Saturday, August 29, 2009

Not sure what going on now.....

I am unnervingly calm. I mean, I am no longer as fearful or dreading sleeping. Seems a new approach has been taken by them. Exhaustion... I am so tired I just knock out now.
Tonight's wonderful episodes happened early between 11:40, 12:40, and 1:40. I kept opening my eyes and those were the times on the clock. The first episode I was just fidgeting... I awoke, but was too tired to get up. Second time same thing, I was too tired and contemplated getting up. I heard a noise but didn't care....then I felt something behind me as I turned around to go back to sleep. I became paralyzed.

I couldn't move, yet I was flipped over some how to face the room. My eyes were already closed. I was struggling as best as I could to move a toe, a finger or anything, even to cry out. I know during this time I was being asked several questions, "Why do you continue to resist? Your will is quite strong, but your body is low". There were other sounds too like a vocal weird buzzing and murmuring.
Finally my legs jerked and rubbed against eachother. That when my fingers began to de-stiffen and made an attempt to scream. It came out as a moan. That when I snapped out of it and it was 1:40.

Although nothing happened the previous night that I recall. I did have an unexplained wound. Upper left thigh, appears to be two puncture wounds. Was bleeding.
No inflammation, and does not appear to be a spider bite.

Unfortunately the only occurrence my aunt noticed was sirens outside, a gunshot, and someone screaming.I didn't hear any of it. Not sure to count this as a dream or a real case.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Is it over?

For the past two weeks I have barley slept. Out of exhaustion I finally got at least a full 8 hours of sleep or so. I was too tired to care anymore. For the previous couple of nights its been terrifying. I know that they were watching.

8/24/09 between the hours of 2:30-4:00 AM. That night I though I could finally go to sleep, but I knew I was being observed. Although I am discounting what I saw... due to sleep deprivation and heightened anxiety. I was being stared at from through window. My mental state, although anxious is luckily functional and has not impacted my work.
Although I am functioning, due to my stress level... this episode is iffy.

8/26/09 2:00 AM to 3:30 AM. As in the opening I was just exhausted. I fell asleep. What annoyed me was when and where I woke up. I awoke immediately and fully awake exactly at 3:18 AM. I was wide awake and covered outside my bed. My bed is unique in that well...just let say the way I awoke I was "placed" back incorrectly. I have had my bed configured a certain way for years and have never wrapped/entangled myself in my sheets. There are no marks or scars and at this point I do not remember nothing.
Afterward I simply went to use the washroom and tried to calm myself down. Hopefully they got what they want and will leave me alone for a while.