My Wolfbrother used to tell me that the universe is always speaking to us. As a rabbit and a wolf I know this by sniffing the wind and keeping my ears up. I do see sign but I mostly catalogue and just observe. However there is a thing with songs and my life... the year I met my Wolfbrother this spoke so true.
"I had a dream so big and loud
I jumped so high I touched the clouds
Wo-o-o-o-o-oh, wo-o-o-o-o-oh"
The lyric here speaks of me an my wolfbrother's ambition and interests. Both of us are capable of realizing things no matter how far reaching and ethereal. We do not have are feet always on the ground and we are "touched" so to speak in many ways. Especially by "them", it's like Michaelangelo's painting on the Sistine Chapel where Adan and God touch.
"I stretched my hands out to the sky
We danced with monsters through the night
Wo-o-o-o-o-oh, wo-o-o-o-o-oh"
These lyrics talk to me on who we do call upon powers up above. The experience we have are monsters who we do mingle with in complicated movements at night. We do see things from the sky which are monsters.
"I'm never gonna look back
Woah, never gonna give it up"
Both of us are tenacious, and move forward. Although I may record the past I will always move forward. Advancing and burning what bridges that were. At least for me, why look back when I took it with me forward?
"No, please don't wake me now"
Something about my wolfbrother being the the Prince of Lullaby. We see so much in the land of dreams.
Also we don't like to be disturbed, once we are tasked we like to fufill it.
"This is gonna be the best day of my life
My li-i-i-i-i-ife
This is gonna be the best day of my life
My li-i-i-i-i-ife"
The two in resonance. My wolfbrother and I repeating our mantra of independence and positivity. It is our life, not theirs/
"I howled at the moon with friends
And then the sun came crashing in
Wo-o-o-o-o-oh, wo-o-o-o-o-oh"
My wolfbrother. My Wolfbrother. Who else would sing with me under our time? Together we call liked to us. The things with sun is what causes the trouble.... the Sun represents "THEM" and "FALSE LIGHT CHRISTIAN POWERS"
"But all the possibilities
No limits just epiphanies
Wo-o-o-o-o-oh, wo-o-o-o-o-oh"
We can see it, the variations. We come to a series of understandings and realizations. This is but one of infinite possibilities.
(Chorus)
"I hear it calling outside my window
I feel it in my soul (soul)"
This again regard to "Them" and "Their" shenanigans. We are both being manipulated and called out.
Their is an element that does deal with our souls. It is at our cores.
"The stars were burning so bright
The sun was out 'til midnight"
I feel this clearly speaks to them again. What other sun would be out till midnight? These are no stars and there is more than one.
"I say we lose control (control)"
Wolfbrother speaking, but it resonates my point as making it a double negative. He wants chaos, I want order. Throw caution to the wind, I need to plan. I don't hear this as an echoing, but someone trying to not loose control... cautioning that we need control.
"This is gonna be the best day of my life
My li-i-i-i-i-ife
This is gonna be the best day of my life
My li-i-i-i-i-ife"
Our affirmation again.
"This is gonna be, this is gonna be, this is gonna be
The best day of my life
Everything is looking up, everybody up now
This is gonna be the best day of my life
My li-i-i-i-i-ife"
Say it times three and it shall be...a habit my wolfbrother got in. Also something different, it shows a disconnect. Where there was two, now only one because of "Ascension". Why blind ourselves by looking up, and why everyone standing up? Something is off.
Thursday, October 26, 2017
Tuesday, October 24, 2017
Not your typical Rick and Morty
Type: Dream, CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 9:00 am - 10:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 6:30am
State of Mind Before: Very Depressed, In Pain, Analytical (Me)/In Pain, Anxious (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Very, Very Depressed, bothered (Me)/Very Sad (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Kidney Issues, Wolf Brother is Back...sort of??? Previous Night
Odd occurrences after: Kidney Issues, Wound on right ankle bad....
Segment 1
I got lured into a cage, "somethings" told me to go in and trust them. It was a door and I don't think there was an conscious decision in the matter on my part, it seemed like a likely explanation after the fact to make it seem "like I have a choice". They told me it is a recreation of
my home and I could do what I would like with the room. They were giving me the impression that my mother wanted me with her. It was a poor assumption on their part, as they were using an ineffective method of persuasion. I just ignored it and played along with the interaction. However, this room was a recreation of the bedroom of my mother's old apartment. I really didn't not live here and this was not my home.
They had the furniture in the same place, but there was a really nice modern day TV with a gaming console. It was position on the other side of the
room, so my back would face the window. "Really???" I thought in my head as I got anxious as I know they had did this before. I become apprehensive as that is how they would get me, again. I just said "No, Thank You" and
left...... I popped out and went back home.
Segment Two
I was at a movie theater near the beach. There was a lot of hot guys around here. We needed sometime to ourselves. There was another version of "Wooden Rabbit" with me. He was very like me, but in his early
20's, more sociable and everything my Wolfbrother ideally wanted. However, his "Earth Dragon" was gone. From what he explained, a Wolfbrother came in an attempted to destroy that world and entire reality. It had come in and re-incorporated his Earth Dragon.
He was heart broken for many reasons, but could not believe what that Wolfbrother did. So much hate.
I tried to get him to check out some other guys at the theater and he only laughed it off, his heart only belonged to one individual. So I dropped it an we watched a movie. After the movie we finished our errands
and bought home some food, the other wanted "Pizza" again. The Wooden Rabbit was a great help to me, as I needed help in taking care of all the other Earth Dragons here.
For the past few months my home became a refuge for various
iterations of "Earth Dragon's" and their "Wooden Rabbits". Most of the Earth Dragon's had Wooden Rabbits, but their were a few Earth Dragon's who either lost their Wooden Rabbit's or haven't found them yet. Since things had gone haywire, some of them had contacted each other and were trying to avoid "Them" and one or more other "Earth Dragons".
I was trying to working with the other Wolfbrothers to help them out as best as we could. Each however had their own specific agenda and demanded much of my time in helping their Wooden Rabbit to help them. To make
things worse each were very territorial, dominant, and wouldn't share. It was a pissing contest most nights of who could do what, trying to one up each other and some claiming "they were the prime". Another night when went out to get pizza again they fought, because each could only have a slice and they each specifically wanted their pizza done the way they specifically wanted. It would have been easier just to get them all a double-double spread and onion only..... at least they could all agree on that....but when pizza came up...that was always voted first.
When the other Wooden Rabbit woke me up, we had found my home in shambles. The other Earth Dragon's got into a fight and left without as much as saying a world. Apparently I would "understand", from one crumpled note I found that was half-written and then tossed. I began to cry and the other Wooden Rabbit tried his best to cheer me up. We started to assess the situation and clean-up. I told him I was gonna call one of them, to see what happened and at least make sure they were safe. There was no way for me to get in touch with those Wolfbrothers. It would take time to reach out to the other Wooden Rabbits if I were to try.
I went to the living room and there was a lot of activity in the front. In the sky high above storm clouds were gathering, they were dark and very ominous. The wind was picking up, and lightning and rain begin to emanate from the clouds Helicopter began to slowly approach it to investigate the dark mass. Lightning flashed again and I saw the silhouette of a large dark being.
I instantly knew that was Nayr. It called out to me, but it just wasn't Nayr but two other voices echoing in unison. One of the helicopters got to close, and shined a spotlight
on Nayr. He was sooo beautiful, Nayr was an armored purple dragon-like creature, but
had some aspects of a dark panther. It naturally absorbed the light making it
it seem like a inky black mass with yellow eyes. It flew down quickly to my home and dropped of it's passenger and then
flew off into the distance. It breathed some darkl ight at the helicopters and
then threw a mace at
helicopter. The mace destroyed it, and then landed on my property without damaging it and returned to his tail. The mace seemed like a smokey solid projection. I was utterly amazed and impressed
The being who he had dropped off was all in shadow, it was
humanoid with various smokey whisp of shadow and darkness billowing off of it. It radiated a strong blue
and purple aura, with a green center hidden at its core. When they spoke in unison,
it was Nayr-Wooden Rabbit-Earth Dragon.
In whatever reality they came from they fused. The language it spoke was ancient and old, I could barely take the syntax and symbols they were using but eventually found a common point which I anchored on to.
It's word were;
-"Wooden Rabbit is one with Earth Dragon, and
Earth Dragon is one with Wooden Rabbit".
-Wooden Rabbit means "He who is
like Earth Dragon".
-Earth Dragon and Wooden Rabbit. Past-Present-Future. Always together, backwards and forwards, should not be apart.
In that reality, Earth Dragon let Wooden Rabbit go back home. He let Wooden Rabbit back into his heart were he always belonged. They were all one as it should be. I was just told don't give up, and it left.
It teleported the way I do, and once back with Nayr they left.
I went back into the house very confused, the other Wooden Rabbit asked what had happened outside.He sensed something really powerful, and thought for a second his Earth Dragon had escaped and came back for him. He could sense them so strongly, because those were so much like him and his Earth Dragon. but stayed inside
cleaning. I told him what occurred and he continued to help clean up. He also let me know a Earth Dragon and his Wooden Rabbit returned and were in the backyard. They
looked like they had been in a fight. That Earth Dragon asked if I was willing to help still. I could at least do is feed them and return them back to San
Diego (The Tea Vampire was waiting for them and James). I went outside and we talked.
This
Earth Dragon was into music, and we worked on some things. One was trying to convince him that fundamentals of musical theory were important. He
said he didn't have to because he was so awesome already and wanted to do the
advance stuff. He had natural talent and didn't need that stuff and could do it on his own.
His Wooden Rabbit
shook his head, telling him he had been trying to help his Ryan by getting him
the courses he needed, trying to teach him how to write music and what the various chords and octaves were for. They were losing money and have been living in a RV. That Wood Rabbit sacrificed everything and lost a lot of money in order to try to get his Earth Dragon dream
of becoming a success. As the funds dwindle tension arose, Earth Dragon blaming his Wooden Rabbit for setbacks and failure. What is worse, he was just gonna abandon him. That is when things got weird for them, that is when "they" came and all this supernatural and paranormal nonsense started. They just wanted to go home. That Wooden Rabbit looked very bad....I think it was about to self terminate.
Monday, October 23, 2017
Scarring Scenarios and Drawings
When I wandered into this chamber I thought these were stone cacti, they were moving so very slowly in a funny dance. As I think over they remind me of starfish, the skin and texture at least, and they had various number of appendages. The chamber was a dome with a pass and they seemed to be on desert rocks.
These beings recently showed up again, but en masses. The first time I only encountered one. The second time there were hundred of these creatures, in red and brown to greys and blues. They were very tribal and primitive and were worked up in a frenzy and wanted us. They were clawing and gnashing their teeth at us.
Sunday, October 22, 2017
Asian Coffee Go-ers
Date: October 22nd, 2017
Type: Dream, CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 8:00 am - 9:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 2:30am
State of Mind Before: Very Depressed, In Pain, Analytical (Me)/In Pain, Anxious (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Very, Very Depressed, bothered (Me)/Very Sad (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Kidney Issues, Activity but don't care
Odd occurrences after: Kidney Issues, Wound on right ankle
Segment 1:
We were on a bus, it was a combination of classmates and new individuals I now know. People were talking and conversing. It was not a typical bus, but a grey military type bus with bars and screens on the windows.
However it seemed to have the interior of a luxury bus....were it had cool air and nice seats. I was with my wolfbrother, but we were the versions I been holding on to all this time. I was 23 and he was about 10, we are blood related via his paternal side. The odd thing is we were on a road going through miles and miles of wheat or just grass. We finally were making a rest stop along the way at this military training facility. The three buses stopped as well as some other vehicles, such as escort dune buggy cars, jeeps, and trucks.
The people were a mixed crowd on the bus, males and females from college to upper elementary school.
We were told to get off and head to the cafeteria. We were separated into groups, my wolfbrother went with his friend and went off with others. I didn't like that we were told to split up. My wolfbrother didn't seem to mind as he was looking at everything and people were excited his group was here. After we ate at some point we were watching a movie, however I have to one of these place before and me and two of my friends wandered off. (The movie that was being shown what I will be doing in segment 3). They followed my lead and we began to take the secret passages in the facility, there were hidden doors and hall under stairs, closets, ladder, shelves, you name it. These halls lead to all sorts of fantastic location that was inconsistent with the environment we were in. Some where abandoned, some were full stuffed, and some were just waiting to be used. After a while the two guys with me got bored and wanted to go back to the original place we started. So I complied. It seems they missed some kind of coupling that occurred, because people were in the afterglow of intercourse.
The things is at this military base, from what I saw they were all staffed by these young, gorgeous looking men in their 20's. They were all extremely handsome, Caucasian, blond, tall and in shape. One of the guys started to flirt with me, said he was looking for me as I was assigned to him. He had no idea where I went, he did tell me that there was something off about me. I wasn't like the others and he appreciated that. Before we could talk more I heard my Wolfbrother scream. I told him I had to go, my Wolbrother needed me and I ran through the hallways. My Wolfbrother was taking on another one of these tall good looking guys, punching them and hitting. I intervened and he calmed down as I put myself in between both of them. One of them said, see this is the older one...they look the same though. I told my Wolfbrother to get his things and go back to the bus, people were leaving and I would settle this. He said he wouldn't but I told him it is important, he needs to be safe. He is my one and only concern.
I turned to the other two and told them I was a flute player. They seemed to take an innuendo from it, but I was holding a band flute in my hand and began to play. They stiffened up and marched away, no longer remembering me or my wolfbrother. The buses were leaving and I was gonna be left behind. I could see my wolfbrother on the bus and we made eye contact.
The guy who was filtering with me walked up behind me and said "It won't be so bad here. You will have me to watch out for you and I know I can make you happy. Just take my hand.". Before I even could consider his offer, Earth Dragon showed up in one of the escorts that had turned and came back for me. He took of his helmet and said "I wasn't gonna leave my favorite version of my Wolfbrother behind know was I?". I told him, "What are you doing?? There can't be two of you here at the same time. 'You' are especially reckless as it is, I know which version of you are and you'll break everything we have been working for!". Earth Dragon said "Don't be like that, plus I thought you would want a little R&R, well not that but him over there.". I sighed and asked him just to please take me to my lil wolfbrother... I am not supposed to leave him alone.
Segment 2
I am at a Starbucks, and I believe it the one on Beverly Blvd off of Montebello. I don't know why I was here. They don't give free refills and the Ice Tea is a rip-off, as I begin to walk toward the Burger King a group of elderly Chinese surround me an get me in a car. I ask what are they doing. One of them has an envelope and communicates "No matter how many time I send in this life insurance, they send it back. The refuse it saying my wife and I have been dead for 10 years", and seems to laugh. Another one communicates "You know you don't have to stay in character, every time you come you bring that envelope. Someone is gonna suspect something one day". They haven;t made a sound, but I can hear them in my head. I look at these people and noticed that they are all really puffy and their skin is so soft like a marsh mellow. Even though they threw me in the back seat, the way we are arranged in the car makes no sense.
Three are directly in front of me with their back turned, two are on my side, and the last is behind me. Plus we are all are standing up. I also notice that the windows shows we have been going up in the sky.
I tell them, remaining calm, "Um you do realize I know who you are. I would appreciate that you don't make me forget. If you blindfold me you can drop the act and we can talk. There are questions I have, and perhaps we can all start a dialogue". A female one seems to giggle and communicate "How cute it thinks that he is on our level". I am being enveloped in some sort of warm viscous fluid, my eyes are closed, and am telling them I want to talk, don't make me forget. "Why are you taking my DNA still? You don't have binary sexes do you?" are the some of the things I am just blurting out. I hear them concentrating on certain words "Prana, Axanar. Praxsis, Tarkin" and two more. They repeat these like a chant. I say "Why are you trying to hypnotize me and plus..two of these are Star Trek words?
I wake up thrown out of a portal on the ground where I was pushed into the car. There is a burn murk in the grass and cement where the portal opened. I try to get evidence of this and look for my phone. I realize that I am doing it again....why am trying to use my phone here to take photos? In the past weeks I realize I am doing this two and I am having flash backs of stuff I am not logging on...
-Orange light and cleansing an area....Wolfrbother is there.
-Wolfbrother and I are some road in a canyon. A UFO come down. I am trying to take a picture of it. I am shaking. (I did log this)...but there are additional scenes were we are abducted.
-Me and Wolfbrother just hanging out.
-In a state of utter despair, about to enact the self termination protocol
-Being hynotized by some humans, at least them attempting I keep running interference.
Segment Three
I was in the other place with my guest and his friend. We were heading to the large mall located in that version of Downey. It is a huge mall with skyscrapers at either end forming a large U-shape. There are many levels for underground parking. The reason why we headed here is for customized grape sodas. As we are walking here, several stores catch their interests and they just wanna go in and look. (I realize that this is being shown to other people, and force myself to wake up)
I am awake and I feel very sad. I want to say worthless. I am not worthy of love and will never have a family like I would like. Always apart.
Type: Dream, CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 8:00 am - 9:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 2:30am
State of Mind Before: Very Depressed, In Pain, Analytical (Me)/In Pain, Anxious (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Very, Very Depressed, bothered (Me)/Very Sad (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Kidney Issues, Activity but don't care
Odd occurrences after: Kidney Issues, Wound on right ankle
Segment 1:
We were on a bus, it was a combination of classmates and new individuals I now know. People were talking and conversing. It was not a typical bus, but a grey military type bus with bars and screens on the windows.
However it seemed to have the interior of a luxury bus....were it had cool air and nice seats. I was with my wolfbrother, but we were the versions I been holding on to all this time. I was 23 and he was about 10, we are blood related via his paternal side. The odd thing is we were on a road going through miles and miles of wheat or just grass. We finally were making a rest stop along the way at this military training facility. The three buses stopped as well as some other vehicles, such as escort dune buggy cars, jeeps, and trucks.
The people were a mixed crowd on the bus, males and females from college to upper elementary school.
We were told to get off and head to the cafeteria. We were separated into groups, my wolfbrother went with his friend and went off with others. I didn't like that we were told to split up. My wolfbrother didn't seem to mind as he was looking at everything and people were excited his group was here. After we ate at some point we were watching a movie, however I have to one of these place before and me and two of my friends wandered off. (The movie that was being shown what I will be doing in segment 3). They followed my lead and we began to take the secret passages in the facility, there were hidden doors and hall under stairs, closets, ladder, shelves, you name it. These halls lead to all sorts of fantastic location that was inconsistent with the environment we were in. Some where abandoned, some were full stuffed, and some were just waiting to be used. After a while the two guys with me got bored and wanted to go back to the original place we started. So I complied. It seems they missed some kind of coupling that occurred, because people were in the afterglow of intercourse.
The things is at this military base, from what I saw they were all staffed by these young, gorgeous looking men in their 20's. They were all extremely handsome, Caucasian, blond, tall and in shape. One of the guys started to flirt with me, said he was looking for me as I was assigned to him. He had no idea where I went, he did tell me that there was something off about me. I wasn't like the others and he appreciated that. Before we could talk more I heard my Wolfbrother scream. I told him I had to go, my Wolbrother needed me and I ran through the hallways. My Wolfbrother was taking on another one of these tall good looking guys, punching them and hitting. I intervened and he calmed down as I put myself in between both of them. One of them said, see this is the older one...they look the same though. I told my Wolfbrother to get his things and go back to the bus, people were leaving and I would settle this. He said he wouldn't but I told him it is important, he needs to be safe. He is my one and only concern.
I turned to the other two and told them I was a flute player. They seemed to take an innuendo from it, but I was holding a band flute in my hand and began to play. They stiffened up and marched away, no longer remembering me or my wolfbrother. The buses were leaving and I was gonna be left behind. I could see my wolfbrother on the bus and we made eye contact.
The guy who was filtering with me walked up behind me and said "It won't be so bad here. You will have me to watch out for you and I know I can make you happy. Just take my hand.". Before I even could consider his offer, Earth Dragon showed up in one of the escorts that had turned and came back for me. He took of his helmet and said "I wasn't gonna leave my favorite version of my Wolfbrother behind know was I?". I told him, "What are you doing?? There can't be two of you here at the same time. 'You' are especially reckless as it is, I know which version of you are and you'll break everything we have been working for!". Earth Dragon said "Don't be like that, plus I thought you would want a little R&R, well not that but him over there.". I sighed and asked him just to please take me to my lil wolfbrother... I am not supposed to leave him alone.
Segment 2
I am at a Starbucks, and I believe it the one on Beverly Blvd off of Montebello. I don't know why I was here. They don't give free refills and the Ice Tea is a rip-off, as I begin to walk toward the Burger King a group of elderly Chinese surround me an get me in a car. I ask what are they doing. One of them has an envelope and communicates "No matter how many time I send in this life insurance, they send it back. The refuse it saying my wife and I have been dead for 10 years", and seems to laugh. Another one communicates "You know you don't have to stay in character, every time you come you bring that envelope. Someone is gonna suspect something one day". They haven;t made a sound, but I can hear them in my head. I look at these people and noticed that they are all really puffy and their skin is so soft like a marsh mellow. Even though they threw me in the back seat, the way we are arranged in the car makes no sense.
Three are directly in front of me with their back turned, two are on my side, and the last is behind me. Plus we are all are standing up. I also notice that the windows shows we have been going up in the sky.
I tell them, remaining calm, "Um you do realize I know who you are. I would appreciate that you don't make me forget. If you blindfold me you can drop the act and we can talk. There are questions I have, and perhaps we can all start a dialogue". A female one seems to giggle and communicate "How cute it thinks that he is on our level". I am being enveloped in some sort of warm viscous fluid, my eyes are closed, and am telling them I want to talk, don't make me forget. "Why are you taking my DNA still? You don't have binary sexes do you?" are the some of the things I am just blurting out. I hear them concentrating on certain words "Prana, Axanar. Praxsis, Tarkin" and two more. They repeat these like a chant. I say "Why are you trying to hypnotize me and plus..two of these are Star Trek words?
I wake up thrown out of a portal on the ground where I was pushed into the car. There is a burn murk in the grass and cement where the portal opened. I try to get evidence of this and look for my phone. I realize that I am doing it again....why am trying to use my phone here to take photos? In the past weeks I realize I am doing this two and I am having flash backs of stuff I am not logging on...
-Orange light and cleansing an area....Wolfrbother is there.
-Wolfbrother and I are some road in a canyon. A UFO come down. I am trying to take a picture of it. I am shaking. (I did log this)...but there are additional scenes were we are abducted.
-Me and Wolfbrother just hanging out.
-In a state of utter despair, about to enact the self termination protocol
-Being hynotized by some humans, at least them attempting I keep running interference.
Segment Three
I was in the other place with my guest and his friend. We were heading to the large mall located in that version of Downey. It is a huge mall with skyscrapers at either end forming a large U-shape. There are many levels for underground parking. The reason why we headed here is for customized grape sodas. As we are walking here, several stores catch their interests and they just wanna go in and look. (I realize that this is being shown to other people, and force myself to wake up)
I am awake and I feel very sad. I want to say worthless. I am not worthy of love and will never have a family like I would like. Always apart.
Sunday, October 8, 2017
Disturbing Scenarios
As usual now I am having some of the weirdest dreams. Most of them I find trivial and do not even bother with noticing. They are complete episodes, but some just make no sense. These too bother me alot.
The first one does because this is a recurring dream on and off. I recognize the school, and remember going there with my wolfbrother. The older boy next to me I remember too.
The other dream, is a "memory" which is not really mine in the sense I was the one who physically experienced it, but I was made to watch through their eyes. The worse part is I know whose memory this was I shared. I do not know why I was made aware of this, especially since the way things are now.
The Very Strange School
My wolfbrother and I are at a very special school. We are both around 10-12 and we are, well twins. He gets us into trouble as he is curious about everything, and I usually end up covering for him. No matter how many time we get remanded I am not mad ta him. He is my brother, companion, and best friend and I don't want to leave his side. Where ever he goes I should be by his side. There are times when we are apart, usually when I am studying or doing our chores. He is out playing and exploring. He brings me backs things and I find out what they are. It is rather funny.
The school we are attending is very old. Most of it is underground caves and corridors that have been engineered. They have made it look like the interior of a castle. My favorite place is the library and gardens. My wolfbrother and I would love to go to the lake inside and just lay and look at the cavern ceiling. We would talk about the real night sky and fall asleep there sometime. We would be in trouble for sneaking out of our rooms.
The odd thing is the custodians. The ones who would find us or reprimand us, I can never remember who they are. They are present, but I can neither put a face or form. I just remember their presence. As for other there are a lot of kids from 7-16, both male and female. My brother keeps me to himself. He has his friends, but doesn't like that some of the old guys like me.
All of us are awoken from our domitaries and told to assemble by the elevator shafts. We have never used these and we are all taken on large platforms to the surface. There are tables upon table and we are chained to them and told to sit. We are given food to eat, which seems to be a sandwich with white bread and a piece of fruit like and apple. I tell my wolfbrother "Don't eat it" and he asks "Why?". I also tell a tall boy next to me not to eat too, "Smell it", I say and he nods. My wolfbrother makes a face at me for talking to the older guy. I look back hurt and say "Don't be like that".
The time of day seemed to be dusk, the sky was gray and growing dimmer. Everyone else was eating and content, listening to the music that was played and talking. We were in some kinda of outdoor courtyard by the base of a hill that was surrounded by a high fence. This seems like some type of desert. My wolfbrother looked at me and sensed it too.... there were no stars....and something was beyond the fence. I held my wolfbrother's hand and we could see beyond.
With my own eyes I had could makeout pinpoints of light in the distance. With my wolfbrother we saw with our minds eye close up. There were various tribes celebrating some ceremony. From far away they looked like lithe minotaurs. The males were in colors of deep tan, rich brown, and dark red, while the females wher in black, pale tan, or light brown. Some of the males sported dark bull like horns. They had black eyes and hooves. They were to my idea dancing like savages would around a bonfire. What bothered me was that I recognized their species. I let go and pulled back, I looked at my wolfbrother and began to cry. "It's them. It's him. The one who tried to rape me", my wolfbrother looked at me confused as if he knew what i was talking about. I started yanking at my chains. The older boy tried helping me as well. I was loose, I helped my wolfbrother to get loose and looked at the older boy. He said "Don't worry I got it". Some of the other started noticing something was wrong as it started getting dark.
That is when the whirling noises came and in the distance he drums and firelights were coming closer. Soon we could see the gaunt horseheaded humanoids, all writhing and snarling. when they got to the fence they jumped on it trying to climb. There long tongues started stretching through. The kids who could move tried to take the chains off or back up. The others though who had ate the food and lulled by the music were stolen by those that made it over the fence. Some of the other kids started chanting, putting up a barrier.
However, I said "No. Enough is Enough", I looked for wolfbrother and could not find him by me. I looked directly at these creatures and howled.
It went all silent, the chanting stopped, those creatures looked at me. Many wolves appeared around me and began charging those creatures attacking them. I was going to charge too, but the older boy picked me up over his shoulder and carried me away.
Next thing I remember I am walking the streets in Los Angeles, a suburb. I am walking home from school now.....this makes no sense. I was just somewhere else.....
A few days ago I had another very disturbing dream.... I was in a hotel room, the room had wood paneling and a dark short carpet. The bed had lime green sheets and was in a cubby. Directly behind the bed as the bathroom. There was a picture of a schooner, and the clock in the room was a ships steering wheel. The curtains were drawn and the air conditioner was on. The curtain were a vanilla color. There was a small couch and table and a TV. The room was very small. There was a man singing in the bathroom, I was in the bed in my underwear.
I looked myself over, I was 8-10 years old and white skin. I tried looking for a mirror around the room. The phone was disconnected and put up on a high nook where you could hang your clothes. As I got out of bed and had the sheet around me, the guy in the bathroom said "ah you are awake". He came out of the bathroom with no shirt, but was wearing his pants. He was tall, very tall and bearish. He had blonde hair, a 70's mustache, thining hair, a happy trail on his stomach, and was somewhat tan. He had big working man's hands. I just stood there wrapped in the sheets staring at him and assessing the situation.
He came over and held me close and started to cry a little. He said "I feel so guilty about this at times. They say you won't remeber a thing. Yet when you look at me like that, I don't know". He rubbed my hair, and I hugged him back as best as possible trying to comfort him. I asked him if his back hurt and I could rub it. He picked me up and sat on the bed, I started rubbing his back and pound his should with my little fists. He laughed for a second, said I was too little and that would do any good.
Someone said "Your time will be up soon Mr. ****, you better make the most of it." He cried a bit more, then spun me around and I backed up against the pillows and the wall. He started crawling on the bed toward me with a lustful look in his eye. "Stop looking at me like that, I think he knows".
Someone said "That is not possible, we are giving you want you want. I suggest you hurry. As I said your time will be up soon Mr. ***".
I wake up. That was not me and this was someone else's memory. They called me by name.... I know whose memory this is, what is worse I was conscious while it happened (meaning I was the one watching through his eyes at the time).
Friday, October 6, 2017
Agents and Aliens
Date: October 6th, 2017
Type: Dream, CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:00 am - 5:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 12:30am and 2:30am
State of Mind Before: Very Depressed, In Pain, Analytical (Me)/In Pain, Anxious (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Very, Very Depressed, bothered (Me)/Very Sad (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Kidney Issues, Full Moon, Sleep Reset
Odd occurrences after: Kidney Issues
Part 1 (12:30 am -2:30 am)We are driving through Palmdale late at night along the 14 freeway. We are heading back from visiting my aunt's friend. I am in the back seat of the car.
I am around 8 or 10 and I am with my twin brother. I tell him "They are coming to exchange us out again aren't they?" He says nods his head. I am tired, we are both laying down. However he is not physical present, I just know he is near and they are coming.
There is a bright flash of blue light and the care pulls over to the side of the road. They get my aunt and her boyfriend out of the car. They assist them since both are physical impared. When they check the back seat for me and open the door I bolt. My brother says "Run, rabbit, run. You can do it this time get away". I run off down the freeways and into the desert toward the streets to find help. A blue pulsating light and portal appears. The hum is making everything around goes silent. I overhear my brother as we are switched "Maximized masking complete. No one will bother us. Proceed"
I wake up in back of the car. They are driving. I was taken away and replaced. This is not me but it is me? I am back, but they took my twin brother again. I feel so alone. We are supposed to be together. Everyone else is always together (in reference to them), how come we are apart?
I wake up crying. I miss him, my wolfbrother. We are supposed to be together.
Part 2 (2:45 am -5:00 am)
This sequence of events is complete fuzzy. Although in the "dream" I am clearly trying to remember all of it. It is in reference to the desert Cal-trans from yesterday and my wolfbrother. I am being abducted again and walked off. Not supposed to be doing that. I was warned, but I walked off anyway as I always do. I walked over and begin downloading who the blue portals work and their functions. I then accessed the blue portal network and was popping in and out through various other abductions protocols that were occurring for other people. This was like traveling through liquid space, it was different than my method of travel. I am trying to find my wolfbrother. I am being chased by more than one person. One of these people is a field agent for the U.S. government. He was not supposed to be here....and me popping in and out exposed him. He threatened to kill me as I was know identified as a "hostile asset". I could over here the chatter that communication was jammed as soon as he was detected. They were also chattering how I was avoiding them until one of them identified who had "got loose". There was a collective "OH CRAP" feeling.... and confusion as to what I was called "The Destructive One/Defective One". They were unsure as usual, but either was one of us loose is not good.
I chase my grandmother and the man back to the house. The door is open. I want to yell so the tenants would know and get help, but I realize they won't be able to see us. We are in a different frequency, the brain waves are also being overrided so they are not aware. The portal in the living is emitting a pulse, the hum affects us it normally puts you to sleep and can transport you. It keeps us away and forgetful. That is how there doing it. I try to go into the house and I fall, the sound is making my body turn off, I am struggling. "They" are here. My grandmother runs out and asks what is happening as she is chased by a some male alien. They are bothed stopped and told to walk to the side by a some other males who arrived. They were following us all this time.
I am told to stand by the same male. I can see human males dressed in tech outfits "slacks and white shirts" attending to them. They are examining them and photographing, but look more like serving them as one would a xerox copy. Fine tuning.
A random person passes by and says "Wow! Because of you we got to knock out two people and an agent. That is impressive since he was a big one!"
"That is enough", the male says who ordered us before says. He feels like a cross between John Goodman in pressence but also like a Richard Dreyfuss. I look at him wet and trembling and say "Michael Keaton Group, huh?"
He looks directly at me "Clever boy. You are unique. I know we often coddle and say you are special, but you...", he gives an uncomforable smirk too..."you two are something else." He looks at me intently and says "You are the one that remembers aren't you. Shame? Where is he, he is not here?"
Two other of the workers walk by and say "Hey Michael. Seems you are awake again. Your not such a bad of a guy. Too bad you wont remember us, but we remember you". The two guys look like my wolfbrother and myself, they are a unit. The lead man I am talking to orders them to go and the one that looks like my wolfbrother says "We will see you soon", the other one like me says "We have known you for a long time". I think "Fans?"
The guy in charge says "Do it! Wipe his memory again and make sure it sticks." He looks at me and communicates with force "YOU WILL TELL NO ONE OF THIS CONVERSATION OR WHAT YOU HAVE SEEN AND HEARD. Is that clear?". He begins to walk away and the other two are coming to service me.
Shaking and wet, as I am covered in pink goo, I communicate back "What is wrong with me? Why am I the defective one? Tell me or are you afraid I will remember as always? I hurt so much, even all this is not real. What is it all".
"Well, you do know how to communicate. I know you can hear me Michael, you can hear all of us. You have no idea how annoying and proud that make us. You are not like all the others, you are not "special" and no... you are not DEFECTIVE. You are a happy mistake. You and him were engineered like all the others". He looks irritated as if looking for something, he yells "Will someone give me a urine sample!" The worker sheepishly looks at him and reaches into his labcoat and places a simple drop of urine on his finger. The droplet despite being transferred does not fall....it is transferred like a pill. He places it on my forehead.
"You contain both male and female DNA of our kind, and have an egg inside you", he says plainly.
"You mean I lay your eggs? Your born as adults aren't you? Wait I am not a hermaphrodite? Plus why are you dumbing it down for me. You have injected your DNA which has both recombinate and compatible sequences into my own, and thus use us to gestate and incubate the soul?", I am visibly upset by this and no longer shaking. I am upset, because I am not a female. I am not a reject. I am about to cry over this "I am not some genetic mishap. That is why no one loves me or wants me. I am fundamentally flawed.", I start thinking this separately in the background...mask it as fear.
"Clever, clever, cleaver boy as always Michael", he says patronizingly and walks abit around me. "Your series was engineered for a specific task to help and incubate new life. You are just step one. Step two did not work out according to plan, we scrapped that project when they decided to leave. However by someon else's design, you Michael, and your "Wolfbrother" met. That was not supposed to happen, not like this. You remember..." he sounds so proud and yet so irritated.
"So what, that is all I am to you. Just a project. I am not even human am I. We are something else, neither you are them. Just a means and a stepping stone to be discarded when we fulfill your functions or left to rot when we fail", I am visibly angry and pulse red light.
"Your unique defect", he laughs, "You are so much more that we could hope for, but not what we expected. We tried replicating it but we can't. We will eventually find the ones who messed everything all up?"
I ask "Why are you being so open with me tonite? You never once in that past few years spoken to me like this directly?"
He looks at me and says without care. "Because you will forget all this. If you don't, well something will have to be done.", he looks at the two technician by me menacingly. I get the impression that they are concerned for themselves. He directs them as says "Put him back and wipe this clean. It is just a dream".
[Note the odd thing is I recall having a much more lengthy conversation with the lead man. Why was he boasting/stalling? The other thing is the whole house and end scenario was a screen. First there was some inconsistency I was aware of when I was conversing with him.
-Why was I covered in pink goo and naked?
-This was all a projection. I was in a facility, underground with grid like structure along the wall and ceiling with pinpoints of light. The floor was white marble, but not marble. Smooth, seamless to the wall, but no angles.
This was a large warehouse, where the agent was caught.
-"They" were appearing as humans. They were aware I was seeing what was there....the warehouse and "them". I did not let on that I was aware of this.
-The lead was a tall, the technicians were the smaller one.
-The ones that appeared as me and my wolfbrother know us all to well. They showed me this as it was relayed differently like the other thoughts.]
As the lead says final phrase wake. My phone rings in the real world and I pick it up.
"A woman on the line says "Hello, I am from the Syrian Paper, working from the Syian Paper. The Syrian Paper would like you opinion on this?" I say nothing and hang up.
Again I wake up. I think "No I will not forgot. It is fading fast, I will remember. I won't forget Wolfbrother. I love you. Remember too please. Remember.". As I try to write this down, my canine friend is having a dog-mare. I tend to him which leads me to my aunt and I have to tend to her. I the background I am retying to stay focus. However I quickly tell them both and finish up that I need to get back before it is too late.
Type: Dream, CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:00 am - 5:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 12:30am and 2:30am
State of Mind Before: Very Depressed, In Pain, Analytical (Me)/In Pain, Anxious (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Very, Very Depressed, bothered (Me)/Very Sad (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Kidney Issues, Full Moon, Sleep Reset
Odd occurrences after: Kidney Issues
Part 1 (12:30 am -2:30 am)We are driving through Palmdale late at night along the 14 freeway. We are heading back from visiting my aunt's friend. I am in the back seat of the car.
I am around 8 or 10 and I am with my twin brother. I tell him "They are coming to exchange us out again aren't they?" He says nods his head. I am tired, we are both laying down. However he is not physical present, I just know he is near and they are coming.
There is a bright flash of blue light and the care pulls over to the side of the road. They get my aunt and her boyfriend out of the car. They assist them since both are physical impared. When they check the back seat for me and open the door I bolt. My brother says "Run, rabbit, run. You can do it this time get away". I run off down the freeways and into the desert toward the streets to find help. A blue pulsating light and portal appears. The hum is making everything around goes silent. I overhear my brother as we are switched "Maximized masking complete. No one will bother us. Proceed"
I wake up in back of the car. They are driving. I was taken away and replaced. This is not me but it is me? I am back, but they took my twin brother again. I feel so alone. We are supposed to be together. Everyone else is always together (in reference to them), how come we are apart?
I wake up crying. I miss him, my wolfbrother. We are supposed to be together.
Part 2 (2:45 am -5:00 am)
This sequence of events is complete fuzzy. Although in the "dream" I am clearly trying to remember all of it. It is in reference to the desert Cal-trans from yesterday and my wolfbrother. I am being abducted again and walked off. Not supposed to be doing that. I was warned, but I walked off anyway as I always do. I walked over and begin downloading who the blue portals work and their functions. I then accessed the blue portal network and was popping in and out through various other abductions protocols that were occurring for other people. This was like traveling through liquid space, it was different than my method of travel. I am trying to find my wolfbrother. I am being chased by more than one person. One of these people is a field agent for the U.S. government. He was not supposed to be here....and me popping in and out exposed him. He threatened to kill me as I was know identified as a "hostile asset". I could over here the chatter that communication was jammed as soon as he was detected. They were also chattering how I was avoiding them until one of them identified who had "got loose". There was a collective "OH CRAP" feeling.... and confusion as to what I was called "The Destructive One/Defective One". They were unsure as usual, but either was one of us loose is not good.
I chase my grandmother and the man back to the house. The door is open. I want to yell so the tenants would know and get help, but I realize they won't be able to see us. We are in a different frequency, the brain waves are also being overrided so they are not aware. The portal in the living is emitting a pulse, the hum affects us it normally puts you to sleep and can transport you. It keeps us away and forgetful. That is how there doing it. I try to go into the house and I fall, the sound is making my body turn off, I am struggling. "They" are here. My grandmother runs out and asks what is happening as she is chased by a some male alien. They are bothed stopped and told to walk to the side by a some other males who arrived. They were following us all this time.
I am told to stand by the same male. I can see human males dressed in tech outfits "slacks and white shirts" attending to them. They are examining them and photographing, but look more like serving them as one would a xerox copy. Fine tuning.
A random person passes by and says "Wow! Because of you we got to knock out two people and an agent. That is impressive since he was a big one!"
"That is enough", the male says who ordered us before says. He feels like a cross between John Goodman in pressence but also like a Richard Dreyfuss. I look at him wet and trembling and say "Michael Keaton Group, huh?"
He looks directly at me "Clever boy. You are unique. I know we often coddle and say you are special, but you...", he gives an uncomforable smirk too..."you two are something else." He looks at me intently and says "You are the one that remembers aren't you. Shame? Where is he, he is not here?"
Two other of the workers walk by and say "Hey Michael. Seems you are awake again. Your not such a bad of a guy. Too bad you wont remember us, but we remember you". The two guys look like my wolfbrother and myself, they are a unit. The lead man I am talking to orders them to go and the one that looks like my wolfbrother says "We will see you soon", the other one like me says "We have known you for a long time". I think "Fans?"
The guy in charge says "Do it! Wipe his memory again and make sure it sticks." He looks at me and communicates with force "YOU WILL TELL NO ONE OF THIS CONVERSATION OR WHAT YOU HAVE SEEN AND HEARD. Is that clear?". He begins to walk away and the other two are coming to service me.
Shaking and wet, as I am covered in pink goo, I communicate back "What is wrong with me? Why am I the defective one? Tell me or are you afraid I will remember as always? I hurt so much, even all this is not real. What is it all".
"Well, you do know how to communicate. I know you can hear me Michael, you can hear all of us. You have no idea how annoying and proud that make us. You are not like all the others, you are not "special" and no... you are not DEFECTIVE. You are a happy mistake. You and him were engineered like all the others". He looks irritated as if looking for something, he yells "Will someone give me a urine sample!" The worker sheepishly looks at him and reaches into his labcoat and places a simple drop of urine on his finger. The droplet despite being transferred does not fall....it is transferred like a pill. He places it on my forehead.
"You contain both male and female DNA of our kind, and have an egg inside you", he says plainly.
"You mean I lay your eggs? Your born as adults aren't you? Wait I am not a hermaphrodite? Plus why are you dumbing it down for me. You have injected your DNA which has both recombinate and compatible sequences into my own, and thus use us to gestate and incubate the soul?", I am visibly upset by this and no longer shaking. I am upset, because I am not a female. I am not a reject. I am about to cry over this "I am not some genetic mishap. That is why no one loves me or wants me. I am fundamentally flawed.", I start thinking this separately in the background...mask it as fear.
"Clever, clever, cleaver boy as always Michael", he says patronizingly and walks abit around me. "Your series was engineered for a specific task to help and incubate new life. You are just step one. Step two did not work out according to plan, we scrapped that project when they decided to leave. However by someon else's design, you Michael, and your "Wolfbrother" met. That was not supposed to happen, not like this. You remember..." he sounds so proud and yet so irritated.
"So what, that is all I am to you. Just a project. I am not even human am I. We are something else, neither you are them. Just a means and a stepping stone to be discarded when we fulfill your functions or left to rot when we fail", I am visibly angry and pulse red light.
"Your unique defect", he laughs, "You are so much more that we could hope for, but not what we expected. We tried replicating it but we can't. We will eventually find the ones who messed everything all up?"
I ask "Why are you being so open with me tonite? You never once in that past few years spoken to me like this directly?"
He looks at me and says without care. "Because you will forget all this. If you don't, well something will have to be done.", he looks at the two technician by me menacingly. I get the impression that they are concerned for themselves. He directs them as says "Put him back and wipe this clean. It is just a dream".
[Note the odd thing is I recall having a much more lengthy conversation with the lead man. Why was he boasting/stalling? The other thing is the whole house and end scenario was a screen. First there was some inconsistency I was aware of when I was conversing with him.
-Why was I covered in pink goo and naked?
-This was all a projection. I was in a facility, underground with grid like structure along the wall and ceiling with pinpoints of light. The floor was white marble, but not marble. Smooth, seamless to the wall, but no angles.
This was a large warehouse, where the agent was caught.
-"They" were appearing as humans. They were aware I was seeing what was there....the warehouse and "them". I did not let on that I was aware of this.
-The lead was a tall, the technicians were the smaller one.
-The ones that appeared as me and my wolfbrother know us all to well. They showed me this as it was relayed differently like the other thoughts.]
As the lead says final phrase wake. My phone rings in the real world and I pick it up.
"A woman on the line says "Hello, I am from the Syrian Paper, working from the Syian Paper. The Syrian Paper would like you opinion on this?" I say nothing and hang up.
Again I wake up. I think "No I will not forgot. It is fading fast, I will remember. I won't forget Wolfbrother. I love you. Remember too please. Remember.". As I try to write this down, my canine friend is having a dog-mare. I tend to him which leads me to my aunt and I have to tend to her. I the background I am retying to stay focus. However I quickly tell them both and finish up that I need to get back before it is too late.
Thursday, October 5, 2017
Dinner and Not My Memories
Date: October 5th, 2017
Type: Dream, CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 1:00 am -8:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 12:00am
State of Mind Before: Very, Very, Very Depressed(Me)/In Pain, Anxious (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Active (Me)/Very Sad (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Kidney Issues
Odd occurrences after: Insomnia, Kidney Issues
As you may know for the past couple of weeks I have had terrible issues with insomnia and me wanting to sleep at night. I dislike sleeping because of the dreams and the utter hopelessness it reminds me off. I try to make my den comfortable, even with AC which helps with the physical issues....but my heart is so much in pain that I do not want to sleep....only because I will have to wake up to this living nightmare of life.
I have to remember and keep in mind I have obligations to fulfill...... that is an anchor. For some reason, out of sheer apathy I put my aunt to bed early and intended to try and knock out. I think about my wolfbrother as usual, hoping he is okay..... I drift off to sleep by 1:00am
DinnerI know I am asleep, I wake up, but not sure if "I woke up". I need my stick but go out toward the living room anyway in the dark. There was a lot of movement in the house. My deceased aunt and uncles, my mom, along with my grandfather and grandmother were here in the living room. They said "We are here to take you and your aunt to dinner". I told them, "You are all dead. I don't want to go. This is not real". They looked at me and my mother came forward, "I love you and we came to take you out. Go to your room and change". She started walking me to my old room and everyone else went in to my aunts room. All of a sudden I was naked, my clothes were all of and my mother was walking to my aunt's room. I gathered my clothes and was going to walk back to my real room and get my stick. In the hallway I saw my wolfbrother coming out of my room in a similar situation. He was just as surprised to see me, and I was embarrassed as I was naked. We ran back to our room and I quickly dressed behind the partition as he dressed. I asked him "Where have you been! I missed you so much. Are you coming back?". He says "Wolfbrother, there is a lot I have to tell you. I don't know why I am here, but they mix me up with you still once in a while. I am not you.". I feel hurt as I know he is angry about that.... He actually sense that and comes and hugs me and says "You know what I mean". I said, "they are trying to take my aunt and I out for dinner. They are examining her right now in the room." My wolfbrother says "I am hungry, I haven't eaten and miss your cooking". Caught up in the moment I say "Then let's go. We can go have dinner". He says "What about your aunt?". I say sadly "What can I do, there is at least eight of them, even if you are REALLY here, it won't make a difference overall. I want and need to spend time with my wolfbrother." We sneak past the living room and outside. It is raining all around us except we are unaffected. My neighbor is looking up at the sky. "Do you see that? They are real. I told my mom and dad and they didn't believe me!". I causally say, "Yeah I think they are here for me and my aunt again.". My neighbor looks at me and says "You??? All this time I saw them coming for you? It's your fault I had to move away. I thought I was crazy." I just said sorry and me and my wolfbrother walked out trying to decided where we should go eat.
Someone order us to stop and comeback. This is not allowed. My wolfbrother laughed and I gave the finger behind me. I wake up.....
Where is My WolfbrotherAfter waking up from my "dream" I noticed when I closed my eyes I was still there. When I opened them I was awake here...closed my eyes..the scenario continued. I was confused trying to make sense of it all. I closed my eyes again and focused, pushing a past the dream.
This is when i saw the familiar "feedback". Someone is reading a comic book.
It is abouth Damian Wayne, the latest Robin. I have never seen this story arc, neither do I really read his comics, but it was rather interesting. Who ever was reading was very slow...so I was looking at the artwork after I read the text bubbles. At one point I opened my eyes and closed them again, I was still connected. So one walked in their vacinity and they stopped reading the comic.
Someon was communicating with him and they were pre-occupied with a conversation. I put it to myself to try something.
FIND MY WOLFBROTHER. WHERE IS MY WOLFBROTHER?
I was now rumagging through its thoughts. It had no idea as to what I was referring to, so I used his real name. It again got confused, it tried to repeat the name. I was also getting some awareness that whoever it was communicating with was noticing something was up. It noticed that their conversation was 'distracting' him from ours. I again tried but use his scent and what he look and felt like, his impression. Instantly I got the information I wanted.
"He is north. We have been monitoring. He is aware of you."
I dropped this and stopped, as I take the last of the message that they knew something was wrong. This wa around 4:30am. After 15 minutes I closed my eyes and tried to access whatever this was. This individual was sedated and being looked over, his thought were mushing....there were other colors besides the black and green....muted yellow and ambers, some reds, and a very pale blue.
I asked and thought "Where is your present location", I got several addresses in sucession very fast....they were moving. The one I got was "Hellman" and north east of me. So they were in the Monterey Park and Alhambra area. I asked about closest location of a known subject. I got two addresses, one the was spoken and another that was shown. Again these were in Alhambra.
I was aware that he was struggling and was no being attended to. I stopped.
The Technicians and the Mass AbductionI went back to sleep as that little stunt exhausted me. When I feel asleep I felt someone was outside the room. Yet I was so tired.
As from the previous dream...we decided to go for some Chinese food. My wolfbrother was not to fond of it, so I said there are plenty of other options. I was just happy to be with him again. We were having "Wolfbrother Day" again. However we both stopped and looked around, it was nighttime and we were in the city. Why was I somewhere off the 5 Freeway in central california and it is day time? My wolfbrother was just as confused as I was and we began walking down the road.
There was a technician truck by the side of the road. It was empty. However something was wrong. It both gave us and odd feeling. I ask him "Are you showing me something that happened to you?". He didn't say anything and took my hand and lead me down a street to the right. We walked down this street (Mind you, these are rural road with pavement and no sidewalk until you get to a business). The next street down there was a crowd of construction workers.
It looked like one of those Cal-Trans facilities, where they keep the construction equipment and vehicles. Some of the workers were upset at the
Technician Truck parked outside. It was a clean white vehicle, with yellow lights atop flashing. Two men were just standing there by the side of the truck. They were at military attention. One had a very fake 1970s handlebar mustache. The weird thing is when they opened the back door to the vehicle it was complete darkness. Even the side doors when opened, showed no interior, but utter darkness. Some of the construction workers saw this and were freaking out, yelling trying to tell their fellow co-workers of what the hell was going on. There were shouts "They are not human!", "Someone call the Police", "My phone is not working". They started to point to random people in the crowd. These people calmly walked up to the vehicle, which the men were placed spread eagle along the side the vehicle like cops would. However, there was this purple lightning that affixed them to the vehicle as soon as they came near. Again some of the other construction workers watching were saying "Don't you see this shit!", "Wake up man, this can't be happening", "God help me, I can't walk away.". One of the construction workers looked at me and pushed me forward as I was able to walk still. My wolfbrother was behind me watching the crowd. I got out my phone and began to take picture and a video. One of the construction worked looked to me and my wolfbrother and said "Its your fault, they came for you, but they are taking us."
When I was up close these beings were not human and at least 6'6" tall. They were tan light orange sking, three fingers and a thumb. Not long and thin..proportionate and looked lean and very strong. The head had no visible mouth, and the eyes were like a visor almost tinted blue like a beetle carapace. The forehead protruded with to bumps. My first thought this is a mask, why do they look like one of the members of the GL Corps?
He tried to grab me and I heard him in my head "You are not here, this has already happened. How are you seeing this?". He tried to use the purple lightning by I deflected it and we ran. One of the construction workers yelled "Make sure that gets on the new, send the military, we are gonna need help".
One of the beings popped in front of us, cutting our path to the freeway a few block up ahead. I told my wolfbrother we should go to the park to the side.
The park was some wildlife preserve with a lake, river, hiking trail. The freeway cut pass. There were people fishing and some were jogging along the trails. We had to make it to the freeway. However they were chasing us. Last thing I remember was we climbed a tree to hide out and decided to wait before we left.
That is when I was getting feedback from the previous dream. I did not want to go to dinner with them and I don't like Deborah. I want to go home. I would even walk all the way from Fontana back home. Why do they insists I am there family....I belong to someone else. I want to go home with my wolfbrother.
Type: Dream, CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 1:00 am -8:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 12:00am
State of Mind Before: Very, Very, Very Depressed(Me)/In Pain, Anxious (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Active (Me)/Very Sad (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Kidney Issues
Odd occurrences after: Insomnia, Kidney Issues
As you may know for the past couple of weeks I have had terrible issues with insomnia and me wanting to sleep at night. I dislike sleeping because of the dreams and the utter hopelessness it reminds me off. I try to make my den comfortable, even with AC which helps with the physical issues....but my heart is so much in pain that I do not want to sleep....only because I will have to wake up to this living nightmare of life.
I have to remember and keep in mind I have obligations to fulfill...... that is an anchor. For some reason, out of sheer apathy I put my aunt to bed early and intended to try and knock out. I think about my wolfbrother as usual, hoping he is okay..... I drift off to sleep by 1:00am
DinnerI know I am asleep, I wake up, but not sure if "I woke up". I need my stick but go out toward the living room anyway in the dark. There was a lot of movement in the house. My deceased aunt and uncles, my mom, along with my grandfather and grandmother were here in the living room. They said "We are here to take you and your aunt to dinner". I told them, "You are all dead. I don't want to go. This is not real". They looked at me and my mother came forward, "I love you and we came to take you out. Go to your room and change". She started walking me to my old room and everyone else went in to my aunts room. All of a sudden I was naked, my clothes were all of and my mother was walking to my aunt's room. I gathered my clothes and was going to walk back to my real room and get my stick. In the hallway I saw my wolfbrother coming out of my room in a similar situation. He was just as surprised to see me, and I was embarrassed as I was naked. We ran back to our room and I quickly dressed behind the partition as he dressed. I asked him "Where have you been! I missed you so much. Are you coming back?". He says "Wolfbrother, there is a lot I have to tell you. I don't know why I am here, but they mix me up with you still once in a while. I am not you.". I feel hurt as I know he is angry about that.... He actually sense that and comes and hugs me and says "You know what I mean". I said, "they are trying to take my aunt and I out for dinner. They are examining her right now in the room." My wolfbrother says "I am hungry, I haven't eaten and miss your cooking". Caught up in the moment I say "Then let's go. We can go have dinner". He says "What about your aunt?". I say sadly "What can I do, there is at least eight of them, even if you are REALLY here, it won't make a difference overall. I want and need to spend time with my wolfbrother." We sneak past the living room and outside. It is raining all around us except we are unaffected. My neighbor is looking up at the sky. "Do you see that? They are real. I told my mom and dad and they didn't believe me!". I causally say, "Yeah I think they are here for me and my aunt again.". My neighbor looks at me and says "You??? All this time I saw them coming for you? It's your fault I had to move away. I thought I was crazy." I just said sorry and me and my wolfbrother walked out trying to decided where we should go eat.
Someone order us to stop and comeback. This is not allowed. My wolfbrother laughed and I gave the finger behind me. I wake up.....
Where is My WolfbrotherAfter waking up from my "dream" I noticed when I closed my eyes I was still there. When I opened them I was awake here...closed my eyes..the scenario continued. I was confused trying to make sense of it all. I closed my eyes again and focused, pushing a past the dream.
This is when i saw the familiar "feedback". Someone is reading a comic book.
It is abouth Damian Wayne, the latest Robin. I have never seen this story arc, neither do I really read his comics, but it was rather interesting. Who ever was reading was very slow...so I was looking at the artwork after I read the text bubbles. At one point I opened my eyes and closed them again, I was still connected. So one walked in their vacinity and they stopped reading the comic.
Someon was communicating with him and they were pre-occupied with a conversation. I put it to myself to try something.
FIND MY WOLFBROTHER. WHERE IS MY WOLFBROTHER?
I was now rumagging through its thoughts. It had no idea as to what I was referring to, so I used his real name. It again got confused, it tried to repeat the name. I was also getting some awareness that whoever it was communicating with was noticing something was up. It noticed that their conversation was 'distracting' him from ours. I again tried but use his scent and what he look and felt like, his impression. Instantly I got the information I wanted.
"He is north. We have been monitoring. He is aware of you."
I dropped this and stopped, as I take the last of the message that they knew something was wrong. This wa around 4:30am. After 15 minutes I closed my eyes and tried to access whatever this was. This individual was sedated and being looked over, his thought were mushing....there were other colors besides the black and green....muted yellow and ambers, some reds, and a very pale blue.
I asked and thought "Where is your present location", I got several addresses in sucession very fast....they were moving. The one I got was "Hellman" and north east of me. So they were in the Monterey Park and Alhambra area. I asked about closest location of a known subject. I got two addresses, one the was spoken and another that was shown. Again these were in Alhambra.
I was aware that he was struggling and was no being attended to. I stopped.
The Technicians and the Mass AbductionI went back to sleep as that little stunt exhausted me. When I feel asleep I felt someone was outside the room. Yet I was so tired.
As from the previous dream...we decided to go for some Chinese food. My wolfbrother was not to fond of it, so I said there are plenty of other options. I was just happy to be with him again. We were having "Wolfbrother Day" again. However we both stopped and looked around, it was nighttime and we were in the city. Why was I somewhere off the 5 Freeway in central california and it is day time? My wolfbrother was just as confused as I was and we began walking down the road.
There was a technician truck by the side of the road. It was empty. However something was wrong. It both gave us and odd feeling. I ask him "Are you showing me something that happened to you?". He didn't say anything and took my hand and lead me down a street to the right. We walked down this street (Mind you, these are rural road with pavement and no sidewalk until you get to a business). The next street down there was a crowd of construction workers.
It looked like one of those Cal-Trans facilities, where they keep the construction equipment and vehicles. Some of the workers were upset at the
Technician Truck parked outside. It was a clean white vehicle, with yellow lights atop flashing. Two men were just standing there by the side of the truck. They were at military attention. One had a very fake 1970s handlebar mustache. The weird thing is when they opened the back door to the vehicle it was complete darkness. Even the side doors when opened, showed no interior, but utter darkness. Some of the construction workers saw this and were freaking out, yelling trying to tell their fellow co-workers of what the hell was going on. There were shouts "They are not human!", "Someone call the Police", "My phone is not working". They started to point to random people in the crowd. These people calmly walked up to the vehicle, which the men were placed spread eagle along the side the vehicle like cops would. However, there was this purple lightning that affixed them to the vehicle as soon as they came near. Again some of the other construction workers watching were saying "Don't you see this shit!", "Wake up man, this can't be happening", "God help me, I can't walk away.". One of the construction workers looked at me and pushed me forward as I was able to walk still. My wolfbrother was behind me watching the crowd. I got out my phone and began to take picture and a video. One of the construction worked looked to me and my wolfbrother and said "Its your fault, they came for you, but they are taking us."
When I was up close these beings were not human and at least 6'6" tall. They were tan light orange sking, three fingers and a thumb. Not long and thin..proportionate and looked lean and very strong. The head had no visible mouth, and the eyes were like a visor almost tinted blue like a beetle carapace. The forehead protruded with to bumps. My first thought this is a mask, why do they look like one of the members of the GL Corps?
He tried to grab me and I heard him in my head "You are not here, this has already happened. How are you seeing this?". He tried to use the purple lightning by I deflected it and we ran. One of the construction workers yelled "Make sure that gets on the new, send the military, we are gonna need help".
One of the beings popped in front of us, cutting our path to the freeway a few block up ahead. I told my wolfbrother we should go to the park to the side.
The park was some wildlife preserve with a lake, river, hiking trail. The freeway cut pass. There were people fishing and some were jogging along the trails. We had to make it to the freeway. However they were chasing us. Last thing I remember was we climbed a tree to hide out and decided to wait before we left.
That is when I was getting feedback from the previous dream. I did not want to go to dinner with them and I don't like Deborah. I want to go home. I would even walk all the way from Fontana back home. Why do they insists I am there family....I belong to someone else. I want to go home with my wolfbrother.
Wednesday, October 4, 2017
Phucking with my head.....
Date: October 3rd, 2017
Type: Dream
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:00 pm -5:00pm
Attempted Time of Sleep: 2:00pm
State of Mind Before: Very Depressed, Withdrawn (Me)/In Pain, Anxious (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Sad (Me)/Groggy (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Kidney Issues
Odd occurrences after: Insomnia, Kidney Issues
These are three recent dreams that were overlapping with eachother, in other words they seemed to happen simultaneously. The last is an odd incident from last week.
D & D for Oil
For some reason, again with new Alex, they wanted to meet at my house for a session. I thought why not, but remembered that the kitchen is utalized by my guest so we would have to go to my room. The thing is, I walked into my old room. In there I found a large open bag oil layed out where the sewing machine was. It was a large plastic white with motor oil like substance in it. I was trying to clean up the room. The oil left a stain on the rug which my me upset. I thought "Why is this a test?", as I neatly folded up the bag as not to spill the oil. Apparently my aunt had bought it home for me.
Moments before we were at Denny's in Long Beach, or should I say...I was being observed going into the Denny's Long Beach. For some reason I was in mutiple places at one. Someone is going through my memories, yet something else is going on.
Freeway to Nowhere
As soon as I put the oil in the trash can I am driving at night on a freeway.
I need to get somewhere as soon as possible. My wolfbrother needs me, he called. For some reasons I am along the coast, my first thought is San Francisco area or Torrance/Port of Long Beach. There are a lot of trucks and industrial warehouses. The vehicle I was in I had trouble maneuvering, something was off. I tried to get off on several streets, but each time I was redirected back on the freeway. The streets had generic weird names "WEST", "SOUTH", "EAST", "ALPHA", strangely there was no "North". I had been driving frantically for a while. There were no other cars, just trucks every once in a while. When I figured something was very wrong and tried to yet again turned back, two slow moving trucks swerved into me causing me to hit another smaller truck. A truck that was a "City Vehicle" with yellow flashing lights.
Again, moments before...I am watching this from a feedback in my head. I see my car on the freeway and I being chased. There is no trucks, but there is a small vehicle in from of the car that will intercept me. The moment I remember there are two large trucks...some bright white lights come by the driver's side and sideswipe me and I hit/enter the "city vehicle" that has lots of smoke around it and two people standing at the sides. We are supposed to be moving, yet we are stationary??? I an told "Look he is angry that we are following him, see he is actively trying to get away. He knows".
Train Station and the Gay Motel
As soon as the third person flashback of my reaction and "He knows" is said. I am in a train station and taking an escalator up with my wolfbrother and a "Jimmy". My wolfbrother is so happy I am with them, Jimmy and him light a joint, and I frown. My wolfbrother says it is "medicinal". I start to laugh at the absurdity of the situation, and also to cover my sadness as I am seeing what is going on. My wolfbrother comments on how I am enjoying the joint vicariously. I remind him that cannabis has no effect on me. He stops to got off the escalator with "Jimmy" to have me take a picture. There is a couple behind us, young male and female that are Watching and escorting us. They get perturbed that my wolfbrother is being erratic again.
My wolfbrother wants a picture of all three of us. I can see how happy he is with "Jimmy", and I tell him that I will take a picture of them together first. My wolfbrother says "Don't be like that. I need you". I say "There is a different between need and want, an I just useful tool that you tell yourself that you want when you need?". Jimmy looks at my wolfbrother and says "You know he actually loves you as intended. The loyalty and love he holds is genuine. It is not part of the scenario. I know you feel the same way about...". Jimmy gets cut off by the female from the young couple that was monitoring us.
The "Jimmy" that my Wolfbrother knows here is not THE JIMMY. However as I was being told, this Jimmy he met along the road walking as he was picked up several times this year. Ika was involved too at times.
There was an undercurrent of comments on how "the vessel" was occupied in regards to my wolfbrother and was on auto-pilot. There was some mentioned of where the
As I was taking the picture of "Jimmy" and my wolfbrother.... what I was seeing in the smartphone and in real life were two different places. One was a very clean train station terminal, San Fransisco get popping up . The phone showed a featureless white room, with my wolfbrother standing catatonic. He was wearing a white shirt short sleeve shirt and white med pants. He has been taken care of, he has been fed at least and cleaned up.
The female comments and showed me on purpose, a hotel room with he and Ika.
He and Ika are an item. Although he kept talking about me with Ika. It was weird as she showed me, she tried to show only bits and pieces, but I saw the edited parts. She was trying to make me cry. The male with her laughed, and said "He knows what kinda of motel that is and what Ika is. You do know he is the 'Defective One'. You are never going to tear them apart that way".
The Credit Card
A few days again maybe last Thursday, I remember falling alseep for an hour or so. The insomnia is bad...very bad this week. The weird thing is I got a phone call (I do not answer the phone anymore, everything goes to voicemail due to robo-calls and phising scams) and in my sleep my wolfbrother says "Wake up and pick up the phone". He is on the other line, I know I am groggy. He asks me to confirm my credit card number, I repeat the series of numbers and then just hang up the phone. When I do awake, I am mad as I would never do that....and I clearly remember this. Which was funny...the sequence of numbers I gave was not mine. However it was a access number to something, it was a sequence of four sets of numbers. At the time I woke up I knew the numbers clearly. I was going to write all this down then, but was told to forget and kept getting distracted. Now days later I am uncertain to the sequence.
Type: Dream
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:00 pm -5:00pm
Attempted Time of Sleep: 2:00pm
State of Mind Before: Very Depressed, Withdrawn (Me)/In Pain, Anxious (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Sad (Me)/Groggy (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Kidney Issues
Odd occurrences after: Insomnia, Kidney Issues
These are three recent dreams that were overlapping with eachother, in other words they seemed to happen simultaneously. The last is an odd incident from last week.
D & D for Oil
For some reason, again with new Alex, they wanted to meet at my house for a session. I thought why not, but remembered that the kitchen is utalized by my guest so we would have to go to my room. The thing is, I walked into my old room. In there I found a large open bag oil layed out where the sewing machine was. It was a large plastic white with motor oil like substance in it. I was trying to clean up the room. The oil left a stain on the rug which my me upset. I thought "Why is this a test?", as I neatly folded up the bag as not to spill the oil. Apparently my aunt had bought it home for me.
Moments before we were at Denny's in Long Beach, or should I say...I was being observed going into the Denny's Long Beach. For some reason I was in mutiple places at one. Someone is going through my memories, yet something else is going on.
Freeway to Nowhere
As soon as I put the oil in the trash can I am driving at night on a freeway.
I need to get somewhere as soon as possible. My wolfbrother needs me, he called. For some reasons I am along the coast, my first thought is San Francisco area or Torrance/Port of Long Beach. There are a lot of trucks and industrial warehouses. The vehicle I was in I had trouble maneuvering, something was off. I tried to get off on several streets, but each time I was redirected back on the freeway. The streets had generic weird names "WEST", "SOUTH", "EAST", "ALPHA", strangely there was no "North". I had been driving frantically for a while. There were no other cars, just trucks every once in a while. When I figured something was very wrong and tried to yet again turned back, two slow moving trucks swerved into me causing me to hit another smaller truck. A truck that was a "City Vehicle" with yellow flashing lights.
Again, moments before...I am watching this from a feedback in my head. I see my car on the freeway and I being chased. There is no trucks, but there is a small vehicle in from of the car that will intercept me. The moment I remember there are two large trucks...some bright white lights come by the driver's side and sideswipe me and I hit/enter the "city vehicle" that has lots of smoke around it and two people standing at the sides. We are supposed to be moving, yet we are stationary??? I an told "Look he is angry that we are following him, see he is actively trying to get away. He knows".
Train Station and the Gay Motel
As soon as the third person flashback of my reaction and "He knows" is said. I am in a train station and taking an escalator up with my wolfbrother and a "Jimmy". My wolfbrother is so happy I am with them, Jimmy and him light a joint, and I frown. My wolfbrother says it is "medicinal". I start to laugh at the absurdity of the situation, and also to cover my sadness as I am seeing what is going on. My wolfbrother comments on how I am enjoying the joint vicariously. I remind him that cannabis has no effect on me. He stops to got off the escalator with "Jimmy" to have me take a picture. There is a couple behind us, young male and female that are Watching and escorting us. They get perturbed that my wolfbrother is being erratic again.
My wolfbrother wants a picture of all three of us. I can see how happy he is with "Jimmy", and I tell him that I will take a picture of them together first. My wolfbrother says "Don't be like that. I need you". I say "There is a different between need and want, an I just useful tool that you tell yourself that you want when you need?". Jimmy looks at my wolfbrother and says "You know he actually loves you as intended. The loyalty and love he holds is genuine. It is not part of the scenario. I know you feel the same way about...". Jimmy gets cut off by the female from the young couple that was monitoring us.
The "Jimmy" that my Wolfbrother knows here is not THE JIMMY. However as I was being told, this Jimmy he met along the road walking as he was picked up several times this year. Ika was involved too at times.
There was an undercurrent of comments on how "the vessel" was occupied in regards to my wolfbrother and was on auto-pilot. There was some mentioned of where the
As I was taking the picture of "Jimmy" and my wolfbrother.... what I was seeing in the smartphone and in real life were two different places. One was a very clean train station terminal, San Fransisco get popping up . The phone showed a featureless white room, with my wolfbrother standing catatonic. He was wearing a white shirt short sleeve shirt and white med pants. He has been taken care of, he has been fed at least and cleaned up.
The female comments and showed me on purpose, a hotel room with he and Ika.
He and Ika are an item. Although he kept talking about me with Ika. It was weird as she showed me, she tried to show only bits and pieces, but I saw the edited parts. She was trying to make me cry. The male with her laughed, and said "He knows what kinda of motel that is and what Ika is. You do know he is the 'Defective One'. You are never going to tear them apart that way".
The Credit Card
A few days again maybe last Thursday, I remember falling alseep for an hour or so. The insomnia is bad...very bad this week. The weird thing is I got a phone call (I do not answer the phone anymore, everything goes to voicemail due to robo-calls and phising scams) and in my sleep my wolfbrother says "Wake up and pick up the phone". He is on the other line, I know I am groggy. He asks me to confirm my credit card number, I repeat the series of numbers and then just hang up the phone. When I do awake, I am mad as I would never do that....and I clearly remember this. Which was funny...the sequence of numbers I gave was not mine. However it was a access number to something, it was a sequence of four sets of numbers. At the time I woke up I knew the numbers clearly. I was going to write all this down then, but was told to forget and kept getting distracted. Now days later I am uncertain to the sequence.
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