. I walked to
the building and looked inside. There was an event going on of some sort, and I recognized the
people there as members of CERO. A meeting was being held and they were setting things up.
As people began coming in, many were upset and agitated as they have been "Awakened".
From what I was overhearing many found out they had double lives. Many hold positions in the
the military, academic, and government community. They are confused as why they are civilians
and yet have important positions. Yvonne was be swarmed by many members, trying to get her
attention and looking for answers. As I was standing a man walked into the building who
I did not recognize. He was 6'3, in his thirties, bald, african descent on the dark shade
side. He wore a grey suits, black formal shoes, and wore glasses. He looked like Mr. Moon
from Doctor Who (AI construct that maintained a planet sized library and saved human from
an invasion from a species who did not understand us).
He was a visitor and looked to ask if he was in the right place, but Yvonne was busy. I told
him "Hello. This is a CERO meeting of some sort. I don't know what is going on today. CERO
by the was stands for Close Encounter Research Organization." He looked at me and then looked
at Yvonne who repeated what CERO meant. He seemed to ponder something and asked if the was
about extraterrestrials and UFOs. Yvonne and I replied "Yes". He then went back stage.

I started to take note of the interior of the building. The carpet was a dark navy blue
and had standard auditorium meeting chairs with black leather seating and backing. The
chairs were set up 30 wide with 6 rows, about 180 seats. People were beginning to take
seats and I took a seat by the frot row at the edge. One man, white male in his forties yet
seems older, was really irate.... he was screaming "I did not agree to this. Don't you people
know who I am. Why would I want to some mundane civilian life. I am someone of great
importance. The wife and kids I have are not mine! This life is fake!". Yvonne tries to
address the room and calm him down. "I know everyone has question. If you just settle down
I will share with you in a moment as to what is going on". She looks at the guy and he
begins to calm down as she tells him, "We are going to need your energy" while motioning to
the crowd and focuses on him "and your leadership backstage. You are a part of this. Yet if
you want to leave, go ahead". Yvonne addressing the crowd "I have a video that has some
answers". At that point a screen lowers and a video with Yvonne begins to play explaining
are part in things to come and what is going on with the awakened".

CPTSD Triggered by minor Incident

Date: 8/12/2024
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 8:00pm to 8:30pm
Attempted Time of Sleep: 7:45pm
State of Mind Before: Tired
State of Mind After: Me (CPTSD Trigger), Wolfbrother (Confused), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: Wolfbrother Seeing things, Unusually sleepy
Odd occurrences after: Unable to sleep for 48 hours

Over the past two months there has been some odd dreams, but nothing too unusual. Most of the activity compared to the past has been slight. My main focus has been taken care of my aunt and wolfbrother, and per-occupied with them which leaves me most of the time too tired to care. My responsibilities with my wolfbrother have been a point of contention, as he is causing a disruption to my limited sleep and recover scheduled. Every once in a while I do need to step back and rest or refresh with some alone and downtime by escaping. However, I do not like alone time where I retreat to our auxiliary unit as I fear I will be targeted. Most of the time there is no apprehension, but the past weeks I really do not want to be there. Besides the odd apprehension, my interests in my own activities have waned and not that I have a weird feeling of ambivalence overall. It is as if I am worried about something, I am hearing and seeing things...but intentionally ignoring it..yet aware of it. I do not feel well, but I have responsibilities and just continue on.

Today's incident was unexpected and unusual. Our overall day began as appointment with his doctor. We got some food, came home watched a movie, and took a nap. Since it is summer and hot, we have been sleeping during the day and active more at night. So when we finally got home he/we relaxed and watched a movie. I was not interested and was oddly tired. I lay down as he watched the movie. Tossing and turning, just laying there... I was being told to sleep.... but I didn't want.... and it was not reasonable for me to leave....though I should...but I shouldn't cause of the heat.... so I am told I need to SLEEP. When the movie was over I tried to get up and play a game to relax so I could process the request and sleep. However I wasn't allowed to do that as the string urge to sleep kept coming and body was shutting down. I let my wolfbrother know and we took a nap.

Dream 1

I soon found myself dreaming. However, I felt strangely lucid. It was Christmas time and I was over my evil aunt's house. No one was there except for myself and her. I didn't want to be here, especially dealing with her. As I started to walk to the door to leave she attacked me. I quickly defend myself and realized this is really not what I expected. She was growling and drooling. For some reason I saw this as some sort of demonic possession, and immediately started to exorcise her. I battled back and held her against the couch, I started to recite an exorcism ritual and tried to get through to her. I tried to remove the demon from her body. I tried to reach her as a person....

Dream 2

The scene shifted. I was walking in an abandon downtown area of a city with very high buildings. There were two female blonde nurses in white 60's gown stabbed on the street in front of an abandoned school. Young blonde girls in grey smocks were examining the area and doing forensics on how the nurses died. Six of them in total, with tiny brushes sweeping the crime scene. They looked at me, yet continued to do there odd work. There was a young boy with a board running a scam, all you to do was pick the highest black number. If you were correct you win a prize and someone dies. He kept telling me it was my turn and I had play now. I didn't want to, and he said it would be worse if I refused. So I said fine and went over to one of the girls and told here to pick the black circle that was at the bottom. He was upset, as all the high black numbers were hidden within the black circle. Since I didn't technically pick the numbers, we were all free to go.

 Dream 3

Apparently Wolfbrother had been with me before and I was pushing him on our journey. The abandoned downtown area opened up into a more populated and cleaner area. There were lots of activity with people moving about. We passed a pyramid that looked like a car wash. The carpets here were wet, and the manager came out to yell at us about tracking water all of the place in his wheelchair. We got the carpets dirty too and then he realized that I was with Wolfbrother. He became very irritate saying that "Why are you still with him and you shouldn't be here". It was a short very looking man that was off. I was already upset and told him "I am he who is like he who is like he who is like he who is like he....." and he began to panic. I banished him somewhere and told Wolfbrother we need to go. The other employees at the car wash were happy I got rid of the manager and wanted us to go to the theatere next to "fix" things there. I told them not right now and tried to head home. For some reason we went to a high rise, went through the lobby and to the elevators to get to floor 24 where Wolfbrother's apartment was, however it was a large area about 40ft by 60f't with windows all around. There was a grey carpet, no furniture, could not see outside windows. Wolfbrother was left in elevator. Soon the entire floor titled and I feel face down. I soon realized that this was not a dream  and began to panic. I made this odd statement "Remember your training, you know how to deal with these stressors. Rationalize what is going on and complete your task. Complete the mission. You cannot let them win."

Dream 4

I wake up in my room. It is bright. The room seems off as basic furniture is place where it should be, but none of the decorative of accent items are there. There is a little puppy that runs up to me and is scarred. I ask whats wrong and hold it close to my chest. There is a weird signal noise and I look immediate to the bedroom door and try to get up. Some one says "They are here [my name]." and the door opens. The hallway is off and brightly light, I can see the floor color is there but not the tile... the rose color wall is there but the hallways is blocked off halfway by some weird pinkish membrane. From behind me, two beings lift me up on either side and one behind me pushes me forward. We head toward the bathroom. They are wearing dark brown robes. I know who there are and begin singing/chanting to fend them off. As we enter the bathroom its all fractal mirrors, I can see them clearly and myself in the reflections. We are going up in a spiral, about two rotations up before there is interference from the waking world via my Wolfbrother.

Real World...

Apparently I woke up Ryan, was making a lot of noise. He was worried because he saw something in the room, but did not want to wake me up. However when I started chanting/singing/thrumming.... he threw RDE at me to bonk me awake. On my end...I felt it and quickly fell out of the corridor that they were taking me up. They looked back as I feel away from them. I had my left eye open and my right eye closed. I knew I was in my room with my Wolfbrother, but was unable to open my right eye as I was in two places at once. I was also getting feedback with my left eye..... I could still see the fractal corridor and them fading up into the distance. Also there was a bit of the arrival location from them as I started to pick up on one of their perspectives. They arrived on a railed circle platform within a dimly lit room. The rail around the circle was a smooth stainless steel, broken by three entry ways. Two walked out to a nearby console. The other stood in the center and though "Need to re-establish connection". During the ascent there was communication "Your brother. If we lose you. We have that".

Personal Note: For some odd reason this particular event has bothered me greatly. I was unable to go back to sleep. It started to bring up questions about my paternal visitations and earliest abductions. Why are there so little memories with my paternal visits? I have less than 20 memories.... I know the first two official incidents is with him.... in Irwindale and Santa Fe Dam.... there is a third incident possibly during the kidnapping "CA/AZ/NM/TX" were fireworks were following us during the day while driving in the mountains. My interest in doing anything is gone. I do not want to sleep but I have too...I do not feel well. I am unable to turn off. Something is wrong. After I hit the 35hour mark I am really worried, as I know I should feel tired....but I can't turn off to sleep. I am meditating to make sure my body is functional, but again now usual interest. I need to keep my responsibilities in taking care of my aunt and wolfbrother, 48 hour mark comes and still cannot sleep.... at 66 mark finally fall asleep for 4 hours. Over the next couple of days gradually returns to normal. Highly bothered.

  

Grandmother and Some Dreams

Date: 7/5/2024 to 7/20/2024
Type: CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:00am to 6:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 3:30am to 4:00am
State of Mind Before: Stressed, Depressed
State of Mind After: Tired (Me), Wolfbrother (Upset), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: Wolfbrother Contact and Sightings
Odd occurrences after: Audio "Name Called"

The level of activity varies from time to time. My personal activity unless it is really obvious CE4 stuff are series of CE5 dream intrusions. My Wolfbrother who lives with me has CE4/CE5 level on contact and interference. The main difference between myself and my Wolfbrother is that he initially wants to talk to them and make deals, while observe and resist.

With my Wolfbrother, he claims that they come into the room and look at him. They run by the bed or they appear in the doorways looking in. They communicate at times asking him stupid questions and instigating bad feeling between him and I. They have accused me and tried to convince him that I intend to hurt him, and he needs to strike back "again". This group tries to confuse him a lot, telling him false narratives of his past as well as trying to convince him that they are an authority figure and knows what is best for him. He does communicate this to me, and I try to let him know to not listen and compare things of what they show him and say. Most of the time they do make errors by generalizing things and not accurately portraying stuff... attention to detail is missed...as things are off or illogical. From time to time I do feel a presence before he says something or I do note odd flashes in the room that have no source. So something is happening on his end.

As for myself the high level of activity has decreased from what it was, and it is mostly check ins or feedback when they are in the area. To remind people of what "feedback" I am aware of their presence and can tune in on their activity. Either watching the POV of one or more of them as they walk around and do there stuff, or can hear the overall chatter and instructions. I assume they are within the area, as far as distance I have no idea when this kicks in....but it is not intentional on their end. The odd thing though that they do seem to do is "Dream Intrusion".  Meaning that you can be having a normal dream and they show up in it, as in outplace or an oddly specific theme and tone change take over. I know everyone has there own level of dreaming from lucid to placid, some people can read while other are just observers with no control. These two were interactive and highly lucid in the end where they "intruded".

Dream 1

There was a recent power outage around Fourth of July in my area that influenced this dream. As in the dream the power went out and as usual I go to check on my aunt and get candles/lantern for her so she wouldn't be in the dark. This felt more like a memory reply, and I was aware of it just going through the motions. However when I was walking back to my room, my grandmother was on the floor asking for help (my grandmother passed away in 2000). Without hesitation I went to her to help her up, I asked her what was wrong and she spoke in Spanish saying "They were here. They are in the house. They dragged me out of the room and through me on the floor. What is going on?" I told her "Don't worry. I am here now. Let me help you up and get you to your room. Are you hurt, is everything ok." and I looked her over to make sure she wasn't bruised or bleeding since we have a tile floor in the hallway now. Again she said "They are here. They are watching you. Why is he here? He is so mean to you. You need to be careful, I know you are not happy". I explained to her ignoring the alien reference "He is here because he needs me. He needs help. I am never going to be happy or get what I want. I am doing what is right". The dream intrusion ends there. As I am now fully wake on the floor, I am stressed. Why in the heck would I have dream this? Okay... why the alien references. I dislike having ANY dreams with family members (good or bad standing), with my grandma who is in good standing I don't like that I found her in a state of discomfort (one that had never happened, so that was not a memory). Also the urgency of her warning about "them" and the asking about my "wolfbrother" irked me.

Dream 2

A recurring theme in my dreams of this house is that the "large room" has something wrong with it. In my dreams the room that I slept in while I was younger has been remembered in my dreams as "Super Creepy". The electricity won't work to turn on the lights sometimes, there is a heavy prescience in the room, you don't want to go in, the door opens and closes at times, the windows open and closes on it own, and furniture gets tossed around. In the real world....many of my teenage abductions happened there....and there is some odd activity in there as far as the door opening and closing on it own. In the real world, guest have seen weird shadows from time to time. This time in the dream I am again, for some reason, sleeping in the room again, I am apprehensive since I know this is bad. I check the windows to make sure they are locked and closed, and that the curtains cannot be moved so no one can see in. I look around the room to make sure everything is in its place. The computer monitor, TV, lights and lamps, clear space, and closet doors are closed. I do not want to sleep there. I lay on the bed, but I force myself to stay awake. As I sit there, my aunt and grandma scream. I check on my aunt and she seems okay and tells me to check on my grandmother. I go to her room and she is crying in the bed as if waking up from a horrible nightmare. Again she speaks in Spanish to me "Why are they here. What do they want. They mentioned you. Why are you important to them?". I tried to console her and tell her that she is okay. I explain to her that they always come since i was little, that grandpa saw then, my aunt and mom saw them. You just don't want to accept that they are aliens, you keep things angels or demons. They are not ghosts, but physical beings who have harmed me. I also explain again about my wolfbrother and why he is here. He needs me and he is my family. At this point I hear a loud bang and run to my aunt's room and she is okay. The door to my old room slammed shut and the light go out in the hallway. They are here, in the room. I don't want to go in, but I charge the door and make my way into the room. The light is on, but the whole room is overturned and disarrayed. The window is open and the drapes open. I know this is not good. I wake up very upset. Again, why is my grandmother appearing in my dream. Again... why is she asking about the Aliens and why am I explaining...AGAIN.. about my situation with my wolfbrother.

Solstice Happenings and Activity

Date: 6/14/2024 and 6/15/2024
Type: CE3,CE 4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:00am/10:30pm/5:30am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:30 (Me)
State of Mind Before: Stressed, Depressed
State of Mind After: Bothered (Wolfbrother), Upset (Me), Scarred (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Odd Knocking on the Walls, Hearing their Presence.
Odd occurrences after: Nausea and Headache (Me)

So far the activity has been relatively light overall. Most of the activity is focused around my wolfbrother and usually cannot be confirmed. As mentioned my wolfbrother does has been afflicted with an unknown psychosis in which lead to the accident and the problems we have had in his recovery. His behavior during our entire relationship has been one of CE5 mentality, attempting to work and bargain with these beings.

Early Friday morning after I made my rounds and put them to bed, I secluded myself in our auxiliary space. Wolfbrother antics do not allow me restful sleep, and I am on edge. I know that they have been monitoring me and keeping quiet. I can sense their presence and I do my best to keep it out of mind, trying to keep occupied between my duties as a caregiver and my hobbies. I do not want to sleep. Deep down I am scared and depressed, I just do not show it nor deal with it since I have two other people to care for. I accept the way things are; I am not loved, nor worthy of love, I am broken, THEY will always be watching, and no one finds value in me....I am just a useful tool for those I serve. I do want to end my life, but I have duties and responsibilities that come before me. So far when I seclude I been trying to get my mind off thing by watching Letterkenny.

At this time around 2:00am, I have a feeling they are around while I am watching my show. I ignore, despite hearing a odd knock on the wall outside. The door outside moved. Again I did my best to ignore.

My aunt claims that a tall entity walked into to her room, looked at her and checked out the room quickly and walked out. She tried calling me, but I was out of range. Wolfbrother does not recall any yelling or unusual activity.

 

Friday night after he went out to smoke, my wolfbrother was relaxing and listen to music in the back. He calls me saying that they are on the neighbors roof and a tall white is walking out back. I go out and I do not see anything, but I do detect a weird pressence in the sense my hair is up and I feel funny in the head. I explain since I do not see anything, I cannot confirm his experience...but something seems off. He says they are watching us. I taking him in and resume my duties, making sure they go to bed. Again I go and seclude myself and watch some TV. I am not bothered and concerned by the events, I am just depressed and and stressed with everyday life; inflation, illegal immigration, and idiotic policies going on.

 

It is getting late and it is after 4am, it should be safe and I get ready for sleep. I try to get comfortable and knock out right away, which should be a read flag....since the past few days I had trouble feeling comfortable.... and was "bothered". I have a very odd dream. I am in my room, but my grandmother was there. She was asking why and how come my wolfbrother is occupying my room and why am I caring for him. I explain the situation. She then comments on how tired I look, worn, and that I should make sure I am okay. I reassure here that I am doing the best I can, but there is no one to step in...and there is no help. I am alone. I start to feel bad, as I know no loves me and I would never be able to have a normal relationship with someone because I am defective and that I have THIS issue. I tell her I have things to do and start working on my computer files to make myself feel better. We started have a discussion about UFO's on how they seem bigger on the inside and why a sphere is used. As the gravity of the craft is on the interior of the walls with the main engine and power source is at the center. I mentioned to that FTL travel is achieved by manipulating gravity and transitioning to 2D. That its is a matter of perspective as a 3D environment can exist with a 2D space, just as we can see a 4D object in 3D space. With It is getting late and I go check on my aunt. She is in her room reading her book. There is something off with her room as the furniture was moved around to original position, no window, and wrong dog with her. She says "I am reading. You can go away. I do not need anything". I just say "ok" and leave. As I walk out I notice that the other bedroom there is a bright light in there, and know what that is. From under the door crack I can see an elongated toe with a dark claw (this is not typical at all). I attempt to leave, but their is a weird magnetic force emanating from the door. I feel week and unable to move, but I am fighting it...I yell for my grandmother to come and pull me past the threshold of the bathroom. She asks whats going on and I tell her "They are here", I even mention that there is an odd force present. I put my key on the floor and they are pulled down the hall. I say we need to arm ourselves... she goes into the kitchen. As I look back the door open and it comes out and walks into my aunt's room. She screams. I tell my grandmother to get a knife, it is coming. It walks out quickly from her room and toward the kitchen. I run toward the kitchen to arm myself, my grandmother is not present. It is standing at the threshold of the laundry room were the kitchen is and looks at me. It is attempting to make me submit by staring at me. My mind starts to get fuzzy and I feel that I am gonna turn off.  I say "No. Not playing this game", and I begin to blur the image and thoughts all white. I feel as if I cam going to throw up too. An odd mental broadcast from it was being repeated in the background "New Format. New Format. New Format. New Format"... and I was keenly aware what I was seeing was not the usual, it was disguising itself. The being was tall and gangly, approximate 6'8", the arms were bent as if the space was too small for it and it had very long fingers. It was almond shape in color, but the head was small with deep eyessockets and black orbs inside. It reminded me of a cross between the depiction of "The Silence" and "Alien 4" xenomorph-hybrid. It was set on making fall asleep. 

As mentioned I was getting mentally attacked and was attempting to "white out" the situation. I woke up talking and fully aware of transitioning. I wanted to vomit and felt dazed. I quickly looked at my phone, and it was 5:30am. I stated to write down everything, when I was done ironically Wolfbrother called me in around 6:45am. I let him know what had happened, and that I did not feel well nor that I wanted to live. It was bothering me a lot... which usually does not happen. I just asked him to allow me some rest and stayed with him. When we woke up later I was able to resume my duties,

 

2023 Check Up and Complications

Date: 12/29/2023 and 12/30/2023
Type: CE3,CE 4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:50am/1:45am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:16am/1:16am
State of Mind Before: Relieved, Hopeful, Stressed
State of Mind After: N/A, Upset (Me), N/A (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Scoop Marks on right leg, Holiday Full Moon, "Go to Sleep" in my head, Wolfbrother knocked out.
Odd occurrences after: N/A

Well it is the end of the year, and for most of this year there visits have been spotty and not as invasive. Mostly just awareness of that their are nearby due to the feedback I get, and my wolfbrother sensing them throughout the years. Every once in a while I would get some communication here and there in dreams, but that is not proof.

As mentioned, my Wolfbrother is back with me. Our situation is an odd one. We meet through CERO, as I went to go find a support group for Abductees. He had an interests and own experiences, even tangling with Stan Romenak for a week. He was more outgoing and exposed himself to the Convention Circuit people. Me I just stayed away and did my best to survive with this issue and live a normal life. Sadly though, my Wolfbrother's life got turned upside down. He has his own physical and mental complications, one of which makes his claims dubious at times. What's worse is that his claims are not to far off. I know his stuff doesn't influence me, but the last few experiences were odd.

Since they haven't been bothering me.... they have no been on my mind other than the UAP Congress stuff and the latest movie "No One Will Save You". I been pre-occupied with day to day life..... taking care of my Aunt and Wolfbrother, dealing with the craziness in Los Angeles, and preparing for the disaster our government has unfolded. I been to busy taking care of my loved ones and dealing with my life to think about them. Yet a few days ago...they intrusion stepped up.

12/27/2023 I woke up around 7am, I noticed there was blood on my comforter. On my lower right calf there was four indentations in a line that had bleed. At first I thought I must have scratched my self with my toes...by my nails are trimmed and don't have any edges or way to make these off marks. I did think scoopmarks and just sighed, and went to wash the comforter paying no mind to something I was "used to" and didn't really care to deal with.

12/29/2023 was an uneventful night, but was one of the first nights in a while where we went to sleep early. I woke up around 1am to take care of my aunt, and couldn't get back to sleep so went to work on some of my projects. Around 4:00am I was getting unusually sleepy, and a "foreign thought" entered of "go to sleep". My response was odd as I was "okay". I stopped and shook it off as it was weird and I was annoyed. I had a few more pages to go. I started back to what I was doing. A few minutes later I get the same "foreign thought", and this time I just gave in. I went to my area on the floor, snuggled in and tried to think of something pleasant. I soon knocked out. However, a few moments I started dreaming about an intruder in the living room. I needed to lock the door. I did not feel safe and something was wrong. Next thing I know I am on my side, up against my wolfbrother's bed. I can't move. I start to scream, but I can only manage a groggy moan. I do manage to say his name a few times, but no response. I start to try and move anything. It is extremely difficult as nothing is responding, then I specific do my calibration check by trying to wiggle my fingers one by one, rotate the wrists, ankles, wiggle toes, etc. Fortunately I managed to wiggle something that allowed me to break free. My eye instantly opened, but I did not want to move. In the reflection of the TV I saw one of them by the door moving toward the otherside of my wolfbrother bed. It noticed me in the reflection and quickly moved away. I was scarred and didn't move for a while. I also was unsure of exactly what I saw...and after trying to disprove the occurrence...it was real. There was nothing wrong with my eyes or the lighting. At this time it was around 5:30am when I got up and checked on my aunt. It wasn't surprising when she told me she heard commotion in the living room, as somebodies were walking in and went down the hall to my room. That confirmed an incident had happened.

12/30/2023 was an uneventful night, again we went to sleep early. I made sure everything was closed, and wanted a restful sleep. I was very tired and been physically exhausted. I was happy that our situation would soon be over with our tenants and the city's housing issue. Things would be better. Again I was finishing up my project and went to bed willingly, and tried to snuggle and think nice thoughts as I drifted off to sleep rather quickly. Within moments I was in an odd dream. Again I felt the unease that someone was trying to get in, but this time they were looking for information. Again I woke up in my room, this time partially against his bed. My eyes were open, and as expected there was one by the door as seen from the TV reflection. I felt malice and ill intent from this being, not only was I being physically restrained it was attempting to dominate me. I was angry that it was here again, I was growling and struggling with ever ounce of my will. It started to move closer to me, jumping lightly one my wolfbrothers's bed. I got really angry and thought "Don't touch him. I will kill you! Get away from him!". It was curious as to my shift of self preservation to concern about my wolfbrother. It got closer to me and started playing with my backside. I was very bothered and heard "take one for the team" in my head, along with weird clicking audibly. I continued to struggle and watching it lean over from atop of the bed and examine me. My thought was, "these are not the usual ones and they are behaving different". The look is off as they are more shadowy, trying to remain unseen. Though they are here physically there is an ethereal quality to them as if floating. Also the manner in which I was being held and the mental domination felt weirdly off. It felt like a magnetic field, especially the mental energy it was directing at me. Usually it feels more natural and not as strong, but the influence it was pressing had a direct weight to it. As it was doing it's thing and I was thinking and it was ignoring my observations....I was like "Oh its a field or force directly emanating from it. It is much like a magnetic field, so if I warp or inverse the mental energy flow it will disrupt...." and at that point it did a "WHAT????" and backed away as my arm flew up and violently struck the railings on my wolfbrothers bed and I quickly got on my feet ready for a fight. I was in full fight mode, breathing heavily and ready to attack. Clock read 1:45am. My wolfbrother was unresponsive and knocked out (this was odd as he is a light sleeper..... he would have definitely woken up). I went to go check on my aunt and made sure the rest of the house was secured. Again she confirmed hearing odd movements and felt uneasy.

I was unable to sleep the rest of the night. I was bothered that my wolfbrother had been knocked out twice and did not respond. I don't like that tactics have changed, but these are not the usual entities that have shown up. What is worse is that they seem to be the one my Wolfbrother complains about, the ones that play with the backside. Months ago I jokingly told him "Look if they bother you that much...'I can take one for the team'. I am lonely and looking for a good time". It is odd it mocked me like that. Also it's manner of thought was more tangible than normal, as I said it had a weight to it. Plus it seemed unfamiliar with me...usually they know I am an issue. This one seem caught off guard, not only by my behavior but that I managed to "hear it and think". That "WHAT????" conveyed a lot of feeling from surprise, anger, extreme concern, and disbelief.

 

A Better Job at Deception

 

Date: 8/2/2023
Type: CE 4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 5:00am-8:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:00am
State of Mind Before: Tired, Depression, Tired of Life
State of Mind After: Confused, Bothered (Me), Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Full Moon
Odd occurrences after: N/A

In the three years of the Covid scares, the visitations have been down. With only a few incidents as noted. I do fear something were not catalogued due to the nature of dealing with my the care of my Wolfbrother and aunt.

The only thing of note is I don't want to sleep in the living room alone. Several times when I have, minor incidents have occurred. We are being monitored stilled. My Wolfbrother has indicated issues, but do to his state they are considered an unreliable source. I do note them still.

As many are aware there is also the issue of the Tic-Tac event and the Congress Response to it, as well as the recent Congressional inquiry into the "Biological Entities". I am aware of the recent Las Vegas incident in May too. However I do not believe this has any influence on yesterday's event.

First off, I will start at the end of the incident. When I awoke from the incident, my AC and noise machine was on. It makes it difficult for me to hear my aunt at times. I did awake, I was groggy after the incident with a dry mouth. I was going over the experience when I heard her, non audio in my head. Since the event was recent, I was trying to re-establish the connection to try and get more info when she interrupted. I went to see what was wrong and addressed the situation. This was around 6:30 am. She said very oddly "They are coming back again", I asked what she meant by that and she wouldn't answer. Later on we would have a discussion. Two of them were in the room, and that was on of the reasons why she called me.

So the incident. It started out as a very vivid dream, but it was a mental construct. I was "lucid" so went along with it as the encounter was very specific archived dreams from long ago. I was at a mansion that supposedly belong to my cousin. In real life this place doesn't exist, and the family there is only partially based upon actual family members, the wife and daughter I do not know. (This is an odd pattern, because there seems to be an ongoing issue of two groups that deal with me "Males" and blonde females. With my wolfbrother it seems that this observation group was once a collective unit, but some schism has occurred. The "males" are the group that deals with me, and these blonde females deal with him.) So again I was walking around the mansion, as I have been there in decades and it was pretty accurate to what I remember, and I was even commenting on that it has not changed since that dream. A young guy was there and began to strike up a conversation with me, it was very pleasant and I started talking to him about how I was feeling. He asked how I was doing, and usually I lie and saying I am fine in real life....but since this was a lucid dream I told him the truth. I feel unloved, not cared for, and would like to end my life. The state of the world is a mess, and despite everything I feel everyone just uses me. I just want someone to love me, someone I can feel safe with. He takes me to another house, the area shifts. He tells me he will love me, he introduces me to his sisters and mother. All blonde. His sisters are all young, around 8 years old and there were about 10 of them. When I met them, I did do a double take and felt very uneasy. These are not girls. I know you. At that point he excused himself and his family, as they had to adjust something. I was getting another image of me lying down and six people around me in a green light. I was trying to black that image out, but there was some type of push back as what they were doing and what I was attempting to do wasn't meshing,

The next thing that happened surprised me. The area shifted again. This time it was a real life memory, I was at a former friends house in high school who I had a crush on. Immediately I went on the defensive, I do not want to be here. Nothing came of it, and it was buried and archived. However, he showed up and began talking to me. This was one of the "classic messed up scenarios" they usually try to do with me. I do not have sex dreams, when I have they are extremely rare and usually messed up because it was a mental construct by "THEM". They don't understand me and mess it up big time. This time however, it had the emotional component and connection. Everything was right, and I was happy. I realized the current issues I had as well, that may be an impediment to such a union, but was re-assured that it wouldn't be and issue. I felt guilty because the previous guy from before was interested, and I felt that I was betraying him being with my crush. That when I noticed they were watching. The guy, the sisters, and his mom. They even thought it "We are watching. We are always watching". At this point I got mad, they fooled me and that really hurt and I need to leave. "We are watching. We are always watching. We will always find you. Your wolfbrother is right there. We see him too". That is when I forced myself out.

That is when I awoke and went over the incident. I tried to re-establish contact, as usually after an incident the path is open as there is a residual connection. Most think we are unable to re-establish contact, I was getting images of one and what it was doing...when my aunt interrupted me. I heard her yell my name in my head. It was not heard through the ears.

Wolfbrother Return and They Are Upset

Date: 12/13/2022-12/15/2022
Type: CE3,CE 4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 9:30am/12:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 2:00am/8:00pm
State of Mind Before: Bothered, Christmas Depression, Tired of Life
State of Mind After: Upset, Bothered (Me), Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: 12/13/2022 CE4 Encounter
Odd occurrences after: N/A

As many know this has been a very trying year. My association with my Wolfbrother, Earth Dragon, imploded. As of June we re-established a dialogue and once again things are headed back to how they were.

As noted the year has been quiet, at first "they" wondered what happened. Testing the waters to see if he was gone. They have been reluctant to do anything than the few incidents this year. Although the September incident was extreme. Since Wolfbrother is coming back.... "they" are aware.

Tuesday
As usual due to things I went to be late, although nothing unusual about that. Wasn't particularly bothered by anything other than the jury summons I have to get out of. The previous week I was contacted by Earth Dragon's mother, and it finally happened where he was caught being in Care Facility and the deductible was due. She is a dishonest person who tries cutting corners. I don't like dealing with her. However, I have to associate with her in order to take care of Earth Dragon. So basically its not financial feasible for him to be at the Care Facility... so guess who is needed. Me.

I went to bed around 2:00am, jumping in and out of semi-real dreams where I was not sure where I was cause it kept coming back to me in my room waking up. I would get up do stuff on my computer, watch TV, walk around the house, and then go lay down. It was as if someone was trying to callibrate a behavior. I felt that it was "testing". I was also being asked question about Earth Dragon, during all this; "Why is he coming back. Where is he now? Is he there. Why are you talking to him. He is going to hurt you again. He is interfering. You know what will happen [Threat to me from them]". I know at times I am yelling "Go away. Leave me alone. Leave wolfbrother alone. Leave me alone. I will hunt you down and make you sorry". I found this odd, but it was buried under the mundane activities I was doing and going back to sleep. I have trouble recalling who I was talking to.... as my mind just goes back to doing boring stuff. Wasn't sure if I was dreaming or awake, it went on for a few hours until I feel asleep around 7:00am. Anyhowzit, around 9:30am I am awakened by footsteps in the hallway. I noted it was windy outside, as the aluminum foil was moving on the window and I could hear the breeze. What was odd is that I was told "Go back to sleep. It is ******. He probably was told to come in late today or was sent back early". I seemed to accept the thought, though it was odd it wasn't my thought. So I stayed awake and listened. Someone was walking in the hall and kitchen. Someone was moving things around. It didn't sound like my guest, and was there more than one person? Again a thought popped into my head, "Go back to sleep. It is just *****. No need to worry. Go to sleep". I noted this and feel asleep.

At 12:00pm I awoke and was bothered. Why was there an outside voice trying to be my thought. I doubt it was my guest. There was more than one person? So I decided to ask my aunt if anything odd occurred. She did indicate that she heard someone at that time in the living room, hallway, and kitchen. They were moving something and that it was windy. Oddly enough.... the weather was not as such throughout the morning, at least to the level that it would have been audible.

Thursday
Christmas is depressing and the state of the world sucks. I feel so alone... to bad I don't live in Canada... as at least they could help me with M.A.D. Being an abductee, gay, and abused by the world.... what is the point right? I know I have duties to fulfill...but I really feel awful. It is mostly likely due to the damn holidays, as it always illustrates I am on the outside in the cold and alone....while everyone else is on the inside pretending to enjoy life. I went to be early as I have errands to run... and I don't want to be awake. Sadly the solace of sleep often eludes me.

Instead I awake in my old room, but I am sleeping there. At first I was afraid, as bad memories of the room pop up from the scenarios done there. I know I am in my real room, so I ignore and try to go to sleep there and not pay attention. I wake up a bit and I am in my room again...I feel my begging and see the ceiling. I know I am ok, but there are others in the room. I think "go away".  

[Something occurring right now. Low tapping on the window"]

I am not sure if I am awake or asleep now. I keep my eyes closed. I am in my room. I am responding to questions "Go Away. None of your business. He is my Wolfbrother, I don't know. Leave us alone. No I won't. What am I supposed to do? No. Then fix it. You know what I want. No". During this time a pressure was building on my legs then chest. I couldn't move. Something was atop of me pressing down. I attempted to wiggle out. A noise started like a high pitched sound, attempted to counter with howling. It bothered them that I wasn't under. They started tapping, it was a threat in the sense "WE ARE REALLY HERE". I continued to struggle until I was able to punch outwards which everyone left.

Although bothered at this point I was exhausted and depressed, I went back to sleep. It would be so nice to have that special someone by me so I could finally feel safe and happy. 

At 2:30am I woke up to do my obligations.... I tried writing this down so many times... but I keep getting...."distracted".

Unwanted Attractions

 

Date: 9/7/2022-9/8/2022
Type: CE 4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 11:45pm-12:15am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 11:40pm
State of Mind Before: Depressed
State of Mind After: Upset, Bothered, Scarred (Me), Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Previous Short CE4 Encounter
Odd occurrences after: N/A

So I know I have been amiss at reportimg many of the encounters over the past two years. It has little to due with Covid-19 or the lockdowns. As many may know I have been occupied with taking care of my Wolfbrother, who is refereed to on here as Earth Dragon. His care is challenging at times, and due to personal circumstance the incidents that have occurred come into to question as he cannot be a reliable source depending on who he is to be classified. I do my best to account a reliable as possible testament to what has occurred to me.

As of 4/22 my Wolfbrother has to be relocated to a care facility. So I have been alone to speak at my home. For about 5 months activity was very minimal, just occasional annoyances of flashing bright lights, whispers, and footsteps. This has been going on for decades and there is nothing I can do to stop these things.... and as long as they are not harmful... I just get note. Early August I did get a brief visit or check in.... they mainly came in and checked the room out to make sure my Wolfbrother was really gone and not coming back. They noted I was in the room... and not to "talk" as I can hear them. There were some mean comments about me... but it was mostly because I can hear them and they have to take precautions. This scouting did bother me as to me it means they were back... which I did my best to put out of my mind since they didn't do a follow up.... and I have bigger things to contend with in my life.

So as far as my mental health.... the incident with my Wolfbrother emotionally heart me in such away... that it did devastate me and cause some physically issues to manifest in 4/22 only. These were stress related, such as seizures and bouts of uncontrollable crying. Eventually I was able to de-compartmentalize the situation to regain functionality and dealt with the physical aspects of the problem to ensure seizures would not occur. 5/22 to 8/22 I began readjusting to the new lifestyle without my Wolfbrother. I will not say I am content.... but managing through life... the Covid issue is a big problem.... but since I am a self-sufficient introvert... it only bother me when they have meaningless and nonsensical restrictions and over reaching authority. Sorry to say, but I am smarter than most people and chafe under the authority of my lesser. So I was just there busy with life. In 7/22 my Wolfbrother and I did reconnect, but he is still away.

So the farthest thing from my mind is "THEM". I had a good day. I went and bought some comics and was reading them around 11pm. Around 11:40 I was told "You are tired. Go to sleep". Usually I just say "No"... but this time I was complacent. I went to lay down and was told "Sleep on you stomach it would be more comfortable."... and I did without question. I normally sleep on my side, and very rarely on my stomach. I cocked my head to the side. I was told "Relax. You will have a pleasant visitor. It is what you want. It is what you desire.....". I put my head on and turned on my side as the door opened and closed quickly...as if it was an air pressure thing. My eyes looked toward the walkway and there was a transparent distortion that moved quickly from the door to the bathroom door. "Relax. Sleep.", I heard once more and lowered my head.... but I was on my side. I could hearing some whisper and mumbling very faintly. I kept moving my head and at one point cupped my ear to hear what it was. At first I attempted to debunk it as noise form my aunts TV..... but this wasn't it. For a few minutes I was trying to pinpoint the sound and wasn't tired. "JUST GO TO SLEEP. TURN ON YOUR STOMACH NOW", and I did what I was told. I was annoyed at this but they started to communicate "You deserve love and you are such a good person. You need to be cared for and loved, that is what you want and desire. You deserve this so much because you are a good person. We know you want this. The man of your dreams will be coming here very soon. He is 6'8", muscular, white, with blonde hair and blue eyes. He loves you and want to be with you and...". I reply "Wait. I don't have the money to pay for him. He sound very expensive. I cannot possible afford him". Confusion on their part...."He loves you and want to be with you. He genuinely wants you. Sleep. He will be here...". I cut them off and reply "Are you kidding, he sound to be perfect in every way. Why would he choose me. Look at the comparison. I am old, not exactly wanted...especially by his type. Why would he choose me. We haven't talked. Why?". Frustration on their part "He will be here. He will come in the door and you will be happy. Now go to sleep!".

I zonked out, but I was awake in another room. I was standing by someone's bedside. It was a lime green room...late at night and they where watching the news. They had a flatscreen tv. I said to myself "Oh wow I am remote viewing", as I was aware someone was stroking my nose in my room. A distant though of "Shhhh. It is alright. Stay calm. You deserved to be loved. Just sleep.". I reply "Stop it" as I was focused and where I was not and wanted to see if could see the television more clearly to verify this was a remote viewing by watching the news on the TV. The only detail I could make out was that this was not local news and seemed to be an east coast station. Someone kept stoking my nose and again I said "Stop it go away. No one loves me and my Wolfbrother said I am a worthless piece of shit that no would would ever want I would be alone forever.". Whoever was stoking my nose stopped and that is when I felt pressure on my back as someone was trying to penetrate/probe  me. I instantly refocused my attention to my room. I was paralyzed unable to move, and there was a being near my head who was stroking me. I got the impression of "Uh-oh. Its not working.". The second being was doing something to my behind with frustration and "He is too tight. He locked up. Not tonight". I was enraged at this point.... fear and anger came to the surface as I struggled and screamed as best as possible. The last thing I hear was "I told you. This one is special. It doesn't normally work with him". I bolt up and they were gone. I check the time...and it was 12:15am. I looked around and listened... sat there for a bit.... my butt was bothered... it had a familiar sensation... so an attempted something physical did occur. I do not have sexual dreams. So what the heck was this. I was angered, afraid, and then began to cry for one of two reasons.... 1) "THEY" are back and... 2) What is wrong with me that I see so little value in myself that I can't even believe the lie they were creating. I think that hurt the most..... cause I am lonely and feel so unloved/unwanted.

So the thing I was trying to vet out is if this was an audio hallucination. As I said I have had communication with them all my life. It has been interactive... and they seemed annoyed that I can hear them and connect. Basically there is a"handle with care" cause I can hear and don't fully go under. Now the odd thing is there is such a disconnect between my thinking process and these individuals that they do not seem to be from my subconscious. They act as independent individuals who seemed bothered and comment on their own. They also seem to not understand how I work. If they were audio hallucinations they should be more nonsensical (repeated phrases or commands) or respond in a scripted manner? They don't seem to be recreations or imaginary beings.

The Sixth Month Extension

Date: December 5th, 2021
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 5:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:00pm
State of Mind Before: Tired (Me)/Ok (Aunt)/Ok (Wolfbrother)/Ok (Guest)
State of Mind After: Bothered, Very Tired (Me)/Ok (Aunt)/Ok (Wolfbrother)/Ok (Guest)
Odd occurrences before: Sound Machine Alteration
Odd occurrences after: Physically Exhausted Monday

Things have been just there. The whole Covid scam has me in a bad mood, the where the country is going is depressing, and the SJWs make me sick. Life in general sucks and the people walking around make it worse. I dread turning on the radio or TV because of the brainwashing that goes on. All in all I am unhappy. Despite all this I am doing my best to continue to try and get through all this. So after I feed my Wolfbrother and put him to bed I went to the living room to sleep. I had thought I made it safe. I added a night light and bought a sound machine to off put them from showing up. Pretty much this worked for a month, then things took a strange turn.

I don't know if it is my own head that picks up the repetitive nature of the sound loops, but I began noticing distortions in loops. The train or rain sounds no longer were relaxing, as I noticed the sound loops were being distorted. I started to notice where the loops were pasted at, and it was like a scratch on a record. Then there were odd patterns forming, as if something new was trying to manifest. I would change the "soundscape" or reposition myself to try and stop the distortion. Sometime it worked, but others it persisted.

On Sunday morning I went to sleep in the living room. I was just tired. It is cooler in there so I though I would be comfortable. I had the rain soundscape on, snuggled in and drifted calmly off to sleep. I was on my left side, covered with my back toward the sound machine and nightlight. At some point I woke up and didn't feel right. I was going to reach for my phone when the familiar tone began in my ear. I immediately tried to fight it off, then there was a bright flash of light behind me and I knew it was them. They were doing there best to make me forget, I was attempting to wiggle as much as possible. My ankles and arms I was doing my best to contort. I could hear in my what they were saying, but one of them kept blocking me out. They kept showing me "westerns". They were actively showing me a film with no sound, though speed up a bit. Finally I broke free or was too much trouble and they left.

Normally I would reach for the phone and look at the time and begin texting. However, what kept running through my mind was the western. My right side was numb and very cold, despite being in the cover. From my ankle to my shoulder. In particular my ankle, wrist, and shoulder ached. I knew something happened, and when I tried to recall the western would play again. Something was wrong. I wanted to get up, but was told to sleep. When my guest got up I grabbed my cell and quickly texted. "They came". "Flash of Light". "Don't let me sleep in living room".

I soon knocked out and was unable to get up. However, I was going over what had happened in my head. Again I got the western. So I went over it again. They were blocking me. So since I was getting feedback from them, I watched what they did. Apparently two appeared in the living room, both greys. One behind me and one in the walkway area. They saw me awake and put me under fast, they also moved me out of the living room. I was being examined on a table. They poked me on my right ankle, right wrist, and right shoulder. They were concerned about the injury on my right wrist. As soon as they asked, they read what happened. They responded with a comment "We have nothing to do with him. We were not the cause. We do not know of whom he speak to." They also mentioned."Immune to Covid" and "Sixth-month extension until relocation". 

Again I was awakened by my guest leaving. This time I did my best to get up and move to the bedroom. I was still getting feedback from the individual I was viewing the memory from. They were in an elevator and walking down a hallway. It was disorienting since I was moving to. I got to the chair and drifted off to sleep. Despite some 5 hours since I awoke from them dropping me off, the right side was still cold. I did my best to warm myself up...but to no avail. My body was physically exhausted.

I would not awaken until 5pm.

 

Disconnected Land Line Rings UFO Activity

Date: October 4th, 2021
Type: CE Anomaly
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 1:30am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 11:02pm
State of Mind Before: Worried-Anxious-Depressed-Pain (Me)/Ok (Aunt)/Hospitalized-Angry (Wolfbrother)/Ok (Guest)
State of Mind After: Bothered (Me)/Bothered (Aunt)/N/A (Wolfbrother)/Ok (Guest)
Odd occurrences before: Fire Truck with Sirens Driving northbound on then silence
Odd occurrences after: None

So first off, on Saturday Wolfbrother had to be hospitalized. Over the past few months he has been having some trouble coping with some issues. We been trying to work with him to help him out, but it has gotten to a point that it is beyond our control. Because of this I am currently running low on sleep for the past 48 hours with just a few catnaps, my injury bothers, but the emotional  ones hurt really really bad. I am doing my best to try and cope, but mu usual distractions such as video games and movies are not working. I can't relax and in a state anxiety? I just can't shut off right now as into relax and sleep mode. That is the state I am in currently.

Prior to the anomaly I slept for some 5 minutes and woke up as my guest took a shower. Wasn't groggy and wide awake again. This was around 11:30pm, so I decided to watch SNL from last night hoping to be distracted. Owen Wilson and the episode did make me laugh, and put me in a better mood. As I was still awake I decided to switch to Netflix and try to find something there. There was a documentary called ironically "John was just trying to contact Aliens". As I played it to see what it was about, 1 minute into it a"Fire Truck" with sirens started down the street and went north for a block... and the noise just vanished as it started. 

This is the first anomaly. The street it traveled up is a residential side street, the closest fire station is a few miles away. The noise of the sirens and the engine suddenly started, as there was no incoming noise that it was travel to us. Likewise it did pass the house..and there was no fade away either. Just stopped. There is no fire truck outside as well... nor is there any indication of an emergency in the vicinity. Again, on an empty residential street.... why would a fire truck blare its sirens at 1:30 am on a Sunday night for just a block? 

The second anomaly, which is disconcerting is that my land-line telephone rang a few time.. but sounded like and old flip phone/clock radio ring tone. At first I thought it was the movie, but the sound bite didn't fit into the scene. Also the firetruck was going by.....but the ringing sound was coming from the direction of the old land line phone. Now... I tried to dismiss it. I rewind the film several times to the scenes in which the ringing occurred. Now such sound was duplicated. Although I already new the answer, I checked the land line phone. It was still disconnected and there was no power to it. My landline was disconnected for the past 6 years or so. Given the context of the Fire Truck and the film I was watching.... and checked in on my aunt.

She was awake watching TV, different program dram about some horse ranch up in Montana. She confirmed that she heard the odd Fire Truck. Also what is worse.... she confirms that her disconnected and non-powered land-line rang as well. Unlike myself she was unaware of the situation with my Wolfbrother or myself..... and was relatively OK.

The reason why I am reporting this is there is an odd history with "Fire Truck" and alien abduction with us. Second we had a physically anomaly in two separate rooms in which non operation landline phones rang. Third.... if it is "THEM" they are aware that my Wolfbrother is not here.