The Saddest Christmas month

Date: December 11th, 19th, 21st, and 25th 2017

Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: N/A 
Attempted Time of Sleep: N/A
State of Mind Before: N/A
State of Mind After: N/A
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Anxiety, Wolfbrother, PTSD, Depression
Odd occurrences after: Wolfbrother, Apathy

December 11th 2017
As usual I have not been sleeping and plagued by insomnia. More likely I am apprehensive about sleeping. I miss my wolfbrother and my heart hurts so much. Inside somewhere, my wolfbrother still remember me. I know this. The events that happen this nigt still show the connection.

The dream/event I have I am at an old church again. I recognize this place as I came here to find my wolfbrother once. His family was here to visit and I was here to get him out and see him. I am escorted with other by priests into a room and told to sit at a desk. Along with the others I was give a series of papers. This was a test....a complicated one. As soon as the last individual was given their sheets and the priest/monitor sat down everyone began. I looked at the paper and saw that it was on theoretical 4D & 5D travel within the 3D. I was asked to explain my understanding of its application and consequences. There were other questions pertaining to zoology, biology, perception, psychology, and 15 specific question on sets of symbols and shapes. As I got to the 10th question everyone stopped. Another priest came in and collected the papers and left. The monitor/priest stood up ans said, "You have all failed. None of you got the answers correct. You are all dismissed". I raised my hand and said "Excuse me, but you didn't even bother to look at the papers. How are we supposed to know what we got wrong and which was right if you do not tell us. I know there were five question left for me, but I know I got....a .....passing........". It was at this point I realized the monitor/priest definitely noticed me with a very odd look on me face. I also heard him communicate "It is him again. Get him!!!!!!!!" and I bolted for the door. I did it again as usually being awake when I shouldn't". I began running through the halls and bolted pasting the lobby and into the courtyard.
My aunt was outside sitting there. I asked if she was okay and she said she was waiting to be healed.

At this point an older priest came wobbling up to us. He was covered in white grease and began floating toward. I got in front of my aunt and told the priest "None of that now. I know who you are and what you really look like. We are not doing this." I took my aunt's hand and I woke up.

When I awoke there was a object floating above me near the chandelier. It look like a dull grey metallic disc with two pin points of light at the bottom. I was ever so sleepy and sad and just rolled over. 

After discussing this with my Wolfbrother in a week, I found out at this time he was having dreams with priests as well, but they were not pleasant.

December 19th, 2017
My wolfbrother called me and wanted to see a movie. I met up with him and we did the movie, dinner, and drive. We spent the night together enjoying eachother's company.  He indicated he would be leaving again.
He let me know he wanted thermal wear and proposed to me.......If I left with him we would go to Vegas and we would get married. My heart broke as he meant it, but also didn't..... "I told him not to be cruel". I know he meant it...... I love him so much... he knows that... he loves me as well.... but things are not all here.

When I  got home I had trouble sleeping. The only man to propose to me. That morning I just lay there until my body shut off. During this time I was in another episode. I was driving the car and though I was with my mother. It seemed like I was on the 2 to the 5 transition. During the car ride my eyes began to close, something was wrong I said "We are you taking me?"

I honestly though I was still driving, but I was on my back and saw a cement tunnel I was being taking along.
I was not by myself. My wolfbrother was right beside me. I managed to move my hand to grab onto to his.
He flicked my hand away. I told him "Wolfbrother, we are still together. Take my hand. Don't leave me. We can do this together. Wolfbrother!"

I wake up and try to go to sleep. However I see my wolfbrother walking and I am being shown a topographical map. It is of his current home. They have been watching him. There are places they zoom in on the map. I am seeing this as an afterimage as I am awake.


December 21th, 2017
In this dream an episode my wolfbrother and I are in my room in the library. We are older. We are watching DVDs. I tell him the fastest way to know what I know is by watching the DVDs. We sit and have some popcorn. At first I think we are in our room in the house. Yet I realize this is my library because of the stone around us. We sit together with him resting his head on my shoulder and holding my hand. I feel very happy.

They walk in. We stand and I say "You are not supposed to be in here. GET OUT!".  My wolfborther says "I am the needle. You know that". I say "No I am the key and I am with the key. We are one and the same".
"Wolfbrother I remember!", I look at him and say "I release you. Wake up Wolfbrother it is time". 

My wolfbrother looks at me and then says;

"If you want to, then tell me,
Be the wolfbrother I want.
Be the wolfbrother I need.
Wolfbrother will be leaving by 3 and 9"

December 25th, 2017
Christmas Eve was spent with my wolfbrother. We had a movie and a snack. It was happy, but bittersweet.
He kept telling me he is leaving, he didn't want to, but he would. That night he had trouble making up his mind. I was just there with him, trying to enjoy are last moments together. I know he loves me, and he know and he knows I love him. I leave as he asked before midnight.

The next day around 5:49pm I finally fall asleep for 11minutes....but enter a weird state;

As I fell asleep I am in my aunt's room alseep on the bed, but I realize I am paralyzed. They are here discussing thing. I am trying to wriggle around. I need to get up and out of here. This is all wrong, I don't like beds. I manage to roll myself off the bed after a couple of attempts and fall unto the floor. I am jolted awake and disoriented. The door bell rings.

I wake up in my room and look at the clock it is 11min past. I hear the door bell and look up at the window.
There is a face of a young caucasian male with black hair. I pound on the window, not knowing if I was telling them to leave or not go. I instantly think "Wolfbrother" and run to the door.

I am back in my aunt's room and I am running to the door. However there is a glowing note on the wall in the hall. I take it and will read it later. I head to the door hoping that it is my wolfbrother and we will be together.

I wake up for reals in my room. I am groggy and very sad. I miss my wolfbrother.

The doorbelll did ring as my aunt said, but it happened the moment I fell asleep.