Wolfbrother Return and They Are Upset

Date: 12/13/2022-12/15/2022
Type: CE3,CE 4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 9:30am/12:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 2:00am/8:00pm
State of Mind Before: Bothered, Christmas Depression, Tired of Life
State of Mind After: Upset, Bothered (Me), Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: 12/13/2022 CE4 Encounter
Odd occurrences after: N/A

As many know this has been a very trying year. My association with my Wolfbrother, Earth Dragon, imploded. As of June we re-established a dialogue and once again things are headed back to how they were.

As noted the year has been quiet, at first "they" wondered what happened. Testing the waters to see if he was gone. They have been reluctant to do anything than the few incidents this year. Although the September incident was extreme. Since Wolfbrother is coming back.... "they" are aware.

Tuesday
As usual due to things I went to be late, although nothing unusual about that. Wasn't particularly bothered by anything other than the jury summons I have to get out of. The previous week I was contacted by Earth Dragon's mother, and it finally happened where he was caught being in Care Facility and the deductible was due. She is a dishonest person who tries cutting corners. I don't like dealing with her. However, I have to associate with her in order to take care of Earth Dragon. So basically its not financial feasible for him to be at the Care Facility... so guess who is needed. Me.

I went to bed around 2:00am, jumping in and out of semi-real dreams where I was not sure where I was cause it kept coming back to me in my room waking up. I would get up do stuff on my computer, watch TV, walk around the house, and then go lay down. It was as if someone was trying to callibrate a behavior. I felt that it was "testing". I was also being asked question about Earth Dragon, during all this; "Why is he coming back. Where is he now? Is he there. Why are you talking to him. He is going to hurt you again. He is interfering. You know what will happen [Threat to me from them]". I know at times I am yelling "Go away. Leave me alone. Leave wolfbrother alone. Leave me alone. I will hunt you down and make you sorry". I found this odd, but it was buried under the mundane activities I was doing and going back to sleep. I have trouble recalling who I was talking to.... as my mind just goes back to doing boring stuff. Wasn't sure if I was dreaming or awake, it went on for a few hours until I feel asleep around 7:00am. Anyhowzit, around 9:30am I am awakened by footsteps in the hallway. I noted it was windy outside, as the aluminum foil was moving on the window and I could hear the breeze. What was odd is that I was told "Go back to sleep. It is ******. He probably was told to come in late today or was sent back early". I seemed to accept the thought, though it was odd it wasn't my thought. So I stayed awake and listened. Someone was walking in the hall and kitchen. Someone was moving things around. It didn't sound like my guest, and was there more than one person? Again a thought popped into my head, "Go back to sleep. It is just *****. No need to worry. Go to sleep". I noted this and feel asleep.

At 12:00pm I awoke and was bothered. Why was there an outside voice trying to be my thought. I doubt it was my guest. There was more than one person? So I decided to ask my aunt if anything odd occurred. She did indicate that she heard someone at that time in the living room, hallway, and kitchen. They were moving something and that it was windy. Oddly enough.... the weather was not as such throughout the morning, at least to the level that it would have been audible.

Thursday
Christmas is depressing and the state of the world sucks. I feel so alone... to bad I don't live in Canada... as at least they could help me with M.A.D. Being an abductee, gay, and abused by the world.... what is the point right? I know I have duties to fulfill...but I really feel awful. It is mostly likely due to the damn holidays, as it always illustrates I am on the outside in the cold and alone....while everyone else is on the inside pretending to enjoy life. I went to be early as I have errands to run... and I don't want to be awake. Sadly the solace of sleep often eludes me.

Instead I awake in my old room, but I am sleeping there. At first I was afraid, as bad memories of the room pop up from the scenarios done there. I know I am in my real room, so I ignore and try to go to sleep there and not pay attention. I wake up a bit and I am in my room again...I feel my begging and see the ceiling. I know I am ok, but there are others in the room. I think "go away".  

[Something occurring right now. Low tapping on the window"]

I am not sure if I am awake or asleep now. I keep my eyes closed. I am in my room. I am responding to questions "Go Away. None of your business. He is my Wolfbrother, I don't know. Leave us alone. No I won't. What am I supposed to do? No. Then fix it. You know what I want. No". During this time a pressure was building on my legs then chest. I couldn't move. Something was atop of me pressing down. I attempted to wiggle out. A noise started like a high pitched sound, attempted to counter with howling. It bothered them that I wasn't under. They started tapping, it was a threat in the sense "WE ARE REALLY HERE". I continued to struggle until I was able to punch outwards which everyone left.

Although bothered at this point I was exhausted and depressed, I went back to sleep. It would be so nice to have that special someone by me so I could finally feel safe and happy. 

At 2:30am I woke up to do my obligations.... I tried writing this down so many times... but I keep getting...."distracted".

Unwanted Attractions

 

Date: 9/7/2022-9/8/2022
Type: CE 4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 11:45pm-12:15am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 11:40pm
State of Mind Before: Depressed
State of Mind After: Upset, Bothered, Scarred (Me), Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Previous Short CE4 Encounter
Odd occurrences after: N/A

So I know I have been amiss at reportimg many of the encounters over the past two years. It has little to due with Covid-19 or the lockdowns. As many may know I have been occupied with taking care of my Wolfbrother, who is refereed to on here as Earth Dragon. His care is challenging at times, and due to personal circumstance the incidents that have occurred come into to question as he cannot be a reliable source depending on who he is to be classified. I do my best to account a reliable as possible testament to what has occurred to me.

As of 4/22 my Wolfbrother has to be relocated to a care facility. So I have been alone to speak at my home. For about 5 months activity was very minimal, just occasional annoyances of flashing bright lights, whispers, and footsteps. This has been going on for decades and there is nothing I can do to stop these things.... and as long as they are not harmful... I just get note. Early August I did get a brief visit or check in.... they mainly came in and checked the room out to make sure my Wolfbrother was really gone and not coming back. They noted I was in the room... and not to "talk" as I can hear them. There were some mean comments about me... but it was mostly because I can hear them and they have to take precautions. This scouting did bother me as to me it means they were back... which I did my best to put out of my mind since they didn't do a follow up.... and I have bigger things to contend with in my life.

So as far as my mental health.... the incident with my Wolfbrother emotionally heart me in such away... that it did devastate me and cause some physically issues to manifest in 4/22 only. These were stress related, such as seizures and bouts of uncontrollable crying. Eventually I was able to de-compartmentalize the situation to regain functionality and dealt with the physical aspects of the problem to ensure seizures would not occur. 5/22 to 8/22 I began readjusting to the new lifestyle without my Wolfbrother. I will not say I am content.... but managing through life... the Covid issue is a big problem.... but since I am a self-sufficient introvert... it only bother me when they have meaningless and nonsensical restrictions and over reaching authority. Sorry to say, but I am smarter than most people and chafe under the authority of my lesser. So I was just there busy with life. In 7/22 my Wolfbrother and I did reconnect, but he is still away.

So the farthest thing from my mind is "THEM". I had a good day. I went and bought some comics and was reading them around 11pm. Around 11:40 I was told "You are tired. Go to sleep". Usually I just say "No"... but this time I was complacent. I went to lay down and was told "Sleep on you stomach it would be more comfortable."... and I did without question. I normally sleep on my side, and very rarely on my stomach. I cocked my head to the side. I was told "Relax. You will have a pleasant visitor. It is what you want. It is what you desire.....". I put my head on and turned on my side as the door opened and closed quickly...as if it was an air pressure thing. My eyes looked toward the walkway and there was a transparent distortion that moved quickly from the door to the bathroom door. "Relax. Sleep.", I heard once more and lowered my head.... but I was on my side. I could hearing some whisper and mumbling very faintly. I kept moving my head and at one point cupped my ear to hear what it was. At first I attempted to debunk it as noise form my aunts TV..... but this wasn't it. For a few minutes I was trying to pinpoint the sound and wasn't tired. "JUST GO TO SLEEP. TURN ON YOUR STOMACH NOW", and I did what I was told. I was annoyed at this but they started to communicate "You deserve love and you are such a good person. You need to be cared for and loved, that is what you want and desire. You deserve this so much because you are a good person. We know you want this. The man of your dreams will be coming here very soon. He is 6'8", muscular, white, with blonde hair and blue eyes. He loves you and want to be with you and...". I reply "Wait. I don't have the money to pay for him. He sound very expensive. I cannot possible afford him". Confusion on their part...."He loves you and want to be with you. He genuinely wants you. Sleep. He will be here...". I cut them off and reply "Are you kidding, he sound to be perfect in every way. Why would he choose me. Look at the comparison. I am old, not exactly wanted...especially by his type. Why would he choose me. We haven't talked. Why?". Frustration on their part "He will be here. He will come in the door and you will be happy. Now go to sleep!".

I zonked out, but I was awake in another room. I was standing by someone's bedside. It was a lime green room...late at night and they where watching the news. They had a flatscreen tv. I said to myself "Oh wow I am remote viewing", as I was aware someone was stroking my nose in my room. A distant though of "Shhhh. It is alright. Stay calm. You deserved to be loved. Just sleep.". I reply "Stop it" as I was focused and where I was not and wanted to see if could see the television more clearly to verify this was a remote viewing by watching the news on the TV. The only detail I could make out was that this was not local news and seemed to be an east coast station. Someone kept stoking my nose and again I said "Stop it go away. No one loves me and my Wolfbrother said I am a worthless piece of shit that no would would ever want I would be alone forever.". Whoever was stoking my nose stopped and that is when I felt pressure on my back as someone was trying to penetrate/probe  me. I instantly refocused my attention to my room. I was paralyzed unable to move, and there was a being near my head who was stroking me. I got the impression of "Uh-oh. Its not working.". The second being was doing something to my behind with frustration and "He is too tight. He locked up. Not tonight". I was enraged at this point.... fear and anger came to the surface as I struggled and screamed as best as possible. The last thing I hear was "I told you. This one is special. It doesn't normally work with him". I bolt up and they were gone. I check the time...and it was 12:15am. I looked around and listened... sat there for a bit.... my butt was bothered... it had a familiar sensation... so an attempted something physical did occur. I do not have sexual dreams. So what the heck was this. I was angered, afraid, and then began to cry for one of two reasons.... 1) "THEY" are back and... 2) What is wrong with me that I see so little value in myself that I can't even believe the lie they were creating. I think that hurt the most..... cause I am lonely and feel so unloved/unwanted.

So the thing I was trying to vet out is if this was an audio hallucination. As I said I have had communication with them all my life. It has been interactive... and they seemed annoyed that I can hear them and connect. Basically there is a"handle with care" cause I can hear and don't fully go under. Now the odd thing is there is such a disconnect between my thinking process and these individuals that they do not seem to be from my subconscious. They act as independent individuals who seemed bothered and comment on their own. They also seem to not understand how I work. If they were audio hallucinations they should be more nonsensical (repeated phrases or commands) or respond in a scripted manner? They don't seem to be recreations or imaginary beings.