Checking in Again?

Dates: 5/25/2026 to 5/66/2026
Type: CE3 
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:30am to 4:30am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 1:00am
State of Mind Before: Me (Exhausted, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Bothered), Aunt (Pain, Stressed)
State of Mind After: Me (Exhausted, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Bothered), Aunt (Pain, Stressed)
Odd occurrences before: Half-Moon, Wolfbrother 9' tall being and small one in room                     Odd occurrences after: None
 

For starters....odd occurrence. Previous days my wolfbrother has been scarred as a tiny grey ran through the room. It was intangible and barely visible. Happened in the evening. Second night he claims that a very tall grey like being stuck his head in the door and looked in really quick and left. I was near by, but saw nothing. This was on the 23rd and 24th.

My aunt has not indicated anything unusual. However are dog has been bothered these past four days acting a bit clinging and scarred. Unusual behavior for him.

Just to note last week..news wise UFO Aliens files released. And Disclosure Day movie coming up next week. I am not really interested in the UFO File release...as that is very outdated and old new to me. None of it is at the forefront of my thoughts as I have to deal with medical issues right now from both of them...I am stressed and tired.  

5/25/2026

We have an appointment in the morning. I go to sleep around 1:00am, sleeping on the couch and then transferring to my tent around 1:45am. My guest is playing Streetfighter 6 and leaves around this time.
I fall asleep and start dreaming....

I am in the apartment an my mother shows up. She says she needs to sleep and heads to the bedroom.
She says "THEY will be here at 4:30". I am concerned and ask what does she mean. She repeats
at "THEY will be here at 4:30" and that she is very tired. I go to the kitchen and my aunt is washing dishes. I figure that they are twins, I wonder if she got a message too? I tell her what my mother said that they will be coming at 4:30. My aunt becomes scarred and says she got that message too. She wonders if that meant something?
 

I  say "Go to the house now. We need to go on lock down" .  She starts to wheel herself out. I try to wake my mother up, but she is unresponsive. I make the decision to carry her in the house.
I proceed to lock the doors and windows, and make sure all the blinds are closed. I tell my guest what
is going on and explaining the lock down. As we are talking in the kitchen....a robed figure with a weird "Obito" mask walks by the window and looks at me. I instantly think "The dog is outside?".
My instinct is to rescue my dog....however I am conflicted. That dog died. I don't keep them out outside. Yet....I can't abandon him if he is outside, but I know this is a bad idea....but I got to make sure. As I go to the back door, the older dog is outside frightened and I motion him to come. However there are two dogs. It was a trick after all. I think I got the real one in....but not sure if either were real. I just compromised the house. I run to the living room to make sure it is secure.

 Jokes on me.... two of the robed beings are here...they threaten "You fell for our trap "R". We are now gonna jerk you off faggot".
Very confused I respond. "I am not "R". Plus doesn't that make you gay for wanting to jerk me off?
I am not into that, plus you bought a buddy to watch? You are the fucking faggots."
Now they are really confused. "What???? But...But... you're gay faggot."
I pick up a bat....."So what's your point faggot? I am gonna beat the shit out of you" .

Before I could do anything I wake up it is 2:30am. I go to the house. I am not sleeping here tonight.

[Note: When they bother my wolfbrother.....they for some reason do this to him. They start acting all pervy. He becomes really upset of what they do. For some reason...again they are confusing us"]

5/26/2025
Again I have stuff to do and have an appointment again this morning. By 1:00am again I go to bed in my tent. I am overheating so I wake up around 2:30am and head to the couch. My guest was finsihing up playing Streetfighter and goes to bed around 3:00.am

I am obviously dreaming and I am with family shopping. I am not having a good time as some of the people who hate me are with us. Since I need to be there for my grandmother....I bite my tongue. However, this outing is almost over. My aunt and I head to the car and I go look for my grandmother who should be coming out of the store. For some reason it is FEDCO. I get out of the car and look for her to help her get out of the throngs of people leaving. I finally find here and try to steer her toward me. At the same time there are also government officials leaving the store. One of my older cousins, David, is causing a problem.... presenting false credentials and claiming we are "DUTCH". Not the nationality...but some sort of government thing. As soon as David approached the guards I knew something was wrong. Although I tried to get my grandma out they pulled her back in and David for questioning.

I managed to slip away and started heading out of the corridor to figure out what to do. Despite me slipping away...other people knew something was up. At this point a bunch of costumed and cartoony dwarves appeared. They were looking for me and were trying to prevent me from escaping. At first they couldn't see me... but then when they targeted me.... they were surprised I could see them. They also did not like the fact that I remembered what they really were....and I could see through the illusion? 

I made it back to the apartment. Running and porting the way here. When I got there my mother was covered in paintball splats. Concerned I asked her if she was okay. Someone else was with her, equally splatted. It repeated "I am so very tired. I am fine. I am so very tired. I am fine. I am so very tired. I am fine." and fell over. It was not my mother, but some weird mannequin.  

At that point...in both the dream and real life.. someone says "Are you ready?"

I am wide awake and alert. I am bothered and just lay there...assessing my surrounding for about two minutes. I keep thinking to myself I have a weapon, a cats-claw, do not try anything. When I grab the the phone to check the time......4:32am. I woke up though wide away at 4:30am!

I haven't gone to sleep and waited for an hour. Before getting up...as I wasn't sure if I was here. That was an odd thought to have....I didn't want to leave... cause I would be "lured" out. I didn't want to stay...because it may not be the house?

I have my duties to fulfill....but I can't deal with this......... 

Wolf Moon and weird stuff Part 1

Dates: 12/31/2025 to 1/5/2026
Type: CE3, Dreams 
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: Various
Attempted Time of Sleep: Various
State of Mind Before: Me (Exhausted, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Bothered), Aunt (Pain, Stressed)
State of Mind After: Me (Exhausted, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Bothered), Aunt (Pain, Stressed)
Odd occurrences before: None
Odd occurrences after: None

The 3 Month Holidays of Hell are almost over. As you already noticed I extremely dislike all the fake and commercial things this time of year brings. If you not jolly and drunk on fake love.....there is something wrong with you right? Besides that the realities of life are also waying doing on me....technology is nice...but the vulnerability of hacking and identity theft is out of control...and our dependence on Apps and digital access in mind numbing. Not to mention the personal stuff I am going through with my relative's failing health and my wolfbrother's personal issues. I cannot say what I want to do to myself.....but I am just tired of all of it. Sadly my basic function is to continue to serve others, put them first, which so far doesn't allow me to go MIA.

Wolfbrother Issues

My Wolfbrother struggles with a physical issue in which I care for him, and some mental impairments due to his accident. Although the involvement with the supernatural predates his accidents and impairments.....they still occur. It's harder to communicate what's going on at times. Yes...we did seek out professional help from both sides of the aisle. Psychology nowadays are filled with idiots who didn't take the basics and just have a "therapy" license. You cannot bring up clinical, behavioral, biological, and the other methodologies that psychology once tackled things with cause that ain't the way it works anymore. Yes, Alien Abduction is an an issues.....but the reality of it is that it leaves PTSD and other traumas that need to be addressed some times. Like how do you mentally cope with it and function in you social and day to day affairs? 

The other side of things are full of cult members, who hock their misinformation and happy sunshine pills. You are chosen...its not abduction but an invitation to something greater....you need to raise you vibrational level.... when you ascended and your consciousness if at the right frequency......... I talked about this utter B.S. before...they don't help....just want your money.

Anyhowzit, my Wolfbrother has been seeing them appear outside an inside the house. Usually they appears as fuzzy transparent silhouettes running by the bed or walking around out side. He has mentioned the word "Tubuskan" before several times in reference to them. When I go check I don't see anything, but there is an unease and definitely some type of energy where he indicates one is standing. I will often move to where they are before he even tells me...as I feel them. So something is happening. This has been going on for more than a weak at any time of day.

The one incident that did happen that is not so dismissive was around 12/31/25 at 4:00pm. He claimed that something was in the room. He called me on the cell. He indicated that something was standing there. I told him that I would come right away...and don't say anything and keep looking at it. Within 30secs I was in the room. Something black was standing there and moved out toward the window. It was opaque in nature as it blocked out some of the light window. It was from my point of view the side of a 2D Image.... flat. I told him before he described it... "Is it a black silhouette. Average height?". He confirmed it.... something was there....and he added it had a device pointed at him. He was visibly bothered. 

Aunt Issues

My Aunt is physically not doing to well and is hovering on expiring. I been doing my best to keep her comfortable and bring her back. She is stable now....but have been struggling since October. She would occasionally report beings coming in and out of the room. Sometime they would converse with her, and most of the time they start asking her about me. They seems to forget which one I am, concerned about my well being, or keep insisting that I am important to them. I keep note but most I keeping in mind that some might be influenced by her condition. However, some of the concerns that they bring up or topics she has no prior knowledge of. Example she doesn't know of the Wolfbrother/Me confusion they have...... that is something a group of the greys had an issue with. For some reason...they have issue telling us apart....or don't really see me when I am with him.

She did have an unusual incident where she claim a orange paper floated into the room and flew around for a while and just left. It was during the day, I was home, and nothing was seen by anyone else.

 

Part 2 will have my stuff....... 

 

Puppet Steals Book

Date: 12/18/2025
Type: Unknown
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:30am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 8:45pm (Me), 12:00am (Aunt/Wolfbrother)
State of Mind Before: Me (Exhausted, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Bothered), Aunt (Pain, Stressed)
State of Mind After: Me (Tired, Apathetic), Wolfbrother (N/A), Aunt (Calm)
Odd occurrences before: None
Odd occurrences after: None

It has been a very stressful week. My wolfbrother has been bothered alot just with his issues and my aunt's health and mental state is all over the place. We had appointments for my wolfbrother and finally there is some assistance to monitor and help with her pain management. As expected during the most "magical" time of the year.... depression hits me hard as I tried to avoid the force gleeful and merry holiday spiel. I am exhausted and mentally not in a good place due to that and the added stress from both my aunt and wolfbrother. My motto is "Why surround yourself with brief warmth and love, when there is nothing but the pain". I can deal with the adversity, the hate, the darkness.....but the false expectations of the holidays start to put the bad ideas in my head about being "loved and appreciated". I want love, but it is impossible. I am damaged, dead in places, my trust in others is not there, I know I am not wanted or desired, and I no longer have anything to offer. I deal with realism.... and I am fine in the bitter cold.

Enough of that, my apologies for the rainbows and sunshine..... anyhow I had a very weird "dream".

Dream:

I am at a facility, white polymer rounded halls. I have two books with me. One is a false copy with partial truths and misinformation regarding UFO/UAPS/Aliens....the other has the factual information regarding them. I am guarding both copies as we are getting ready to deliver the books. The larger official book is a decoy....as we have a feeling that they will try to suppress the information. I am by myself, but I know there is a "we"(connected to others like a hivemind, but I am compartmentalized?). A young black girl comes in and take one of the books. I began to chase her down the hall....there is something riding her. I catch glimpse of a being... and almond colored grey that is looking back at me as she is running away. It is as if she is cradling  it in her arms and it is looking back. I can sense it whispering in her mind. "Take the book. We must destroy it before they know the truth. Keep walking. He will not catch you".

I am right behind them. His face seem to be if he was crocheted, and looks like a yarn puppet. He keeps whispering and seems puzzle that I can see him and I think he sense I can hear him. She is instructed to stop. I catch up and come face to face with him. She is clutching the book. "You can see me. Curious. Are you aware of what I am doing?" the face crumples as if frowning. "You will not stop us. I not sure what you are. It is too late. We have your book. There is nothing you can do". Then the girl and he started to run off and turning down one of the halls. I stopped and sighed.....at least they took the other book and I closed off that hallway. I willed myself to wake up.

Awake: 

I am awake now and aware of what happened. I am not happy as I don't know why I would have this. I looking around and check things to make sure I am not being watched or monitored. I have to get up anyway to change them and check in as it close to 3:00am. I feel hurt cause I am alone. There supposed to be more than just me. 

  

 

The Player's Are All On Board

Date: 8/25/2025
Type: Unknown
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 5:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:45am
State of Mind Before: Me (Tired, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Upset)
State of Mind After: Me (Depressed, Tired, Apathetic), Wolfbrother (Happy), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: None
Odd occurrences after: None

Over the past few months I have been having some strange dreams in which I haven't had time to properly catalogue. Something always seems to get in the way when I try to document. I have kept notes as these dreams are odd and unsual, often reflecting some type of Alien involvement or sleep patterns.

This particular one was unusual as I feel asleep around 4:45am and entered a deep REM state
immediately and woke up at 5:45am.

Section One
I am working at Kaiser Permanente again in the offices.  It is a large office pool with no cubicles and just desks. White walls, grey carpet and desks. As I check my email, apparently there is a corporate function that I am required to attend. I am tired of the corporate BS, and don't want to participate in another glorified ceremony. I submit my resignation and begin to clear my desk off, ensuring that unfinished tasks and items are marked so they can be taken over by another worker.

Two of my other co-workers, G & S, walk by my desk and ask why I didn't go to the ceremony.
I just brushed them off by saying the "food" made me sick. They sort of nodded and noted that many people were sick due to food issues. I went on to say that this wa different, as there was an odd chemical taste to the food and it also made me feel very light headed. I was doing everything to not faint from it. I do not tell them I have resigned, but let them know in case I am out of commision.... I need to make sure that the unfinished work is re-assigned to another to complete so no prjects are delayed or interupted due to my absence. I finsh and head down to the basement level to meet my Wolfbrother.

Down in the basement there is a company store. My wolfbrother and I go shopping for supplies,
as I need to stock up as I am resigning from this place. Although I am quietly moving about and finding my items....he keeps calling attention to us. He insists that we get help, asking to be attended to for very simple issues. He finally fustrates me and we "pop" out.

He is taken by surprise that I "pop" us out of that situation, and appeared in another office environment. This one was different. No office pool, just a front desk check in station. It was a small office with a man at the desk. He gave us a quick assessment and said "They are watching. I have full confidence in you. You are one of my best. Now go at it." Again I "pop" us out.

Section Two
This time we arrive at an RV that belongs to my Wolfbrother's dad. We are somewhere in the desert.... badlands type of canyon area. Sandstone. We try to get the wheelchair out of the RV and I tell my wolfbrother that we can get in and out. He will be fine. We find his dad outside and I let him know we are ready to go. He drives the RV to a resort and parks under a stone outcropping built into the canyon wall. Part of the RV extends and sticks.... and it doesn't  seem like the RV after all. The color is off, as it is is all a whitish color and the RV resembles more of a tanker. I am cautious as this is not right. My wolfbrother those is excited, because we have tickets to watch Avengers Doomsday at 7pm at the resort. We are to meet his sister and her BF there is a few hours. Since we are early we explored this resort.

When we drove to the resort it was along a packed dirt road. We left from one large desert canyon area
to a large desert basin with some mountains in the distance. We hugged the foothills along the drive
until and we turned into another canyon area which opened up into a dry valley.

The road straightened and came to a roundabout with a large pound in the middle. To the right was the admin buildings and check for the resort. Going forward would be the resort itself with the mall, theaters, dining, and amusement attractions. To the left would be the were the RV parking and canyon suites were. 

My wolfbrother and I left the RV to explore the resort, going first to the Admin and check in area.
We had to pick up our tickets there and I thought to look for some supplies as well. While we were waiting for the tickets there were a few people here in line and sitting around. One guy approached me and asked if I knew where the book on gambling was? Automatically I told him that his book was left on the chair next to him. A fat man in a blue suit came up and took the book. I recognized him. He was the archivist, a fat male with blonde hair and a blue suit. He just nodded at me an smiled. I got the tickets and told my Wolfbrother we needed to leave asap. He just seemed to be having fun.

We approached the roundabout with the large pond. Suddenly a flock of baby ducks emerged from some of the grass and stones and starred at us. Likewise several baby turtles emerged found the pound and watched us. The ducks and turtles kept watching us as we walked into the distance toward the resort. It was already 6pm.... and we had an hour before the move started.

The resort area was interesting, as there was a main and side entrance. The Main Entrance was the Cineplex that lead into the mall where there were restaurants and shopping. The side entrance there was a large outdoor area with a Ferris Wheel, patio seating, and fountains. We decided to go to the side entrance. After spending some 20 mins there...we started making are way to the main entrance to meet my wolfbrother's family. His sister called us and said her bf is not coming. Her call seemed off as her voice was very automated and scripted. I advised my wolfbrother to hang up immediately. Then I got a call from his dad saying that they are waiting for us at the front entrance. Something is very off... as I start to realize there is more to this. I let my wolfbrother know we are going back to the RV. As we approach the roundabout the ducks and turtles are watching us. I "port" us to the RV directly..they were freaking me out now. I feel exhausted, not use to "porting" two people. I do feel drained.

Supposedly his dad, mom, and a pilot show up in an aluminum craft. Its like a boat, but a disk.
Before I can say anything my wolfbrother gets in and I have to follow. As we take off the dad says
he has a map for the resort. My wolfbrother are happy that his parents are here. However, I notice
these are not his parents. The women's disguise is fake...and his dad's disguise is a bit better...but they are not his parents. I let his fake dad know that I can see the tracker on the map. I advise him not to take things from strangers....and again grab my wolfbrother and we "port" out to the road. We managed to leave the craft just as it accelerated off into the sky. The map falls down....with the tracker beeping away in the distance. Suddenly a blue beam shines on us and we are taken up to the aluminum craft. The fake mom sarcastically says "You did very good". There is a tan person, the pilot. He retrieved the map and says "He knows way more than the results suggest" and that despite me avoiding the others...its only a matter of time before I get caught. The other players involved are all moving now.  

See part two regarding other players.....  

 

Oddly Scary Wake Up

Date: 5/19/2025
Type: Unknown
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 3:45am
State of Mind Before: Me (Tired, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Agitated)
State of Mind After: Me (Depressed, Tired, Apathetic), Wolfbrother (Happy), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: None
Odd occurrences after: None

Due to my Wolfbrother's agitation again I am retreating to the other room. I do not like being isolated, but have made it comfortable with distractions and that do keep me entertained. Around 3:45am I went to bed reluctantly as I was sad and felt very alone. 

I started to immediately dream in which I was at the end of a party in my home. I was in the kitchen finishing cleaning. I turned off the lights and headed into the living room to sleep. A few people decided to stay over and sleep so I carefully made my way across the living room to the couch. I had accidentally kicked the keys and wallet of my niece that was on the floor and she grabbed it instinctively as I said sorry. When I got to the couch and laid down and just look around the living room. It was dark with some soft ambient light and I started to drift off to sleep, but was alerted by a weird flash of light in the skylight. I sat up on the couch and look and nothing was there....however there was an odd hum. As I looked up I heard and saw the underside of a ship pulsating. It was a disc with a fan over fan spiral propulsion.  I tried to get up but felt dizzied and the odd ringing started in my ear.

I was fold on my back with my but up and knees to my face. They came into the house and two began to touch me in the odd position and there was a comment as to why I was like that? I was then moved and taken to a white room in which I was floating in. The unfolded me and extended my limbs. I started to breath in and out, and thrum violently to get out of the paralysis. I was trying to get out of it by attempting to shake my leg and hand. They seemed bothered by my attempts.... but then surprised when I broke out and fell to the floor....

Which I feel and was awake on my couch now. I was very scared and didn't want to move and took some 10 min to get the courage to get up. It was 5:15am. The sun was already coming through the window. I didn't want to get up as I was tired...but I was also scared.  I didn't like that in less than 15min I started dreaming and there was an episode. My body being tired and I was sad because of things I decided to go back to sleep. Again I started dreaming again of a similar situation in which I was meeting others for a camping trip in a parking lot...and I really didn't want to go...and I woke up and it was 8:00am. I fell asleep again, but was awakened at 9:30m by my wolfbrother...... and then I fell asleep again and woke up around 10:30am.

I do not like that this is another Sleep Paralysis incident with then in it? I do not understand how my dreams/mental incidents are in sync with what is happening on the outside.

Short Visit before the 50

 

Date: 2/13/2025
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 12:30am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 11:30pm
State of Mind Before: Me (Tired, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Upset)
State of Mind After: Me (Depressed, Apathetic), Wolfbrother (Upset), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: None
Odd occurrences after: Loud Thud on Floor of Garage

When Wolfbrother's father visits it is usually time for me to retreat to other room for rest. As mentioned to him, I don't want to be isolated this month as it is my 50th. As it is I am showing my symptoms of my depression, usually this does manifest as hard. I do not have anxiety that they may show up....but personally I don't feel well mentally or physically.

As for Wednesday, I went to the room and watched some stuff on youtube to try and elevate my mood. Around 11:30pm, I got myself in bedding and lay down. I know I was mentally and physically exhausted, but I was unusually fast tracked to knock out (it take me an hour or so to ease my mind and feel comfortable to sleep). The next thing I am in a white fluffy room, almost like felt. There was ambient lighting, nothing stood out except for this felt room. There was a conversation going on, not vocal, but "their voices". 

"Is he relaxed?".... "Seems this is not causing any hostile reactions. Proceed"..... from there an appendage stretched out... cotton and felt like... that began to caress my cheek and mouth. "Is he responding? I hope is is somewhat aware".... "That is it. Something you like. Something you want. You deserve to be loved"... the appendage is being a bit more forceful and I am becoming angry... "He loves you doesn't he? Wait. He loves you doesn't he? Why are you angry? He loves you doesn't he?" ... I start to breathe hard in rapid succession trying to get out of this....."Why is he there then? Why do you care? You make no sense. Nobody loves you? Why are you hurt? So much pain. So much sadness".... they let me go.

This situation was about 5 minutes or so.... it could have been longer but as soon as I was aware and triggered I did everything to get "ejected". I noticed despite being bundle up and warm, there was a specific cold spot on my left shoulder and chest, as well as where the appendage was stroking me along my face. I lay there angry.... I hate when they bring up relationship stuff.... and begin examining my personal "feelings". They don't get why I am this way nor why I feel certain things about situations and people. As I lay there for about 15 minutes, behind the wall in the garage there was a thud.... one that sounded like a very heavy iron ball falling on the ground. That made no sense as the garage is locked, no one was in there, and there is no such items that would make such a sound. The neighbor was asleep and they did not cause the sound from their dwelling. In the morning I checked the garage and there wasn't anything out of place. What concerned me was the odd sound was right behind the wall where I was sleeping necx too.  

Second City Stories: Cathedral of Los Angeles, Catacombs, and the Calvary Cemetary

 

Second City Stories describe the events of an alternate Los Angeles, where another me lives. I have been having these dreams since I was a child. I have come to realize that this is part of the Abduction Phenomena, and is a CE4 (5) event...where I am aware of a parallel world. I have discounted these events as mere dreams, but I have always noted the high level of consistency and history to where they are at. 

To the east along the 60 freeway is the Cavalry Cemetery, a mirror of our own. To the north of the freeway in Monterey Park the elevation is higher. The cemetery is in a bowl area, with the west side rising slightly and the eastside border by a high hill which eventually slopes down into the residential neighborhoods along Atlantic Blvd. To the south the elevation raises to a hill, not as high as the east, and then gentle slopes south. Here the LA Cathedral and Catacomb entrances can be found. The map shows the main streets surrounding the Cemeteries areas, and each section and cemetery has its own form of paths and roads. Main portions of of the areas are dedicated to christian burial, overseen by the catholic church. As mirroring the actual area...there is a Jewish Cemetery, Serbian-Croatan Cemetery, a Chinese Cemetery...and the addition of a Japanese and Native American section. During the winter a heavy fog often hangs over the area...making rather creepy. These are old cemeteries and have mausoleums, crypts, vaults, and headstones. The newer parts have transitioned to grave markers over the plots. None of the cemeteries are closed after sunset and can be accessed anytime of day.

The first area of interest is the catacombs which predate the Cemeteries and Burial Grounds. The area official known as the catacombs is a high open aired half-coliseum like structure with many crypts and mausoleums. There are tunnels which go under the area with additional burial chambers and connects to the Los Angeles Cathedral. The underground tunnels go even deeper, and connect to an underground river. These deeper level are not open to the public and their our folktales that "things" are found down there.

The Los Angeles Cathedral here is a tall sixth-story structure. with one central back belltower extending three more stories. The main entrance is on level three, and the remain two level connect to a lower elevation with another entrance on level 2 where lower parking is available. Level 1 beneath the ground level. The Cathedral's Main worship hall is toward the back and open air up until level 5 with at least three other side chapels open up until level 3. Besides the chapels and Main Worship Hall, there are two large auditoriums, several meeting rooms, a library, a sanctuary for baptism, and storage attic on level 6.  There are two main large sub-level basements with burial chambers, and a tunnel system that connect to the rectory and other catacombs.

Masses are held only at sunset, then night, and late night. Apparently I served as an altar boy here as a teenager for at least three years.

Abduction and Weird Crystalline Cube Underwater

Date: 9/24/2024
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 1:00am to 3:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 11:00pm
State of Mind Before: Me (Tired), Wolfbrother (N/A)
State of Mind After: Me (Bothered, Forgetful), Wolfbrother (N/A), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: Odd feeling while securing doors and just left
Odd occurrences after: None

This event is rather peculiar as I almost didn't recall it. I knew something was going on since I started singing around 1:00am and my wolfbrother woke me up, and again shortly before 3:00am. When he asked the second time what was going on....I had no idea. I was confused and couldn't remember. However as I was scanning my thoughts a few keyed words bought the memories back and I was upset.

Dream 1

I am not sure if this was a dream. I am in a cell which looks like a bathroom stall. I am very tired and just want to go to sleep. I have things to do tomorrow and I don't want to deal with this. I put the toilet seat down and begin to make a small space so I can sleep. Someone in the next stall says "Lucky you, at least you get a toilet. You figured how to catch a few zzzzs. I guess it's not  your first time." I do not respond as I do not know who this is nor do I care. I lay down. He keeps talking "Hey are you still there? It is ok if you don't want to talk. I was freaked out the first few times. I don't know what they are doing this time." at this point I sit up and look around. The floors are a beige color and curved up toward the wall. There seems to be a basin/toilet...it does close to form part of a table/sleeping platform that swivels out from the wall. There is ambient light with no source. The wall is thin but durable, as the guy is next door. It feels like plastic....but it is not. The door to the cell has been propped open....a trash basin was wedge in the door. Did I do that or is that intentional? I stick my head out into the hall. They are here... I think "I am not dealing with this" and I start to sing. I soon am woken up by my wolfbrother in real life....as I started to sing loudly. I tell him thank you.... I am really groggy and go back to sleep.

Unknown incident....

I am having trouble going back to sleep. Something happened and I can't fully remember. My back hurts and I am sore. Nobody loves me and I want to die. I will never have any normal relationship and it is way too late. What is the point. I toss and turn trying to get comfortable. I am just listening to my negative thoughts.... yeah...I need no one remember? They will all betray me again anyway.... best to be alone. Interesting that my only defense against these negative thoughts is to turn them on on themselves were I justify their responses in worse ways...which turns them off. After all my primary function is to ensure I complete my responsibilities..... that always comes first. Some faulty programming indeed.

After about 45mins of tossing and turning and becoming bored of those thoughts, a bright light emanates outside from the window. I am confused thinking I am dreaming....but no I looked at the clock and it was only 2:00am. Why is there bright light? It is not morning.....oh shit!!! Part of me panics as I realize what is about to happen. I feel weak and can't get up. I note that Wolfbrother is in the bed knocked out, my other friend is in the chair???? I am losing my ability to move....and manage to wedge half of my body under the bed before they come in and I can no longer move. My eyes stare up at the ceiling. I hear in my head "How is he awake? You said they were asleep and he would be under?" There is a very tall grey-like being standing above me, and another by the foot of the bed. "Is this the one that can hear us? How usual, is this the defective one you have mentioned?", says another voice. "This one is not defective, it is an unintended result that is within our desired application. We tried to repeat it with this one, the results were not as intended", the voice was making reference to my wolfbrother. "Yes the reclamation project. He hears us and understands". The one standing over me seems irritated that I am wedged under the bed. He does not kneel and am unsure how now I am within waist level. He begins to push on my pelvic region above my penis. It hurts....he is applying pressure and it hurts alot. I do not scream.....but it hurts.

Dream 2

It hurts....the light gets brighter and then all of a sudden its is complete darkness. I here an older female voice say "We are going to see your 'mother' now" [Note that is no what she meant....mother was the word used...but not its intent....impression I got was engineer/creator]. Soon we were in a foyer, it was very cool and dark. The walls, ceiling and floor were all made of crystal. Outside it seemed there was a void, but there was a medium....which was liquid. The woman that was with me was tall thin, whispy white hair, bulbous head, long fingers, grey skin. She was wearing a black Victorian type gown, no lace....but modest and form fitting with high collar. There was a young boy/teen with us blonde hair, kinda of loopy as not sure where he was. Then there was a young female girl/teen, of hindi descent....short hair and quiet. Both were dressed in white shirt and pants, like nursing or correctional uniform. I was dressed the same way as well.

From the foyer I could see into the next rooms. Through one doorway there was another individual in PPE suit with green interior lights and coms. She was attending to a few patients in the other room which was kept dark. She walked from one room to another, I think there was a decontamination station as she took off her suit and went to another room. I heard "You shouldn't come unannounced, especially with those. Have they been properly vaccinated?". The lady I was with responded "These two are yours, they have already been vaccinated. This one is mine and you can view the results". As the woman walked over she took the three plastic gel ovals from the woman in black and looked them over. The plastic gel oval contained biometric information. The one on the hindi girl had highlighted circles indicate that she was appropriate for this environment. The one that was in the PPE suit said "I wish you would let me examine her myself. She is quite a specimen". The woman in black responded "You know that is not allowed. I worked on her perfectly by myself. She is well within parameters". The woman that was in the PPE suit suddenly looks at me "This one can understand what we are saying can't he? Is he aware of where he is?" The woman in black responds "He is one of yours. What do you think? Unless he has a defect which allows him to circumvents the caps you put in them....rest assured he understands nothing....nor will he recall anything."

The woman who wore the PPE gear looks directly at me. She has dark hair in a bun, however he skin is purple pink and looks very lithe....almost as if the muscle are exposed....not skeletal. He face is very off as she has a very small mouth, no nose, the eyes are spread wider apart and there is a cavity in the center around the forehead. A bright purple violet light emanates from it. "I don't recall making this one. They all look the same after awhile. Now why don't you let me examine this one...." The woman in black motions for me to look around.....and motions for me not to think out load. Just observe.

The first boy/teen had entered another area. He had cracked the crystal ever so slightly, a hairline fracture. The structure I feared would be compromised. I felt the crystal and say I see that they are basalt columns......that it they were take from under the sea near Ireland or Isle of Man? The woman are talking and a name of "Chandra" is mentioned. I open the door to where the male boy/teen went. There is a gallery of various paintings. One is of a 'Gala' a sea side festival where a hotel was opening again somewhere in Britain. Another painting was that of a forest, another was a black and white skyscrapper in NYC circe 1940s, and many many others. A whistle came from the 'Gala' painting and I walked though.

It was a bright day during summer, a sea-side hotel was hosting a grand opening. A festive atmosphere was about as they had plans for a firework show. There were a few yachts in the harbor. Many people were on the boardwalk and seaside, enjoying hot dogs, ice cream, watermelon, and fried chicken. As I was walking around I noticed a few people cleaning some carousal animal that were left in the sand. I went over and started to help. Their was a medieval white canine, a hunting dog with a blue tabard on it. It had the word "Bootes gusee". I could here the crystalline cracks from the outside.... getting worse...and noticed that the sea was acting odd. I could see that as the crack got wider in the crystals.... they basalt columns were returned from whence they came. Something was going to happen so I ran to who looked in charge. There were a bunch of very hot guys washing muscle cars on the beach.....made no sense since these were American Corvettes.....they were English guys. When I went up to the one with the gold car...he was "very friendly"... I told him "Maybe later....but this place is about to come down. Look to the Sea....you are in charge right?". When he look to the ocean and say reality begin to warp... he got his guys to start to evacuate everyone to the hotel. When we got out.....apparently the other portraits were becoming unstable too as this section was collapsing... the cracks in the crystal was taking out this wing. There was one portrait with its on room.... the portrait of the forest....I redirected everyone to that room and sealed it. We were safe and cut off. Was this intentional? What was going on. I started to sing.... despite the hot guy trying to calm me down.

Second City: Dog and Dogs

Date: 9/18/2024
Type: CE4-5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 3:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 11:00pm
State of Mind Before: Tired
State of Mind After: Me (Tired), Wolfbrother (N/A), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: CE3 with Aunt Two Beings around 3:00am, Full Moon
Odd occurrences after: Wolfbrother seeing energy being at 1:00pm

This past week is been busy. I been trying to provide for my wolbrother with his need, renovating my home, and trying to help another friend with his issues. I been very tired and been burning the candle at both ends. I been preoccupied with things, and no... I am not writing the blog every day. I get bursts of ideas and just make sure they are posted once a day. Sometimes I write like five at once.... yeah I am sort of crazy like that....especially in bouts of insomnia.... they just flow.

This is a recent Second City thing....it is odd that it keeps going. Apparently it take place in the Santa Monica/Long Beach Area.....as mentioned the coast is rather harsh so the residential and commercial community is located on the upper mountains were there is no threat from the rising tides. It is just subject to fog, storms, and high winds....habitable if you like grey and gloomy weather.

Real Life: 3:00am in Aunt's Bed Room

Two beings, grey enter her bedroom and stare at her. They look at her for what she thinks is five minutes and then they exit.

Dream 1

I am at home doing some chores. My friend Mary ask if I want to have lunch. She asks me what wrong, and I let her know there has been a weird couple of days in which I loose track of time. I am worried that something is happening again. She says it is probably because I haven't been keeping a 9 to 5 and perhaps I should consider going back to work. I know why I am probably having time lapses..... but she won't hear me out. I am content staying at home, but I do need the money. She lets me know that there are openings again, and perhaps I should contact Sarah.

A few weeks go by and I sent my resume and they asked me to come by. Unlike before the offices are not in Alhambra or Pasadena. This one is in downtown or Glendale, a very fancy office building. I met the staff in which there are all male ranging in ages from 20s to 50s. There is an open work environment with long tables, each person has a sections. The walls are onyx marble, the tables are white acrylic. The computer monitors are built into the table with a holographic heads up display. As U am being shown around the office, I see that every comfort is offered here. Plenty of snacks, great environment, all in all a good atmosphere. I ask what they do in this department.....and they joke what "don't they do" and mention my "time as an archivist" should give me an advantage since I have seen and held so very advanced stuff. I feel uncomfortable as they mention that since I am really not supposed to be talking about that job. I just nod. They have some great dark chocolate and hot chocolate. Sarah walks by and introduces me to my manager who I will be working with... he is an older gentleman with grey hair and thin mustache. He seems happy to have me aboard. He mentions that he has been anxious to work with me.... and hope I can make some progress on some of their projects. They show me where my desk is and I start working. I am under the impression that I worked well for a couple of weeks.....but when I come back from the break room...people are surprised I am here. I ask what wrong and no on answers me. I go to my manager, who seems to have been demoted...and he sadly asks "How did you get in here again". I look at him confused.... "I just went to get some hot chocolate". He sighs and calls security. I look where my desk is an it has been cleared. 

...but when I come back from the break room...people are surprised I am here. I ask what wrong and no on answers me. I go to my manager, who seems to have been demoted...and he is surprised and asks "This is impossible. How did you get in here again". I look at him confused.... "I just went to get some hot chocolate". I look where my desk is and someone else is there. I look at him again and ask "We had this conversation. What is going on?". One of my other co-workers says that after a few weeks I started to disappear for a couple of hours at work...then days. Eventually when i was a no show I was let go. Every time I showed up....it was the same...I was dressed the same for work and would come out of the breakroom. I never signed in at security...no one saw me enter or leave.... I just appeared. I would be escorted off property....but I would disappear. Apparently I never went home either which made people worry. My manager looks back and has called the director and security. I tell them "Look this is missing time. I am being taken and my mind is being messed with. I need help. Do not let me go. If I step out there.....they will get me". Some of the employees laugh and others seem to know the truth. Security shows up..... and then a lady comes down from upper management. She says "Don't take him yet. Seems you are aware Michael off what is going on". She looks at everyone else "None of you have caught on yet? He is the real deal...... why do you think he was hired here. Not only is he a brilliant mind, but he is off interest to them....and obviously they don't like him sharing information. They have gone as far to come here..... and for some reason Michael here......keeps running back here..trying to put in place what he forgot. Interesting." (The lady is someone I dislike in CERO... the Influencer chic) Management and Security are awaiting her directions. She looks at me "What do you most desire?"

Dream 2

They called somebody. Police were confused. Restraining Order. Police don't understand why the company is acting this way. There is no evidence to support their claims. They think I need help. Clearly something is wrong mentally with me. I am out of it and in a daze. They tried doing something to me, in observation mode. A phone call is made, an old women I recognize picks me up and we drive to a house in Santa Monica. It is windy with grey skies, I feel happy and safe. It starts to rain. I go in and she leads me upstairs and puts me to bed. She says Thomas will be happy to see me. I am in and out of it, someone is holding me every once in a while. I missed him. This goes on for a few days....until suddenly I am aware of my surroundings. I am in their living room and they are watching TV. I have a notebook in my hand as was sketching. I look at it and notice it a perfect  drawing....no sketch marks or erasing.... it looks like a landscape of desert plateaus. "Ma!! Thomas boyfriend is awake. I think he is here now". I quickly look around the loving room. The guy who spoke is Thomas' brother....Jake? He is watching TV as the fireplace is roaring. The living room is painted red, wood floor with some carpeting. Their is an elks head and a few book cases. I have a blanket around me. There are several sketchbooks around me. The old lady, Thomas' grandmother comes and looks at me. "It is automatic writing, drawing in this case. You and Thomas do that from time to time....but you have been doing this nonstop for a few days. Are you hungry. There is some soup". I nod and we go to the kitchen table. I can hear the rain outside. The dining room is painted yellow, there is a clock on the well...mini-grandfather, a cabinet of fine china, lace on the table cloth, smells old. She serves me some soup and tea. It chicken broth and black tea, some bread. Jake is talking to his dad in the living room. Jake's father tells him "Look I got my son back cause of him, and he is by extension my boy too. When he and Thomas are together..... they are whole. Don't ask me why. I don't know how they found each other.... but they need to stay together".  The grandmother add "Geke and Freke, Hati and Skoll, Vali and Vani.... there is always that pair. Thomas and Michael are such.". I remember who Thomas is and I am very sad. We were together...then he disappeared and I found him. He didn't want to see me again because he was so afraid..... he saw what I know.... he saw them. I get up and I walk out the front door. I have my phone...... I call my aunt to pick me up. She says I need to stay with Thomas's family for a while. I sit there on the curb waiting for her. She comes by and drops off my bag of clothes and some stuff....along with a little dog. A dog again???? I look across the street, Thomas's grandmother was watching me. I leave my sketchbook out side and walk to her. She shows me a dog too and asks me to come back in. Thomas should be back soon....I go back in because I know I will be happy.

Back story...... Thomas was a guy I date in the Second City. He is a tall guy around 6'8", 160lbs, white Caucasian , and black hair. He didn't believe me about the aliens. One night he saw them and they took him. They made him forget and I helped his family find him. He didn't want anything to do with me after that.... he suffered from some missing time episodes for a while.... but things got back to normal for him. Since he didn't want to talk to me I had moved on.

Real Life: Wolfbrother's Room 1:00pm

As I was cleaning.... the door to the bathroom opened. A small energy being walked out and ran to the hallway and back to the room. Then back to the hallway....and back into the bathroom. My wolfbrother saw this while I was cleaning and dealing with renovations.

 

Lost Accounts 02: Petition for Invitation

 This account would happen in 2016 with my wolfbrother. As some may have noticed for a while, there has been a category known as "Dreams". While there are physical abductions, there are a series of one that are described as AE1 and AE2, meaning that there are Lucid Dreams...but are mindscape created by the individual or another.

During this time period, my Wolfbrother was insistent on achieving CE5. We both have been abducted and have had CE1-CE3 encounters. He wanted true interactions and help from these beings. He was trying everything and anything. Since he seemed to have verified myself as a "real" abductee" he thought it was a great opportunity to get in contact as I was "the real deal". We would report anomalous dreams to each other via text as a log. Despite his interest and wanting this experience, he is also very private and jealous of any experience....as it is his experience despite may active involvement. This is why it is a lost account.... he forbade me from sharing this, and sadly I change my number quite often, and as many long time readers know...we have had some personal issues.

The AE1/2 begins with us aboard a craft and we are flying through the clouds. It is a small orb "shuttle" room for 4 riders and two operators. We are in seats and I am looking out the orb. The interior of the orb is a weird milky white and like plastic, seats are like contour pods with a red velvet feel. You can see the outside if you want, as there is a semitransparent aspect to the interior wall which allows one to see in or out. At the controls are two greys, beige in color flying us in. They are talking with one another, and know I can hear them. They keep saying "How does he hear us. He is defective. He should not know". I continue to look outside and we are in the sky... it is daytime and blue...and alot of white cloud cover. There is a beautiful blue ocean beneath us  and we are maybe a few hundred feet above as we are flying in. Ahead is a mountainous and lush island, with a beach and cove. There are no visible structures as we fly over. We soon land in a clearing surrounded by evenly spaced and stacked slate rocks and there is low cut grass. The trees are of a tropical like nature. when the door opens the air is not humid, but you can smell the rocks and grass. They walk out and indicate for us to wait. My wolfbrother is in a happy and loopy state. A few minutes pass and they come and release us so we can get out of the chairs. I lookdown at my feet and do not want to look at the greys eyes. I motion to my wolfbrother to give me his hand, as if we are united we can remember and not be overwhelmed. He swats my hand away... angry and says "I am not gay. Quit it", and then resumes his loopy and content state of being. So I follow behind with my head down. We walk only a short distance until there is a group of individuals in front of us.

The greys bow out and walk back to the orb. Before us are two tall Sasquatch one brown hair and one black hair, and Winged Draconian dressed is red plated armor and robes, a second set of greys, and a tall white. I am cofused as to why I am seeing all of this. I immediately supplant myself on the floor, and tug to my wolfbrother to do the same. He is lost in his state and ignores me. In my head I hear a "chuckle" and comment from on of the Sasquatch "You didn't tell me this one knows the old ways". The other comments "Unexpected. Was the dog supposed to come with his master?". The Dracon is irritated and comments for the Sasquatch to use their words and stop keeping secrets, he has more important things to do. The Sasquatch tell my Wolfbrother, "Welcome. We have heard that you wanted to speak with us. This is your opportunity to do so. What is it that you want". They look at him and my wolfbrother is lost in the moment and just giggles. The Sasquatch looks confused. At this point I interject "If I may honorable one, we thank you for seeing us. However I do not know If you realize, but contact with the greys sometimes scrambles our thoughts. My wolfbrother hear seems to be suffering the side affect at this moment". They look at me and are about to communicate when the Dracon interrupts, "Know your place dog. You were not addressed." He looks at me oddly and then to the tall white and the greys. "I know this one. What is he doing here. He was claimed by our long ago. Why is your mark upon him". The tall white and the greys look at him. I keep my face to the grass as best as possible, one of the greys are trying to "zonk" me out by staring. The Dracon and White are having a discussion. The Sasquatch looks at the grey and says "None of that now". The grey looks to the white, but he is pre-occupied with the irritated grey. The Dracon storms off. The White looks at the Sasquatch. "It seems we cannot go any further. You speak the truth and explains why you don't respond. Tell your master dog what has happened. It is funny that a dog can speak so very well. You are a good boy and you know your place well". He pats me on the head and the two Sasquatch walk off. The Tall white summon the other pilots and tells them to take us back, He also wants to know why I was bought along. They communicate "Same-Same". He looks at us.... and looks back at the greys. "Not Same-Same. That one can hear and see, he is defective". I get up and we walk back to the ship and we are taken home. 

Days with out Sleep and some new dreams

Date: 8/17/2024
Type: Dream
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 1:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 10:00pm
State of Mind Before: Tired
State of Mind After: Me (Tired), Wolfbrother (Confused), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: Wolfbrother Seeing things, Unusually sleepy
Odd occurrences after: CPTSD Incident a few days before.

It has been about a week since the last incident and I finally fell asleep about a day and a half ago. I also conked out most of the day on Friday, yet still fell asleep again as my body recovers. Luckily for those instance of deep sleep no weird dreams.

However there was a series of short dreams that have some concerns....

Dream 1

I am  in a hotel, it nice moderately price with a large comfortable bedroom, king-sized bed, short grey carpet, windows drown with beige curtains, wood panel walls, AC was on, there was a SMART IV which was off...a chair and end table by the TV which was on a stand...there was a set of clothes on the chair. No bathroom or closets....just a bedroom. I think to my self as I sit on the bed, I know they are watching. I do not want to sleep, I need to find somewhere safe. I wish I had a guy with me. Why am I alone.

Dream 2

I am being interrogate by a government agent. Small white room we are at a table. I am sitting across from him. Everything is white in this room, table, chair, wall, and ceiling. No light source. He is wearing a dark suit and sunglasses. He look to be a tall slim male man with receding hair line, black hair. He is asking about the plateaus, he wants to know their location. He says that I drew them on a map, but they are not in this area. He wants to know about the beings that live there that I have mentioned. I stare at him with some confusion, but realize he is talking about the "Other Los Angeles". I just tell him "Plateaus become foothills, they were in Montebello....but not anymore. It is neither here nor there". He became irritated as he insisted I have full memories about this region, but they are unable to locate it. Again I reply with sarcasm "You should know something about geography and geology. If you have access to my memory you know when it is'". He continued to try to question, but I refuse to cooperate any further.

Dream 3

My wolfbrother and three other guys were working in paranormal investigations. We seemed to make a great team, and I recall we have had several great investigations from bigfoot to ghosts. We are really close to the other team members and are like family. However as we are just hanging out, "They show Up" and demand that my Wolfbrother is coming with him. However they walk up to me. My wolfbrother and I are confused. My Wolfbrother asks, "You mean Me?". They look at him and say "No, you are that fat one. You are not wanted." I tell my friend to take my wolfbrother and go. "They" look at me and are preparing to take me, but I began attacking by throwing on out the window. They finally realize their mistake and I tell them to leave and never...never come back. I am tried of this. They attempt to subdue me, so I start to run. I am in an unfamiliar hallway. I pick a random door and there is a room full of asian children. They all look at me and them seem to be having a birthday party. I help out serving Cake and Ice Cream, as well as help them set up games. They are glad I was there, and when they are packing up I try to go with them. However, despite showing them a good time..they give me a black jellybean. They say "You are unwanted and unloved, you know this. You have a purpose, but you will never find happiness, You are marked". 

Missing Important Dream The Cube and the Draconians

Date: 2016
Type: Dream
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: Unknown 
Attempted Time of Sleep: Unknown
State of Mind Before: Unknown
State of Mind After: Unknown
Odd occurrences before: Unknown
Odd occurrences after: Unknown

This is an account of a very weird dream that I had. I cannot find record of it, and mostly like was deleted as it was very very far fetched. However there a certain elements which others have seen, and I am not sure as to what to classify this as

Dream

This took place in the at a futuristic military base. The buildings were glass pyramids, and served as barracks and administrative hubs. We were stationed there, and I was very happy and looking forward to see my husband. I have been way on a mission "Administrative/Diplomatic". The military base was situated in a valley with low dry scrub foothills, with the building lined along the edge...10 in total. Some of the building connected underground. There was a single cement road in front of the building border by a large trip of freshly trimmed grass and some tree. Was all very pleasant. As we arrived on the land platform via a sphere I was so excited to be with my husband once more. The other soldiers were doing drills, and some of them quickly saluted me as I rushed to my home. I took several flight up to the third level and ran to our quarters.

Our quarters was nicely furnished and sparse, essentials such as a kitchen and open living room, with a library and office, and our bedroom between them. My husband was not here. The thing I noted that the furniture was made for someone taller, I should know that and did not think that it was odd. I just haven't been home in quite a while. I went to the bedroom and bathroom to freshen up. Then went to the desk and let his office know I was home, and hope to meet him soon. As I sat down to relax and watch the news, we were being attacked. Immediately the defensive windows went up and blocked the outside. I switched over to the live base feeds to monitor what was going on. We were being attacked by a series of bombers "sleek cylinder like ships dark in color" and accompanied fighters shooting our soldier with energy fire. Our soldiers were shooting back, then came the drop ships with infantry which began direct conflict. The soldier were reptilians, and their commanding officer were large dracons with a few of the priest-caste/wing commanders among them. Our troops launched energy grenades and had shield up as they attacked with plasma swords and some artillery. I grabbed my weapons and headed out, the emergency lights kicked in as our building was bombed as we lost the outer wall. I fell back and was uninjured. I made my way down and found a group of soldier and support their attacks. Apparently I could understand Dracon and was communicating their movements to them... monitoring their squad attacks so we could retaliate. We were losing.... and being overwhelmed. There was not blood loss among the casualties but some dismembered parts and blast wounds. One of the soldiers in the squad said that their was an SOS coming from my building on the third floor and it was my husband. The commander of the squad said we needed to go there immediately and fought our way up to the third floor. We lost half of the unit getting there and the building was in shambles. A Winged Dracon held a gun to my husbands head, demanding my surrender. The quad looked at me to translate and wondered why I was a target. The Winged Dracon said he would kill me husband. The Winged Dracon had my husband stand up, they were both 7ft tall. The squad had point with all riffles aimed at them. I told me to surrender and order the squad to put down their riffles, they had already lost and were just dead men walking. I repeated what he said..... the squad commander was not happy and ask my husband what are his orders. My husband looked at my and smiled..a flood of all of our moments together assaulted my mind...all my happy memories and why were together. Why he chose me and why he would come find me again. Death would not separate us. Before I could do anything the squad commander fired at the Dracon and hand a grenade to my husband who attempted to blow them up. At the same time a ship strafed the building and fired collapsing our floor. I managed to activate my personal shield surviving the fall. As the dust settled and tear in my eyes, I began searching for my husband. The squad was dead.... no survivors. The Dracon was uninjured and got up and lunged at me. I tried to fight back and went up what was left of a stairwell to the second floor. It told me I have no where to run. Look around you have lost. You will come with me. I drew my gun and shot myself in the head.

I would soon wake up aboard a Dracon ship on a metal table. The light was in a deep shade of red, and it was very warm and humid. My head hurt and I was shackled. I tried to break myself loose. Was not going to happen. I was still in my clothes at least, and my bookbag was in the corner. After sometime the Winged Dracon came in and was glad I was awake. It told me "You should know better you can die on us. You are not like the rest of them. We can always have access to one of you. You can always try to jump, but I assure we will find you.. It was very fortunate that I found you and not them. Come I want to show you something." It unshackled my restraints and motioned to get my bag and follow him. He was 7feet tall, dark scaled Winged Dracon with small horns.He carried a large sword and was dressed in red scaled armor with some red cloth accents. He also had gold bracelets and gold two rings on his right hand. The hallways was just as oppressive as the room, bathed in a dark red light and humid. Their was a burnt smell in the air as well. He lead me to another room that had a control panel, two chambers with pipes and cables that ran to it as well as black cube. I asked what is this place. He told me it was a soul transferring station, the black cube allowed for the accusation of soul energy which could be repurposed. He pressed a button and two grey were escorted in by a pair of lessor dracons, they were upset and not happy with the situation. They were put into the left chamber and sealed in, visible through a glass panel. He then motioned my attention to the right chamber in which two human bodies were laying unconscious on the floor. The greys began to panic and he operated the control panel. The hum began and energy was being drawn out and into the cube. The greys began to beat the glass panel as they were instantly killed, there bodies evaporating into energy and then quickly transferred to the cube and processed then diverted to the human bodies. The humans began to get up and seem surprised and confused, but were acting like greys. The Winged Dracon looked at me and said "Emissary and Walker between Worlds, as you see we have the cube. It can transfer and distribute what you call the soul amongst things. Something very rare that we found and finally activated after so many centuries." I looked at him with anger...he hurt me...he killed my husband "What do you want. You made an effort to draw me out. What do you want damn it". He looked at an smiled with his teeth "He will find you. He always does, sadly he doesn't always remember. I want you to let them know the conflict is over. I have the means to infiltrate and have my servants walk among you. The war is lost and I want you specifically to negotiate the terms of surrender. This should be a humiliation to you as we strip to what you have helped built. You all will serve under our empire, and you will know your place. Their is no freedom and have been lied to by them. Under our rule you will prosper in our image."

I look at him and fiddle with my bag. "You know that I am a rabbit. Not only am I the Walker between Worlds, but also a Finder of the Moment"... I reach in to my bag and pull out an orb with a little red energy creature inside cooing softly. The Winged Dracon's eyes flare and his wings twitch...in excitement he says "Where did you get that ancient, all were lost, and are worth for more than the cube here. This would seat me as the ultimate power". It looked at the humans who had greys in them and activated the console. They instantly were burned to death. He looked at me and said "No witnesses. What I give for my hour of ascension is my choice alone. By the old tradition I offer to trade this cube for what you have. Damn the Empire, for the power of what you hold is far greater and we wont need you. Do we have an accord Walker of Worlds". It locked eyes with me. "We have played at this before. How many times? Again and Again...I am tried of this"...I smirked at him. "Fine we have an accord High Priest, you give me the cube to secure away and you get this". He quickly went to the cube and unlocked it from its place in the machine and put it on the console. He tapped his talon hand on the console waiting for me. I whispered to the little creature and hand it over to him and took the cube and place it in my bag. He held the orb in his hands and exclaimed "With this power no one shall stand in my way. Not even your Council. The Empire will bow to me as I will be the GOD among them." The orb then began ticking and the creature started to vibrate and pulsate. It looked at me and yelled "We had an accord. You tricked me!!!!!" as he began to become overwhelm with energy.... I just said "Never said I'd give you the containment field." With that he and the ship disintegrated in a cascade of energy as I slipped between world. My last thought was that of my husband.

Odd Dream of Something to come

Date: 8/23/2024
Type: Dream
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: N/A
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:15am
State of Mind Before: Tired
State of Mind After: Me (Tired), Wolfbrother (Confused), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: Wolfbrother Seeing things, Unusually sleepy
Odd occurrences after: 8/23/2024 Afternoon Doorbell Aunt Only 8/24/2024 Morning Doorbell Me only. Aunt is seeing worms again.

As mentioned there an incident earlier this month. It has bothered me to the point were I have decided to seek help with Yvonne. I been having some weird dreams, with Wolfbrother confirming some unusual activity. One such instance was our dreams being observed by someone in which we were part of some challenge. We were working together, but I was getting frustrated that he was slowing me and not allowing me to accomplish the task at hand. I was willing st stay with him, but he had to let me do my job and stop questioning me every five minutes. I also got an intrusive thought from "S.G", it is a military guy I met briefly..... he was kinda of in the same boat as me. He wanted me to get a message to Yvonne. I though it really silly as I don't believe in channeling, plus why me? I said we will see and felt bad, as he was worried about his daughters and son, I told him, last I know they moved back to **** and that his wife really didn't want to communicate with Yvonne. If you need to say something go ahead. I do respect you and see you as a professional S.G.

Dream 1
I was at a university of some sort, as many of my past classmates from elementary
to college were present in the background. The odd thing was they were all age appropriate
as young adults. I walked toward an area which seemed to be lounge area with two large
tables and provisions behind me. I sat down and began to read my book and take notes on a
few thoughts I had on vibration levels. A group of male friends (mixed) came to the table
and sat down. They were goofing around and one of them ordered me to prepare them some drinks
and snacks. I got up and began doing so without question because I knew them. As I was
finishing they got up and left, laughing that they got me to do it. I just put some of it down
and went back to my studies.
To my right the other table was occupied by some of the popular girls. White and blonde
haired, no one I knew and were generic "Barbies". Their spokesperson looked at me and said
to the others " He is always so selfless, helping others, caring, and being ever so
thoughtful. He is so powerful and yet he chooses to serve others. It such a shame
that they are so mean to him all the time." At this time I looked directly at her and
she continued addressing her peers "If only they knew who he is, they would dare not
ask or treat him this way." She know stares at me "If only he were with us once more. We
would honor him and appreciate him. We know what he can do. He would have all that he wants
and more. I know you hear us Michael Arellano, MAKE YOUR CHOICE."

Dream 2
I transition to another place that was a department store, but was an administrative
office as with open desk areas. They were many people they were interviewing, looking
for qualified individuals for some project that is fast approaching. The place made me
think of AT&T/Kaiser Permanente. I didn't want to be here and was observing the layout
of the place, looking at the paperwork on the desks, and computer screens. Like everyone
they were processing, they were treating me as if I was an idiot. However, they seemed
just as lost. As she was making a despairing remark about me, I said "I worked her before.
Check my file". My name is *********. She was extremely confused, she said "You shouldn't
be talking". I stated once again "Check my file". These people did not know what they were
doing. The catalogues and forms were all wrong. Once she verified my name and looked at my
file she was in distress. "There is some kind of mistake. YOU....You are not supposed be
here. You know why...... leave now". She was terrified. Meekly she said "We know what you
can do. Just go..."  

Dream 3
I must have got up an left, because I am outside of that department store in a huge parking
lot. No cars. Just the department store behind me and in the corner is a large building like
a bank. Two floors, outer walls were dark glass windows, with a white roof, and cement pillars.
The who area was outlined by green trees and a very pale blue clear sky. I walked to
the building and looked inside. There was an event going on of some sort, and I recognized the
people there as members of CERO. A meeting was being held and they were setting things up.
As people began coming in, many were upset and agitated as they have been "Awakened".
From what I was overhearing many found out they had double lives. Many hold positions in the
the military, academic, and government community. They are confused as why they are civilians
and yet have important positions. Yvonne was be swarmed by many members, trying to get her
attention and looking for answers. As I was standing a man walked into the building who
I did not recognize. He was 6'3, in his thirties, bald, african descent on the dark shade
side. He wore a grey suits, black formal shoes, and wore glasses. He looked like Mr. Moon
from Doctor Who (AI construct that maintained a planet sized library and saved human from
an invasion from a species who did not understand us).
He was a visitor and looked to ask if he was in the right place, but Yvonne was busy. I told
him "Hello. This is a CERO meeting of some sort. I don't know what is going on today. CERO
by the was stands for Close Encounter Research Organization." He looked at me and then looked
at Yvonne who repeated what CERO meant. He seemed to ponder something and asked if the was
about extraterrestrials and UFOs. Yvonne and I replied "Yes". He then went back stage.

I started to take note of the interior of the building. The carpet was a dark navy blue
and had standard auditorium meeting chairs with black leather seating and backing. The
chairs were set up 30 wide with 6 rows, about 180 seats. People were beginning to take
seats and I took a seat by the frot row at the edge. One man, white male in his forties yet
seems older, was really irate.... he was screaming "I did not agree to this. Don't you people
know who I am. Why would I want to some mundane civilian life. I am someone of great
importance. The wife and kids I have are not mine! This life is fake!". Yvonne tries to
address the room and calm him down. "I know everyone has question. If you just settle down
I will share with you in a moment as to what is going on". She looks at the guy and he
begins to calm down as she tells him, "We are going to need your energy" while motioning to
the crowd and focuses on him "and your leadership backstage. You are a part of this. Yet if
you want to leave, go ahead". Yvonne addressing the crowd "I have a video that has some
answers". At that point a screen lowers and a video with Yvonne begins to play explaining
are part in things to come and what is going on with the awakened".

CPTSD Triggered by minor Incident

Date: 8/12/2024
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 8:00pm to 8:30pm
Attempted Time of Sleep: 7:45pm
State of Mind Before: Tired
State of Mind After: Me (CPTSD Trigger), Wolfbrother (Confused), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: Wolfbrother Seeing things, Unusually sleepy
Odd occurrences after: Unable to sleep for 48 hours

Over the past two months there has been some odd dreams, but nothing too unusual. Most of the activity compared to the past has been slight. My main focus has been taken care of my aunt and wolfbrother, and per-occupied with them which leaves me most of the time too tired to care. My responsibilities with my wolfbrother have been a point of contention, as he is causing a disruption to my limited sleep and recover scheduled. Every once in a while I do need to step back and rest or refresh with some alone and downtime by escaping. However, I do not like alone time where I retreat to our auxiliary unit as I fear I will be targeted. Most of the time there is no apprehension, but the past weeks I really do not want to be there. Besides the odd apprehension, my interests in my own activities have waned and not that I have a weird feeling of ambivalence overall. It is as if I am worried about something, I am hearing and seeing things...but intentionally ignoring it..yet aware of it. I do not feel well, but I have responsibilities and just continue on.

Today's incident was unexpected and unusual. Our overall day began as appointment with his doctor. We got some food, came home watched a movie, and took a nap. Since it is summer and hot, we have been sleeping during the day and active more at night. So when we finally got home he/we relaxed and watched a movie. I was not interested and was oddly tired. I lay down as he watched the movie. Tossing and turning, just laying there... I was being told to sleep.... but I didn't want.... and it was not reasonable for me to leave....though I should...but I shouldn't cause of the heat.... so I am told I need to SLEEP. When the movie was over I tried to get up and play a game to relax so I could process the request and sleep. However I wasn't allowed to do that as the string urge to sleep kept coming and body was shutting down. I let my wolfbrother know and we took a nap.

Dream 1

I soon found myself dreaming. However, I felt strangely lucid. It was Christmas time and I was over my evil aunt's house. No one was there except for myself and her. I didn't want to be here, especially dealing with her. As I started to walk to the door to leave she attacked me. I quickly defend myself and realized this is really not what I expected. She was growling and drooling. For some reason I saw this as some sort of demonic possession, and immediately started to exorcise her. I battled back and held her against the couch, I started to recite an exorcism ritual and tried to get through to her. I tried to remove the demon from her body. I tried to reach her as a person....

Dream 2

The scene shifted. I was walking in an abandon downtown area of a city with very high buildings. There were two female blonde nurses in white 60's gown stabbed on the street in front of an abandoned school. Young blonde girls in grey smocks were examining the area and doing forensics on how the nurses died. Six of them in total, with tiny brushes sweeping the crime scene. They looked at me, yet continued to do there odd work. There was a young boy with a board running a scam, all you to do was pick the highest black number. If you were correct you win a prize and someone dies. He kept telling me it was my turn and I had play now. I didn't want to, and he said it would be worse if I refused. So I said fine and went over to one of the girls and told here to pick the black circle that was at the bottom. He was upset, as all the high black numbers were hidden within the black circle. Since I didn't technically pick the numbers, we were all free to go.

 Dream 3

Apparently Wolfbrother had been with me before and I was pushing him on our journey. The abandoned downtown area opened up into a more populated and cleaner area. There were lots of activity with people moving about. We passed a pyramid that looked like a car wash. The carpets here were wet, and the manager came out to yell at us about tracking water all of the place in his wheelchair. We got the carpets dirty too and then he realized that I was with Wolfbrother. He became very irritate saying that "Why are you still with him and you shouldn't be here". It was a short very looking man that was off. I was already upset and told him "I am he who is like he who is like he who is like he who is like he....." and he began to panic. I banished him somewhere and told Wolfbrother we need to go. The other employees at the car wash were happy I got rid of the manager and wanted us to go to the theatere next to "fix" things there. I told them not right now and tried to head home. For some reason we went to a high rise, went through the lobby and to the elevators to get to floor 24 where Wolfbrother's apartment was, however it was a large area about 40ft by 60f't with windows all around. There was a grey carpet, no furniture, could not see outside windows. Wolfbrother was left in elevator. Soon the entire floor titled and I feel face down. I soon realized that this was not a dream  and began to panic. I made this odd statement "Remember your training, you know how to deal with these stressors. Rationalize what is going on and complete your task. Complete the mission. You cannot let them win."

Dream 4

I wake up in my room. It is bright. The room seems off as basic furniture is place where it should be, but none of the decorative of accent items are there. There is a little puppy that runs up to me and is scarred. I ask whats wrong and hold it close to my chest. There is a weird signal noise and I look immediate to the bedroom door and try to get up. Some one says "They are here [my name]." and the door opens. The hallway is off and brightly light, I can see the floor color is there but not the tile... the rose color wall is there but the hallways is blocked off halfway by some weird pinkish membrane. From behind me, two beings lift me up on either side and one behind me pushes me forward. We head toward the bathroom. They are wearing dark brown robes. I know who there are and begin singing/chanting to fend them off. As we enter the bathroom its all fractal mirrors, I can see them clearly and myself in the reflections. We are going up in a spiral, about two rotations up before there is interference from the waking world via my Wolfbrother.

Real World...

Apparently I woke up Ryan, was making a lot of noise. He was worried because he saw something in the room, but did not want to wake me up. However when I started chanting/singing/thrumming.... he threw RDE at me to bonk me awake. On my end...I felt it and quickly fell out of the corridor that they were taking me up. They looked back as I feel away from them. I had my left eye open and my right eye closed. I knew I was in my room with my Wolfbrother, but was unable to open my right eye as I was in two places at once. I was also getting feedback with my left eye..... I could still see the fractal corridor and them fading up into the distance. Also there was a bit of the arrival location from them as I started to pick up on one of their perspectives. They arrived on a railed circle platform within a dimly lit room. The rail around the circle was a smooth stainless steel, broken by three entry ways. Two walked out to a nearby console. The other stood in the center and though "Need to re-establish connection". During the ascent there was communication "Your brother. If we lose you. We have that".

Personal Note: For some odd reason this particular event has bothered me greatly. I was unable to go back to sleep. It started to bring up questions about my paternal visitations and earliest abductions. Why are there so little memories with my paternal visits? I have less than 20 memories.... I know the first two official incidents is with him.... in Irwindale and Santa Fe Dam.... there is a third incident possibly during the kidnapping "CA/AZ/NM/TX" were fireworks were following us during the day while driving in the mountains. My interest in doing anything is gone. I do not want to sleep but I have too...I do not feel well. I am unable to turn off. Something is wrong. After I hit the 35hour mark I am really worried, as I know I should feel tired....but I can't turn off to sleep. I am meditating to make sure my body is functional, but again now usual interest. I need to keep my responsibilities in taking care of my aunt and wolfbrother, 48 hour mark comes and still cannot sleep.... at 66 mark finally fall asleep for 4 hours. Over the next couple of days gradually returns to normal. Highly bothered.

  

Grandmother and Some Dreams

Date: 7/5/2024 to 7/20/2024
Type: CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:00am to 6:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 3:30am to 4:00am
State of Mind Before: Stressed, Depressed
State of Mind After: Tired (Me), Wolfbrother (Upset), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: Wolfbrother Contact and Sightings
Odd occurrences after: Audio "Name Called"

The level of activity varies from time to time. My personal activity unless it is really obvious CE4 stuff are series of CE5 dream intrusions. My Wolfbrother who lives with me has CE4/CE5 level on contact and interference. The main difference between myself and my Wolfbrother is that he initially wants to talk to them and make deals, while observe and resist.

With my Wolfbrother, he claims that they come into the room and look at him. They run by the bed or they appear in the doorways looking in. They communicate at times asking him stupid questions and instigating bad feeling between him and I. They have accused me and tried to convince him that I intend to hurt him, and he needs to strike back "again". This group tries to confuse him a lot, telling him false narratives of his past as well as trying to convince him that they are an authority figure and knows what is best for him. He does communicate this to me, and I try to let him know to not listen and compare things of what they show him and say. Most of the time they do make errors by generalizing things and not accurately portraying stuff... attention to detail is missed...as things are off or illogical. From time to time I do feel a presence before he says something or I do note odd flashes in the room that have no source. So something is happening on his end.

As for myself the high level of activity has decreased from what it was, and it is mostly check ins or feedback when they are in the area. To remind people of what "feedback" I am aware of their presence and can tune in on their activity. Either watching the POV of one or more of them as they walk around and do there stuff, or can hear the overall chatter and instructions. I assume they are within the area, as far as distance I have no idea when this kicks in....but it is not intentional on their end. The odd thing though that they do seem to do is "Dream Intrusion".  Meaning that you can be having a normal dream and they show up in it, as in outplace or an oddly specific theme and tone change take over. I know everyone has there own level of dreaming from lucid to placid, some people can read while other are just observers with no control. These two were interactive and highly lucid in the end where they "intruded".

Dream 1

There was a recent power outage around Fourth of July in my area that influenced this dream. As in the dream the power went out and as usual I go to check on my aunt and get candles/lantern for her so she wouldn't be in the dark. This felt more like a memory reply, and I was aware of it just going through the motions. However when I was walking back to my room, my grandmother was on the floor asking for help (my grandmother passed away in 2000). Without hesitation I went to her to help her up, I asked her what was wrong and she spoke in Spanish saying "They were here. They are in the house. They dragged me out of the room and through me on the floor. What is going on?" I told her "Don't worry. I am here now. Let me help you up and get you to your room. Are you hurt, is everything ok." and I looked her over to make sure she wasn't bruised or bleeding since we have a tile floor in the hallway now. Again she said "They are here. They are watching you. Why is he here? He is so mean to you. You need to be careful, I know you are not happy". I explained to her ignoring the alien reference "He is here because he needs me. He needs help. I am never going to be happy or get what I want. I am doing what is right". The dream intrusion ends there. As I am now fully wake on the floor, I am stressed. Why in the heck would I have dream this? Okay... why the alien references. I dislike having ANY dreams with family members (good or bad standing), with my grandma who is in good standing I don't like that I found her in a state of discomfort (one that had never happened, so that was not a memory). Also the urgency of her warning about "them" and the asking about my "wolfbrother" irked me.

Dream 2

A recurring theme in my dreams of this house is that the "large room" has something wrong with it. In my dreams the room that I slept in while I was younger has been remembered in my dreams as "Super Creepy". The electricity won't work to turn on the lights sometimes, there is a heavy prescience in the room, you don't want to go in, the door opens and closes at times, the windows open and closes on it own, and furniture gets tossed around. In the real world....many of my teenage abductions happened there....and there is some odd activity in there as far as the door opening and closing on it own. In the real world, guest have seen weird shadows from time to time. This time in the dream I am again, for some reason, sleeping in the room again, I am apprehensive since I know this is bad. I check the windows to make sure they are locked and closed, and that the curtains cannot be moved so no one can see in. I look around the room to make sure everything is in its place. The computer monitor, TV, lights and lamps, clear space, and closet doors are closed. I do not want to sleep there. I lay on the bed, but I force myself to stay awake. As I sit there, my aunt and grandma scream. I check on my aunt and she seems okay and tells me to check on my grandmother. I go to her room and she is crying in the bed as if waking up from a horrible nightmare. Again she speaks in Spanish to me "Why are they here. What do they want. They mentioned you. Why are you important to them?". I tried to console her and tell her that she is okay. I explain to her that they always come since i was little, that grandpa saw then, my aunt and mom saw them. You just don't want to accept that they are aliens, you keep things angels or demons. They are not ghosts, but physical beings who have harmed me. I also explain again about my wolfbrother and why he is here. He needs me and he is my family. At this point I hear a loud bang and run to my aunt's room and she is okay. The door to my old room slammed shut and the light go out in the hallway. They are here, in the room. I don't want to go in, but I charge the door and make my way into the room. The light is on, but the whole room is overturned and disarrayed. The window is open and the drapes open. I know this is not good. I wake up very upset. Again, why is my grandmother appearing in my dream. Again... why is she asking about the Aliens and why am I explaining...AGAIN.. about my situation with my wolfbrother.

Solstice Happenings and Activity

Date: 6/14/2024 and 6/15/2024
Type: CE3,CE 4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:00am/10:30pm/5:30am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:30 (Me)
State of Mind Before: Stressed, Depressed
State of Mind After: Bothered (Wolfbrother), Upset (Me), Scarred (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Odd Knocking on the Walls, Hearing their Presence.
Odd occurrences after: Nausea and Headache (Me)

So far the activity has been relatively light overall. Most of the activity is focused around my wolfbrother and usually cannot be confirmed. As mentioned my wolfbrother does has been afflicted with an unknown psychosis in which lead to the accident and the problems we have had in his recovery. His behavior during our entire relationship has been one of CE5 mentality, attempting to work and bargain with these beings.

Early Friday morning after I made my rounds and put them to bed, I secluded myself in our auxiliary space. Wolfbrother antics do not allow me restful sleep, and I am on edge. I know that they have been monitoring me and keeping quiet. I can sense their presence and I do my best to keep it out of mind, trying to keep occupied between my duties as a caregiver and my hobbies. I do not want to sleep. Deep down I am scared and depressed, I just do not show it nor deal with it since I have two other people to care for. I accept the way things are; I am not loved, nor worthy of love, I am broken, THEY will always be watching, and no one finds value in me....I am just a useful tool for those I serve. I do want to end my life, but I have duties and responsibilities that come before me. So far when I seclude I been trying to get my mind off thing by watching Letterkenny.

At this time around 2:00am, I have a feeling they are around while I am watching my show. I ignore, despite hearing a odd knock on the wall outside. The door outside moved. Again I did my best to ignore.

My aunt claims that a tall entity walked into to her room, looked at her and checked out the room quickly and walked out. She tried calling me, but I was out of range. Wolfbrother does not recall any yelling or unusual activity.

 

Friday night after he went out to smoke, my wolfbrother was relaxing and listen to music in the back. He calls me saying that they are on the neighbors roof and a tall white is walking out back. I go out and I do not see anything, but I do detect a weird pressence in the sense my hair is up and I feel funny in the head. I explain since I do not see anything, I cannot confirm his experience...but something seems off. He says they are watching us. I taking him in and resume my duties, making sure they go to bed. Again I go and seclude myself and watch some TV. I am not bothered and concerned by the events, I am just depressed and and stressed with everyday life; inflation, illegal immigration, and idiotic policies going on.

 

It is getting late and it is after 4am, it should be safe and I get ready for sleep. I try to get comfortable and knock out right away, which should be a read flag....since the past few days I had trouble feeling comfortable.... and was "bothered". I have a very odd dream. I am in my room, but my grandmother was there. She was asking why and how come my wolfbrother is occupying my room and why am I caring for him. I explain the situation. She then comments on how tired I look, worn, and that I should make sure I am okay. I reassure here that I am doing the best I can, but there is no one to step in...and there is no help. I am alone. I start to feel bad, as I know no loves me and I would never be able to have a normal relationship with someone because I am defective and that I have THIS issue. I tell her I have things to do and start working on my computer files to make myself feel better. We started have a discussion about UFO's on how they seem bigger on the inside and why a sphere is used. As the gravity of the craft is on the interior of the walls with the main engine and power source is at the center. I mentioned to that FTL travel is achieved by manipulating gravity and transitioning to 2D. That its is a matter of perspective as a 3D environment can exist with a 2D space, just as we can see a 4D object in 3D space. With It is getting late and I go check on my aunt. She is in her room reading her book. There is something off with her room as the furniture was moved around to original position, no window, and wrong dog with her. She says "I am reading. You can go away. I do not need anything". I just say "ok" and leave. As I walk out I notice that the other bedroom there is a bright light in there, and know what that is. From under the door crack I can see an elongated toe with a dark claw (this is not typical at all). I attempt to leave, but their is a weird magnetic force emanating from the door. I feel week and unable to move, but I am fighting it...I yell for my grandmother to come and pull me past the threshold of the bathroom. She asks whats going on and I tell her "They are here", I even mention that there is an odd force present. I put my key on the floor and they are pulled down the hall. I say we need to arm ourselves... she goes into the kitchen. As I look back the door open and it comes out and walks into my aunt's room. She screams. I tell my grandmother to get a knife, it is coming. It walks out quickly from her room and toward the kitchen. I run toward the kitchen to arm myself, my grandmother is not present. It is standing at the threshold of the laundry room were the kitchen is and looks at me. It is attempting to make me submit by staring at me. My mind starts to get fuzzy and I feel that I am gonna turn off.  I say "No. Not playing this game", and I begin to blur the image and thoughts all white. I feel as if I cam going to throw up too. An odd mental broadcast from it was being repeated in the background "New Format. New Format. New Format. New Format"... and I was keenly aware what I was seeing was not the usual, it was disguising itself. The being was tall and gangly, approximate 6'8", the arms were bent as if the space was too small for it and it had very long fingers. It was almond shape in color, but the head was small with deep eyessockets and black orbs inside. It reminded me of a cross between the depiction of "The Silence" and "Alien 4" xenomorph-hybrid. It was set on making fall asleep. 

As mentioned I was getting mentally attacked and was attempting to "white out" the situation. I woke up talking and fully aware of transitioning. I wanted to vomit and felt dazed. I quickly looked at my phone, and it was 5:30am. I stated to write down everything, when I was done ironically Wolfbrother called me in around 6:45am. I let him know what had happened, and that I did not feel well nor that I wanted to live. It was bothering me a lot... which usually does not happen. I just asked him to allow me some rest and stayed with him. When we woke up later I was able to resume my duties,