Sleep Paralysis Day

Date: May 15, 2011
Type: ????
Location: Los Angeles, CA
Time of Incidents: 1:00pm-6:pm
Attempted Time of Sleep: N/A
State of Mind Before: Tired, Overall Depression Symptoms, Stressed, Sad, Lonely
State of Mind After: Apathetic
Odd occurrences before: Depression Symptoms, Dream.
Odd occurrences after: None.

Well I am not sure how to classify this one. I woke up this morning as usually and did my chores and made breakfast. I didn't eat anything and was just "blah" feeling.
So I laid down. (1)Immediately I had one of the paralysis attacks... I had accidentally had my wrist by my temple. After managing to nudge my hand from under my head... I awoke. I was confused and wonder why this happened. I still felt very lethargic. (2) I laid back down and turned over... again, my wrist had ended up under my temple. Again I struggled and manage to free myself. As I got up I felt lethargic and sat back and laid down. (3) This time I made sure my hands were away from my head... but as I fell asleep my wrists were over each other and I couldn't breathe well. At this point I heard "Why do you struggle?" in a very calm voice.
In my head I replied "There are obligations and duties I must perform". After a few moments of struggling I managed to wake up and breath normally.
I still felt worn out, and weak... I just laid there looked at the clock and it was 3pm. I felt alone and very sad... and thought why do I struggle? At this point I felt how pointless my life is, how no one really wants me in there life, I am truly alone, I've been abandoned and betrayed by the people I love.. and why should I be here. At this point I closed my eyes again. (4) I was on my side and couldn't move, somethings was watching and left. I managed to twitch and move, I was attempting to roll of the bed to wake up. I manged to move my right arm so it extended over the bed. It was then picked up and held straight out. I heard "No". My arm was put back to my side. I began to panic a bit... and thinking "I am dying this time, I can't I have responsibilities". I hyper-ventilated, another trick that usually works. Again I woke up. It was 3:50pm.
This time I got out of bed went to wash the dishes and got my aunt tea. I laid down... again, not realizing what happened before. It was like I didn't care but aware of what was going on (5) Again I fell asleep and was paralyzed. This time and was tired of us this... why is this happening? I managed to roll back and forth until I feel of the bed. Yet... I awoke up on the bed.... lethargic... I looked at the clock and it was 2:50pm. I check the clock again and it was 2:50pm. I was confused as I knew it should be 4'ish. 6) Again I felt the urge to lay down... and was paralyzed...it was my ankles this time... and again I managed to move them apart.... when I did my cell phone went off. I managed to get it. It said 4:14pm ... it was from one of the people I am hurt over.... I dismissed the text message and looked at the clock... and laid back down... very sad. Again... this continued for the next couple of hours for a few more times.... each time me struggling to get free. This happened a total of ten time until I just got up and turned on the computer and TV.

Now... as I stated before I am suffering from depression, however I had these paralyzing attacks before...but never so numerous in one day. Yet again... something directly interacting with me and an episode of time displacement. My aunt did confirm that around 4pm I did get her tea... ironically she felt sleepy all day... and did not know why. I do not know if this was them or something else.... either way... not a good day.

Addendum
-Early that morning I had two strange dreams... 1 dream was about my high schools friends whom I miss.. we were having a sleep over. They had forgot we had done this before. It was a mish-mash of memories. 2nd Dream was odd... it was my grandmother's funeral. My grandmother's daughters were here in the house. We were discussing some things about 1) Grace should sleep in "the room" so she can see them and believe. 2) My mother and I were in my grandmothers room and discussing why are there ghosts here. I said "Perhaps they are trying to convey a message". The closet has glass doors... and I though perhaps there was a message there since there was odd activity in the closet as my grandmother dress were being lifted up.
I was steamy the glass with my breath to see if there was smudges.. none... but as the light refracted at the angle I was looking at the glass I found a series of etched words on the glass....these messages were disturbing... "They are always watching", "they come form 2-4", "I see the lights", "They are in the other room", etc..... apparently my grandmother knew and his this. At this time we went to go and tell my other aunt who had found a book in the kitchen. This book was my grandmother's and showed that the event had happened, the pictures were disturbing as they showed a man over a stone table with 10 of these beings swarming around him and taking out his intestines. At this point I woke up....

Reason why I say these are odd dreams...becuase they are about life here.... and I hardly dream.