Shadowy Ectoplasm

Date: April 11th, 2019
Type:  CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 9:00pm-10:00pm
Attempted Time of Sleep:N/A
State of Mind Before: Tired, Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/Asleep (Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Calm (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)/Asleep (Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: White being in the hall.
Odd occurrences after: None

I was working on my books, when I abruptly decided to go take a nap in the living room. As soon as I lay there, I quickly entered an altered state. I felt warm and safe, and could hear other voices.
My aunt was watching TV in the other room, but I could hear a conversation going on. I was somewhere in between and no longer in the living room I was surrounded by a number of tall beings. I was quickly asked pick a form that would be pleasing. I did so, and many of them appeared as very handsome gentleman. They wanted to interact with me, and told them that if they would appear in this form more often I would be able to easily converse and interact with them. However I knew this was an illusion, and my mind quickly asked what the true form was. Before that I was looking around the room, I was still in the living room, but beyond the bookcases was lab equipment. They kept moving infront as for me as not to see. It was a pleasant interaction, but as I stated once I asked the true form....it went dark.
I began concentrating and it seemed something was attempting to read my thoughts, there was a remark about the number of creatures and entities as was aware of. However when I wanted a handsome human male again, I was told that template was unknown. The familiar figure of a gray began to emerge. A begin to wiggle faster and soon I found myself in the abandoned hotel.
It seems I was returned to the resort (previously mentioned many time). It was empty as usual and it was the wing in which I remember them saying that we would have. I was hoping to find my mother there as she was once stationed there. It was empty save for the clothes and bedding all over the place. It bothered me that I knew I was here before, which reminded myself I needed to get up.

When I managed to open my eyes, the ceiling and bookcases were covered with ethereal shadowy stands, which reminded me of a jellyfish field. Instantly I felt that this was a shadowy projection from another plane, one that allowed communication with the otherside. It was the same projection that my aunt has seen in the hallway and the bathroom. It disappears once light is flashed upon it. It has made an appearance as of last October on 2019. In November I did a ritual that would cleanse the bathroom and hallways. It has not made an appearance until now.

How Experincers Ruin the UFO and Alien Phenomena

How Contactees Ruin the UFO and Alien Phenomena

For 40 years of my life I have been abducted by aliens, seen strange phenomena, been in the presence of spirits, and have had some really weird stuff happen. Most of the people that would have known about these experiences were family members, whom most would want to flat out forget the whole thing or say it was some sort of religious thing. A few non-family members who did experience some stuff, just never want to talk about it and move on. For me I have felt isolated and alone, as there were no people who seemed to understand what I was going through. Sure there were those few people who had books and movies, but they were far removed from me that I didn't matter much. Seems other people had the same questions, but I was still alone.

A few years ago I finally decided to seek out a group that would hopefully be of assistance or guidance. I am not a very social person, but I am not afraid to talk about my experiences. The more I did talk about it with other I was noticing that many had an "usual event" in their lifetime and maybe I was not so alone. Perhaps there was hope to get to the bottom of things and seek answers. So I found a few groups.

I quickly found out that there was more than just the Abductee attending these groups. Others such as fans, experiencers, contactees, and rarely the nonexistant researcher were there as well. The fans and experiencers were okay, as many were just interested in the phenomena. However those Contactees were the polar opposite of the Abductees... and cause the most trouble. Everyone is entitled to their own interpretation.... yet we still have to live in a world with facts to back up our claims.

Contactees for the most part believe they are "Special" or "Chosen", and it seems certain people in the UFO community love throwing that term around to stroke these peoples egos. It is also odd that many who consider themselves contactees are female, and usually surround themselves quickly within a clique....usually among psychics, prophets, and other spiritualist that share their ideals. From there this clique begins to drive the narrative to "It is NOT a negative experience! Don't you understand your higher self is talking. Your world consciousness is awakening you to a calling!", while all the time your trying to explain that this little being came to your room and kidnapped you and then began to assault you via experimentation. Despite the highly traumatic feeling you are communicating, these people insist that you are interpreting it all wrong and that they are they to help but you are not there yet or have yet to understand the great will of Gaia! Again they urge you to AWAKEN and pull back the veil........

Of course when you try to bring in facts and figures, they get upset because you should not try to explain the great mystery and just beleive and trust in them, as they are higher beings. When you try to look for other answers, again they tell you it is obvious you were "Chosen" but fail to head the call.

They see you as something less now, because you won't move beyond the fear and anger..... you won't love them or find the joy of the experience you were gifted. It borders know on faith, instead of fact. Where if you don't tow the Experincers narrative you feel so much more isolated. And with Abductees, many among us suffer from some form of PTSD or anxiety and it drives us further and further away.

It is not surprising that therapist and UFO convention seem to thrive on Contactees, for as a business you have a greater revenue stream by pushing the "Happy" and "Chosen" narratives which fan and contactees love. Investigation and research begin to fall by the wayside as faith and belief take center stage, and a new "respect" for these beings are demanded as we are not allowed to fully understand these mysteries. The UFO community once had the brightest mind tasked with finding out what, how, who, when, and where....but now we are told to all shut up and listen to "MOTHER GAIA" and the high forces at work.... and perhaps maybe we will be graced with understanding.