Since my wolfbrother has been home with me I have not had time to catalogue things properly. Since his arrival an incidents seems to occur around the third week of every month or so. It was odd that the first time they came back there was many people at home, but none other than my aunt noticed.
The second time around it was just me and it bothered me a lot. I been deny things and just saying it is the stress of the situation. My wolfbrother is difficult at times, his maternal guardian is a complete psycopath, I have not been compensated, and I worry about things. I am depressed and functional, but I am not sure how much longer. I don't feel like I belong him and feel like I lost myself. I no longer matter to myself, I am just an object and want oblivion. As usual my commitment to others keeps me, but day by day it erodes. I just want closure since happiness eludes me
The incidents don't help, I no longer feel safe in my home as I did. They are trying to get in in various ways from physical manifestations to dream crap. I don't want to remember, but I need to chronicle these things. My wolfbrother is not helping, as there is no time for myself.
The latest incidents and it is shared with Wolfbrother....
2/23/2020
6:15am.
I was up all night with wolfbrother and decided to take a shower and retire to the living room for some much needed sleep. I was thinking about the seasons of My Little Pony we were watching and was comfortable and ready to fall asleep. Suddenly in my mind I hear "Finally, took you long enough to get away from him". I immediately turned my phone on and put the music on, I was scared as I knew who it was. I could get a vague impression of who it is and where in the room it was.
I started to close my eyes, think of pleasant thoughts as this shouldn't be happening. I was on my right side, and something brushed lightly again my left arm and then I felt a prick on my left lower thigh and I was out.
Of course a few second later I was awake and unable to move save for my hands. I started to struggle and yell, but was unable to muster more than a gargle. In my head I heard "Hurry. We need to check, why isn't he under. What is going on? Why is he reacting like this? Check the left hemisphere of his brain for.... what is that? Get things under control we only have a few more minutes". From what I could see there was a child like being over me, white skin face obscured by a hood. They were physically and mentally trying to look in my head. "It won't stay still" it said before I replied "Get off me" in its thoughts. It was taken aback and left in a hurry. I was lost between someplace, my thoughts were now flooding in from past memories and other things. I felt confused and dazed. My left arm numb. Unable to get up. I was very dehydrated. An hour later I managed to get up and go into my old room and passed out for six hours. We passed out for six hours, my wolfbrother also knocked out.
We woke up dehydrated.
