SUBJECT PROFILE UPDATE
5/2011
State of Mind:
Currently subject is suffering from a functional depression. Subject also is not coping well with own emotions, choosing rationalize them and dealing with them logical manner and remaining in "working mode". However, after a certain build up or time subject become non-functional for an hour or so. Root cause of the depression are the abduction, lack of support network, and uncertainty of his ability as a caretaker. These other two factors are impacted by the abductions.
Support Network: State of fact that subject has less than two people who he considers himself close with. The last two individuals are no longer there as anticipated as they have deals with their own lives. No family relatives. Attempts with meeting new individuals for potential close people have not been successful.
Most candidate have ridiculed or flat out rejected. Future prospect without dependent has become very scary as individuals believe if he is alone... things with the abduction will get worse. Thoughts of "liquidation" are becoming more common.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Dream Invasion
Date: May, 13, 2011
Type: Paranormal
Location: Los Angeles, CA
Time of Incidents: 3:48am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 2:00am
State of Mind Before: Tired, Overall Depression Symptoms, Stressed, Sad, Lonely, Apprehensive
State of Mind After: Apathetic
Odd occurrences before: Depression Symptom, Arm (week before), Noises.
Odd occurrences after: None.
For the past couple weeks since one popped in... there have been several odd occurrences. Most of these I have been writing off as coincidental or dismissing due to my depression. These are the following things in a nutshell:
-Humming Sounds from 2am to 5 am in the morning
-Noises Outside(Bumps, odd talking)
-Fluctuating Sleeping Patterns
-Loss of Appetite
-Odd Build up of static electricity
So far since the last encounter in April I have been fearful of going to sleep, subconsciously.. my body does not wanna shut off. I am afraid to go to sleep although I know there is nothing I can do... I have trouble sleeping... until about 2:30 am... when I pass out from exhaustion. Oddly I managed to adjust my schedule to accommodate this behavior..adjusting my sleeping schedule so I would be up between those hours. During the day I noticed another odd thing from the time I got up until 3pm... I kept get shocked from statics electricity. No I am been dismissing this as part of my depression and the statics as part of the odd weather or some other issue at work causing this.
Now a week ago around 12am, as I was watching TV.... I noticed out of the corner of my eye one of their arms by the bookcase. I did a double take cause it was clear as day... it was as if it edging around the book case and retreated back. I got up nonchalantly and pretended not to notice. After a few minutes I went and realized I had left my room door open. I dismissed this as stress, although I wasn't thinking of them...
Now...as to the even this week.... again I have some issues I am dealing with more pressing that the abductions. All these antics I been dismissing and putting out of my mind. However I went to sleep and was tired.... I actually had a dream and a very boring one. I was basically just repeating the weeks events... but it was in a fast forward motion. At certain points it would slow down and people in my life would ask me odd questions about life and "what would I do". Then after this it would fast forward again...after a few days of this "in the dream"... when I got home I say one the greys stand at my door. Immediately I began to back out of the house in fear. It looked at me in the sense "You see me? You not suppose to see me".. and when I ran out the door I ran into an other one.
At this point I immediately woke up.... I was instantly on my feet.. in which i got up from my bed and swung up into a standing position. I looked at the clock...saw the time and calmly told myself verbally "It was not real. I am going back to sleep".. although in my head I was why am I being so calm? And I feel asleep. Then I woke up around 5:15am. This time I was confused.... as why I was so calm. I felt complete apathy. I looked around the room and checked everything. I was unnervingly calm. I went back to bed and just lay their until I reasoned that I need to go to work. That broke the apathy and I resumed the day as normal as can be. However throughout the whole day I was trying to analyze the odd dream and behavior.
Next post is an assessment of my current state for the record...
Type: Paranormal
Location: Los Angeles, CA
Time of Incidents: 3:48am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 2:00am
State of Mind Before: Tired, Overall Depression Symptoms, Stressed, Sad, Lonely, Apprehensive
State of Mind After: Apathetic
Odd occurrences before: Depression Symptom, Arm (week before), Noises.
Odd occurrences after: None.
For the past couple weeks since one popped in... there have been several odd occurrences. Most of these I have been writing off as coincidental or dismissing due to my depression. These are the following things in a nutshell:
-Humming Sounds from 2am to 5 am in the morning
-Noises Outside(Bumps, odd talking)
-Fluctuating Sleeping Patterns
-Loss of Appetite
-Odd Build up of static electricity
So far since the last encounter in April I have been fearful of going to sleep, subconsciously.. my body does not wanna shut off. I am afraid to go to sleep although I know there is nothing I can do... I have trouble sleeping... until about 2:30 am... when I pass out from exhaustion. Oddly I managed to adjust my schedule to accommodate this behavior..adjusting my sleeping schedule so I would be up between those hours. During the day I noticed another odd thing from the time I got up until 3pm... I kept get shocked from statics electricity. No I am been dismissing this as part of my depression and the statics as part of the odd weather or some other issue at work causing this.
Now a week ago around 12am, as I was watching TV.... I noticed out of the corner of my eye one of their arms by the bookcase. I did a double take cause it was clear as day... it was as if it edging around the book case and retreated back. I got up nonchalantly and pretended not to notice. After a few minutes I went and realized I had left my room door open. I dismissed this as stress, although I wasn't thinking of them...
Now...as to the even this week.... again I have some issues I am dealing with more pressing that the abductions. All these antics I been dismissing and putting out of my mind. However I went to sleep and was tired.... I actually had a dream and a very boring one. I was basically just repeating the weeks events... but it was in a fast forward motion. At certain points it would slow down and people in my life would ask me odd questions about life and "what would I do". Then after this it would fast forward again...after a few days of this "in the dream"... when I got home I say one the greys stand at my door. Immediately I began to back out of the house in fear. It looked at me in the sense "You see me? You not suppose to see me".. and when I ran out the door I ran into an other one.
At this point I immediately woke up.... I was instantly on my feet.. in which i got up from my bed and swung up into a standing position. I looked at the clock...saw the time and calmly told myself verbally "It was not real. I am going back to sleep".. although in my head I was why am I being so calm? And I feel asleep. Then I woke up around 5:15am. This time I was confused.... as why I was so calm. I felt complete apathy. I looked around the room and checked everything. I was unnervingly calm. I went back to bed and just lay their until I reasoned that I need to go to work. That broke the apathy and I resumed the day as normal as can be. However throughout the whole day I was trying to analyze the odd dream and behavior.
Next post is an assessment of my current state for the record...
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