When someone is depressed....

When your partner is dealing with depression, you want to be as supportive and loving as possible. But it’s hard to know what to say or how to help, especially if you’ve never experienced depression firsthand.

Starting a conversation with your significant other is critical, but sometimes offering the wrong words ― while well-intentioned ― can do more harm than good. We asked experts to tell us some of the most damaging phrases people with depression hear from their loved ones and what more-compassionate things to say instead.

Don’t say: “You need to get help.”
Instead say: “I’m worried about you and us. I love you and want to support you. How can I help?”

This way it’s a team approach, not blaming one person. And if he or she is depressed, you finding a therapist or making an appointment for them may make it seem less daunting or exhausting. Tell him or her, ‘We’ll get through this together. It will get better.’”

Don’t say: “Things can’t be THAT bad right now.”
Instead say: “How have you been feeling lately? Is it worse at some times than others?”

How have they been feeling? Ask if it seems to be worse at some times than others. Ask what they think might have been the trigger. Asking gives your partner permission to to talk about feelings.

Don’t say: “How much longer until you’re better?”
Instead say: “How are you feeling?”

Stay away from statements that may cause your partner to feel like what they are experiencing is their fault. Acknowledge that your partner is not feeling well, and that you support them and love them, even if it takes a while for them to start to feel like themselves again.”

Don’t say: “Why don’t you just get out of bed and go for a walk, or watch a happy movie?”
Instead say: “Would you go for a short walk with me?”

A different way of suggesting action and movement in a depressed partner may be to ask, ‘Would you go for a short walk with me?’ Or, ‘I’d like to watch this funny movie, would you watch it with me?’ You are asking your partner to participate with you in something that you suspect will also help them. They feel needed and wanted, and you may be able to move them off their depressive center.”

Don’t say: “How could this happen to you?”
Instead say: “I am with you. You are not alone in this. This happens to others.”

A depressed person is already feeling terrible. What is needed are statements of acceptance and care. It’s helpful to say stuff like, ‘I am with you. You are not alone in this. This happens to others.’

Don’t say: “You’re so negative.”
Instead say: “It won’t be like this forever.”

When someone is depressed, it truly feels as though the symptoms may last forever, so it’s important to remind your partner that they will pass.”

Don’t say: “You shouldn’t feel that way.”
Instead say: “I’d like to remind you that you matter to me. I need you, I want you, I love you.”

‘Your depression is telling you that you don’t matter to anyone. I understand it has a strong hold on your mind. I’d also like to remind you that you matter to me, I need you, I want you, I love you.’ Whenever we can promote the distinction between what depression is saying, and what reality is presenting, we are not arguing with our partner. Rather, we are showing them that there are alternatives to a thought.”

Don’t say: “You’re not fun anymore. We never go out.”
Instead say: “Let’s get coffee together.”

“Take simple steps to get out of the house with your partner. Suggest a walk together, or coffee with friends ― one simple routine activity each day can help lift your partner’s mood. ​And take care of yourself, too.

Lady in the Water, Threats and Visions

Date: July 23rd, 2017
Type: Dream, Other Accounts
Location: Burbank, CA, 91502
Time of Incidents: 1:45-3:21pm 
Attempted Time of Sleep: 11:00am-12:45pm and then 6:00pm-11:00pm.
State of Mind Before: Distressed (Me)
State of Mind After: Anxious, Worried, Depressed (Me)/Confused (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Mandella Effect Issue, Wolfbrother Issue, Pinky & the Brain.
Odd occurrences after: Death Threat

Some may know that not all dreams are catalogued, some are very short and abstract, sometime they are fragmented and not in the right order, and I just classify these as just regular dreams. However, sometimes it floods back and the overall message is scene. Today was a bad day which caused me to have an anxiety attack, as a visitation dream(s) unfolded into real time Deja Vu. Not only that, again too much synchronicity was happening and I did not want to relieve through the possible outcomes again. So I disappeared from my meeting today...I had to leave. Everything was so off from yesterday as I was unable to go to sleep.

The issue of my wolfbrother has kept coming up the past week. As reported, there has been a few encounters in which they are trying to convince me he doesn't exists or have an influence in my life. The beings are frustrated that I see them and I am aware of them....and I ask questions. Not only that they are probing my mind for data.

Dream Fragments put together;

I was at AMC again, it was one of the times in which I was told I would be working this time and not an audience member. I was uncomfortable as I knew what was going on, this was not the movie theatere, but the meetings again. One of the movies that was playing was "Lady in the Water". I smiled as it was one of the things that my Wolfbrother was excited about. (He had no idea what his movie was called and had the hardest trying describing it, and as usual I knew what he was talking about and of course I had it for us to watch). There was a Jewish wedding party entering one of the theaters, auditorium. I recognized some of the people from my group. A "manager" was asking the staff why I was there, there was an issue because I keep coming up on the list but shouldn't be working here.

Another dream continues this. I am being monitored. I am told don't look back, and there is a chattering going in on my mind. "She is cumming.. She is cumming"... in the auditorium I am sitting with the group. We are strangely segregated, although packed....my wolfbrother's seat next to me was vacant. The "Whore of Babylon" all wet comes in astride a fat cow with an utter that is full. Everyone claps. The only thing I here is "She is cumming. She is coming. She is cumming. She is coming"...chatter in the back of my head. My wolfbrother not present, but I hear him say "Don't look behind you".

Another dream...I walk to the Holiday Inn but I am a wolf. No one notices me or cares. I am early and or moderator is talking to a man. I take my place and sit at the corner. Despite the room getting full, the seat to my right was vacant, people saw us both.....my wolfbrother and I. Yet my wolfbrother was not there. However, everyone seemed to agree that we were both there. I was distracted by the two Italian women sitting  on either side of us. One was dressed as a conventional country Italian woman, but the other seemed more gypsy like.

Another dream...I walk to the Holiday Inn as myself and sit down for the meeting I arrive early. We are being watched as several entities are there. MIB, MK Ultra, and invisible greys are there...apparently there will be many people. As the room fill ups all the guys are one one side, and all the women are in the other. The tables are decorated for a jewish wedding. I was eating my sourpunch licorice strings, "The Healer" from "Lady in the Water" walks by and says "you already know what we are talking bout....and have much too say. We will talk for you today". The sourpuch straws had to do with string theory and alternate realities....I was viewing them. The Seven Sisters, again Lady in the Water reference walked in. The Seven Sisters are the Pleiades constellation, but they represent a member of the group. She looks at me and asks when my wolfbrother is coming in....since there was a seat for him.

Another dream. My wolfbrother tells me "to keep my mouth shut and dont' say anything. Especially to that cow!". He bolts out the door and into the hallways of the convention area. We were in a dark room, there were other beings in the darkness ""She is cumming. She is coming. She is cumming", they were whispering and repeating it. It was the Whore of Babylon and she was returning, this was bad so I bolted after my wolfbrother. He had entered the garden area and when I called out to him..... he was a baby Scrunt. He recognized my voice. There were three larger Scrunts leading him away....and there were some other small ones. (Scrunts are from Lady in the Water). One of them grew angry and communicated "How are you know the defective and destructive one? From Healer to Guardian to Healer. He is ours. He chose!!!"
I yell back "We did not choose. We did not give our consent. We are one and the same and you will not take him." I grab a shovel and use it as a Javelin. The Whore of Babylon appears, the adult Scrunts around her, she looks at me an says "You know I love to care for my Kept Boys". I jump into battle as she attempts to get my Wolfbrother again.

These dream fragments caused my anxiety episode for the day. In something unlike my character I quietly bolted and left, especially when I was shown the mirror, a fellow member came in and sat in my wolfbrother seat...he showed me on his phone. "3:13". That was the mirror...a palindrome.... which was the last red flag..... I even left at 3:21pm.... which has a significance and arrived home at 4:44pm. These numbers were emphasized. 

444 has the following meanings;

-You are on the Path of Awakening
-You are Fully Supported in Your Life Journey
-You Are on the Right Path, Just Trust
-You Are in Harmony with the Universe
-Listen to Your Intuition

321 means that I am encouraged to venture into unknown territory so as to experience new things as well as have growth. You also need to be perceptive and look beyond the surface in any situation before tackling it.
That number is very significant to me to.... and because of this I do my be to be perceptive and look beyond the surface in any situation before tackling it.

When I got home, my aunt was surprised as she was in a waking dream. She seemed dazed and I caught her in mid conversation with someone. She said "You were right about him coming back early", and when I asked her who she was talking to...she jumped and asked when did I get here and commented I walk to softly. I asked her again...and she says she was dreaming.....but I told her she was awake and talking to someone, but seemed dazed.

The other things that has been popping up is "Pinky and the Brian" references, mainly the lyrics.
It even plays sometimes as background music at the theatere in the dreams.


They're Pinky and the Brain
Yes, Pinky and the Brain
One is a genius, the other's other insane
They're laboratory mice
Their genes have been spliced
They're Pinky, they're Pinky and the Brain

(This references my Wolfbrother and I. A reflection of our dynamics and the fact that we have been geneticly
tampered. P. Inky and B. Rian is also a joke... as Pinky is making a reference to the destructive one and darkness. B.Rian making a reference to my similarity to my wolfbrother and I am the defective one.)

Before each night is done
Their plan will be unfurled
By the dawning of the sun
They'll take over the world

(Reference to the alien abductions and how we figured it out. However with the coming of "The Light", the earth is taken over by "the visitors")

They're Pinky and the Brain
Yes, Pinky and the Brain
Their twilight campaign is easy to explain
To prove their mousy worth
They'll overthrow the earth
They're Pinky, they're Pinky and the Brain, narf!

(Reference to how we are opposed to the take over the earth and in the shadows we are gaining strength, finding info. Pinky telltale catch phrase "Narf" is a reference to Lady In the Water. That is a whole other thing I have to dig through....)

After around 6:00pm when I got her comfortable....I settled down and collapsed. Today was too much, having anxiety, reliving these incidents, the revelations, and finding my aunt talking to someone about me coming home.

The last thing.....was I just collapsed and knocked out. The dream I had was short and too the point.
I was in my room and I woke up because there was someone outside. Strangely my wolfbrother was with me. I did not miss him, didn't wonder why, but we were just together as always. Since there was an intruder I was defending my home and him. When I confronted the Stranger, it was a construction worker who gave me a card. He was a really really good looking man that made me shy, He told me, "You should really move on and take the offer. I can personally take care of all your needs and fix things for you (obviously flirtation).
You should enjoy the time you have left here. The years are going by fast". I told him, "We are not interested". He got into a 70's red sports car and took off. My tenant (whom I do not have) came out and asked what was going on. Suddenly he was killed by this wight. I had locked my door so nothing was getting in. However, I was forced to leave my home. Three wights were now in my front yard, one communicated to me in my head "We are not what we are but what you know. Your time comes soon. You are still here, you still see, you still hear, this should not be. Why don't you just sleep like all the others? You will die and you will be ours. You know how to avoid this, it may not even work. Either way we will have what we want"

The Religion of Ufology and You Need to Study

As I have recently come to discuss things with other people in the realms of Aliens and UFOs I seen some disturbing things. It is mostly of what I attribute as religious baggage, as individuals attempt to reconcile and rationalize what is clearly beyond are current standard norm. Many individuals begin to attempt to mesh or emulate religious doctrine or fevor concerning UFO and aliens. Spiritualism, while a component becomes and overwhelming drive as a sense to understand and control the experience. I would say very few individuals deal with empirical evidence or take a more rational approach.

If there is such as things as the UFO community, it is currently divided into various factions. The predominant concern right now is the whole myth of "Disclosure". For some reason, many popular members of the UFO community insist that the U.S. government are the only one who can fully state the truth of the matter of aliens and UFOs. This is despite the fact that more than 20+ other global governments have already acknowledge that UFOs and Aliens exist. Despite the fact that the UFO-Alien Phenomena is world wide, it seems only the U.S. has any true awareness of it. Why do we need government disclosure? Alien abductions with or without government sanctions, if the aliens want to come forward they can.... plus we are no longer run by any sense of a true government. If a group or groups of aliens were truly interested in making contact they would.

With hubris, the second issue on the table is whether or not these beings are "good or bad". You have some who claim to be leaders (Con-Artists and Moneymakers) stating that these beings are here to help. You have others saying the opposite that we are being protected from a great threat, and that a compromise was made to ensure our continued existence. This had divided the overall topic of discussion, and even among many who have reported abductions..... which the word abductee has become a bad word....but that is mostly due to the spiritual aspect. Those few who just gather the evidence are often ignored, people who gather the data and science are pushed to the back because they are not popular. It is so polarized that it is an us versus them, each one discrediting the other in a bid to control a community who has become so fan-based that the topic is a lucrative career. Just look at the Comic-Con and Carnival like atmosphere now...... where's the science and where's are the support groups?

The third issue is spiritualism. As you may be aware of there are four types of individuals in the UFO community. Abductees, Experiencees, Contactees, and Fans. Again I think the route of this is marketing and control. As many know that sad and negative experiences are not as profitable as joyous ones. If you make something fun and awe-inspiring, you can make it profitable. This is were religion and spiritualism come in, and the notion of empowerment.
Seriously no one wants to be a victim right? If you are an abductee it is now view that there is something inherently wrong with you and that you attracted a negative experience. It is your fault for not being more spiritual evolved or enlightened. Thus Experiencees and Contacteee are better than the others for these beings communicate with them and form relationships. Many of these relationships are unhealthy, and many show signs of emotional, mental, and physical abuse. Yet this is okay, because it is for the greater good or they have ascended beyond petty mortal concerns. What is worse is that many people believe this without stepping back for a reality check. They dive into spiritualism, claiming that their blood type or ancestry gives them special advantages. Other cling to a religion or stating that they have high a higher consciousness than you and thus can understand the deep meaning of what is going on. We have seriously gone away from collecting information and helping those deal with their situation.

The fourth thing that drives me up the wall is the you need to study or research more. Apparently if I read "your special book" or watch "your special video" I will come to the same exact conclusion as you!!!!
Of course if I don't that mean I just don't get it... (Reminds you of all those bible-thumpers claiming they are the true path to Heaven). First off, not ever book on UFO or aliens is factual, they are all truthful....as the author and those who agree with what is written is true. Being factual and basing a thought on it is entirely different, and when someone says "Just read and believe" I suggest walk away. Obviously there claims are not backed up by fact, and if they shy away from questions or a discussion....then they are probably wrong.
The whole point of a discussion is not an argument or debate, it is to share information and come to a consensus based on the new data. It will either reinforce a person's knowledge or cause one to change their opinion on the subject.
There are literally thousands of accounts, research, and other data available both found in fictional and non-fictional areas. An individual in the end can come to a logical conclusion and have an informed opinion.
I have met many individuals who try to persuade to there train of thought, when questioned I am always told "You need to read more". I consider myself well informed and read on variety of topics.....and the reasons for my question is because I had hoped to speak to a well informed and aware person. Sadly most are just spoon fed individuals who are followers and not innovators.

I seriously at times just wanna walk away. I know other need help and support and it is why is stick my head out. However, as time goes by personal issues and this issue in particular become scarier. I know what my fate will be in the end, I had hope to change it, but all that was a nasty tease and ploy by them. I only hope I can enact the final plan when it comes to ensure what needs to be. I do not want this cycle of abuse to continue and this bleakness to go on. People cannot come together as a community..... and in the end I am the only one who can take care of myself (despite the fact that I am there for all others).

Meetup and Don't Remember

Date: July 20, 2017
Type: Dream
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:00am-11:00am (Me) 
Attempted Time of Sleep: 2:00am (Me)/N/A  (Aunt)
State of Mind Before: Depressed (Me)/Sad In Pain (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Depressed, Worried (Me)/Depressed, In Pain (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Meeting with Cero Memeber, Aunt Sick
Odd occurrences after: None.


The first part of the dream took place in my old room. My mother and biological brother were there.
I was upset and sad because they were in my room. It is no secret that I have many emotional issues tied to my supposed family, my bio brother was asleep and unconscious and my mother was somewhat awake (she is dead and I knew that). Also I was being observed as it was obvious this was a recreation and the west wall to my room was missing (like a set). The lighting was off in a weird blue-purple tone.
I did tell my mom I loved her and sorry for the way life treated her. She was trying to convince me that I needed to go to school again, but I am already past that. I left my old room to go to my aunt's room to see if she was okay.

When I got to her room she was asleep. Same bluish light was everywhere and a medium sized brown thin alien walked in. I wanted to bash it in the skull and was so very very angry. It was going through my memories. It communicated to me to remain calm, and wanted to know
-"Why I could see it?"
-"Why I knew things were off?"
-"Are you the Destructive One? Who is the Defective One?".
-"You brother is in the other room. Who are you talking about then?"
-"Who are you talking about? Who is missing?" 
-"Can we try this again?"

I woke up around 4:03am. I was disturbed that the fact someone was rooting around in my head for info.
What was worse there was an alien. As I said, the being was a brown color of alien that was humanoid, more lumping and skin was moist? It almost looked like that rubbery, the one that has a sheen on it.
I felt sick, as it is my kidneys have been on overheat and I just knocked out. I don't want to go back to sleep cause they are here.

Second part of the dream, they restart and I am in the my old bedroom again. Same thing with the north wall missing. This time Brian is in the room, whom I haven't seen in like 25 years. I immediately go up to him and hug him because he is a familiar person. He asks what is up with all the Blue Lights and if we can go to another room. My grandmother comes up and says he should not be here, and that I need to get ready and go. We had to go to my aunts room and I noticed that lights in her bathroom were normal. I had to take my aunt in there an put her in the bath. She was confused and didn't know what was going on. I just told her close you eyes and don't look your are only taking a bath. She remained calm.
Brian was manipulating the event, or the being pretending to be him. He was telling me I was doing a good job and wanted to give me a reward. I got upset when he offered me a sexual encounter, I told him no and you have the wrong one again.

The dream stopped.... and a series of question started off again.

-"This is B.Ryan? Brian? Bryan? Be Ryan? Brian?"
-"No other person. Who is missing. Who are you referring too?"
-"This is the one who is missing. No such other person. Accept this".

That is when I got upset and left the room and went out the door.

Third dream, I did not awake...but I transition outside to the Fake Los Angeles. I am working in some retail store. I see where my Wolfbrother is for a moment and I am happy. His family is there, and his sister says to me "Welcome back on the team, glad you are here because we need you". There is a shoplifter and we are trying to catch him, I have a boomerang of all things and trying to corner him...he is surprised I am coming at him as everyone hedges away. I am trying to coordinate with the others, but most of them are just dazed.
He runs out of the store and I give chase. When I step outside I recognize fake Los Angeles....I know where I am. My car that I have in this place is nearby....I hope on in and drive up the road....it is exactly how I remember, I even turn on the street and know where it goes. I pullover and wonder why am I here.....I know this place so very well. It doesn't make sense here either, but I know this place. I head back to find my Wolfbrother at that store...

Sadly the dream just stop.....I am aware that they stop and there is missing time in the dream. This is the oddest part, I am aware of at least a whole hour or two of dreaming nothing....being aware and in a void.

A UFO Sighting above Alhambra

Date: July 15, 2017
Type: CE 1
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 3:25am-3:45am (Me) 
Attempted Time of Sleep: 9:00am (Me)/N/A  (Aunt)
State of Mind Before: Depressed (Me)/Sad In Pain (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Depressed, Worried (Me)/Depressed, In Pain (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: "Leave", Half Moon
Odd occurrences after: Aunt Sick with Shingles breakout

Friday was normal day, dealing with things as usual. For some reason I could not go to sleep. I was anxious and started walking again. I needed to leave, matter of fact something told me to "go for a walk". I made a complete circuit from Soto to Whittier to home. It was roughly a two hour walk. One thing that is a compliant I have is the amount of light pollution in Los Angeles, and in my area it is never truly dark.....you can drive without car lights. There is always a false twilight with a purple sky that blots out almost everystar an planet. That was one of the reasons I enjoyed my time with my Wolfbrother, we would spend hours at night looking and talking under the stars. I could actually get a view of the Milkyway... it was truly breathtaking. I was deeply saddened by that memory as I continue to mourn his absence in my life.

The only things in my night sky that are visible are planes landing at LAX, Burbank, and Santa Monica.
The helicopters from the Army Corp HQ near here at 710/Atlantic Blvd, LAPD, and the Radio and TV news. To the north of me I can see the weather and radar station on the mountains. These building lights are beacon that give me a great marker as far as the skyline for the SGV Mountains. So most of the stars and planet are barely visible. Unless something is close I cannot get a photo of the night sky because of all the ambient light.

As I was a block away from home I noticed an odd star. It behaved similarly to another odd star I saw a few nights ago but west of here. I thought perhaps these could be planets, as they were bright...however they all blinked in red/white/blue patterns. Just a point of light in the sky, but big enough to to seem like a plane in the distance. The one I saw early Saturday morning, from my home I would say was was above the light of the San Gabriel Mountains and was above the Alhambra/San Marino area I would guess. It was odd as I did not move, but as I watched it there were small little flashes or specks that would break away from it. It pulsed in the familiar red/gold/blue patterns....one would you think was a plane....but it did not move. It neither got brighter or lessened. Even a plane flew by, as I would assume it was in the foreground. The odd part was the plane just flew by.... I noticed a faint shooting start to my left that was normal. A few minutes went by and a red faint ray was emitted from the orb. It shot down to earth at a 45 degree angle. 
To make sure this was not a planet or fixed object I waited fro two night and have gone out to check.
That "star/planet" is not in the night sky......where it should be.

A Humble Heart, A Tempered Mind.....

About a year ago, my Wolfbrother and I had a visitation from a group of beings known as the Federation of Light. The "Federation of Light" is a common name for a number of groups that supposedly work for humanity's benefit, protection the Earth from harmful forces and threats. The group is made up of the main alien groups from the Reptilians, Greys, and Nordics. There appearance came at a time in which both my Wolfbrother and myself attempted to transition from CE4 to CE5 work.

We were given a message..."You need a Humble Heart, and A Tempered Mind". At the time we thought it was a reference to my Wolfbrother. My Wolfbrother was harassed by a number of entities and had trouble sitting still, and we though the message was directed for him to become more mentally focused. It was one of the reason we decided to go with some meditation and chakra work. Sadly as you know, his version of a "tempered mind" was corrupted by the beings that are associated with the Women and Valor's group.
If anything the mind has been fractured and mislead, and as for the "humble heart" only a smoldering anger remains of a once "noble heart".
As for myself I have not changed other than he fact that I experience yet again pain and disappointment in associating with another human. I know only a profound sadness for what has past, especially since he mirrored myself in so many ways. Everything that I enjoy has a tinge of sadness to it as my first thought are about him and our experiences. I pretend to be okay as I have obligations, although I been told I should be selfish and take care of myself.....

One of the definition for a tempered mind is that of patience and order. While a humble heart is forgiving, patient, in service to others, thankful.

So the thing is what is being said in the overall talk about Aliens and UFOs. As I said there is a distinction between Abductees, Experiencers, and Contactees. Many of those who are contactees have this idea that way are a spiritually primitive people with low universal awareness. They often claim that these beings because of advance technology, must therefore possess advance spirituality and cosmic awareness beyond our understanding. They often see things in dual fashion from either things being good and evil or lower and higher. I often encounter statements such as "You must not judge, for we cannot comprehend it", "We are not ready for it", "They have very good reasons that they will explain to us once we are ready", "That what they do is for the greater good", and "That there is a plan". If these statements sound rather familiar, it is because they are familiar to those used by religious types to keep people in line.

If all life is sacred, then there most be some common things we can all agree what is universally "right".

First off I would say, tolerance and respect, be open to and accept that other may be different. If there is no conflict let them be.
Second, seek understanding and patience, reflect on situations and gather information before we decide on an action. If there is no conflict, then an opportunity to learn is present.
Third, be yourself and aware, stay true to who you are as an individual and keep you guard up but be willing to adapt as necessary. Another should never force you to change and allow you to process and feel things as you do, but provide opportunities for an alternate or informative experience.
Fourth, no harm should be done. If there is discomfort, misunderstanding, apprehension, fear, or anxiety it is okay and we should seek understanding and control to find a balance. As long as no one forces another and it is mutual without deceit, then it should be okay. 
 

Women in the Grey Suits

Over the course of my many encounters with aliens, there were a number of them that feature "The Women in the Grey Suits".  The one thing they all had in common was they wore a two piece grey suit, a grayish jacket, and classic knee length skirt. Although there may have been a few with the pants, I remember more often than not they had a skirt. Their skin tone was very pale, there hair was always very short, except on one occasion. The majority of them had dark haired. They were tall and slim and did not smile, nor wore make-up. Of the three pictured above, the facial expression, eyes, and stance is almost spot on. You just have to swap her head on the first picture, and have her with the suit color of the middle picture and with a tablet/clipboard.

This lady appeared in the series of encounters with what I believe was my with wolfbrother between 1993-1997, where I was introduced to my "younger brother". I was brought to a room and was told to be friends with a young child, to "calm" him down and re-assure him that things would be alright. We would play game together and just talk...we were monitored on are interaction with each other. There were a few time I recall complaining to the 'woman' "This is not right what you are doing to us. He is just a kid and you people have tortured me, now you are making me help you? No. This is not right."
The information/response that I got was "This is important to see if his series performs as intended with yours. We are building upon what has been done with you and making adjustments." After about four years he was deemed to old for this phase, as harvesting would begin since he was know entering the next stage,
We said our goodbyes, he said I was his "bestest friend and didn't want to forgot about me". After that I would not see him nor the woman for some 20 years.......

As soon as we became friends and were re-introduced again....they entered the picture. They were angry and surprised that I was there again. One how did my Wolfbrother find me and how was the connection still active. My group was likewise upset that they were back in the picture. For the next few months our experiences were intermingling and there was a lot of negative push from the women.....who would not let go of my Wolfbrother.

Eventually a liaison was re-introduced to my wolfbrother under the guise of Valor/Valeria, which I believe my have been a recycled version of Ika. "It" was like the women in grey, but she had pale blonde hair. She was more emotional, and prone to outburst of anger.  She did not like me at all. She made it a point to try to divide my Wolfbrother and myself, and did not understand why my wolfbrother would not let go of me.

Seems there is a group known as the Matriarchy...that have a number of hybrids in use. Seems I did indentify there group and they are involved with my wolfbrother somehow. We were so close to a truth......

Finally Wolbrother Appears in My Dreams

Date: July 7th and 8th, 2017
Type: Dream
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 12:am (7th, Me)/3:30am-5:00am, 5:30am-7:30M (Me, 8th) 
Attempted Time of Sleep: 2:00am (Me)/ 2:00am (Aunt)/1:00am Guest
State of Mind Before: Happy, Determined (Me)/Happy, In Pain (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Depressed, Worried (Me)/Depressed, In Pain (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Mandella Effect Issue, Someone in the house
Odd occurrences after: None

The day was an interesting day as I met with some friends and we had a lovely time discussing the nature of things and certain issues, my wolfbrother for one. Also despite the fact that I had let him know, another individual I contacted regarding the issue with my wolfbrother attempted to call me during the meetings.
One thing I was concerned about is the shift in things, certain things were shifting around again and people were popping up. Reality was altering again.....

Mandella Effect Issue
July 7th,  my guest and I were talking about things and somehow how Manny Pacquioa came up and Mayweather. I recall that people were upset about the lousy fight and cause Pacquioa kept running around the ring, and Mayweather lost. I remember watching the Youtube video on this because they were making fun of Pacquioa. I don't follow boxing and could careless, but the only reason it stuck is because there was also a story about how Pacquioa was an elected official in the Philippines, donates alot of his money to the community, and thinks homosexuality is wrong. So after my friend think I was crazy, I come to find out that Pacquioa is part of the series of Mandella Effects going on. My friend said he could accept the aliens, but this made me seem crazy.

July 8th, Dream 1
(Note: Before I feel asleep someone else was in the house. I was being monitored again. Felt very uneasy)
I am in a hospital with a number of other people, none of them wanted to be here. The hospital itself was cramped as it was some sort of ship. The corridors lead to other large storage facilities were there were make shift beds and people just waiting around. Most of the people were just out of it. I sort of had my own cabin that I made very comfortable, it was for me and my wolfbrother. He was not here, and the weird thing is I knew it was ours. One of the guys walking around was trying to find a place to sleep, I knew him as he was a male nurse. He was wearing purple scrubs, has black hair and fair features I told him that I have plenty of room in my pod and if he needed rest he could use mind. He walked in and used the second story of my pod which I was unaware that  had. I forgot that it was supposed to be bigger on the inside than outside.
I told him that I would wander around so he could rest as it would not be proper for us to share the same space to sleep, even though he was on the second level above me. He said it wasn't necessary and comfortable and happy, I always accommodate he should of remembered me...but they make him forget.
I started to walk around.
There were a few people who were waking up and started to panic. They were some bikers at the end of the cargo hold who were freaking out as "What the Hell. What the fuck is this place?" moment. They begin to beat and tear at the door. The other people were coming around now and beginning to become aware too as the door was opening. There was gush of wind and a bright silver-white light emanating from the door. I started to evacuate everyone, trying to get them to move out of the cargo hold as I knew what was coming.
I sealed off one door, and went to the other but it was too late....they were already taking control of the situation. The entities were extremely strong, usually they appear differently....but they paralyzed me and carried me away. The appearance this time was they were burnt orange skin, white puffy hair, and facial tattoo markings. It was a memory of a Star Trek species from the original series. The one were the people were worshiping a statue, but there was a computer behind it. I woke up around 5:00am.

Dream 2
This one is somewhat fragmentary but very important. Apparently I was with a group of people and it was at the movie theater. The movie that was shown was important, it was one of those "Oscar Winners" that I usually refuse to see because it is of know interest to me, but the story was good. As usual I questioned the method and what the message actually was, but I was distracted in the theater...as  I knew my Wolfbrother was here. Apparently his Dad let him come with me for the weekend, I was responsible for him. Despite everything that had happened we were together again. However with this movie there were several other people with us. Two older woman who to me seemed like Cagney and Lacey, another man with a Persian appearance, and a fat black girl.
For some reason as usually I did not sit and watch the film entirely, I saw some of it but I was dealing with an issue in the cargo hold were I was not supposed to be. However, I made it back in time to meet my Wolfbrother and the people we were with. My wolfrbother was in the company of this young blonde man and they seemed to go out to the concession stand. I felt disconnected and discarded when he just passed me by and ignored me. That is when the rest of the group came.
They asked me if I enjoyed the movie, I said it was interesting the part I did watch. It made a reference to overcoming obstacles, a western type movie with a spiritual message. As we were walking out they told me not worry about my Wolfbrother as "he had made other arrangements". I asked what do you mean. He found some friend who he convinced to give him $600 so he could leave. They had made some deal with each other, the friend was taking the money out on credit. I began to panic as his dad had left him in my care and now he was going to wander off. I quickly pulled out me phone and tried to call his dad or brother.
The group was all telling me what to do...all at once. "It is none of your concern. That app is a virus. It is his choice. You have an other path. You are not his keeper. You need to let go. He is no good for you. It is time to move on. He used you. There are others who appreciate you". I kept focus at the task at hand and realized that I had deleted his dad and brother contact info as they abandoned me.... they would not help me.

Despite everyone telling me to just let my Wolfbbrother go I walk right up to him as he was at the concession stand. He looked at me sort of with anger and surprise. I just said, "Wolfbrother, your dad left you in my care and I am supposed to take you home. What are you doing?" The blonde guy was standing in the distance to my right watching all of this observing and interfering as he was mouthing what my Wolfbrother was trying to say. My wolfrbother was attempting to talk, but he had no voice. He was also wearing a white apron with gold trim. What I was getting from him and the blonde guy was "Quit following me. I used you to get to here and I do not need you anymore or your pathetic love for me. It is over, go away and I never want to see you again". I looked to the right and saw the blonde man smiling and he finished mouthing what was just said. In tears I just stared at my Wolfbrother thinking "I will save you. This is not over".

Escavatori and the Labyrinth

Date: July 5, 2017
Type: Dream
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:30am-5:00am (Me) 
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:00am (Me)/ 1:00am (Aunt)/12:00am Guest
State of Mind Before:Depressed (Me)
State of Mind After: Depressed (Me)
Odd occurrences before: N/A
Odd occurrences after: N/A


The dream was another weird one. For the most part in the beginning, again it was about me being on the other place. The recreation/vacation place with many people. Alex, Jeffrey, and Carlos and Alex where there. Wil was also present. Most of the people were getting ready to leave again. Somehow I mailed my stuff, which composed of video games such as pokemon and some of my stuff animals. The resort place was odd, because it was in the middle of the desert again. I got in trouble because I went off the map.
My friend Wil was collecting Dimes and Nickles, steel pennies, and my wolf rings. It seems people dropped all this change and he was collecting them. For some reason, the laundry room here was abandoned and he was storing all the coins here. I told him he should ask the "visitors" to exchange the coins to a currency he could take. I shook my head "Why am I calling them the visitors? I know what they are." I questioned myself and made my way to the common room.
Some beings were looking for for wandering off, when I went back in side they sort of backed off....but took on the guise of children. While most of the people were competing in some tournament and games, a few us were stragglers and just hung out in the arcade. The "kids" found me  and were trying to get me back to the main area. I told them you know I won every time you bring me here, I am the Pokemon Master, look I have all the stuff from the last times. I showed them the box of items and they were curious as to how I managed to keep all of this plus how did it get here. I just told them I mailed it. My wolfbrother brother was present as he was also playing in their pokemon tournament, which made me thing of my Wolfbrother. However, everytime I tried to refer to my wolfbrother I mentioned his Sister name instead. She is next apparently....they are interested in her now. The kid's let me go and I went with Carlos to another room.

Carlos and I entered a living room. His dad was there and it seems it was a family gathering. However there were many individuals here, and it none of them look related. They were all dressed in various archaic occult styles, some Egyptian, Roman, Victorian, and Greek. Carlos' dad was taking about how he and his family were perfect "That they were Escvatori". One of the individuals said that Carlo's dad was crazy, that it was something his grandfather had all told them... "That they were all descended from original builders". One lady who looked french continued, and she wanted to talk about the 3 and 5. She began to show a series of slides, it was bout the polarity of the downward spiral of the DNA strands, that were are underworld creatures. She stressed on significance of "3" and "5", my thoughts jumped to "8" and infinity. Their similarities to the double helix. As she went on the images became more complex, however I kept up as it started talking about horses, and dragons. The man sitting by me with a rod of Anubis cocked his brow and thought "How is it that this one can understand?". It finally ended up showing labyrinth and she began talking about 'Jason and the Argonaughts', but referring to the corruption of innocents, children, and the dangers of homosexuality. I raised my hand as what she was showing as Theseus and the Minotaur, she is talking about Labyrinth now and her interpretation as a corruptive influence was  off. The man with the Staff of Anubis said "Are muggle here has something to say". She focused on me, a short woman whispered to her, "He is a Skunk of Death". She made a very funny face as displeased. She acknowledge me and I said "As we know the labyrinth itself is a sacred initiation right across all cultures, it is about maneuver one's self through an obstacle or a test and find treasure/enlightenment and walking out. Walking into darkness, finding the inner illumination and stepping forth. Then I mentioned that Jason and the Golden Fleece is different from what your talking about though....".
They all looked at me and then looked at her. She was not happy and told me to leave. They started discussing among themselves. Carlos took me back outside, he asked me how I know what they were talking about. I looked at him and told him, she was talking about my Wolfbrother. The slides depicting the labyrinth was about a young boy who entered the caves, he was be chased by a being of darkness, and clouds, he was stumbling and trying to find a way out until a luminous wolf appeared and lead him through the labyrinth. The labyrinth was huge, it had an underground lake, a pyramid, and natural cave features.
I then closed my eyes and I began to 'dance the spiral', seeing the patterns through the people I have met and their homes, I danced the spirals to get to my wolfbrother. I must find him. I must bring him home.

Because Science w/ Kyle Hill: Could the Men in Black Neuralize You?

This is actually right on the money. If you like at the optogentics and alien abductions, many individuals have been told that they have their eyes toyed with. It is possible and plausible.

Neil Patrick Harris Puppet Dreams

One of my celebrity crushes, NPH, seems to have had an interesting series of videos called "Nile Patrick Harris" puppet dreams. In this episode he is abducted by Aliens.

Model City the Backdrop of the Dreams

Date: July 2, 2017
Type: CE2, CE4, Dream
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:30am-8:00am (Me/Aunt/Guest) 
Attempted Time of Sleep: 1:00am (Me)/ 1:00am (Aunt)/12:00am Guest
State of Mind Before:Depressed (Me)
State of Mind After: Depressed (Me)
Odd occurrences before: N/A
Odd occurrences after: N/A


Last night was interesting for several reasons. One it was the last day of June....my Wolfbrother said things would be normal by then....and it is not. My heart hurts still over this as I had faith and hope. Again my belief has been mislead, as well as my faith.
I went to bed as usual, praying for his well being and recovery. I went to bed early as I was sad. During the night I had trouble sleeping and tossed and turned as usually. Around 2:30am I woke up as I heard a weird noise. I honestly thought someone had broke into the house but didn't care.
However I did start dreaming right away about someone breaking in, watching him put stuff in a bag and tried to walk out. I chased him down with the intent to kill, capture, and torture him. I woke up again around 3:30am....I really didn't want to be awake and just wanted my wolfbrother back.

This dream was odd as it continued from the robber. I somehow had chased him all the way to Montebello. I was tired and wanted to go back home, some I began walking. However it was strange that my routes kept being redirected as the size perspective was all wrong. It was like there where backdrops and I was on a set of some sort. I kept walking and wandering around and eventually got to an area where I was ignored. I remember climbing atop of the buildings and went along the roof tops. Soon the details of the city were becoming more and more plain. Eventually thing were more compact (closer together) and then I noticed that I was standing at the edge of some model city. I went far beyond where I should have been, I was seeing the backdrop. Eventually I found a hallway of some sorts from the rooftops that overlooked a large common room full of random people from all walks of life and time periods. Some of them were very tall and others were short, the weird thing is.....it was all fake. I knew that these beings were not randoms humans and that all this was some sort of mental projection. That is when they noticed me in the hallways above them, but they were more disturbed at the large babies behind me. Three of them.....
I quickly climbed down the ladder saying that "I am just one of you guy" and they let me pass. Some individuals who were dressed as cops went to confront the large babies....apparently they wanted someone  that escaped. I assumed that was me. However, I found someone in this new area that I knew and I motioned him to go into one of the side rooms so we could talk. It was a man dressed in a suit, I knew him.
I expressed to him the desire to kill myself as I was so very sad and hurt. I did not want to live anymore. I explained why. He looked at me and said "Okay, we will fix things as they should be. He should have never been separated from you". I woke up in the morning and wanted to write this down. However I been distracted all day.

The other things that was off is that last night my guest yelled out at 2:30am "Get the Hell out of here". It woke up my aunt, and it woke me up as well. He has no knowledge of what happened. Secondly,
the bar to my front door was unscrewed from the inside. Something unscrewed the metal bar we have along the inner wooden door. It was partially hanging and that freaked me out.

YMCA Lake Arrowhead Summer Camp Abduction

Date: Summer 1986-1988
Type: CE4, Dream
Location: Lake Arrowhead, CA
Time of Incidents: Night 
Attempted Time of Sleep: 9:00pm
State of Mind Before: N/A
State of Mind After: N/A
Odd occurrences before: Death of Grandfather.
Odd occurrences after: N/A

During the 1980's my abduction were occurring as usual, but I just considered them night terrors.
For the most part for awhile I was over my grandmothers or spending time with a best friend of mine at the time named George. The few times I did come home I do have memories of the shadows on the wall or them coming into the room and getting me.

However there are two major weird incidents that I recall. One in extremely very vivid while the other is a fuzzy "something happened" one.

Dream
This account I recall as a dream, for some reason I know this was an experience but every time I have thought about it is a dream only because of the people involved. The event takes place in the woods, and I was camping either with the boyscouts or at summer camp with the YMCA. I know this event takes place as I was in six grade, which make me 12. The reason for the placement of this even is that 1) My grandfather passed away in 1986 and my teacher that year was Mr. Ruiz. Now my teacher was never involved with our scouting nor the YMCA, which is why this is considered a dream.
The memory dream takes places in one of the YMCA camps near Lake Arrowhead, I honestly did not like Summer Camp. I remember some of my classmates, who were also involved in scouting and YMCA. The day goes on as normal as we did various activities from walking in the woods, coming back to the mess hall for dinner, using the restroom before lights out, and going to bed. Sometime during the night I woke up to everyone screaming as there was blue light shining through the cabin. The cabin itself was surrounded by several other cabin and a few bathroom showering areas. Only our cabin was panicking and I remember Mr. Ruiz coming in the cabin and telling everyone to run. Some of the people in my cabin ran to the bathroom, other ran to the other cabins banging on the door, some just ran into the wood. There was a UFO above the camp, its lights searching out for people. It was taking them up. I recall running to the lake and diving in to hide under the pier. I honestly can't recall if the camp had a lake or pier..... but the lights started to suck up the water and the current with me as well.
I remember gasping and taking in water as I and the water was taken aboard, the water was warmed by the light, and I was already passing out from the water in my lungs. I remember the water lowing in the field I was in cough, coughing up the water, and greys standing around me and I passed out.

An Actual Event
This one I have no proof of other than the following. I was at a YMCA camp. There was an incident at night that freaked out everyone in the cabin. Something had happened that in the morning people were confused, sullen, and off. I know the camp counselor asked what was wrong and people were talked to because some of the other cabins were off as well.  Whatever had happened, by lunch it was kinda of forgotten by everyone. Again I was 12-13 when this had happened....
The weird thing I remember is that there was light some "things" came in. I woke up under the mattress, as if everything was overturned. I can't remember if this was because I was hiding or I was returned with the mattress and all the bedding flipped.

Either way, both events stick out.  One I say is a dream because of the "off" things of people not supposedly being there...but yet the experience was extremely vivid. The second one was just very weird with no reasonable explanation to the behavior of everyone. I know something had happened, it involved blue lights and I remember waking up under the mattress. As usual, since I kept to myself I have no witnesses and no reported any event as far as my research goes into account at a Summer Camp cica 1986-1988 in the San Bernardino Mountains. Of course there are personal accounts along Twin Peaks and Lake Arrowhead communities up there of sightings and possible abduictions