Date: June 7th, 2019
Type: CE4, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:15am-4:45am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 3:45am
State of Mind Before: Tired (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/???(Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Scared, Anxious (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)???(Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: Yellow Light, Invisible Being
Odd occurrences after: None
This week I have been dealing with my Wolfbrother's major operation and have not had any time for myself.
On thursady I went to go see a movie and had dinner, dropping off my Wolfbrother's mother and came home. I was in a good mood and even sent my Wolfbrother a video from the latest pokemon Nintendo Direct about about Sword & Shield. It was late approaching like 3:30am. I decided to go to sleep and lay down. As I lay in my area and tried to fall asleep I noticed an invisible being standing by the shelf. I paid it no mind, figuring it was just me being tired.
Around 4:00am my alarm went off. I was drowzie and turned it off. I took the phone and went to my sleeping area. I was trying to get back to sleep and looking at my nightlight and thought.. "What is the yellow light? I have blue light..." and faded off to sleep. The next thing I hear is my aunt yell and I am quickly awake.
I look for my clothes and only have my sheet which I cover myself in and run. The weird thing was that there was no door, and I don't think I was in the room. I also had trouble running as it took effort since my foot was touching the ground entirely and had to bound like a quadruped to get some momentum. The path I took exited the room into a hallway in which I made a left passing by a few rooms (In hindsight this was not my house, I passed a few rooms and was making a beeline to where my aunt was screaming. I good hear their murmurs from the passing rooms). As I got closer my aunt screamed "Don't come in! They are in here. Go get Sebastian. Don't come in!". Of course I thought to myself fuck it and leaped in. It was darkness, they were trying to blind me and stop me. I bounded in growling and was surrounded. They attempted to attack and intrude my mind. All I heard was "How is he resisting?", "You indicated this one was asleep", "He should not be here", "Put him down", and a few of the smaller ones came in and began to physical pummel and dog pile me. "How is he doing that? He shouldn't be able?", "Oh it is that ONE. He is progressing". They beat my unconscious.
I wake up in the room with my aunt and she is crying. It is not well illuminated, but I can see her and hear her, relying on my other senses. I am in pain, but shake it off. She looks at me and asks what's wrong with my eye. I told her don't worry. From what I noticed looking from her POV... my left eye was all black. Meaning the pupil and eye were black like theirs. I told her and re-assured her it was me. At that point Sebastian tried to run in, was pulled back, and then I yelled "Give him back", and pounded on the door. She started crying and told me that they put her on a table and were doing things. I could see another room nearby... it was like her bathroom sort of in that it was an adjacent room with an air vent and fan. I went there and yelled "I can see you. I know you are up there", the lights moved. "You know who I am. Stop this!". One of them came out holding Sebastian who did not move. "We know who you are" it communicated. "You know what you must do. You are not to involve yourself with you Wolfbrother. He is our broken toy and not yours. His phase is over and no longer requires your presence". "Leave Sebastian out of this" I think back. It continues "Your love for him gives him hope, you continue to support and be a beacon. He is ours. You cannot save him. He is ours as well as you". He begins to peel off the black from Sebastians claw revealing the quick. "Stop!" I communicate. "You and her will be removed within a year and a half. We have told you this. Your attachments make you inferior, he is an animal like you. You will comply. Yes?", he states and begins to split Sebastian's claw. "Stop it." I yell.
The next thing I know I am standing in a field of yellow grass at some abandoned playing field. In the distance there are six dust devils coming down from grey clouds in a hexagon pattern. There are a group of men with me. My wolfbrother is standing with me. He tells me we need to get through. They are trying to separate us. I tell him I know and request that he take my hand and not let go. We will get through this but he needs to hold on. The other men I recognize, I meet them before, people I have identified as "touched" like myself. As we trying to pass the dust devils, I can hear their thoughts "What are you doing? He is ours? You cannot simply just leave. You are more advanced than you know, but not beyond our reach. Stop what you are doing". I tell my wolfbrother to run and not let go. As we brave the dust devils and our goal is in sight and they come at us again. My wings unfurl and I am keeping them at bay. I look at my wolfbrother and tell him "I love you, together we can fight them off. Our love can.." he looks at me and lets go, he says "I changed my mind. They made me a better offer. See you" and walk off. I am wounded by him. The other men make it through. Others are coming at me.... their drones. Among the throng of them I see Dominic.... he is lost....
I stand there and scream, extending my wings up and leaving that place.
I wake up in my room. I am confused and start crying. My body hurts. I am not sure what happened. I remember my aunt screaming and I quickly get Sebastian and check on her. She is confused a bit and tells me she had a bad dream. She remembers screaming because someone came in and touched her. THEY came in. She recalls saying "Don't come in they are here". She remembers tell me about a "table", and she become concerned because THEY got Sebastian. I filled her in on my part, as she confirmed this was not a dream. we couldn't go back to sleep.....
I was sore and had trouble breathing. My right ankle, my left calf, my left side under my ribcage, my right shoulder, and my left eye and temple were all sore. I felt as if someone beat me (which was the case). I could not find bruises, but I am internally sore, even after a day. My PTSD is up, but I am pushing through for my Wolfbrother.
I did communicate with him the events that happened. Later that day when meditating with him... his "friends" spoke to me. They liked "my singing" and want me to continue helping him. They won't help me though, my wolfbrother must "join" with me first. They said we are made for eachother. I am so tired of being pulled in both directions, my Wolfbrother not listening to reason or the evidence we have. I do not know what to do.
I just want to run and find someone... but there is no one.
Friday, June 7, 2019
Saturday, May 18, 2019
Betrayal and Death
Date: May 18th, 2019
Type: CE4, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:30am-7:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:30am
State of Mind Before: Sad (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/???(Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Physically Ill, Weak (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)???(Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: Full Moon
Odd occurrences after: None
It has been a very bad two weeks. In these past weeks my wolfbrother back stabbed me with accusations, my pipes broke, and the abusive family members returned causing trauma again to my aunt and I. Real world horrors have shadowed over any of the oddities that have occurred....until a few days ago.
Beginning Thursday morning, May 16th I been having odd dreams. These are not dreams, but mental intrusions referencing some recent events. I been speaking with some man, and he was telling me to remember a specific word spelling it out for me. It had to do with overall situation in hand. He wanted to see if I would remember. I told him I am not interested in playing these games. It would depend if I felt like recording it. Yet since there are major issues with my wolfbrother and I am to be gone in two years, what is the point. I told him of my limited incentive as things are falling around me. I was told I have no choice and in his midsentance I woke myself up.
Friday morning I started to have the same issue. However they did show up and something was done to my right arm around the wrist and elbow. My wrist has an old scar, but it seemed recently accessed. The scar itself seems "new" and is rather prominent. It looks like a flap.... as if someone went over with a laser and made a flap of skin. The whole day it bothered my..... not only because I was focusing on it... but the physical irritation as well. Because I was troubled and my PTSD and Depression were high I took an evening nap. At 6:30pm my right elbow "buzzed" and I turned off not awakening until 10pm. I did go and run errands, but I still feel forlon and upset. I don't feel safe, not from the issues of the abduction and visits...but the real world bullshit. I want this nonsense stopped, I want them to all go away, and I pray that my feelings do not turn to vengeance. Cause I hope that they suffer for what they have done and continue to do to me....
I kept such feelings at bay, keeping myself busy doing research up until 4:30am. At that time I heard the "Why are you not sleep? Go to bed. We have business". Now during the night I would notice someone standing and watching me, only to fade away. I am aware of their presence...and try to keep my thoughts grounded in what activity or research I am performing. However I gave into their instruction and went to lay down. At first I thought to put on the AC and have the audio on.... but stayed my hand as I was told "No".
As soon as I lay down it started, I couldn't move. I did my best to get up and do something but my body was non-responsive. I could hear them discussing what to do with me, they were irritated that I wasn't complying, my interest in my wolfbrother is no more, and I kept waking up. One of them was focusing on me, letting me know that I could be trapped in this state forever if they wanted to. It pissed me off and was enjoying my struggles. It said for me to say "I need a physician", but in the sense of getting me to ask for their help. Instead I managed to punch myself in the face and wake up. My right upper arm was hurting and I felt extremely weak. They were in the room..... I was awake. I turned over trying to move, but that was the best I could do. I could not get up. They approached once more and I was under.
"Stop doing that!" I was yelled at in my head. "You keep struggling. Why?! No one wants you. Give up. Stop running". I continued to struggle, they opened my mouth and were looking in. I think something was inserted in. "He is aware. Turn him off", one said. "He is resisting. Why is this one so defective. The other is so compliant. What one is the other is not. The other is and this one is not. Same, but different. This one should have been compliant. The other one should have been stronger". I stated "I can hear you. When I really awake I will hunt you down for what you have done to my brother and I. I know what you are. These victories are just momentary, but in the end I will win." Another spoke "So brave, so confident. Your love makes you weak". I was experiencing pain in my left arm now. I heard my canine from cry and hit the gate.
"Get away from him. I will destroy you all". I continued to struggle and began to hyperventilate. Again I gasped for breath and was free. They are still in the room. I can feel their irritation. I cannot see anything, I can make out the time 5:45am on the clock just barely as one was in the way. I cannot get up, I feel so weak physically, they have done something to me. I go under.
"I need a physician" I mutter. They begin to finish up what they are doing. My extremities are cold, beneath the knees and elbows. I am not my wolfbrother, why are they comparing me to him. We are physical different. I am not going in for surgery. He wants nothing to do with me. I am not him. Their probings have to do with my wolfbrother's physical state. I am still struggling. Finallya round 7:00am they leave and I take in a deep breathe and am able to move freely. I feel weak, but manage to get up. When I go to the bathroom I cough up blood and mucus. I urinate, and it is crystal clear. My core temp is extremely high, but extremities are numb. I am shakey a bit and return to my bedding. I quickly let my guest know of what happened via text. I also text my wolfbrother.... apparently they were torturing him as well.
Type: CE4, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:30am-7:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:30am
State of Mind Before: Sad (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/???(Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Physically Ill, Weak (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)???(Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: Full Moon
Odd occurrences after: None
It has been a very bad two weeks. In these past weeks my wolfbrother back stabbed me with accusations, my pipes broke, and the abusive family members returned causing trauma again to my aunt and I. Real world horrors have shadowed over any of the oddities that have occurred....until a few days ago.
Beginning Thursday morning, May 16th I been having odd dreams. These are not dreams, but mental intrusions referencing some recent events. I been speaking with some man, and he was telling me to remember a specific word spelling it out for me. It had to do with overall situation in hand. He wanted to see if I would remember. I told him I am not interested in playing these games. It would depend if I felt like recording it. Yet since there are major issues with my wolfbrother and I am to be gone in two years, what is the point. I told him of my limited incentive as things are falling around me. I was told I have no choice and in his midsentance I woke myself up.
Friday morning I started to have the same issue. However they did show up and something was done to my right arm around the wrist and elbow. My wrist has an old scar, but it seemed recently accessed. The scar itself seems "new" and is rather prominent. It looks like a flap.... as if someone went over with a laser and made a flap of skin. The whole day it bothered my..... not only because I was focusing on it... but the physical irritation as well. Because I was troubled and my PTSD and Depression were high I took an evening nap. At 6:30pm my right elbow "buzzed" and I turned off not awakening until 10pm. I did go and run errands, but I still feel forlon and upset. I don't feel safe, not from the issues of the abduction and visits...but the real world bullshit. I want this nonsense stopped, I want them to all go away, and I pray that my feelings do not turn to vengeance. Cause I hope that they suffer for what they have done and continue to do to me....
I kept such feelings at bay, keeping myself busy doing research up until 4:30am. At that time I heard the "Why are you not sleep? Go to bed. We have business". Now during the night I would notice someone standing and watching me, only to fade away. I am aware of their presence...and try to keep my thoughts grounded in what activity or research I am performing. However I gave into their instruction and went to lay down. At first I thought to put on the AC and have the audio on.... but stayed my hand as I was told "No".
As soon as I lay down it started, I couldn't move. I did my best to get up and do something but my body was non-responsive. I could hear them discussing what to do with me, they were irritated that I wasn't complying, my interest in my wolfbrother is no more, and I kept waking up. One of them was focusing on me, letting me know that I could be trapped in this state forever if they wanted to. It pissed me off and was enjoying my struggles. It said for me to say "I need a physician", but in the sense of getting me to ask for their help. Instead I managed to punch myself in the face and wake up. My right upper arm was hurting and I felt extremely weak. They were in the room..... I was awake. I turned over trying to move, but that was the best I could do. I could not get up. They approached once more and I was under.
"Stop doing that!" I was yelled at in my head. "You keep struggling. Why?! No one wants you. Give up. Stop running". I continued to struggle, they opened my mouth and were looking in. I think something was inserted in. "He is aware. Turn him off", one said. "He is resisting. Why is this one so defective. The other is so compliant. What one is the other is not. The other is and this one is not. Same, but different. This one should have been compliant. The other one should have been stronger". I stated "I can hear you. When I really awake I will hunt you down for what you have done to my brother and I. I know what you are. These victories are just momentary, but in the end I will win." Another spoke "So brave, so confident. Your love makes you weak". I was experiencing pain in my left arm now. I heard my canine from cry and hit the gate.
"Get away from him. I will destroy you all". I continued to struggle and began to hyperventilate. Again I gasped for breath and was free. They are still in the room. I can feel their irritation. I cannot see anything, I can make out the time 5:45am on the clock just barely as one was in the way. I cannot get up, I feel so weak physically, they have done something to me. I go under.
"I need a physician" I mutter. They begin to finish up what they are doing. My extremities are cold, beneath the knees and elbows. I am not my wolfbrother, why are they comparing me to him. We are physical different. I am not going in for surgery. He wants nothing to do with me. I am not him. Their probings have to do with my wolfbrother's physical state. I am still struggling. Finallya round 7:00am they leave and I take in a deep breathe and am able to move freely. I feel weak, but manage to get up. When I go to the bathroom I cough up blood and mucus. I urinate, and it is crystal clear. My core temp is extremely high, but extremities are numb. I am shakey a bit and return to my bedding. I quickly let my guest know of what happened via text. I also text my wolfbrother.... apparently they were torturing him as well.
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