I am unnervingly calm. I mean, I am no longer as fearful or dreading sleeping. Seems a new approach has been taken by them. Exhaustion... I am so tired I just knock out now.
Tonight's wonderful episodes happened early between 11:40, 12:40, and 1:40. I kept opening my eyes and those were the times on the clock. The first episode I was just fidgeting... I awoke, but was too tired to get up. Second time same thing, I was too tired and contemplated getting up. I heard a noise but didn't care....then I felt something behind me as I turned around to go back to sleep. I became paralyzed.
I couldn't move, yet I was flipped over some how to face the room. My eyes were already closed. I was struggling as best as I could to move a toe, a finger or anything, even to cry out. I know during this time I was being asked several questions, "Why do you continue to resist? Your will is quite strong, but your body is low". There were other sounds too like a vocal weird buzzing and murmuring.
Finally my legs jerked and rubbed against eachother. That when my fingers began to de-stiffen and made an attempt to scream. It came out as a moan. That when I snapped out of it and it was 1:40.
Although nothing happened the previous night that I recall. I did have an unexplained wound. Upper left thigh, appears to be two puncture wounds. Was bleeding.
No inflammation, and does not appear to be a spider bite.
Unfortunately the only occurrence my aunt noticed was sirens outside, a gunshot, and someone screaming.I didn't hear any of it. Not sure to count this as a dream or a real case.
My Experiences and Personal Quest to find what the heck is going. Journey throughout my life I have encountered others who have experienced the same thing. Why is this happening? What is the reason? What can we do to stop this? Hopefully together we can find the answer.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Is it over?
For the past two weeks I have barley slept. Out of exhaustion I finally got at least a full 8 hours of sleep or so. I was too tired to care anymore. For the previous couple of nights its been terrifying. I know that they were watching.
8/24/09 between the hours of 2:30-4:00 AM. That night I though I could finally go to sleep, but I knew I was being observed. Although I am discounting what I saw... due to sleep deprivation and heightened anxiety. I was being stared at from through window. My mental state, although anxious is luckily functional and has not impacted my work.
Although I am functioning, due to my stress level... this episode is iffy.
8/26/09 2:00 AM to 3:30 AM. As in the opening I was just exhausted. I fell asleep. What annoyed me was when and where I woke up. I awoke immediately and fully awake exactly at 3:18 AM. I was wide awake and covered outside my bed. My bed is unique in that well...just let say the way I awoke I was "placed" back incorrectly. I have had my bed configured a certain way for years and have never wrapped/entangled myself in my sheets. There are no marks or scars and at this point I do not remember nothing.
Afterward I simply went to use the washroom and tried to calm myself down. Hopefully they got what they want and will leave me alone for a while.
8/24/09 between the hours of 2:30-4:00 AM. That night I though I could finally go to sleep, but I knew I was being observed. Although I am discounting what I saw... due to sleep deprivation and heightened anxiety. I was being stared at from through window. My mental state, although anxious is luckily functional and has not impacted my work.
Although I am functioning, due to my stress level... this episode is iffy.
8/26/09 2:00 AM to 3:30 AM. As in the opening I was just exhausted. I fell asleep. What annoyed me was when and where I woke up. I awoke immediately and fully awake exactly at 3:18 AM. I was wide awake and covered outside my bed. My bed is unique in that well...just let say the way I awoke I was "placed" back incorrectly. I have had my bed configured a certain way for years and have never wrapped/entangled myself in my sheets. There are no marks or scars and at this point I do not remember nothing.
Afterward I simply went to use the washroom and tried to calm myself down. Hopefully they got what they want and will leave me alone for a while.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)