Love can be worse than Fear

Although not really rated to aliens or ghosts... it is a dream. A couple of times, in the past during on of the abductions they did play minds games with me like this..... this was just a dream. Either way the effects were hurtful nonetheless.

In life we have few moments of happiness... with certain family and friends (pets) or just truly memorable events.
Some of us though have had lives that well, we only know pain... betrayal... disappointment... envy ... jealousy... hate... and indifference from those we deal with as family member and other people we socially interact with.
Those of us that have lived those kinda lives have built up a tolerance in which apathy is luxury and emotions are muted... we begin to internalize most of what we feel good or bad and appear on the surface as "ok".
It seems it only when reality throws us a curve ball an we experience "happiness/love", something our system can't handle becuase well it is painful... it makes us vulnerable and soothes everything in a moment... yet when absent it makes things worse as we are thrown back a place without it... where we feel  intense pain becuase what we longed for so much has been denied... we have been given a taste... but that it... we can see it around us.. give it to others.... but never again able to know its bliss. You can over come fear.... you can overcome pain... by you can't overcome love.

That is what has me all in a world of pain right now. I happened to dream.... more of a memory of a time past... when I was truly happy.. when I knew together we could accomplish and withstand anything. I awoke in my dream in the place I felt safe and happy....I was completely happy and overjoyed.. in bliss. At that moment I was lost in comfort and in happiness... nothing mattered other than that moment... all of my worries were gone.. it wasn't until I woke up again... into this reality... that I realized that what I experience was just a dream/memory. In a childish way I tried to force myself to go back to sleep to go back.... but it did not happen.

I tried to rationalize love as a fear to overcome.... but it is not working right now... it is so sad that one of the most cherished emotions can be so painful.   

Hiding in the UV Spectrum

As we know "light" is a tricky and wondrous thing. It can not only illuminates our surroundings, but can change temperatures, transmit data (fiber optics), etch (holograms), and create illusions (TV, photographs, etc). It basically helps define reality in some sense....

As some of you may have already read, "Blue Lights" are common with Alien Abductions and I theorized that the blue lights have a connection with the ability to paralyze individuals. Currently there has been research into paralyzing and UV Lighting, based upon a chemical recreation to the light's wave lengths.... and certain chemical that are excited/enhanced by certain wavelength which increase the potency.

Now an interesting thing about light is that we as human only have the ability to a certain number of colors. Within the animal kingdom, certain animals have better color vision than we do allowing them with the ability to detect a great amount of the visible light spectrum, while others see less color allowing vision for a few wavelengths.

Now why is this important? As we have advanced in scientific research we have identified that colors and the reflection of light can show us hidden things that our eyes/brain do not normal detect. A simple example of this phenomena is with a Blacklight.... the wavelength it omits allows us to see items not normally reflected in our range of sight. Blacklight wavelengths can uncover stains not visible to the naked eye. Lately there has been some research with blacklight and alien abductees. Apparently contact with greys and aliens leave some type of residue that shows up under UV lighting. There have been reports of abductees and cow mutilations were blacklight was introduced, that areas on the individual re-acted. Most of the areas that re-acted were tested to see if it was a topical phenomena (above skin like dust or liquid) but almost all areas seemed to indicate that they were sub-dermal in nature (oil or prolong contact). Most creatures leave a residue whether it be oil or scent.


The other part of this light article is about recording devices..... the technology we have today sometimes gives us the ability to photograph/record things that are not within our spectrum of vision. In other words they capture a great amount of the visible spectrum. That is why sometimes ghostly phenomena and UFOs can be pick up on these devices.


If interested I suggest to check out the following pages about visible light......Color Vision and Visible Spectrum.

Unknown Grey Entity

Date: Feb. 8, 2011
Type: Ghost
Location: Los Angeles, CA
Time of Incidents: 11:30pm-11:45pm
Attempted Time of Sleep: N/A
State of Mind Before: Happy (Me), Sad, Depress (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Vigilant (Me), Scared (Aunt).
Odd occurrences before: 7 Block Street Light Outage since 2/4/11.
Odd occurrences after: None.
Possible Influential Factors: None

I was playing a video game and was happy. For the past week I have been exhausted and apathetic. My aunt however has been depressed due to her physical health.

At around 11:30pm, she say a grey figure in the hallway walk by toward the living room. She thought it was me. It made no sound. After trying to get more details... she said it was solid, humanoid, but a bit taller than me. I made a sweep of the house. Only thing odd I found in the vicinity was an insect which I disposed off. As I left to my room to use the "facilities", she yelled again... she was visibly shaken. She said it passed again, this tine in the opposite direction. I did a sweep again. Only thing I noted is that there was a strange light breeze in the hall. All windows are closed, but the slight breeze could be from the central air vents.

As stated previously, we have been hearing footsteps in the hall between the hours of 1pm-5pm.