Solstice Happenings and Activity

Date: 6/14/2024 and 6/15/2024
Type: CE3,CE 4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:00am/10:30pm/5:30am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:30 (Me)
State of Mind Before: Stressed, Depressed
State of Mind After: Bothered (Wolfbrother), Upset (Me), Scarred (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Odd Knocking on the Walls, Hearing their Presence.
Odd occurrences after: Nausea and Headache (Me)

So far the activity has been relatively light overall. Most of the activity is focused around my wolfbrother and usually cannot be confirmed. As mentioned my wolfbrother does has been afflicted with an unknown psychosis in which lead to the accident and the problems we have had in his recovery. His behavior during our entire relationship has been one of CE5 mentality, attempting to work and bargain with these beings.

Early Friday morning after I made my rounds and put them to bed, I secluded myself in our auxiliary space. Wolfbrother antics do not allow me restful sleep, and I am on edge. I know that they have been monitoring me and keeping quiet. I can sense their presence and I do my best to keep it out of mind, trying to keep occupied between my duties as a caregiver and my hobbies. I do not want to sleep. Deep down I am scared and depressed, I just do not show it nor deal with it since I have two other people to care for. I accept the way things are; I am not loved, nor worthy of love, I am broken, THEY will always be watching, and no one finds value in me....I am just a useful tool for those I serve. I do want to end my life, but I have duties and responsibilities that come before me. So far when I seclude I been trying to get my mind off thing by watching Letterkenny.

At this time around 2:00am, I have a feeling they are around while I am watching my show. I ignore, despite hearing a odd knock on the wall outside. The door outside moved. Again I did my best to ignore.

My aunt claims that a tall entity walked into to her room, looked at her and checked out the room quickly and walked out. She tried calling me, but I was out of range. Wolfbrother does not recall any yelling or unusual activity.

 

Friday night after he went out to smoke, my wolfbrother was relaxing and listen to music in the back. He calls me saying that they are on the neighbors roof and a tall white is walking out back. I go out and I do not see anything, but I do detect a weird pressence in the sense my hair is up and I feel funny in the head. I explain since I do not see anything, I cannot confirm his experience...but something seems off. He says they are watching us. I taking him in and resume my duties, making sure they go to bed. Again I go and seclude myself and watch some TV. I am not bothered and concerned by the events, I am just depressed and and stressed with everyday life; inflation, illegal immigration, and idiotic policies going on.

 

It is getting late and it is after 4am, it should be safe and I get ready for sleep. I try to get comfortable and knock out right away, which should be a read flag....since the past few days I had trouble feeling comfortable.... and was "bothered". I have a very odd dream. I am in my room, but my grandmother was there. She was asking why and how come my wolfbrother is occupying my room and why am I caring for him. I explain the situation. She then comments on how tired I look, worn, and that I should make sure I am okay. I reassure here that I am doing the best I can, but there is no one to step in...and there is no help. I am alone. I start to feel bad, as I know no loves me and I would never be able to have a normal relationship with someone because I am defective and that I have THIS issue. I tell her I have things to do and start working on my computer files to make myself feel better. We started have a discussion about UFO's on how they seem bigger on the inside and why a sphere is used. As the gravity of the craft is on the interior of the walls with the main engine and power source is at the center. I mentioned to that FTL travel is achieved by manipulating gravity and transitioning to 2D. That its is a matter of perspective as a 3D environment can exist with a 2D space, just as we can see a 4D object in 3D space. With It is getting late and I go check on my aunt. She is in her room reading her book. There is something off with her room as the furniture was moved around to original position, no window, and wrong dog with her. She says "I am reading. You can go away. I do not need anything". I just say "ok" and leave. As I walk out I notice that the other bedroom there is a bright light in there, and know what that is. From under the door crack I can see an elongated toe with a dark claw (this is not typical at all). I attempt to leave, but their is a weird magnetic force emanating from the door. I feel week and unable to move, but I am fighting it...I yell for my grandmother to come and pull me past the threshold of the bathroom. She asks whats going on and I tell her "They are here", I even mention that there is an odd force present. I put my key on the floor and they are pulled down the hall. I say we need to arm ourselves... she goes into the kitchen. As I look back the door open and it comes out and walks into my aunt's room. She screams. I tell my grandmother to get a knife, it is coming. It walks out quickly from her room and toward the kitchen. I run toward the kitchen to arm myself, my grandmother is not present. It is standing at the threshold of the laundry room were the kitchen is and looks at me. It is attempting to make me submit by staring at me. My mind starts to get fuzzy and I feel that I am gonna turn off.  I say "No. Not playing this game", and I begin to blur the image and thoughts all white. I feel as if I cam going to throw up too. An odd mental broadcast from it was being repeated in the background "New Format. New Format. New Format. New Format"... and I was keenly aware what I was seeing was not the usual, it was disguising itself. The being was tall and gangly, approximate 6'8", the arms were bent as if the space was too small for it and it had very long fingers. It was almond shape in color, but the head was small with deep eyessockets and black orbs inside. It reminded me of a cross between the depiction of "The Silence" and "Alien 4" xenomorph-hybrid. It was set on making fall asleep. 

As mentioned I was getting mentally attacked and was attempting to "white out" the situation. I woke up talking and fully aware of transitioning. I wanted to vomit and felt dazed. I quickly looked at my phone, and it was 5:30am. I stated to write down everything, when I was done ironically Wolfbrother called me in around 6:45am. I let him know what had happened, and that I did not feel well nor that I wanted to live. It was bothering me a lot... which usually does not happen. I just asked him to allow me some rest and stayed with him. When we woke up later I was able to resume my duties,

 

Alien Abductuion and Psychiatry

 

One thing that is still going on today is that individual who experience Alien Abductions are considered schizophrenic or delusion by our mental health field. This stigmata within the Mental Health practice does more harm than good, as the trauma (real or imagined) is there when it comes to Alien Abduction. I can speak first hand of that and my own journey throughout my life.

Depression, Anxiety, Isolation, and Stress are among of the biggest symptoms in my opinion of the trauma. Depression sets in as most have to deal with an experience they cannot control, one that can make someone feel powerless to do anything about. Anxiety can come in for those who are repeat abductee and those scared of a re-occurrence or the inability to recall the event. Isolation becomes a big factor as you do not know whom to talk to or express your feelings to. Stress become a problem when it interferes with family life and work. When some abductions occur it can cause a full blown panic attack that disrupts your life for a time. Again, at this point we should be concerned with the state of an individual at this point and do our best to relieve the issues at hand.

So now we are left with the problem of going to seek help. In a perfect world we could go and ask our doctor for a referral for mental health. From there we can find the right person to talk to about our problems...... but in truth.... unless is addiction, gender transitioning,  or full blown mental breakdown no one gives a shit. You will be told to contact you county's Mental Health line and maybe in a couple of months you have the chance to speak to a social worker who might direct you to a therapist who might be able to squeeze you in....but if your not into taking pills they will really not help. You are most likely gonna have to find a therapist out of network and out of pocket that will cost at least $200, and then if you can reveal in the hour you have booked.... they may try to help or just call you delusion and say you need professional help. Now for those with a religious bent.. you can always seek therapy from your pastor....but then you get "Demons/Spiritual Warfare" sermon.

Truly this is a sad state of our current mental health model, not to mention any one dealing with Alien Abduction. So then when you turn to alternative measures... you are thrown into a world of UFO Conventions and Enthusiasts... that find this fun and entertaining. It's about conspiracies and government cover-ups or the Veil and the awakening. You will even find people trying to convince you that your abduction was really an introduction to your ascension..... let's turn around now from that and back to psychiatry. That is a whole other kettle of fish I do not recommend finding solace in.

If you find someone to talk to, be honest on how you feel right now. Work your way back. Part of therapy is finding root causes, and a therapist/psychologist will try to find a rational root cause. Some may claim that it is a trauma manifesting from your past; child abuse or sexual abuse are among the most common, and sometimes claiming that you want attention too. While many of us have these traumas, it is important to relate and exam that this event is just that.... a current event that has caused stress. In many cases, an abduction encounter does cross with certain traumas mentioned above and can be intertwined with many other things. Such is life though, everyone's life is a complicated mess...sometimes interwoven in strange events. Yet, there are things that are just occurring that bothers us. This is what you must deal with.... the feelings you are going through and its connection to your encounter. Try to come to terms with what happened and do your best to move forward. If you are lucky....it was a one time occurrence. If not... well that is something else we can get into.

Now the mental health field has done some research into alien abductions and mental health. Many papers have been written and most conclude that those speaking about it are delusional or suffer from schizophrenia. Here are some Medical Case Studies regarding this...

Abducted by aliens: a case study
-A D Neagoe

Alien abduction experiences: Some clues from neuropsychology and neuropsychiatry
-Katharine J. Holden & Christopher C. French

Unimpaired abduction to alien abduction: Lessons on delusion formation
-Ema Sullivan-Bissett

Despite our U.S. Congress investigating UFO/UAP and other government acknowledging a phenomena, we still have the medical community discounting experiences with something "unspecified" that leaves a definite trauma. These events can cause people to commit suicide in some cases or unhealthy decisions to try and combat the trauma they are experiencing. I am not advocating for accepting all things as true, but listen to the individual and try to resolve the depression, anxiety, stress, and other impacting feelings that come up. From there you can delve as deep as you want...sometime discovering perhaps it was an unresolved trauma....but it may be an events that is unspecified.

If you are looking for help... the only ones available for a fee are a few notable therapists within the UFO community that do the conventions. Some of them genuinely want to help you with your trauma, and some do have a network of individuals they can refer you to. When you are desperate for answers and help, you have to take chances. From the therapist I know, with decades of experience, there are more and more professionals opening up to the idea of helping those with this specific trauma.

For those you deal with this stuff I feel for you. I know it is hard and frustrating to deal with. I myself have gone to low points in my life because of this. It does not get better, but it is manageable in the sense of dealing with an unavoidable issue..... like taxes.