Memory..... why do I remember......

Someone asked me any important question..... "How do you remember what happens to you?".
"Is it a dream-like or something clear?". In all honesty I just remember....

I am not a neuro-biologist, nor do I hold a degree in medicine.... but what I can tell you comes from what I have read and seen about how our brain works. Those that have studied biology and psychology know that our memories and the brain in a complex things.... our brain process our memories by the data it receives through our senses.... sight, sound, touch, taste, smell, etc..... these response are encoded into our brain via cell and neuro patterns that form in our brain. The memory is made up of bytes of data from each region and are reformed to give a complete memory. Repetition of an event help encoding the structure, so our brains can easily retrieve the information.... ergo the old adage "Practice makes perfect".

However, although we get the basics of who memory works we still don't know enough of it.
Plus we know there is both short term and long term memory....not to mention... forgetting... and that the brain is a biological mechanism that is making this happen which is prone to age, disease, and damage.... so where is our memory and core being stored really? Science has yet to include the "spirit" or a mechanism that is a replicate of what philosophy calls the soul and its part in memory.

However... getting back to the topic... why and how do I remember the events that happen to me? As I cued in earlier.... repetition. Since i have been constantly abducted in the same manner for years, the pattern of sensations are hard coded...despite all the mind wiping they have done. My body is aware of every time they come because the familiar sensations are repeated... that gives me the cue to remember.... when they leave the same things.... these sensations of there withdrawal are repeated. The reason why we remember some things are because the tests they do are repetitive.... sometimes they also make us remember because the event is traumatic..... other times why we don't remember is simply because are mind encodes the event as something else a dream or screened out because it was such a negative experience we shouldn't remember it. You can suppress things, but.... there is always evidence.... evidence of absence.... evidence of oddity... it like with black holes.... you can't see them... but you can see their passing.


At least from my research into the topic of memory... it re-affirms something that I have stated... be aware of everything that is happening... not just from sound and sight... but the other sensations.... all things things can help you remember things by keying in familiar patterns to help bring about the memory.

I been living with this for all of my life... I know how scary things can get... and yes... it is life threatening... it can mess up your life... but we as individual can over come any challenge at us... life has a way of always surviving and evolving. The whole fact that these experiences are happening to us are showing us one thing... that there is knowledge beyond what we know... that the rules of space and time and universals law are that we know are just the tip of the iceberg... that there are possibilities and probabilities out there.
There is hope.

New Abduction Techiques or Abductors?

Date: April, 26, 2011
Type: Paranormal
Location: Los Angeles, CA
Time of Incidents: 5:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 2:30am
State of Mind Before: Tired, Depressed, Apprehensive
State of Mind After: Bothered, Sad, Depressed, Dumbfounded.
Odd occurrences before: Subconsciously apprehensive about going to sleep, odd noises. Note... Full Moon previously on Sunday.
Odd occurrences after: Items in room were moved, dumbfounded state for 1 1/2 hours.

As reported something odd has happened in general this weekend. As usual I try to remain calm and collective, approaching his analytically and logically. However... last night was one of these events were obvious proof and their presence disturbs me.

Last night I had trouble going to bed... I was not tired and tried to get myself to go to sleep. I noticed I felt apprehensive about going to sleep... I wanted to go to sleep but my body would not relax. After lulling myself into state of comfort... I started to here some noises ... although my mind instantly put me on alert.. I told myself to ignore it and I am just being apprehensive. It will be all right.

I dreamt. It was the stupid dreams about reality... scenarios about people and places in the past.. interacting with people that are no longer in my life. Stuff full of regret and loss as one would say. However, their was an urgency in the dream for me to get home... always.. to get home. When I finally got home... I remember waking up. Apparently my aunt fell on the floor in the hallway. I had to pick her up and she said they came (this was in the dream).

At that moment I woke up.... I was shivering... my left eye felt dry...my left side of my face felt numb. I was cold..... The clock showed 5:55 am. (5:30 am I have times set differently on all clocks). My curtain was pulled back, and the fan was moved. I was scared... I knew what happened... they show up... odd though I was intimidated scared.... I oddly went to the cubby corner end of the bed and huddled there for the next hour of so...just scared and silent... with a feeling of denial, frightened, regret, and sadness. Around the time I needed to leave for work... I managed to pull myself together. However... I feel frazzled, very sad, and mentally lethargic. I believe they have been working the left side of my body in order to influence the right hemisphere of the brain. They were sloppy last night... and wanted me to know that yes it was them.

What is worse (proof) is that my aunt was woken up around 5:00 am.... she says she heard the usually footsteps. However something was trying to open my door. They tried the nob, but it was locked. But after a few rattles and such them managed to open the door. Later she heard them leave as well, with them closing the door. I asked her if there was anything unusual last night and this is what she stated.... I have not mentioned to her my incident.

Probing

Date: March-April, 25, 2011
Type: Paranormal
Location: Los Angeles, CA
Time of Incidents: 2:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 1:30am
State of Mind Before: Tired, Depressed
State of Mind After: Bothered, Sad, Depressed.
Odd occurrences before: Half-moon scratch on the left ankle, even line scratch of three spaced line on left shoulder, Left side of faced sore, bursted blood vessel on the left eye (outerside eye red/inner eye okay).
Odd occurrences after: Odd noises, walking, an episode of daytime sleep paralysis
Possible Influential Factors: Depression, Paranormal Activities.

About 1 month ago when I was leaving for work, after coughing and looking in the mirror to comb my hair... I noticed my eye was red. When I came home and took a shower and looked at my eye....during the day my left side of the face felt sore. As I examined my body, I noticed a scratch along my ankle and shoulder. All these injuries were on my left side. I thought this was odd... but simply chucked this up to unknown and was more concerned about my eye.

About a week later, during the day I had sleep paralysis. Again I thought this was from joint pressure on my ankles and wrists. Nothing vivid or odd. Again since I had a guest with me who was also asleep I gave no thought to this. Although I do not know why I felt so so sleepy that day.

Yesterday, after I put my aunt to bed I came to my room to sleep. I felt unusually warm and though it is just my body again overheating. As I lay down, I heard the oddest noise which was reminiscent of gold fish gasping for air... that slight and silent mouthing noise. The thing That I found odd was that there was a cold draft blowing into my bed. When I look to the edge, there was a draft lifting the curtain slight as if billowing from under the bed very slightly. At this time I saw the color of the carpet as if the light was on... but I felt oddly calm and didn't seem to care at the time. I was just glad it was cool.

It was at this time I noticed that my left eye had a problem. My night vision was decreased slightly, it wasn't as sharp as before. Again I thought this was odd.
I feel asleep. Next I woke up vibrating, my ankles felt they were being forced to touch, but my foot was tangle into the blankets and unable to touch. For about a minute I was vibrating.... not tingling.. not shaking... but vibrating as if you were humming. After this I was scared... and did not move... I awaited until I slowly stopped. It faded away from head/toes to the navel. I did not move and fell asleep. It did bother me when i woke up this morning... and I asked my aunt if anything odd happened. She stated that there were several odd hums last night as if something was vibrating. It would start and stop and last for a few minutes.
My left is hurts every so often after last night, and has twitched here an there.
I have also noticed that the left eye seems to have changed a bit (things appear slight closer and greens and yellow a bit more vivid).

As can be expected I am scarred, they are attempting an alternate form of abduction I believe... not the usual high pitch sound.... but humming and vibration.

Continuing Paranormal Occurances

Date: April. 23, 2011
Type: Paranormal
Location: Los Angeles, CA
Time of Incidents: 2:30am-5:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 3:00am
State of Mind Before: Tired, Depressed (Me), Sad, Depressed (Aunt)
State of Mind After: N/A (Me), Scared (Aunt).
Odd occurrences before: Odd Noises in the hall/outside wall knocks.
Odd occurrences after: Continued noises.
Possible Influential Factors: Depression

As I have been recording, there have been a number of unexplained noises that have been happening in the house. Some of the things I can rationalize as the house settling or the timbers and cement weakening due to age and exposure.

My aunt claims that moments after she turned off the TV that night, she felt very groggy and fell asleep. She felt like she was being lifted up and was floating upright. She recalls going down the hall, her feet never touching the ground and in the kitchen the image of her parents were there. They were dressed as they appear in the anniversary portrait that is found in the living room. They kept beckoning her to come to them. Behind them though there were about 5 humanoid figures of various heights and sizes...(too tall or too short, thin, oddly shaped) their faces and features could not be made out. Before she reached them, she awoke and felt that she was dropped back in her chair and it was 7am.

Now, that night before I went to sleep I had odd feelings, of them around. I been trying to ignore it becuase they seem as if it is just random thoughts. However, it is odd and a coincidence. Now... three views of have of my aunts incidents is this:

1) She was just having a vivid dream, and really misses her parents. It was a simple longing to reunite with them and that happens to be a picture she usually sees everyday of them.

2) She was contacted by their spirits letting her know her time is coming. She will be reunited with her passed on family.

3) Aliens are using an familiar and available image. They levitated her and watched her reactions to the image of her parents.

Television: V: The Visitors

 

Most of you will only recall that "V" premiered recently, but in fact is a remake of a show that aired in the 1980s. The show itself was based on a "what if" a massive UFO sightings occurred, witnessed by the global public, and the likely interaction that would fallout. In both the original series and the remake the "Visitors" are an alien race that traveled from their solar system to ours for "various reasons of peace and exploration". A fleet of motherships positioned themselves around the major cities of the world. When the visitors made official contact we find that they are human in appearance and seems very uniform social structure. Their ambassador to humanity and leader "Dianna/Anna" makes a peace offering to earth to offer a mutual exchange of technology and advance science with the world.

Over the course of the show, we show that humanity is split on seeing these visitors as saviors and beings to do business... while others fear that they hide sinister motives. In both series.... there are themes about invasion, hybrids, climate change, etc, and the eventual downfall of humanity.

Eventually we find out that these being are actually "Reptilians" who are wearing human skins to infiltrate and befriend humanity. There motives stem from a passive conquest with plan of taking over the planet for its resources and population. They seek to crossbreed with humans, or in the very least make some use from human genes. It become very apparent that they are sinister motives behind everything they have done, turning humanity against itself and bring much of the earth under their control.

It the remake, it is documented that the visitors have been interacting with the planet for quite sometime. Evidence of a skeleton was found during an archaeological dig, and one of the main characters seems to have been abducted and treated so here physical make up is more compatible with the visitors. human genes.

As many in the UFO/Abductee community know there have been reports for centuries of lizard like beings from the stars who are the basis for this show. They are known as "Reptilians", and on almost all accounts are extremely hostile and seek enslavement and breeding with humankind. It is rumored that this race has infiltrated the world's various government and powers and has slowly been influencing their agenda for decades. Now like Greys... there are various forms of "Reptilians"... one theory suggest they are from space... while another theory claims they have existed on our planet for centuries living within the earth.

Television: Doctor Who: The Silence

A new species has recently appeared in the latest "Doctor Who" series. So far the the show has been hinting at them for quite sometime, as they seem to be the force behind the destruction of the Tardis.

What is most peculiar is that they seem to be a composite of the greys that are usually seen among abductees.

Apparently these beings per the Storyline of "Doctor Who" have been on the planet for centuries, co-existing with humanity in an unseen method.... whether being clandestine and underground.... or being able to affect ones memory. Not much is known about the species at this time. Yet careful observers can note the similarity between them and the greys... they are humanoid and almond/grey in color. From certain shots they appear to favor the M.I.B. look or no clothing. There eyes are sunk far back in, giving their eye sockets a large shadow (big black eyes), and have know mouth, four digits, and a large bulbous head. They have an ability cause individuals to "forget" about them when you do not look at their image (reference to Crowley's Lum???). They also seem to be able to generate electrical interference and redirect an energy blast to vaporize living beings.
It will be interesting to see what more the show will reveal as this particular "species" can hit home to so many.