So the noise started and I knew they were coming. Immediately I started a rhythm in my head. For some reason it was very distinct and caused my head to hurt. I upped the tempo and volume. The struggle took about three minutes. At the conclusion their was a pop in my head and the noise in my head returned to normal levels. I had thought I caused an anurism. Afterwards I just fell asleep. Their was irritation, and wonder that I did something. Was it true feedback, disruption of the signal, or did I tap into what they wanted? A second attempt was made 8/2/2019 around 2:00am, this is where the weird dreams come in.
A man in a blue suit, wispy brown hair, mustache, and sort of potato shaped was in a chair asking me questions. He had a notepad with him. He kept asking question about my wolfbrother and who my ideal partner would be. I told him "no", you can't just make someone for a person and expect love to blossom.
Also I pointed out that I am far from what a companion would want based upon my age or looks. It doesn't work that way here. The dream shifts and I have an interlude with my "grandmother", she asks why am I doing this again. Bringing a stranger into my home and accommodating them.I will not answer as I know it is not her. I could here them on the roof, that is when she asked why I covered the windows. I responded "Don't touch the windows. They are covered as I don't want them to see in.".
After awhile it stops and things shift again. This time I am in a mall, and a nice short asian man of Vietnamese descent comes to me and says hello. I seem very off guard and comfortable. We soon meet with my friend and we were at some event now. My friend said my companion was born in the year of the dog, and we were meant for each other. I woke up, was upset but went back to sleep.
Again in dreams, I was looking for my wolfbrother. Every once in awhile the man in the blue suit would pop up and ask what I was doing. I told him my partner needs me and I must find him. He would insist on making me a partner and there was no need for my wolfbrother. Although I kept leaving him behind, he kep appearing ahead of me continuing and trying to dissuade me from finding my wolfborther. Irritated I stopped
and asked him about Dominic. I asked why I am being punished, it seems if I do what you want I get hurt. If I do not do what you want I get hurt. With my wolfbrother it is the same thing. Why. I only get "So you are awake".
Monday, October 7, 2019
Monday, August 12, 2019
Are We Ready for Contact and What do they Want???
At one of the meetings a person posed a question. A big question that is so general it is hard to give a single answer.
Are We Ready for Contact and What do they Want???
1) What do they want?
As I told the individual you just have to look at the established account, both from witnesses/abductees and from those in fiction. When you look at the data you realize these fundamental aspects; there is more than one group with varied agenda.
We know in the overall narrative that at least 5 consistent groups appear, with other accounts having variations of these groups. These groups are mostly humanoid in nature and are considered "material" being similar to us. We are not aware of their political or theological natures which would increase the number of groups as well. So the "They" are not a single entity..... but a variety.
As far as what they are doing we know that their is a biological and medical component, a social experiment, terraforming, passive invasion, government manipulation, and mentorship underway.
Abductees know that they have been experimented where are organs, nervous systems, intelligence, and reproductive systems have been examined. Many have been monitored or altered, and some have been involved with breeding programs.
In addition to the physiological aspect, many are conditioned and manipulated. Some people are in contact with them through Extra Sensory Perception/Psychic powers, while others are told what to do and think in the form of visions or inspirations. They will influence personality and behavior to see what will it do to those around us, effecting greater social change in some cases. Some of the changes this wish to impose is a new ideology, almost akin to New Age philosophy. In most instances these manipulation are done between friends and family.
We also know that our planet in the past 100 years has gone through some significant change with the industrial revolution and the nuclear age. Some people believe that certain groups may be changing our climate and environment to be more hospitable to them. The terraforming of our planet slowly over the course years to ensure their survival and our downfall.
The passive invasion goes hand and hand with the biological experiments and reproductive research they do in creating hybrid or altered humans. In doing so over the course of decades they can replace large numbers of our population with biological beings that would be more susceptible to their influence or agenda. The take over by placing those altered in key positions or just in the masses where true humanity begin a minority.
Many already point out their has been massive cover-up between various government and these groups. So propose that they have been giving us technology in exchange for rights abductee and experiment on citizens.
They influence political and use the government to help control their agendas.
Lastly with the social experiments, some believe they are here to help us as individuals or as a whole to better ourselves. Offering enlightenment and maturity. Instructing us to ascend and providing a pathway to success for ourselves and our planet.
Of course these are the most common narratives. Some of the less common ones are full out invasion/war and stripping our planet of natural resources. Both of these options do not seem to be the case as we have no way of stopping them if they did so.
2) Are we ready for contact?
As it was said once "You are ready, when you are ready." I think our modern education system has crippled us into the mindset that we must succeed as a group. That there is a process on level up as a whole in order to go on to some next step. Life shows us that there are no levels or clear pathways, that we do not all come to the realization together but as individuals. If you look at the historical part... contact was made so very long ago.
When humanity was not as connected as it where, there was indeed some type of contact established. There are old stories of the star visitors... one that came in peace and shared their knowledge. This was ages ago and was isolated to some areas of the world.
We have long stretches were if there was contact, it was subtle manipulation or disguised as some sort of religious or supernatural event.
Which makes you think why was primitive and New World man ready for contact and not modern era or European man? Is it a cultural or religious bias that some would have contact? I don not think intelligence is that much of a factor since a wide variety of people have come into contact.
Although many of "them" seem to call for humanity to act in a certain way... I doubt all seven billion of us would agree on a certain ideology. I don't think we are being measured by humanity, but as small groups or individuals. As we know judging a whole group by a few rotten apples is wrong in not a fair evaluation.
You speak to those who would listen, and save those whom you can. The idea that as a society we need to be ready is silly, just take those that will listen and wipe out the rest.
Are We Ready for Contact and What do they Want???
1) What do they want?
As I told the individual you just have to look at the established account, both from witnesses/abductees and from those in fiction. When you look at the data you realize these fundamental aspects; there is more than one group with varied agenda.
We know in the overall narrative that at least 5 consistent groups appear, with other accounts having variations of these groups. These groups are mostly humanoid in nature and are considered "material" being similar to us. We are not aware of their political or theological natures which would increase the number of groups as well. So the "They" are not a single entity..... but a variety.
As far as what they are doing we know that their is a biological and medical component, a social experiment, terraforming, passive invasion, government manipulation, and mentorship underway.
Abductees know that they have been experimented where are organs, nervous systems, intelligence, and reproductive systems have been examined. Many have been monitored or altered, and some have been involved with breeding programs.
In addition to the physiological aspect, many are conditioned and manipulated. Some people are in contact with them through Extra Sensory Perception/Psychic powers, while others are told what to do and think in the form of visions or inspirations. They will influence personality and behavior to see what will it do to those around us, effecting greater social change in some cases. Some of the changes this wish to impose is a new ideology, almost akin to New Age philosophy. In most instances these manipulation are done between friends and family.
We also know that our planet in the past 100 years has gone through some significant change with the industrial revolution and the nuclear age. Some people believe that certain groups may be changing our climate and environment to be more hospitable to them. The terraforming of our planet slowly over the course years to ensure their survival and our downfall.
The passive invasion goes hand and hand with the biological experiments and reproductive research they do in creating hybrid or altered humans. In doing so over the course of decades they can replace large numbers of our population with biological beings that would be more susceptible to their influence or agenda. The take over by placing those altered in key positions or just in the masses where true humanity begin a minority.
Many already point out their has been massive cover-up between various government and these groups. So propose that they have been giving us technology in exchange for rights abductee and experiment on citizens.
They influence political and use the government to help control their agendas.
Lastly with the social experiments, some believe they are here to help us as individuals or as a whole to better ourselves. Offering enlightenment and maturity. Instructing us to ascend and providing a pathway to success for ourselves and our planet.
Of course these are the most common narratives. Some of the less common ones are full out invasion/war and stripping our planet of natural resources. Both of these options do not seem to be the case as we have no way of stopping them if they did so.
2) Are we ready for contact?
As it was said once "You are ready, when you are ready." I think our modern education system has crippled us into the mindset that we must succeed as a group. That there is a process on level up as a whole in order to go on to some next step. Life shows us that there are no levels or clear pathways, that we do not all come to the realization together but as individuals. If you look at the historical part... contact was made so very long ago.
When humanity was not as connected as it where, there was indeed some type of contact established. There are old stories of the star visitors... one that came in peace and shared their knowledge. This was ages ago and was isolated to some areas of the world.
We have long stretches were if there was contact, it was subtle manipulation or disguised as some sort of religious or supernatural event.
Which makes you think why was primitive and New World man ready for contact and not modern era or European man? Is it a cultural or religious bias that some would have contact? I don not think intelligence is that much of a factor since a wide variety of people have come into contact.
Although many of "them" seem to call for humanity to act in a certain way... I doubt all seven billion of us would agree on a certain ideology. I don't think we are being measured by humanity, but as small groups or individuals. As we know judging a whole group by a few rotten apples is wrong in not a fair evaluation.
You speak to those who would listen, and save those whom you can. The idea that as a society we need to be ready is silly, just take those that will listen and wipe out the rest.
White Static Update
As mentioned on the 7/27/19 account I had a visit. Over the past two weeks as a result of the visit I have had a sinus issue only on the right side of my face. The eye, temple, jaw, teeth are all in pain as if I have a Sinus Infection/Tetanus. So far its been over two weeks with the pain coming and going with great discomfort. Not only have I been having physical issues, but very vivid dream activity as well....
many of the dreams involve old friends, activities, and certain narratives that have come up before.
One of the most bothersome one I think is a screen memory that surfaced. Apparently when I was younger we had a small red shed, like a barn. Inside was a lawnmower in which you could ride to mow the lawn.
My grandmother had bought this lawnmower, and their was a guy who gave me lessons. He was dressed like a cowboy; jeans, boots, hat, and a colored denim shirt. Nothing bright...blues and greys, brown boot, and a vanilla hat. He instructed me a few times and we would mow the lawn. At the end we would walk to a gate so I could go home. It was a steel gate like for a horse enclosure. When it would open blue lights would flash at the bottom and red lights at the top. I could not see and source where these flashing lights would come from. I would feel apprehensive about this part. It was like I realized where I was.
The big red flag is that we never had a need for that type of a lawnmower, and my grandmother had no red shed or even need for that. However this memory was old and was done over several times.Multiple instances came flooding back to me.... and I felt horrible when I was awake. I was shaking and wanted to cry cause I knew "Shit. That is a screen memory. I remember. what the hell!!!???".
I been in severe depressive state over my wolfbrother, in pain over what they did on 7/27/19, and trying to cope with my responsibilities. Things are getting hard. Today some guy almost ran into me causing me to crash my car into the curb. Luckily no one was hurt, no contact between me on the jerk, and no damage to my car. Life is just messed up.
Saturday, July 27, 2019
White Static Visit
Date: July 27th, 2019
Type: Dream, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:30am-2:45am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 2:00am
State of Mind Before: Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Break Up with Wolfbrother
Odd occurrences after: None
So for the past two months my wolfbrother has been in recovery from major surgery. We all have been doing are best to try and save his life. He is extremely uncooperative and has periods were he lashes out if he doesn't get his way. I am one of the people who gets the brunt of his anger. My other friends have advised me multiple times to walk away from his self destructive behavior, and I have but stupidly I do come back because I truly love him. Recently I stepped away once more because of his attitude, and I think it is the last time. This issue has thrown me into a very depressed state.... and it has negatively impacted me functionality
I been doing my best to force myself to get up and continue the responsibilities I have. The last thing one my mind is them.
Yet this weekend is a CERO meeting, and of course they show up. Yet I don't know who they are.
I was already up as I had to do my nightly rounds with my aunt and put her to bed. I checked on our canine pal and went back to my room and lay down. I was still feeling bad. I was having trouble trying to fall asleep as I was sad, I checked the phone and there was no calls. After 7 messages I guess he finally got the picture.
The way my room is now, your can tell when somethings off. Someone was in the room, I could hair the sheets and papers move and shift. The subtle warning system, but I was so sad I didn't care. Then the noise started, that hi pitched ringing. The first thought was "Leave me alone. Go away" in the most hurt tone I could think. Then reality hit has the tingling of paralysis was setting in. I moved my legs to cover my toes. The ringing stopped, I sensed confusion. Again I thought "Leave me alone. Go away". The sound started again, and I thought "NO!" in irritation and moved a bit. Someone walked by the shelf, invisible bending the light.
"You know I can see you. Just go away. I am not in the mood and don't feel well". Again confusion and pause. "If you gonna have someone to have sex with me I do have a specific preference, that at least would cheer me up". Again their was confusion. From what I could read was "Why not asleep. How resist? Eyes are open".
The next time they up the sound and I was not able to move and the world went white. All I could see was like white snow on the TV. Their movements were there and I could make out shapes... it was like when they simulate radar for visualization. I could hear and register their thoughts and mine. The under conversation in the background from them was "Can he see us? Does he hear? Will he move?". Of course I am angry at this point "I told you to go away. I am hurt and in pain. Do you have any idea what my wolfbrother as done?" I thought. In response "You said he can't see us. I am getting a feedback". My fingers were twitching and my toes were too, it brushed one of them as they got close and they moved back. "You said he would not. What is going on? Should we leave?". I respond "Just get it over with. Ask? This is no way to have a conversation. How many time have I told you. There are easier ways to talk and get to know me". Again confusion. I start crying at this point and pouring out my deep sadness, my sense of loneliness, betrayal, my bitterness of life, myself loathing, my worthlessness, my pain. Then I just stopped. The snow went grey...it was no longer white. There were three of them... I could make them out better.... just shapes but I could see better. Two were trying to process what was going on, the third was just watching. I let the silence last for a few seconds.... and for some reason I just let out this intense siren of pain.... it like what they do in a movie with a loud sound.....it cause them to run and leave. I was free and I had my sight back and I sat up. I look around.
They had moved my comforter which was on the side. There was no way my hand hit a pillow, it was one of them. I got up and checked the room. I checked my phone.... and wanted to text my wolfbrother. I knew I couldn't....... I just tried to cry myself to sleep.
Thirty minutes later......as I was still awake. I heard my aunt scream my name. I got dressed and ran to her room. She was asleep. She don't look disturbed or in any state of REM activity. The sound was audible....but there was nothing. I checked the house and went back to my room. By 5:00am I finally shut down.
Type: Dream, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:30am-2:45am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 2:00am
State of Mind Before: Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Break Up with Wolfbrother
Odd occurrences after: None
So for the past two months my wolfbrother has been in recovery from major surgery. We all have been doing are best to try and save his life. He is extremely uncooperative and has periods were he lashes out if he doesn't get his way. I am one of the people who gets the brunt of his anger. My other friends have advised me multiple times to walk away from his self destructive behavior, and I have but stupidly I do come back because I truly love him. Recently I stepped away once more because of his attitude, and I think it is the last time. This issue has thrown me into a very depressed state.... and it has negatively impacted me functionality
I been doing my best to force myself to get up and continue the responsibilities I have. The last thing one my mind is them.
Yet this weekend is a CERO meeting, and of course they show up. Yet I don't know who they are.
I was already up as I had to do my nightly rounds with my aunt and put her to bed. I checked on our canine pal and went back to my room and lay down. I was still feeling bad. I was having trouble trying to fall asleep as I was sad, I checked the phone and there was no calls. After 7 messages I guess he finally got the picture.
The way my room is now, your can tell when somethings off. Someone was in the room, I could hair the sheets and papers move and shift. The subtle warning system, but I was so sad I didn't care. Then the noise started, that hi pitched ringing. The first thought was "Leave me alone. Go away" in the most hurt tone I could think. Then reality hit has the tingling of paralysis was setting in. I moved my legs to cover my toes. The ringing stopped, I sensed confusion. Again I thought "Leave me alone. Go away". The sound started again, and I thought "NO!" in irritation and moved a bit. Someone walked by the shelf, invisible bending the light.
"You know I can see you. Just go away. I am not in the mood and don't feel well". Again confusion and pause. "If you gonna have someone to have sex with me I do have a specific preference, that at least would cheer me up". Again their was confusion. From what I could read was "Why not asleep. How resist? Eyes are open".
The next time they up the sound and I was not able to move and the world went white. All I could see was like white snow on the TV. Their movements were there and I could make out shapes... it was like when they simulate radar for visualization. I could hear and register their thoughts and mine. The under conversation in the background from them was "Can he see us? Does he hear? Will he move?". Of course I am angry at this point "I told you to go away. I am hurt and in pain. Do you have any idea what my wolfbrother as done?" I thought. In response "You said he can't see us. I am getting a feedback". My fingers were twitching and my toes were too, it brushed one of them as they got close and they moved back. "You said he would not. What is going on? Should we leave?". I respond "Just get it over with. Ask? This is no way to have a conversation. How many time have I told you. There are easier ways to talk and get to know me". Again confusion. I start crying at this point and pouring out my deep sadness, my sense of loneliness, betrayal, my bitterness of life, myself loathing, my worthlessness, my pain. Then I just stopped. The snow went grey...it was no longer white. There were three of them... I could make them out better.... just shapes but I could see better. Two were trying to process what was going on, the third was just watching. I let the silence last for a few seconds.... and for some reason I just let out this intense siren of pain.... it like what they do in a movie with a loud sound.....it cause them to run and leave. I was free and I had my sight back and I sat up. I look around.
They had moved my comforter which was on the side. There was no way my hand hit a pillow, it was one of them. I got up and checked the room. I checked my phone.... and wanted to text my wolfbrother. I knew I couldn't....... I just tried to cry myself to sleep.
Thirty minutes later......as I was still awake. I heard my aunt scream my name. I got dressed and ran to her room. She was asleep. She don't look disturbed or in any state of REM activity. The sound was audible....but there was nothing. I checked the house and went back to my room. By 5:00am I finally shut down.
Wednesday, June 12, 2019
Seas and the Mountains Apocalypse No....
Date: June 9th, 2019
Type: Dream, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 12:00am-4:45am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 12:00am
State of Mind Before: Tired (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/???(Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Scared, Anxious (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)???(Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: Riverside Party, Visions
Odd occurrences after: None
Over the years I have heard many concerns of an upcoming apocalypse or paradigm shift. Various individuals claim that the waters will rise and we have to flee to the mountains. These waters rise from the oceans, either from massive tidal waves or from space. Either way many are killed in a rush of water and people flee upwards.
Although I have seen these various scenes unfold over and over, it is not from what most people think it is from. It is not an apocalyptic event..... but something much more mundane. My version of these events have happened many times over as just part of a series of dreams in the "other" place. Like the resorts or theaters.... but these are the "Camp Grounds" and "Beach". what was odd about this occurrence was that I recently met up with a group from Riverside. One of the guest had a striking resemblance to the man in the warehouse on a chair, the one who had asked me for the location of some items. Apparently I worked for him and arranged the warehouse. This individual here claims to be a form officer, pie maker, and now is physicist for Purdue with friends in JPL He claims to have been in contact with a galactic council who took him offworld for a week, showed him concepts that are beyond human reckoning and gave him a crystal rod. He mentioned and his friend confirmed that he would be surrounded by allies, and apparently is link to Dr. Grier via a director.
Saturday night I went to bed and as I lay down I was told "Don't be afraid we will not harm you. we just want to talk". As my eyes were closed a shimmering rainbow pattern was seen with sparkles like silver motes of glitter. The next thing I know I am u in the mountains in the camp ground. I recognize this place as I have been up before. No one else has arrived yet. I go to the cabin and look for the pamphlets that will describe today activities. There is a woman there and she greets me. I nod. She says " We would like to show you something, follow me". She starts to take me on a tour of things, we walk outdoors and there is a number of exhibits and people all about. She asks if I want a mate, a beautiful girl appears. I reply simply "That is not what I want. Don't offer this again please". She seems puzzled and I proceed to the exhibits.
The exhibits go again over their involvement with humanity, show the natural sciences, astronomy, and various forms of communication. I try not to be rude, but I explain I have been shown this. I need to get home. As I am walking down to the rest of the exhibits I recognize a person who looks like Brian Cranston.
He is having trouble walking on the sand. We are at the sea side along a beach. The waves are gently lapping, but the surf is getting more and more intense. As I look back a huge wave s approaching. People are running trying to head to the high ground up on the dunes. I hear "You should have chosen to stay. You are doomed now". The waves comes crashing, I and few others stand a can bear the wave... but many are swept away. Even the ones crawling up the sand dunes are hit. I yell out, "The water is receding you don't have to ascend. It is a trick! Come help me get the others. They need help". Most of the people are scrambling in a panic. A few here and there like myself are trying to help the others. As I get to were Mr. Cranston was and begin to dig him out the scene shifts and we are in a cylindrical room. Before me are the bodies of several others and a few greys. I hear a lady say "Congratulations. You have managed to save the directors of the projects so we may continue the work.". I yell out "What about the others. We are supposed to save the people". A reply is stated "They are non-consequential and their will be more. Perform you duties and revive the directors." I grab an air pistol and begin to shoot the containers were the directors are, a few other with me seem to feel the same way and break the containers. The red alarms go off. Me and few others open the hatches and begin to make are way/escape. We are the resistance.
Type: Dream, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 12:00am-4:45am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 12:00am
State of Mind Before: Tired (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/???(Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Scared, Anxious (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)???(Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: Riverside Party, Visions
Odd occurrences after: None
Over the years I have heard many concerns of an upcoming apocalypse or paradigm shift. Various individuals claim that the waters will rise and we have to flee to the mountains. These waters rise from the oceans, either from massive tidal waves or from space. Either way many are killed in a rush of water and people flee upwards.
Although I have seen these various scenes unfold over and over, it is not from what most people think it is from. It is not an apocalyptic event..... but something much more mundane. My version of these events have happened many times over as just part of a series of dreams in the "other" place. Like the resorts or theaters.... but these are the "Camp Grounds" and "Beach". what was odd about this occurrence was that I recently met up with a group from Riverside. One of the guest had a striking resemblance to the man in the warehouse on a chair, the one who had asked me for the location of some items. Apparently I worked for him and arranged the warehouse. This individual here claims to be a form officer, pie maker, and now is physicist for Purdue with friends in JPL He claims to have been in contact with a galactic council who took him offworld for a week, showed him concepts that are beyond human reckoning and gave him a crystal rod. He mentioned and his friend confirmed that he would be surrounded by allies, and apparently is link to Dr. Grier via a director.
Saturday night I went to bed and as I lay down I was told "Don't be afraid we will not harm you. we just want to talk". As my eyes were closed a shimmering rainbow pattern was seen with sparkles like silver motes of glitter. The next thing I know I am u in the mountains in the camp ground. I recognize this place as I have been up before. No one else has arrived yet. I go to the cabin and look for the pamphlets that will describe today activities. There is a woman there and she greets me. I nod. She says " We would like to show you something, follow me". She starts to take me on a tour of things, we walk outdoors and there is a number of exhibits and people all about. She asks if I want a mate, a beautiful girl appears. I reply simply "That is not what I want. Don't offer this again please". She seems puzzled and I proceed to the exhibits.
The exhibits go again over their involvement with humanity, show the natural sciences, astronomy, and various forms of communication. I try not to be rude, but I explain I have been shown this. I need to get home. As I am walking down to the rest of the exhibits I recognize a person who looks like Brian Cranston.
He is having trouble walking on the sand. We are at the sea side along a beach. The waves are gently lapping, but the surf is getting more and more intense. As I look back a huge wave s approaching. People are running trying to head to the high ground up on the dunes. I hear "You should have chosen to stay. You are doomed now". The waves comes crashing, I and few others stand a can bear the wave... but many are swept away. Even the ones crawling up the sand dunes are hit. I yell out, "The water is receding you don't have to ascend. It is a trick! Come help me get the others. They need help". Most of the people are scrambling in a panic. A few here and there like myself are trying to help the others. As I get to were Mr. Cranston was and begin to dig him out the scene shifts and we are in a cylindrical room. Before me are the bodies of several others and a few greys. I hear a lady say "Congratulations. You have managed to save the directors of the projects so we may continue the work.". I yell out "What about the others. We are supposed to save the people". A reply is stated "They are non-consequential and their will be more. Perform you duties and revive the directors." I grab an air pistol and begin to shoot the containers were the directors are, a few other with me seem to feel the same way and break the containers. The red alarms go off. Me and few others open the hatches and begin to make are way/escape. We are the resistance.
Friday, June 7, 2019
They took us all
Date: June 7th, 2019
Type: CE4, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:15am-4:45am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 3:45am
State of Mind Before: Tired (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/???(Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Scared, Anxious (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)???(Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: Yellow Light, Invisible Being
Odd occurrences after: None
This week I have been dealing with my Wolfbrother's major operation and have not had any time for myself.
On thursady I went to go see a movie and had dinner, dropping off my Wolfbrother's mother and came home. I was in a good mood and even sent my Wolfbrother a video from the latest pokemon Nintendo Direct about about Sword & Shield. It was late approaching like 3:30am. I decided to go to sleep and lay down. As I lay in my area and tried to fall asleep I noticed an invisible being standing by the shelf. I paid it no mind, figuring it was just me being tired.
Around 4:00am my alarm went off. I was drowzie and turned it off. I took the phone and went to my sleeping area. I was trying to get back to sleep and looking at my nightlight and thought.. "What is the yellow light? I have blue light..." and faded off to sleep. The next thing I hear is my aunt yell and I am quickly awake.
I look for my clothes and only have my sheet which I cover myself in and run. The weird thing was that there was no door, and I don't think I was in the room. I also had trouble running as it took effort since my foot was touching the ground entirely and had to bound like a quadruped to get some momentum. The path I took exited the room into a hallway in which I made a left passing by a few rooms (In hindsight this was not my house, I passed a few rooms and was making a beeline to where my aunt was screaming. I good hear their murmurs from the passing rooms). As I got closer my aunt screamed "Don't come in! They are in here. Go get Sebastian. Don't come in!". Of course I thought to myself fuck it and leaped in. It was darkness, they were trying to blind me and stop me. I bounded in growling and was surrounded. They attempted to attack and intrude my mind. All I heard was "How is he resisting?", "You indicated this one was asleep", "He should not be here", "Put him down", and a few of the smaller ones came in and began to physical pummel and dog pile me. "How is he doing that? He shouldn't be able?", "Oh it is that ONE. He is progressing". They beat my unconscious.
I wake up in the room with my aunt and she is crying. It is not well illuminated, but I can see her and hear her, relying on my other senses. I am in pain, but shake it off. She looks at me and asks what's wrong with my eye. I told her don't worry. From what I noticed looking from her POV... my left eye was all black. Meaning the pupil and eye were black like theirs. I told her and re-assured her it was me. At that point Sebastian tried to run in, was pulled back, and then I yelled "Give him back", and pounded on the door. She started crying and told me that they put her on a table and were doing things. I could see another room nearby... it was like her bathroom sort of in that it was an adjacent room with an air vent and fan. I went there and yelled "I can see you. I know you are up there", the lights moved. "You know who I am. Stop this!". One of them came out holding Sebastian who did not move. "We know who you are" it communicated. "You know what you must do. You are not to involve yourself with you Wolfbrother. He is our broken toy and not yours. His phase is over and no longer requires your presence". "Leave Sebastian out of this" I think back. It continues "Your love for him gives him hope, you continue to support and be a beacon. He is ours. You cannot save him. He is ours as well as you". He begins to peel off the black from Sebastians claw revealing the quick. "Stop!" I communicate. "You and her will be removed within a year and a half. We have told you this. Your attachments make you inferior, he is an animal like you. You will comply. Yes?", he states and begins to split Sebastian's claw. "Stop it." I yell.
The next thing I know I am standing in a field of yellow grass at some abandoned playing field. In the distance there are six dust devils coming down from grey clouds in a hexagon pattern. There are a group of men with me. My wolfbrother is standing with me. He tells me we need to get through. They are trying to separate us. I tell him I know and request that he take my hand and not let go. We will get through this but he needs to hold on. The other men I recognize, I meet them before, people I have identified as "touched" like myself. As we trying to pass the dust devils, I can hear their thoughts "What are you doing? He is ours? You cannot simply just leave. You are more advanced than you know, but not beyond our reach. Stop what you are doing". I tell my wolfbrother to run and not let go. As we brave the dust devils and our goal is in sight and they come at us again. My wings unfurl and I am keeping them at bay. I look at my wolfbrother and tell him "I love you, together we can fight them off. Our love can.." he looks at me and lets go, he says "I changed my mind. They made me a better offer. See you" and walk off. I am wounded by him. The other men make it through. Others are coming at me.... their drones. Among the throng of them I see Dominic.... he is lost....
I stand there and scream, extending my wings up and leaving that place.
I wake up in my room. I am confused and start crying. My body hurts. I am not sure what happened. I remember my aunt screaming and I quickly get Sebastian and check on her. She is confused a bit and tells me she had a bad dream. She remembers screaming because someone came in and touched her. THEY came in. She recalls saying "Don't come in they are here". She remembers tell me about a "table", and she become concerned because THEY got Sebastian. I filled her in on my part, as she confirmed this was not a dream. we couldn't go back to sleep.....
I was sore and had trouble breathing. My right ankle, my left calf, my left side under my ribcage, my right shoulder, and my left eye and temple were all sore. I felt as if someone beat me (which was the case). I could not find bruises, but I am internally sore, even after a day. My PTSD is up, but I am pushing through for my Wolfbrother.
I did communicate with him the events that happened. Later that day when meditating with him... his "friends" spoke to me. They liked "my singing" and want me to continue helping him. They won't help me though, my wolfbrother must "join" with me first. They said we are made for eachother. I am so tired of being pulled in both directions, my Wolfbrother not listening to reason or the evidence we have. I do not know what to do.
I just want to run and find someone... but there is no one.
Type: CE4, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:15am-4:45am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 3:45am
State of Mind Before: Tired (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/???(Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Scared, Anxious (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)???(Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: Yellow Light, Invisible Being
Odd occurrences after: None
This week I have been dealing with my Wolfbrother's major operation and have not had any time for myself.
On thursady I went to go see a movie and had dinner, dropping off my Wolfbrother's mother and came home. I was in a good mood and even sent my Wolfbrother a video from the latest pokemon Nintendo Direct about about Sword & Shield. It was late approaching like 3:30am. I decided to go to sleep and lay down. As I lay in my area and tried to fall asleep I noticed an invisible being standing by the shelf. I paid it no mind, figuring it was just me being tired.
Around 4:00am my alarm went off. I was drowzie and turned it off. I took the phone and went to my sleeping area. I was trying to get back to sleep and looking at my nightlight and thought.. "What is the yellow light? I have blue light..." and faded off to sleep. The next thing I hear is my aunt yell and I am quickly awake.
I look for my clothes and only have my sheet which I cover myself in and run. The weird thing was that there was no door, and I don't think I was in the room. I also had trouble running as it took effort since my foot was touching the ground entirely and had to bound like a quadruped to get some momentum. The path I took exited the room into a hallway in which I made a left passing by a few rooms (In hindsight this was not my house, I passed a few rooms and was making a beeline to where my aunt was screaming. I good hear their murmurs from the passing rooms). As I got closer my aunt screamed "Don't come in! They are in here. Go get Sebastian. Don't come in!". Of course I thought to myself fuck it and leaped in. It was darkness, they were trying to blind me and stop me. I bounded in growling and was surrounded. They attempted to attack and intrude my mind. All I heard was "How is he resisting?", "You indicated this one was asleep", "He should not be here", "Put him down", and a few of the smaller ones came in and began to physical pummel and dog pile me. "How is he doing that? He shouldn't be able?", "Oh it is that ONE. He is progressing". They beat my unconscious.
I wake up in the room with my aunt and she is crying. It is not well illuminated, but I can see her and hear her, relying on my other senses. I am in pain, but shake it off. She looks at me and asks what's wrong with my eye. I told her don't worry. From what I noticed looking from her POV... my left eye was all black. Meaning the pupil and eye were black like theirs. I told her and re-assured her it was me. At that point Sebastian tried to run in, was pulled back, and then I yelled "Give him back", and pounded on the door. She started crying and told me that they put her on a table and were doing things. I could see another room nearby... it was like her bathroom sort of in that it was an adjacent room with an air vent and fan. I went there and yelled "I can see you. I know you are up there", the lights moved. "You know who I am. Stop this!". One of them came out holding Sebastian who did not move. "We know who you are" it communicated. "You know what you must do. You are not to involve yourself with you Wolfbrother. He is our broken toy and not yours. His phase is over and no longer requires your presence". "Leave Sebastian out of this" I think back. It continues "Your love for him gives him hope, you continue to support and be a beacon. He is ours. You cannot save him. He is ours as well as you". He begins to peel off the black from Sebastians claw revealing the quick. "Stop!" I communicate. "You and her will be removed within a year and a half. We have told you this. Your attachments make you inferior, he is an animal like you. You will comply. Yes?", he states and begins to split Sebastian's claw. "Stop it." I yell.
The next thing I know I am standing in a field of yellow grass at some abandoned playing field. In the distance there are six dust devils coming down from grey clouds in a hexagon pattern. There are a group of men with me. My wolfbrother is standing with me. He tells me we need to get through. They are trying to separate us. I tell him I know and request that he take my hand and not let go. We will get through this but he needs to hold on. The other men I recognize, I meet them before, people I have identified as "touched" like myself. As we trying to pass the dust devils, I can hear their thoughts "What are you doing? He is ours? You cannot simply just leave. You are more advanced than you know, but not beyond our reach. Stop what you are doing". I tell my wolfbrother to run and not let go. As we brave the dust devils and our goal is in sight and they come at us again. My wings unfurl and I am keeping them at bay. I look at my wolfbrother and tell him "I love you, together we can fight them off. Our love can.." he looks at me and lets go, he says "I changed my mind. They made me a better offer. See you" and walk off. I am wounded by him. The other men make it through. Others are coming at me.... their drones. Among the throng of them I see Dominic.... he is lost....
I stand there and scream, extending my wings up and leaving that place.
I wake up in my room. I am confused and start crying. My body hurts. I am not sure what happened. I remember my aunt screaming and I quickly get Sebastian and check on her. She is confused a bit and tells me she had a bad dream. She remembers screaming because someone came in and touched her. THEY came in. She recalls saying "Don't come in they are here". She remembers tell me about a "table", and she become concerned because THEY got Sebastian. I filled her in on my part, as she confirmed this was not a dream. we couldn't go back to sleep.....
I was sore and had trouble breathing. My right ankle, my left calf, my left side under my ribcage, my right shoulder, and my left eye and temple were all sore. I felt as if someone beat me (which was the case). I could not find bruises, but I am internally sore, even after a day. My PTSD is up, but I am pushing through for my Wolfbrother.
I did communicate with him the events that happened. Later that day when meditating with him... his "friends" spoke to me. They liked "my singing" and want me to continue helping him. They won't help me though, my wolfbrother must "join" with me first. They said we are made for eachother. I am so tired of being pulled in both directions, my Wolfbrother not listening to reason or the evidence we have. I do not know what to do.
I just want to run and find someone... but there is no one.
Saturday, May 18, 2019
Betrayal and Death
Date: May 18th, 2019
Type: CE4, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:30am-7:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:30am
State of Mind Before: Sad (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/???(Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Physically Ill, Weak (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)???(Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: Full Moon
Odd occurrences after: None
It has been a very bad two weeks. In these past weeks my wolfbrother back stabbed me with accusations, my pipes broke, and the abusive family members returned causing trauma again to my aunt and I. Real world horrors have shadowed over any of the oddities that have occurred....until a few days ago.
Beginning Thursday morning, May 16th I been having odd dreams. These are not dreams, but mental intrusions referencing some recent events. I been speaking with some man, and he was telling me to remember a specific word spelling it out for me. It had to do with overall situation in hand. He wanted to see if I would remember. I told him I am not interested in playing these games. It would depend if I felt like recording it. Yet since there are major issues with my wolfbrother and I am to be gone in two years, what is the point. I told him of my limited incentive as things are falling around me. I was told I have no choice and in his midsentance I woke myself up.
Friday morning I started to have the same issue. However they did show up and something was done to my right arm around the wrist and elbow. My wrist has an old scar, but it seemed recently accessed. The scar itself seems "new" and is rather prominent. It looks like a flap.... as if someone went over with a laser and made a flap of skin. The whole day it bothered my..... not only because I was focusing on it... but the physical irritation as well. Because I was troubled and my PTSD and Depression were high I took an evening nap. At 6:30pm my right elbow "buzzed" and I turned off not awakening until 10pm. I did go and run errands, but I still feel forlon and upset. I don't feel safe, not from the issues of the abduction and visits...but the real world bullshit. I want this nonsense stopped, I want them to all go away, and I pray that my feelings do not turn to vengeance. Cause I hope that they suffer for what they have done and continue to do to me....
I kept such feelings at bay, keeping myself busy doing research up until 4:30am. At that time I heard the "Why are you not sleep? Go to bed. We have business". Now during the night I would notice someone standing and watching me, only to fade away. I am aware of their presence...and try to keep my thoughts grounded in what activity or research I am performing. However I gave into their instruction and went to lay down. At first I thought to put on the AC and have the audio on.... but stayed my hand as I was told "No".
As soon as I lay down it started, I couldn't move. I did my best to get up and do something but my body was non-responsive. I could hear them discussing what to do with me, they were irritated that I wasn't complying, my interest in my wolfbrother is no more, and I kept waking up. One of them was focusing on me, letting me know that I could be trapped in this state forever if they wanted to. It pissed me off and was enjoying my struggles. It said for me to say "I need a physician", but in the sense of getting me to ask for their help. Instead I managed to punch myself in the face and wake up. My right upper arm was hurting and I felt extremely weak. They were in the room..... I was awake. I turned over trying to move, but that was the best I could do. I could not get up. They approached once more and I was under.
"Stop doing that!" I was yelled at in my head. "You keep struggling. Why?! No one wants you. Give up. Stop running". I continued to struggle, they opened my mouth and were looking in. I think something was inserted in. "He is aware. Turn him off", one said. "He is resisting. Why is this one so defective. The other is so compliant. What one is the other is not. The other is and this one is not. Same, but different. This one should have been compliant. The other one should have been stronger". I stated "I can hear you. When I really awake I will hunt you down for what you have done to my brother and I. I know what you are. These victories are just momentary, but in the end I will win." Another spoke "So brave, so confident. Your love makes you weak". I was experiencing pain in my left arm now. I heard my canine from cry and hit the gate.
"Get away from him. I will destroy you all". I continued to struggle and began to hyperventilate. Again I gasped for breath and was free. They are still in the room. I can feel their irritation. I cannot see anything, I can make out the time 5:45am on the clock just barely as one was in the way. I cannot get up, I feel so weak physically, they have done something to me. I go under.
"I need a physician" I mutter. They begin to finish up what they are doing. My extremities are cold, beneath the knees and elbows. I am not my wolfbrother, why are they comparing me to him. We are physical different. I am not going in for surgery. He wants nothing to do with me. I am not him. Their probings have to do with my wolfbrother's physical state. I am still struggling. Finallya round 7:00am they leave and I take in a deep breathe and am able to move freely. I feel weak, but manage to get up. When I go to the bathroom I cough up blood and mucus. I urinate, and it is crystal clear. My core temp is extremely high, but extremities are numb. I am shakey a bit and return to my bedding. I quickly let my guest know of what happened via text. I also text my wolfbrother.... apparently they were torturing him as well.
Type: CE4, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:30am-7:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:30am
State of Mind Before: Sad (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/???(Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Physically Ill, Weak (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)???(Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: Full Moon
Odd occurrences after: None
It has been a very bad two weeks. In these past weeks my wolfbrother back stabbed me with accusations, my pipes broke, and the abusive family members returned causing trauma again to my aunt and I. Real world horrors have shadowed over any of the oddities that have occurred....until a few days ago.
Beginning Thursday morning, May 16th I been having odd dreams. These are not dreams, but mental intrusions referencing some recent events. I been speaking with some man, and he was telling me to remember a specific word spelling it out for me. It had to do with overall situation in hand. He wanted to see if I would remember. I told him I am not interested in playing these games. It would depend if I felt like recording it. Yet since there are major issues with my wolfbrother and I am to be gone in two years, what is the point. I told him of my limited incentive as things are falling around me. I was told I have no choice and in his midsentance I woke myself up.
Friday morning I started to have the same issue. However they did show up and something was done to my right arm around the wrist and elbow. My wrist has an old scar, but it seemed recently accessed. The scar itself seems "new" and is rather prominent. It looks like a flap.... as if someone went over with a laser and made a flap of skin. The whole day it bothered my..... not only because I was focusing on it... but the physical irritation as well. Because I was troubled and my PTSD and Depression were high I took an evening nap. At 6:30pm my right elbow "buzzed" and I turned off not awakening until 10pm. I did go and run errands, but I still feel forlon and upset. I don't feel safe, not from the issues of the abduction and visits...but the real world bullshit. I want this nonsense stopped, I want them to all go away, and I pray that my feelings do not turn to vengeance. Cause I hope that they suffer for what they have done and continue to do to me....
I kept such feelings at bay, keeping myself busy doing research up until 4:30am. At that time I heard the "Why are you not sleep? Go to bed. We have business". Now during the night I would notice someone standing and watching me, only to fade away. I am aware of their presence...and try to keep my thoughts grounded in what activity or research I am performing. However I gave into their instruction and went to lay down. At first I thought to put on the AC and have the audio on.... but stayed my hand as I was told "No".
As soon as I lay down it started, I couldn't move. I did my best to get up and do something but my body was non-responsive. I could hear them discussing what to do with me, they were irritated that I wasn't complying, my interest in my wolfbrother is no more, and I kept waking up. One of them was focusing on me, letting me know that I could be trapped in this state forever if they wanted to. It pissed me off and was enjoying my struggles. It said for me to say "I need a physician", but in the sense of getting me to ask for their help. Instead I managed to punch myself in the face and wake up. My right upper arm was hurting and I felt extremely weak. They were in the room..... I was awake. I turned over trying to move, but that was the best I could do. I could not get up. They approached once more and I was under.
"Stop doing that!" I was yelled at in my head. "You keep struggling. Why?! No one wants you. Give up. Stop running". I continued to struggle, they opened my mouth and were looking in. I think something was inserted in. "He is aware. Turn him off", one said. "He is resisting. Why is this one so defective. The other is so compliant. What one is the other is not. The other is and this one is not. Same, but different. This one should have been compliant. The other one should have been stronger". I stated "I can hear you. When I really awake I will hunt you down for what you have done to my brother and I. I know what you are. These victories are just momentary, but in the end I will win." Another spoke "So brave, so confident. Your love makes you weak". I was experiencing pain in my left arm now. I heard my canine from cry and hit the gate.
"Get away from him. I will destroy you all". I continued to struggle and began to hyperventilate. Again I gasped for breath and was free. They are still in the room. I can feel their irritation. I cannot see anything, I can make out the time 5:45am on the clock just barely as one was in the way. I cannot get up, I feel so weak physically, they have done something to me. I go under.
"I need a physician" I mutter. They begin to finish up what they are doing. My extremities are cold, beneath the knees and elbows. I am not my wolfbrother, why are they comparing me to him. We are physical different. I am not going in for surgery. He wants nothing to do with me. I am not him. Their probings have to do with my wolfbrother's physical state. I am still struggling. Finallya round 7:00am they leave and I take in a deep breathe and am able to move freely. I feel weak, but manage to get up. When I go to the bathroom I cough up blood and mucus. I urinate, and it is crystal clear. My core temp is extremely high, but extremities are numb. I am shakey a bit and return to my bedding. I quickly let my guest know of what happened via text. I also text my wolfbrother.... apparently they were torturing him as well.
Thursday, May 16, 2019
You are off limits!!!
Date: May 16th, 2019
Type: CE4, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:30am-7:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:00am
State of Mind Before: Sad (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/???(Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Sad (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)???(Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: None
Odd occurrences after: None
Starting the 16th I was getting visited by various groups. The first group claimed to know my Wolfbrother and wanted to know our relation to each other. They asked me directly because they were having difficulty in "reading me". They were performing diagnostic tests on me. I did respond to them "Why are you asking me? Haven't you examined humans before? Why are you comparing me to wolfbrother?". They make the usual comments as to "I am not normal". The test they were looking at was analyzing my blood, skeletal structure, organs, and brainwave activity. They said I was not entirely human, and was different. They seemed a bit puzzled. When we got past most of the biological readings they got a noticed and freaked out.
Type: CE4, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:30am-7:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:00am
State of Mind Before: Sad (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/???(Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Sad (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)???(Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: None
Odd occurrences after: None
Starting the 16th I was getting visited by various groups. The first group claimed to know my Wolfbrother and wanted to know our relation to each other. They asked me directly because they were having difficulty in "reading me". They were performing diagnostic tests on me. I did respond to them "Why are you asking me? Haven't you examined humans before? Why are you comparing me to wolfbrother?". They make the usual comments as to "I am not normal". The test they were looking at was analyzing my blood, skeletal structure, organs, and brainwave activity. They said I was not entirely human, and was different. They seemed a bit puzzled. When we got past most of the biological readings they got a noticed and freaked out.
They mentioned and told me "I was claimed. We cannot
deal with you. You are not human. And they know! We need to leave now!".
They pack up and left and I woke up. Now they looked like the Tan
aliens, wearing a black clothing (suit) with a silver grey shirt. They
looked like a grey but had more defined facial feature like and old man
almost. No hair, but squint face and short.
The next
night, which I found odd I was in a dream from 15 years ago (I don't
think that was a dream either). It was in those alternate Los Angeles
areas, and my house backyard was changed specifically to include a
bigger outdoor patio which my room was in. The only difference it was
set up like a pavilion with white gossamer sheet for walls. I remember
it fondly because it was really nice, and asked the being who set it up
about what happens when it rains as I don't want my book to get wet or
the sheets. I was told not to worry about the weather. In this place is
where I saw the crafts over Los Angeles come and dock with a mother ship
and then come down to pick people up from a transport. The transport
was a vessel that seemed like a carnival ride, a simple squarish
cylindrical vehicle. The front was windowless and exposed were two
pilots were standing. On the sides is where people were escorted where
they could lean back or sit, once secured. It could hold maybe a total
of 20 people. The beings here were going house to picking up and putting
people back. The beings looked like Sea Monkeys, but bright pink with
bulbed horns, and highlights of indigo around there eyes, and ice blue
eyes. They wore grey clothes.
I asked what is going on.
Everyone else seemed in a daze or quite happy, kinda like the elderly
going on a ride... very compliant. The being whom I asked quickly
responded "What are you doing here? Did you come from there? That house
is off limits. You should be asleep". I pressed on and asked "What do
you mean off limits? Do you know who I am?". He looked at me and said
"They have claimed you. You should be asking 'what' and not 'who'. You
are marked and we cannot interfere". A shadow was above us as the
mothership was over the neighborhood. It appeared like a large detailed
tuning fork. I walked back to my home, sat in that patio version of my
room and cried. I haven't been here in years. I recognized this place
and was wondering why I didn't wake up. So I started walking to the
front of the house. I saw my grandmother and ran up to her and hugged
her. She had been dead for 18 years. She asked what was wrong. I found
this very uncharacteristic of myself, but I have been emotionally and
mentally worn down as of late where my PTSD is through the roof. I knew
this wasn't her... but even if it was lie.. for some reason I didn't
care. At this point when it was trying to interact with me I woke up.
When I hit myself on the head.....
Saturday, April 20, 2019
Dentist and Home Movies
Date: April 20th, 2019
Type: CE4, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 5:30am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 1:00am
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/???(Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Very Depressed to Apathy (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)???(Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: Disruptive Sleeping, Insomnia, Full Moon, Tooth fell out, Issues with Wolfbother
Odd occurrences after: None
The day before yesterday was very stressful as I was trying my best to get my wolfbrother medical aid. We spent 9 hours in the ER. Because of insurance issues, he is being bounced in the system...despite have three gaping large holes on his body at critical areas. We have jumped through hoops and the system doesn't care, in addition a tooth fell out for me, I didn't make it an issue and held myself since he was most important.
Yesterday since I did not hear from anyone I tried to rest balancing my obligations. My sleeping schedule is a complete mess, only taking cat naps here and there, my body getting high fevers just feeling depressed as usual, especially even more with the tooth issue.
For the most part last night, despite the tossing and turning and waking up.... I was relaxed. even though I got the warning of "We are coming". Either I was tired and didn't care or just physically exhausted. The following episode happens after 5:30am around the fourth time I awoke.
When I went to sleep I was thrown into a dream full of fractured memories. I was in the fake part of Montebello, I instantly knew by looking at the compressed and long version of Beverly Blvd that I seen many times. Most of the individuals from my elementary school where there. Frank kept wondering where we were and told him in "fake" Montebello. It was strange since his house is not part of this landscape.
He was very angry and antagonistic, then made a statement as ti why was I here as he would obviously be chosen for his superior intellect. I said retorted, I don't care and this is something you don't want to be chosen for. We were both escorted to a home/school/Baskin Robbins were my 8th grade teacher and a few other students were. There was a lesson going on telling us the difference between a military abduction versus an alien abduction. The military cannot use psychic communication, and often will use imagery and symbols to convey instructions. They showed a number of common images and slides. They cannot communicate and will leave very hazy memories. We will leave clear memories, but you as an individuals must be able to process. Many of you will not remember this as it is too traumatic, here are two examples Frank and .... he went in, but I heard my aunt scream.
It shifted to my home and I went directly to my aunts room. Frank was disoriented as he was not there in that other places and had asked what happened. I said "Stay here in the kitchen. If you want to go home, wake up or concentrate on someplace you like. You are smart enough to figure that out right?". Of course he didn't listen to me and followed me. In my aunts room was a wicker basket with snails hanging on the ceiling, and a very muscular good looking guy in white shirts and jeans. The Wicker Baskets and Snails, didn't look like that..it kept switching between an image of a pulsating growth on the ceiling with multiple eyes. I got a bucket and broom and scrapped it and cut the wire and burned it outside. Frank was behind me but dumbfounded. The muscular guy who I was ignoring cause he was very hot came up to me. "You can see me right? I know you are seeing the rest of this and your friend looks as if he is in shock. You can call me Captain Mar.... no that is silly... oh well... Captain Marville? To prove this is real I am putting $50 dollars in your wallet. When you wake up, check." I just nodded and listened, also was just so lonely I wanted to be in his arms as well. "We haven't forgotten about you both. Your wolfbrother is in a mess of his own, and we are glad you are by his side. Things are getting complicated and you have to come back/home with us. We need you to try and help him, but if he want commit just let him go and we will just have to mark him off as a failure". At that point I hear my wolfbrother.
I shift to a parking lot and meet my wolfbrother's parents. His mom is happy I am there and urges me to help them find my wolfbrother. His dad is trying to tell his mom "Something is wrong. This is not the real place. We shouldn't be here. I want to go back". She is not listening and we go into the supermarkets. His Dad doesn't like it hear and keeps saying "This is not what it looks like we gotta go". Eventually I find me my wolfbrother in a dentist office within the supermarket. There is a smiling man there with my wolfbrother on the table. It looks at me and it powers down. His mom and Dad come in, happy that I found him. I tell them "You have to leave now. It is not safe. Take him and go". Either the smiling man comes to life or the scene changes, but I am on the chair now. The room is a small cube with a dentist chair, monitor, and space for a four people to stand by the door. everything is white and cream. The man introduces himself as Captain Marvelous, and he is a radio talk show host. A man in a suit, greyish earth tones....with a neat small mustache, Caucasian, and black hair slicked back...almost like in the 40's style. He goes for my wallet and removes the $50 bill stating "None of that now, as it is you are far more trouble than expected". He starts to come up to me and asks about the videos. I do not answer. He wants to know what I have seen and the monitor begins to play. He does comment that there is a lot of stuff, and how could I be resisting...but I am curious what he wants to see so I ease up. The monitor begins to show Point of View scenes, mostly my memories of when "they" would come. Most of the scenes were of them dragging me out of bed, out of the room, out from under the bed, and was hands and feet. There were a few scenes in which no one was there and I was moving around, either trying to hide or just walking. He seemed perplexed that these scenes were in there. What was more concerning to him were the POV scenes that were clearly not mine. These were at the beach, and a different home. It was not me and I was aware of this too. Mine would still show up and then switch over to theirs, then there were some that were both of our POVs at the same time in the same location. I hear "Not possible with this kind". He also seem bothered/interested when the POV switched to unknown origin giving a different perspective. The scenes he was most concerned about were when more than just the hands and feet were shown, when there was clear shots of the individuals who dragged me off and of a craft. I woke up.
The scene that sticks out most which was not me, was when this person was at the beach. They were young, maybe between 6-8 and they were playing near the breakwater. It was mostly walking along the shore as the waves would lap. From the rocks a humanoid being, similar to the faceless beige mannequins came out. I message of don't be alarms was broadcasted. The person back up and turned, but soon fell forward. A pair of hands quickly turned him over as the being walked toward him. The being looked to see if he was ok and look toward two other behind. They walked into the surf, dragging along the person. The person was floating on the water, their head lock upwards so not to swallow water, being moved feet first. you could see three to four of them escorting him, keep a distance of two feet. They appeared to be walking on water and were slowly approaching a craft, it was cream color and blended into the horizon rather well. It seemed ceramic and from the distance from shore you'd think it was just a cloud because it blended in so well. A platform descended from the craft, which had a reddish brown interior of what could be seen. It was very quick as all of as approached the platform and was raised up into it.
Type: CE4, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 5:30am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 1:00am
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/???(Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Very Depressed to Apathy (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)???(Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: Disruptive Sleeping, Insomnia, Full Moon, Tooth fell out, Issues with Wolfbother
Odd occurrences after: None
The day before yesterday was very stressful as I was trying my best to get my wolfbrother medical aid. We spent 9 hours in the ER. Because of insurance issues, he is being bounced in the system...despite have three gaping large holes on his body at critical areas. We have jumped through hoops and the system doesn't care, in addition a tooth fell out for me, I didn't make it an issue and held myself since he was most important.
Yesterday since I did not hear from anyone I tried to rest balancing my obligations. My sleeping schedule is a complete mess, only taking cat naps here and there, my body getting high fevers just feeling depressed as usual, especially even more with the tooth issue.
For the most part last night, despite the tossing and turning and waking up.... I was relaxed. even though I got the warning of "We are coming". Either I was tired and didn't care or just physically exhausted. The following episode happens after 5:30am around the fourth time I awoke.
When I went to sleep I was thrown into a dream full of fractured memories. I was in the fake part of Montebello, I instantly knew by looking at the compressed and long version of Beverly Blvd that I seen many times. Most of the individuals from my elementary school where there. Frank kept wondering where we were and told him in "fake" Montebello. It was strange since his house is not part of this landscape.
He was very angry and antagonistic, then made a statement as ti why was I here as he would obviously be chosen for his superior intellect. I said retorted, I don't care and this is something you don't want to be chosen for. We were both escorted to a home/school/Baskin Robbins were my 8th grade teacher and a few other students were. There was a lesson going on telling us the difference between a military abduction versus an alien abduction. The military cannot use psychic communication, and often will use imagery and symbols to convey instructions. They showed a number of common images and slides. They cannot communicate and will leave very hazy memories. We will leave clear memories, but you as an individuals must be able to process. Many of you will not remember this as it is too traumatic, here are two examples Frank and .... he went in, but I heard my aunt scream.
It shifted to my home and I went directly to my aunts room. Frank was disoriented as he was not there in that other places and had asked what happened. I said "Stay here in the kitchen. If you want to go home, wake up or concentrate on someplace you like. You are smart enough to figure that out right?". Of course he didn't listen to me and followed me. In my aunts room was a wicker basket with snails hanging on the ceiling, and a very muscular good looking guy in white shirts and jeans. The Wicker Baskets and Snails, didn't look like that..it kept switching between an image of a pulsating growth on the ceiling with multiple eyes. I got a bucket and broom and scrapped it and cut the wire and burned it outside. Frank was behind me but dumbfounded. The muscular guy who I was ignoring cause he was very hot came up to me. "You can see me right? I know you are seeing the rest of this and your friend looks as if he is in shock. You can call me Captain Mar.... no that is silly... oh well... Captain Marville? To prove this is real I am putting $50 dollars in your wallet. When you wake up, check." I just nodded and listened, also was just so lonely I wanted to be in his arms as well. "We haven't forgotten about you both. Your wolfbrother is in a mess of his own, and we are glad you are by his side. Things are getting complicated and you have to come back/home with us. We need you to try and help him, but if he want commit just let him go and we will just have to mark him off as a failure". At that point I hear my wolfbrother.
I shift to a parking lot and meet my wolfbrother's parents. His mom is happy I am there and urges me to help them find my wolfbrother. His dad is trying to tell his mom "Something is wrong. This is not the real place. We shouldn't be here. I want to go back". She is not listening and we go into the supermarkets. His Dad doesn't like it hear and keeps saying "This is not what it looks like we gotta go". Eventually I find me my wolfbrother in a dentist office within the supermarket. There is a smiling man there with my wolfbrother on the table. It looks at me and it powers down. His mom and Dad come in, happy that I found him. I tell them "You have to leave now. It is not safe. Take him and go". Either the smiling man comes to life or the scene changes, but I am on the chair now. The room is a small cube with a dentist chair, monitor, and space for a four people to stand by the door. everything is white and cream. The man introduces himself as Captain Marvelous, and he is a radio talk show host. A man in a suit, greyish earth tones....with a neat small mustache, Caucasian, and black hair slicked back...almost like in the 40's style. He goes for my wallet and removes the $50 bill stating "None of that now, as it is you are far more trouble than expected". He starts to come up to me and asks about the videos. I do not answer. He wants to know what I have seen and the monitor begins to play. He does comment that there is a lot of stuff, and how could I be resisting...but I am curious what he wants to see so I ease up. The monitor begins to show Point of View scenes, mostly my memories of when "they" would come. Most of the scenes were of them dragging me out of bed, out of the room, out from under the bed, and was hands and feet. There were a few scenes in which no one was there and I was moving around, either trying to hide or just walking. He seemed perplexed that these scenes were in there. What was more concerning to him were the POV scenes that were clearly not mine. These were at the beach, and a different home. It was not me and I was aware of this too. Mine would still show up and then switch over to theirs, then there were some that were both of our POVs at the same time in the same location. I hear "Not possible with this kind". He also seem bothered/interested when the POV switched to unknown origin giving a different perspective. The scenes he was most concerned about were when more than just the hands and feet were shown, when there was clear shots of the individuals who dragged me off and of a craft. I woke up.
The scene that sticks out most which was not me, was when this person was at the beach. They were young, maybe between 6-8 and they were playing near the breakwater. It was mostly walking along the shore as the waves would lap. From the rocks a humanoid being, similar to the faceless beige mannequins came out. I message of don't be alarms was broadcasted. The person back up and turned, but soon fell forward. A pair of hands quickly turned him over as the being walked toward him. The being looked to see if he was ok and look toward two other behind. They walked into the surf, dragging along the person. The person was floating on the water, their head lock upwards so not to swallow water, being moved feet first. you could see three to four of them escorting him, keep a distance of two feet. They appeared to be walking on water and were slowly approaching a craft, it was cream color and blended into the horizon rather well. It seemed ceramic and from the distance from shore you'd think it was just a cloud because it blended in so well. A platform descended from the craft, which had a reddish brown interior of what could be seen. It was very quick as all of as approached the platform and was raised up into it.
Sunday, April 14, 2019
Direct Threats Confirmed by Three People (Follow Up)
I am unaware if they changed their minds of the threat, it has been delayed, or I called their bluff. I know that I have spoken and at the very least amount assisted my wolfbrother from afar. I am unsure who these beings are, if they are truly the ones with our best interest at heart. My aunt was anxious all day and we stood up as usual and there was no major activity.
However it is important to note that around 630pm when taking a nap, something did occur with me. I turned off with a weird sound and was partially in a state of being asleep??? My body just shut off, eye open, I was trying to get up and it felt as if things were failing and I was slipping away. It was not the usual type of paralyzation that I experienced before, my body just stopped working and I was doing what ever it took to rouse myself up. There were no muscle ticks, I just went limp. The only thing that was working was my toes and fingers. Fortunately my right hand was behind my head, and I began tapping head and pulling at my own hair. After a while I was evil to rouse myself out and get up. I did feel that something was upset that I was able to still move, especially since it did not get to do what was intended for me.
Nothing odd has occurred after this. As usual my Wolfbrother is not responding to his calls.
However it is important to note that around 630pm when taking a nap, something did occur with me. I turned off with a weird sound and was partially in a state of being asleep??? My body just shut off, eye open, I was trying to get up and it felt as if things were failing and I was slipping away. It was not the usual type of paralyzation that I experienced before, my body just stopped working and I was doing what ever it took to rouse myself up. There were no muscle ticks, I just went limp. The only thing that was working was my toes and fingers. Fortunately my right hand was behind my head, and I began tapping head and pulling at my own hair. After a while I was evil to rouse myself out and get up. I did feel that something was upset that I was able to still move, especially since it did not get to do what was intended for me.
Nothing odd has occurred after this. As usual my Wolfbrother is not responding to his calls.
Saturday, April 13, 2019
Direct Threats Confirmed by Three People
Date: April 12th, 2019
Type: CE4, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 5:30am-6:15am, 6:30pm-7:30pm
Attempted Time of Sleep: 5:30am and 6:00pm
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/???(Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Very Depressed to Apathy (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)???(Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: Disruptive Sleeping, Insomnia, Extreme Dream Activity, E/M/P Exhaustion over Wolfbrother
Odd occurrences after: Direct Threats
Over the past weeks my Wolfbrother has been in the hospital due to sore and open wounds on his hips. Because of his "personality" he has been uncooperative with the staff and medical treatments. On April 9th he decided to leave the hospital and not inform anyone. April 10th myself and his dad went all over searching for him, 24 hours later he managed to call me and let me know he was being taken to the hospital again, but he was two hours away.... to make a long story short has "personality" got him kicked out of the hospital again. I was already exhausted and when I last saw him on Thursday... I don't want to deal with him.
He hates me, but loves me, but ashamed of me....has no consideration for anyone else or the sacrifices we make to ensure his well being, and acts like a complete ... well... you get the point. I myself had to finally go to sleep due to exhaustion, but was scared... for obvious reason.
This morning as I had to lay down, I knew what was coming because of the chatter. Although I tried to clear my mind and remain calm, putting myself in a good place....they stilled showed up. They appeared as a ball of black swirling clouds, one securing my arm. I knew they were already here since I could see them as they were trying to be as invisible as possible..... but the distortion of light gives it away. My left hand was extended and pulled into the black cloud and I was vibrating. Immediately they began to broadcast "You have been tasked to take care of him. He is your responsibility to care for. You CANNOT leave. This is what you must do "Wood Rabbit" or there will be consequences". I replied "FUCK YOU! NO! Do you have any idea how he treats me? I have done everything possible to love and care for him, to be the voice of reason and calm. He won't listen. If you care for his well being so god damn much then heal him and fix his mind! Or better yet provide me with a car and money so I can do what I can". Their response was seemed reactionary "It is your task, it always has since he was young, You know what you are, what he is, how you are both connected. You must......". I cut them off as I was tired of this charade, "You know I can see both of you behind the cloud. You are aware I am directly communicating with you and can hear the others." There was a momentarily pause and murmurs of "shit its him", with the two who were talking to me expressing "Not him. He is awake. Let's go". They left and I was still vibrating and got up, I was not in my room, but in my room and ran after them but stopped at the door when I noticed this was not my body and I was still on the floor. I knew what I was reflecting and just warded the door and went back to my body and woke up. I knew what had happened and wanted to text my Wolfbrother.... but I was angry and hurt and very very depressed and just didn't care. I want to just want die... so I drifted off into exhaustion sleep.
Unbeknownst to me, they high tailed it out of my room and went into my aunt's room. She was startled and told the "black cloud" to not touch her and to go away! It seemed to ponder and then decided to go into her bathroom and disappear into the ceiling. She tried yelling for me....but I had passed out. However around 11:00 am after being partially asleep, in and out, I just got up because I was bothered what had happened and what continued to go on. I resumed my daily duties, and this is when I found out about my aunt's experience as she was freaked out. I shared mine, and I clearly described the entity to her before she even told me... which scared her even more. I explained to her that it involved my Wolfbrother..... and that is why I am there for him (right now they are trying to get me to stop typing... I can hear the murmurs... and they have threatened to do something to us today!). Around 12:30pm, my Wolfbrother calls and is bothered....he informs me that they came back and we need to stop them. That was the last thing I needed since now.... myself, my aunt, and he who is an hour away have had an incident. As usual he wouldn't go into detail, but they seemed very upset at me. I told him briefly that there was an incident with my aunt and I as well. He had to go.... and that was the last I heard of him for today.
I continued to perform my duties, but was bothered by the whole thing. Exhausted again and deeply bothered, around 5:00pm I tried to lay down. However I was bothered by severe leg cramps on my left shin and two toes after the pinky. I was in pain for 30min and attempted to relax and do what I can to remain calm. I did get the message "This is just a sample of what is coming for non-compliance. You will do as we command". I ignored it and was trying to rationalize this as just low potassium and stress causing a severe muscle cramp. I want to die.... I cannot honestly live like this much longer.... I am unloved and unwanted and feel so alone and trapped.... cried myself to sleep..... shutting down. I cannot drown away my sorrow in drugs or alcohol, nor find brief comfort in a physical liaison... I need the cold and the dark... so I put the AC on and just cry, dealing with the physical pain and emotional pain, and trying to shut down. Eventually I pass out.
During this time a visitor popped in around 6:30pm in my aunts room. She yelled and screamed and it expressed that no one will hear here. It said "Your nephew refuses to comply. You don't believe what you see. If you don't leave your house tomorrow...you, your nephew, and your dog will suffer the consequences.
We warned you before, and he is not doing what we told him to do with "Wolfbrother". You interfere and will be punished". My already scarred an upset through he back at the being. It passed through it and it the floor. With a gesture it flung the book back and it landed at my aunt's feet. It seemed amused that she was fighting back. My aunt made a gesture at it and it mocked her "You think that prevents me from touching? Go ahead put your cross back on for you will need the protection if that comforts you. Remember you are to leave, for this will be proof of what we have said. To show you that this is real, you television won't work until your nephew fixes it." It then vanished. My aunt continued to yell.... but became sleepy and dozed off.
When she awoke around 10:30pm, when I got up...there was an issue with the TV and Cable that I had to fix. She told me what had happened and is scarred that today.... something is going to happen and want us to leave the house. I have no intention of doing so..... I am nobody's lab rat..... the way I am treated is gone on far enough..... unless they do something to make my life better in the way I have requested...... I am not changing my stance. I will do what it takes to protect my loved ones.
Type: CE4, CE5
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 5:30am-6:15am, 6:30pm-7:30pm
Attempted Time of Sleep: 5:30am and 6:00pm
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)/???(Wolfbrother)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Very Depressed to Apathy (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)???(Wolfbrother)
Odd occurrences before: Disruptive Sleeping, Insomnia, Extreme Dream Activity, E/M/P Exhaustion over Wolfbrother
Odd occurrences after: Direct Threats
Over the past weeks my Wolfbrother has been in the hospital due to sore and open wounds on his hips. Because of his "personality" he has been uncooperative with the staff and medical treatments. On April 9th he decided to leave the hospital and not inform anyone. April 10th myself and his dad went all over searching for him, 24 hours later he managed to call me and let me know he was being taken to the hospital again, but he was two hours away.... to make a long story short has "personality" got him kicked out of the hospital again. I was already exhausted and when I last saw him on Thursday... I don't want to deal with him.
He hates me, but loves me, but ashamed of me....has no consideration for anyone else or the sacrifices we make to ensure his well being, and acts like a complete ... well... you get the point. I myself had to finally go to sleep due to exhaustion, but was scared... for obvious reason.
This morning as I had to lay down, I knew what was coming because of the chatter. Although I tried to clear my mind and remain calm, putting myself in a good place....they stilled showed up. They appeared as a ball of black swirling clouds, one securing my arm. I knew they were already here since I could see them as they were trying to be as invisible as possible..... but the distortion of light gives it away. My left hand was extended and pulled into the black cloud and I was vibrating. Immediately they began to broadcast "You have been tasked to take care of him. He is your responsibility to care for. You CANNOT leave. This is what you must do "Wood Rabbit" or there will be consequences". I replied "FUCK YOU! NO! Do you have any idea how he treats me? I have done everything possible to love and care for him, to be the voice of reason and calm. He won't listen. If you care for his well being so god damn much then heal him and fix his mind! Or better yet provide me with a car and money so I can do what I can". Their response was seemed reactionary "It is your task, it always has since he was young, You know what you are, what he is, how you are both connected. You must......". I cut them off as I was tired of this charade, "You know I can see both of you behind the cloud. You are aware I am directly communicating with you and can hear the others." There was a momentarily pause and murmurs of "shit its him", with the two who were talking to me expressing "Not him. He is awake. Let's go". They left and I was still vibrating and got up, I was not in my room, but in my room and ran after them but stopped at the door when I noticed this was not my body and I was still on the floor. I knew what I was reflecting and just warded the door and went back to my body and woke up. I knew what had happened and wanted to text my Wolfbrother.... but I was angry and hurt and very very depressed and just didn't care. I want to just want die... so I drifted off into exhaustion sleep.
Unbeknownst to me, they high tailed it out of my room and went into my aunt's room. She was startled and told the "black cloud" to not touch her and to go away! It seemed to ponder and then decided to go into her bathroom and disappear into the ceiling. She tried yelling for me....but I had passed out. However around 11:00 am after being partially asleep, in and out, I just got up because I was bothered what had happened and what continued to go on. I resumed my daily duties, and this is when I found out about my aunt's experience as she was freaked out. I shared mine, and I clearly described the entity to her before she even told me... which scared her even more. I explained to her that it involved my Wolfbrother..... and that is why I am there for him (right now they are trying to get me to stop typing... I can hear the murmurs... and they have threatened to do something to us today!). Around 12:30pm, my Wolfbrother calls and is bothered....he informs me that they came back and we need to stop them. That was the last thing I needed since now.... myself, my aunt, and he who is an hour away have had an incident. As usual he wouldn't go into detail, but they seemed very upset at me. I told him briefly that there was an incident with my aunt and I as well. He had to go.... and that was the last I heard of him for today.
I continued to perform my duties, but was bothered by the whole thing. Exhausted again and deeply bothered, around 5:00pm I tried to lay down. However I was bothered by severe leg cramps on my left shin and two toes after the pinky. I was in pain for 30min and attempted to relax and do what I can to remain calm. I did get the message "This is just a sample of what is coming for non-compliance. You will do as we command". I ignored it and was trying to rationalize this as just low potassium and stress causing a severe muscle cramp. I want to die.... I cannot honestly live like this much longer.... I am unloved and unwanted and feel so alone and trapped.... cried myself to sleep..... shutting down. I cannot drown away my sorrow in drugs or alcohol, nor find brief comfort in a physical liaison... I need the cold and the dark... so I put the AC on and just cry, dealing with the physical pain and emotional pain, and trying to shut down. Eventually I pass out.
During this time a visitor popped in around 6:30pm in my aunts room. She yelled and screamed and it expressed that no one will hear here. It said "Your nephew refuses to comply. You don't believe what you see. If you don't leave your house tomorrow...you, your nephew, and your dog will suffer the consequences.
We warned you before, and he is not doing what we told him to do with "Wolfbrother". You interfere and will be punished". My already scarred an upset through he back at the being. It passed through it and it the floor. With a gesture it flung the book back and it landed at my aunt's feet. It seemed amused that she was fighting back. My aunt made a gesture at it and it mocked her "You think that prevents me from touching? Go ahead put your cross back on for you will need the protection if that comforts you. Remember you are to leave, for this will be proof of what we have said. To show you that this is real, you television won't work until your nephew fixes it." It then vanished. My aunt continued to yell.... but became sleepy and dozed off.
When she awoke around 10:30pm, when I got up...there was an issue with the TV and Cable that I had to fix. She told me what had happened and is scarred that today.... something is going to happen and want us to leave the house. I have no intention of doing so..... I am nobody's lab rat..... the way I am treated is gone on far enough..... unless they do something to make my life better in the way I have requested...... I am not changing my stance. I will do what it takes to protect my loved ones.
Monday, March 11, 2019
Colors and Lights, You are Ready
Date: March 9th and 11th, 2019
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 5:30am-6:15am, 6:30pm-7:30pm
Attempted Time of Sleep: 5:30am
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Very Depressed to Apathy (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Disruptive Sleeping, Insomnia, Extreme Dream Activity
Odd occurrences after: N/A
Friday
Early Friday morning, around 5:30am I was having some vivid downloads. I wasn't dreaming, but someone was talking to me in light and symbols and I was responding unconsciously until I started to realize I don't often talk in color and light. That is when I sat up. I could see in the dark as if the room was more well lit.
I could still feel that there was communication, but after I blinked a few times.... it went dark like it should of.
I was bothered by this event and stayed up until 8:30am. Why did light eminate from my left eye?
Who was I talking to?
Monday
My guest and I went to eat for his birthday at 1am and than came back and watched a few videos on youtube, he called it a night around 3:30pm. I couldn't sleep so went to work on my book, staying up until
5:00am. At times there was something in the room, but it would disappear. When I finally decided I should go to be, the activity picked up as there was flashes of light now and then. Sure enough when I went to bed I heard the sound, I quickly grabbed my weapon. I was paralyzed. I said "No. Leave Me Be!". Something was in the room, and they were considering. They seemed to indicate "Fine. Until later. Keep the weapon by you". They released me and left.
In the morning after a few hours of sleep I had to start the day as I had to get my aunt ready for the doctor.
A few hours long process as she needed a bath and stuff. I have been irritable as there is a lack of sleep, I feel so very unloved, and just burned out from all the responsibilities on my shoulders. Despite this I get through the day as best I can. I let my wolfbrother know I cannot see him as my time is being spent on her.
After the doctors visit and errand run we get home before 5pm. I get her situated and begin working on my book again to relax. However as it approached 6pm I get the whole "sleep" idea. I admit before that there was some odd activity of something invisible in the room.... but I try to ignore it. However a part of me agreed as my body is tired. I get ready for bed quickly and snuggle as best as I can. I figure it should ok, as it is early. I do check for my weapon and it is close to me, just in case. As I am trying to relax and enjoy the chill in the room...that sound starts. At first my head is telling me "don't pay attention, it is just the ringing in year ear...its nothing...", but the other part of me is "No. No. No. No. No. No. No. It is them, why am I falling for this!!! Get up. Grab the weapon! Run!!!".. and I hear "Just relax we only want to talk this time".
Which I respond back "Not now. Please. I can't deal with this, please" in the most dejected feeling I could muster.
In an instant I was paralyzed. I was laying on my right side, with my right hand against the wall. My left hand held the weapon close by just out of reach, and my left eye was open, which I closed. The next thing I hear in my head "He can still move. Why?", another voice "Just wait. Watch", then I respond "You guys know I can hear you. Plus I know you can hear me. We have gone through this soooo many times before. Just stop".
The one on the right moves closer and uncovers me just a bit. I begin to tap my left hand on the wall. It stops and says "I thought you said to wait, he still can move. How should we proceed?" The other intoned again, "Just watch". The one on my right was staring, I would look every once in a while but closed my eyes. My left fingers and feet were wiggling, I could move, so I started to inch toward my weapon. I opened my mouth and exhaled. It backed away, I could feel more control coming back and I began to blow heavily, it leaned away. I managed to grab my weapon and held it close. I began to roll over onto my back when I felt the one on my left up against me. "How does it know and sense us? It should not move" the one of the left questioned. I said "I can see you as plain as day, I just don't want to look at you. I know how you mess with the mind, but I can change the appearance and look at the center." I opened my eyes for a brief moment and saw the using both my eyes and my other sense. My eyes saw two dark shapes, one to the left and one on the right. They were small and I purposely squinted to make them "fuzzy". There was a very tall white to the bookshelf in front of my light stand. I confirmed this by seeing around us too. "The one on the left said "How can it do this? This is not normal. He is not one of them?". At this point it reached to my shelf and presented me with RDE. I was upset that he touched my animals.... but he kept handing me RDE. I knew what he meant as the tall white asked "Where is he? You two are a unit. His function is that. You are supposed to be joined?". I replied "He says NO. He is not like that, but he is, but he is not. I am alone". The one on the left continues to offer me RDE. I begin to cry as I hear the other meaning... "less than two, you are RDE". I begin to cry. I yell out "what do you want from me! Is this is what want me to do". At this point I begin forming a vast array of mental pictures, but talking in dimensional shapes, harmonics, and colors. The white responds in kind and we begin communicating very fast. The little ones say "No. Not supposed to be. You can't. You are not like the others.Where did you learn how to. So fast." The white one seems impressed and tells the others to leave. At the end of the conversation it begins to show me formulas and schematics for a type of 3D microship It makes a reference to RDE, indicating I am and are, and what we need to be. It releases me and I stare at the images cycling through my vision. I find the phone and begin notifying my wolfbrother. I am scared and crying....
My anut was watching TV in other room. Around 515pm and dark entity came in and touched her. She closed her eyes and was drifting off. It said "We told you we would be back. We have plans for him. You are in the way. It will be over soon. You will see".
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 5:30am-6:15am, 6:30pm-7:30pm
Attempted Time of Sleep: 5:30am
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Very Depressed to Apathy (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Disruptive Sleeping, Insomnia, Extreme Dream Activity
Odd occurrences after: N/A
Friday
Early Friday morning, around 5:30am I was having some vivid downloads. I wasn't dreaming, but someone was talking to me in light and symbols and I was responding unconsciously until I started to realize I don't often talk in color and light. That is when I sat up. I could see in the dark as if the room was more well lit.
I could still feel that there was communication, but after I blinked a few times.... it went dark like it should of.
I was bothered by this event and stayed up until 8:30am. Why did light eminate from my left eye?
Who was I talking to?
Monday
My guest and I went to eat for his birthday at 1am and than came back and watched a few videos on youtube, he called it a night around 3:30pm. I couldn't sleep so went to work on my book, staying up until
5:00am. At times there was something in the room, but it would disappear. When I finally decided I should go to be, the activity picked up as there was flashes of light now and then. Sure enough when I went to bed I heard the sound, I quickly grabbed my weapon. I was paralyzed. I said "No. Leave Me Be!". Something was in the room, and they were considering. They seemed to indicate "Fine. Until later. Keep the weapon by you". They released me and left.
In the morning after a few hours of sleep I had to start the day as I had to get my aunt ready for the doctor.
A few hours long process as she needed a bath and stuff. I have been irritable as there is a lack of sleep, I feel so very unloved, and just burned out from all the responsibilities on my shoulders. Despite this I get through the day as best I can. I let my wolfbrother know I cannot see him as my time is being spent on her.
After the doctors visit and errand run we get home before 5pm. I get her situated and begin working on my book again to relax. However as it approached 6pm I get the whole "sleep" idea. I admit before that there was some odd activity of something invisible in the room.... but I try to ignore it. However a part of me agreed as my body is tired. I get ready for bed quickly and snuggle as best as I can. I figure it should ok, as it is early. I do check for my weapon and it is close to me, just in case. As I am trying to relax and enjoy the chill in the room...that sound starts. At first my head is telling me "don't pay attention, it is just the ringing in year ear...its nothing...", but the other part of me is "No. No. No. No. No. No. No. It is them, why am I falling for this!!! Get up. Grab the weapon! Run!!!".. and I hear "Just relax we only want to talk this time".
Which I respond back "Not now. Please. I can't deal with this, please" in the most dejected feeling I could muster.
In an instant I was paralyzed. I was laying on my right side, with my right hand against the wall. My left hand held the weapon close by just out of reach, and my left eye was open, which I closed. The next thing I hear in my head "He can still move. Why?", another voice "Just wait. Watch", then I respond "You guys know I can hear you. Plus I know you can hear me. We have gone through this soooo many times before. Just stop".
The one on the right moves closer and uncovers me just a bit. I begin to tap my left hand on the wall. It stops and says "I thought you said to wait, he still can move. How should we proceed?" The other intoned again, "Just watch". The one on my right was staring, I would look every once in a while but closed my eyes. My left fingers and feet were wiggling, I could move, so I started to inch toward my weapon. I opened my mouth and exhaled. It backed away, I could feel more control coming back and I began to blow heavily, it leaned away. I managed to grab my weapon and held it close. I began to roll over onto my back when I felt the one on my left up against me. "How does it know and sense us? It should not move" the one of the left questioned. I said "I can see you as plain as day, I just don't want to look at you. I know how you mess with the mind, but I can change the appearance and look at the center." I opened my eyes for a brief moment and saw the using both my eyes and my other sense. My eyes saw two dark shapes, one to the left and one on the right. They were small and I purposely squinted to make them "fuzzy". There was a very tall white to the bookshelf in front of my light stand. I confirmed this by seeing around us too. "The one on the left said "How can it do this? This is not normal. He is not one of them?". At this point it reached to my shelf and presented me with RDE. I was upset that he touched my animals.... but he kept handing me RDE. I knew what he meant as the tall white asked "Where is he? You two are a unit. His function is that. You are supposed to be joined?". I replied "He says NO. He is not like that, but he is, but he is not. I am alone". The one on the left continues to offer me RDE. I begin to cry as I hear the other meaning... "less than two, you are RDE". I begin to cry. I yell out "what do you want from me! Is this is what want me to do". At this point I begin forming a vast array of mental pictures, but talking in dimensional shapes, harmonics, and colors. The white responds in kind and we begin communicating very fast. The little ones say "No. Not supposed to be. You can't. You are not like the others.Where did you learn how to. So fast." The white one seems impressed and tells the others to leave. At the end of the conversation it begins to show me formulas and schematics for a type of 3D microship It makes a reference to RDE, indicating I am and are, and what we need to be. It releases me and I stare at the images cycling through my vision. I find the phone and begin notifying my wolfbrother. I am scared and crying....
My anut was watching TV in other room. Around 515pm and dark entity came in and touched her. She closed her eyes and was drifting off. It said "We told you we would be back. We have plans for him. You are in the way. It will be over soon. You will see".
Wednesday, February 6, 2019
Odd Encounter of the 4th Kind Wolfshead
Date: Febuary 6th, 2019
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 5:30am-6:15am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 5:20am and 6:45amm
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Very Depressed to Apathy (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Disruptive Sleeping, Full Moon, Previous Incidents
Odd occurrences after: On going incidents
Yesterday afternoon it started with me when I was just doing my usual chores. It was very brief and I was told to go to sleep around 5pm. I said no in my ahead, but again I was told go to sleep. It began to get really cold in the room, really unusually cold... and the hint of go to sleep or we are going to just come in. So I got in bed, wrapped myself up nice and warm. My left leg began to hurt and throb, and I vibrated. My thought was, the implant is activating? Why? Then I couldn't move and I knock out. I have brief snippets of conversation regarding that my eyes are dry, the leg seems fine but others are trying to look at things, why am I so marked, some responds that I am difficult. There are questions as if I am out, and that I am definitely "not my wolfbrother". There were orders for a scan and other things. They were unsure if I was awake.
Meanwhile in my aunt's room.... she was reading her book and just trying to relax. She recalls it getting really cold, unusually cold. Then these little flying men came in the room, she told them to go away and not touch me... that to take her and leave me alone. They just flew over the room and her. They were humanoid, and just "swam" through the air.... they had no hair, but beady black eyes.... my aunt then passed out.
I woke up close to 9:45pm, I felt drugged and sedated. My left leg bothered me a bit.... and I thought over what had happened.
Later on, I ran an errand and put my aunt to be around 12:30am. I was doing research for mythology and religion afterward. I tried playing a game and also looking for someone, but my depression is in overdrive. I can't sleep and I feel bad...lonely and unwanted... and not worth being here. I honestly don't want to be around as they are bothering more and more, being more aggressive and constantly bothering me. I tried to relax and think of some happy thoughts. I got the impression someone was in the room. I thought "Go Away. Not in the mood. You already were here. Please leave me alone". I was ready to go to bed and of course I refused. It was already close to 5:00am. They kept pushing and then made me think of my wolfbrother and I was more agreeable. I quickly got ready for bed and tucked myself in. The weird under thought was... tuck myself in tight as more of a precaution. Right before I was all settled I decided off the bat to put my wolfhead on. It is one of those walmart furry head masks. I did it just because...but again underling thought. It was like a secondary line of thinking "My Thinking" as I knew I was being influence by going to bed by an outside force. As soon as I tucked the blankets and sheets in, and secure the mask... I felt oddly comfortable.
Then the hum started and I was "OH SHIT. NO. NO. NO. NO NO!". I tried to quickly get up but I was fully paralyzed, save for my hands and fingers, my feet and toes, and my head. As my head was in a mask I could not see as the eyeholes were pointed up. I moved my head around inside the mask. I heard the bathroom door open and felt a connection "PURPLE". The first thought and image flashed was "Purple", with an odd sense of confusion attached to it. I couldn't see out of the mask and a connection was being established, I sort of hi-jacked its' perception. I saw myself from the vantage point of what was coming out of the bathroom. As I made the connection I heard in my head "No. What is that? No. You Can't. What is that? Not possible!". It seemed irritated that it could not identify me. From its point of view...it looked like a mummy with a wolfhead's mask on the floor. It seemed unable to handle the situation and was upset that "WHAT" was in the mask should not be able to establish a connection let alone see through its eyes. It continued to be upset with the feedback. "PURPLE" was the impression.... "Stop it. What are you? No. Stop. What are you? Not supposed to be" "PURPLE" was the impression again. I tried communicating "GO AWAY. NO. LEAVE ME BE", while still looking from its point of view. "PURPLE" was the impression "NO. Not supposed to do this. STOP. WHAT ARE YOU?". It seemed highly agitated and I dropped watching from its eyes... it then ran and jumped atop of me. It put its face on top of the mask on the left side. Trying to looking in. It was trying to get at my left arm. It was upset. "WHAT ARE YOU. YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO DO THIS. NOT ALLOWED. WHAT ARE YOU?." As it began pressing up against the mask more and more and trying to undo the covers I was able to feel the effects of the parallelization lessen.
As soon as I was able to, I slammed my body up against the bookcase pinning it. It was caught of guard and scrambled back to the door. It asked one final time "Whaaat areeee youuuu". I replied "Not 'Wolfbrother'".
It repeated that before it left, closing the door and going into the bathroom. A few minutes passed and I sat up and took of the wolfhead. I cried for fifteen to thirty minutes, they attacked me in real time......... I want to die.
Meanhwhile as I was crying it was in my aunts room. Only thing she remembers is that she was being examined, couldn't move, her eyes were closed as she was scared. They were looking at her left arm and checking her stomach. She tried to scream...but no words came out.
After my bout of crying I fell asleep for awhile and had a weird dream. This time a handsome blonde guy showed up and said I was his boyfriend and we are supposed to go to knotts/magic mountain. My aunt and I take him, however as we are there he says we have to go meet his friends. My aunt and I leave the park unnoticed, I feel bad and text him that I will be right back and that my aunt feels sick. He was surprised I was able to leave the park and wondered where I was. I told him I will be back soon and to have fun with his friends till I came. He said I shouldn't be able to leave, and his friends were colleges. At some point my aunt said never go back there and I agreed, however the same guy showed up in front of me while I was walking alone. He said "whatever I am" is not ordinary by any means. I replied "So you are trying it this way now? Why?". It said "you want this so much, we hoped it would make things easier". It then said if I cooperate it would provide me with such an ideal companion. I said "no, I am not 'wolfborther'". and disappeared. I woke up shaken..... the actual physical encounter and this.... I am being watched and monitored. I need someone.
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 5:30am-6:15am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 5:20am and 6:45amm
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Very Depressed to Apathy (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Disruptive Sleeping, Full Moon, Previous Incidents
Odd occurrences after: On going incidents
Yesterday afternoon it started with me when I was just doing my usual chores. It was very brief and I was told to go to sleep around 5pm. I said no in my ahead, but again I was told go to sleep. It began to get really cold in the room, really unusually cold... and the hint of go to sleep or we are going to just come in. So I got in bed, wrapped myself up nice and warm. My left leg began to hurt and throb, and I vibrated. My thought was, the implant is activating? Why? Then I couldn't move and I knock out. I have brief snippets of conversation regarding that my eyes are dry, the leg seems fine but others are trying to look at things, why am I so marked, some responds that I am difficult. There are questions as if I am out, and that I am definitely "not my wolfbrother". There were orders for a scan and other things. They were unsure if I was awake.
Meanwhile in my aunt's room.... she was reading her book and just trying to relax. She recalls it getting really cold, unusually cold. Then these little flying men came in the room, she told them to go away and not touch me... that to take her and leave me alone. They just flew over the room and her. They were humanoid, and just "swam" through the air.... they had no hair, but beady black eyes.... my aunt then passed out.
I woke up close to 9:45pm, I felt drugged and sedated. My left leg bothered me a bit.... and I thought over what had happened.
Later on, I ran an errand and put my aunt to be around 12:30am. I was doing research for mythology and religion afterward. I tried playing a game and also looking for someone, but my depression is in overdrive. I can't sleep and I feel bad...lonely and unwanted... and not worth being here. I honestly don't want to be around as they are bothering more and more, being more aggressive and constantly bothering me. I tried to relax and think of some happy thoughts. I got the impression someone was in the room. I thought "Go Away. Not in the mood. You already were here. Please leave me alone". I was ready to go to bed and of course I refused. It was already close to 5:00am. They kept pushing and then made me think of my wolfbrother and I was more agreeable. I quickly got ready for bed and tucked myself in. The weird under thought was... tuck myself in tight as more of a precaution. Right before I was all settled I decided off the bat to put my wolfhead on. It is one of those walmart furry head masks. I did it just because...but again underling thought. It was like a secondary line of thinking "My Thinking" as I knew I was being influence by going to bed by an outside force. As soon as I tucked the blankets and sheets in, and secure the mask... I felt oddly comfortable.
Then the hum started and I was "OH SHIT. NO. NO. NO. NO NO!". I tried to quickly get up but I was fully paralyzed, save for my hands and fingers, my feet and toes, and my head. As my head was in a mask I could not see as the eyeholes were pointed up. I moved my head around inside the mask. I heard the bathroom door open and felt a connection "PURPLE". The first thought and image flashed was "Purple", with an odd sense of confusion attached to it. I couldn't see out of the mask and a connection was being established, I sort of hi-jacked its' perception. I saw myself from the vantage point of what was coming out of the bathroom. As I made the connection I heard in my head "No. What is that? No. You Can't. What is that? Not possible!". It seemed irritated that it could not identify me. From its point of view...it looked like a mummy with a wolfhead's mask on the floor. It seemed unable to handle the situation and was upset that "WHAT" was in the mask should not be able to establish a connection let alone see through its eyes. It continued to be upset with the feedback. "PURPLE" was the impression.... "Stop it. What are you? No. Stop. What are you? Not supposed to be" "PURPLE" was the impression again. I tried communicating "GO AWAY. NO. LEAVE ME BE", while still looking from its point of view. "PURPLE" was the impression "NO. Not supposed to do this. STOP. WHAT ARE YOU?". It seemed highly agitated and I dropped watching from its eyes... it then ran and jumped atop of me. It put its face on top of the mask on the left side. Trying to looking in. It was trying to get at my left arm. It was upset. "WHAT ARE YOU. YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO DO THIS. NOT ALLOWED. WHAT ARE YOU?." As it began pressing up against the mask more and more and trying to undo the covers I was able to feel the effects of the parallelization lessen.
As soon as I was able to, I slammed my body up against the bookcase pinning it. It was caught of guard and scrambled back to the door. It asked one final time "Whaaat areeee youuuu". I replied "Not 'Wolfbrother'".
It repeated that before it left, closing the door and going into the bathroom. A few minutes passed and I sat up and took of the wolfhead. I cried for fifteen to thirty minutes, they attacked me in real time......... I want to die.
Meanhwhile as I was crying it was in my aunts room. Only thing she remembers is that she was being examined, couldn't move, her eyes were closed as she was scared. They were looking at her left arm and checking her stomach. She tried to scream...but no words came out.
After my bout of crying I fell asleep for awhile and had a weird dream. This time a handsome blonde guy showed up and said I was his boyfriend and we are supposed to go to knotts/magic mountain. My aunt and I take him, however as we are there he says we have to go meet his friends. My aunt and I leave the park unnoticed, I feel bad and text him that I will be right back and that my aunt feels sick. He was surprised I was able to leave the park and wondered where I was. I told him I will be back soon and to have fun with his friends till I came. He said I shouldn't be able to leave, and his friends were colleges. At some point my aunt said never go back there and I agreed, however the same guy showed up in front of me while I was walking alone. He said "whatever I am" is not ordinary by any means. I replied "So you are trying it this way now? Why?". It said "you want this so much, we hoped it would make things easier". It then said if I cooperate it would provide me with such an ideal companion. I said "no, I am not 'wolfborther'". and disappeared. I woke up shaken..... the actual physical encounter and this.... I am being watched and monitored. I need someone.
Thursday, January 31, 2019
Can anyone save Me?
I been abducted and visited all of my life. As I researched and documented my life to the best of my ability, I have found out that it is not only me....but also members of my family. It also extends to close friends and others who have seen these beings, or even have interactions with them.
I was brought up as a person in the Catholic faith, a christian who completed all his sacraments and even served as an Altar Boy and had a calling to serve the Lord. As many know, I have struggled with my faith as I am a homosexual and that I have been abducted/visited by entities all of my life. My sexuality is just a defining trait of who I feel attracted too, but by all appearances I am just an average guy. Same thing with my faith, I am moral and ethically as can be....but you cannot pinpoint what I believe
From experience I felt the presence of the Lord before at mass and at certain times. I also felt the opposite of that as well, when malign beings were around. I have felt the others from spirits of nature, animals, and other entities not explained within my faith. I experienced and learned that there is just more to the universe than my spiritual beliefs were. I have learned that things outside of what I was taught are definitely real, and there are things that faith and belief cannot change.
Since I was young, I have prayed and told "them" to leave me alone. They still came. My grandparents, mother, and aunt did the same.....and they still come. I have known of others who are in the same situation and they too still come. They still come, even if you become physical and defend yourself. I have known individuals who have become physically violent..... and they still come.
As I have grown older, I have read and met people who claim that they can stop these things. That by prayer, the power of "light", increasing vibration, utilizing a magical spell, energy work...will hedge or cause these being to stop coming. Promises of salvation come from many of these people.....and worst of all many take advantage and fleece people out of money. They can no more save me than my prayers and devotion to certain deities. Is there anyone who can protect or aid me?
The thing is in the end we are all alone. When dealing with this, it is hard to find anyone willing to work together. Even in the support groups you have devise elements as some people believe these are saviors and other find them as attackers. You have one group always telling you "Your experience is wrong.... let me reinterpret things for you and bring you into the light.." Not only is this isolation ongoing with social groups, but on a one and one relationship.... you have nobody. No spouse or companion.... it is just so alone and isolating. The trauma of these visits hedges you away and even stops you at times from opening up.
why must we be lone warriors, why can we not band together and fend these entities off. Is there a higher power who can protect us, or is it someone else who just wants to use us too?.
Sunday, January 27, 2019
Wolfbrother and Activity
Date: January 25th and 26th, 2019
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 9am (1-25-19)/ 10:00pm (1-26-19)
Attempted Time of Sleep: 7am and 8pm
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Very Depressed to Apathy (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Disruptive Sleeping, Full Moon, Previous Incidents
Odd occurrences after: On going incidents
Currently my wolfbrother is in the hospital again briefly for pressure sores. There is activity but he will not discuss it with me as he fears that it will label him as schizophrenic. However as one can see, I have no qualms about documentary my experiences.
On the 25th I went to bed early in the morning around 7am, another sleepless night do to the anxiety from visits and trying to help my wolfbrother, I actually fell asleep with most of these thoughts out of my head, as my mind is per-occupied with other thoughts. as I went to sleep I had the unusual jolting sensation, as if I was being shocked. I did not fall asleep, but instead was wide awake but somewhere else. I got my barrings quickly. I was in my car, it was late at night and was overcast. I was in Castiac and my wolfbrother was right next to me. I was trying to figure out why? Is this a dream, deja vu, a memory, or is this happening now. The temperature was cold and I could see the five freeway from where we were parked. I know this road, this is the overlook by "his wall" opposite side. I ask my wolfbrother what is going on, and he told me not to worry.
As if it where about to rain, it felt strange in the car, it was very cold and then suddenly there was a flash of light and "they" were out side the car. My wolfbrother lowered his seat and told me to do the same, I complied and grabbed his hand. I told him don't let go, he didn't answer me and I held fast. I was soon paralyzed, but I could move my fingers and toes, my eyelids, and slightly move my head. Their thoughts were in my head and I was doing my best to run interference. You told me it would be alright, and they were trying to make me do something. I kept fighting back and trying to get you to see... they pulled us apart and I woke up. As usual, my canine friend was crying.... and I felt odd. It was all too real which bothered me.
In the evening I went to go and visit him and cam back right away. I was tried and was told to go to sleep.
My thoughts were bothered and someone kept cutting wood and there was the sound of plastic wrap being moved. I kept and someone else kept "urging" the fact though why isn't he here with you. I woke up and my wolfbrother was here, I got my gear on ready to go...and he needed some of my stuff to go hunting. I told him to wait, but he took off on ahead. When I leave the room and go into the hallway, the AC is running and the lights are flickering. All the doors are open and the blinds are opened up, this is exact opposite of the house. I run and close the doors, and draw the blinds shut. I start putting up wards and check on my aunt. She is scared and told me they came in and did this. One of them was still in the room, invisible and talking to her about us. It was again threatening to take our souls and that we will die soon. I sensed where it was and stated that it was not going to happen, because of who I was. It became angry and repeated I will die, and if they couldn't get to me then others would. I shift the scene, I need my wolfbrother, I call out for him and center on him.
I end up in a theater, lot of young adults are in there staring blankly at a film. I can see and hear the subliming content of the film, I filter the suggestions out. I quickly duck behind seats and men in dark suits come into the theatere. They spotted me popping in and walking, they are making sure that no one got up. No one should be awake. They do not spot me and move on. I trying to wake my wolfbrother up, but no use. I wait till the end of the movie. Most get up and walk out of the theater, there are a few including my wolfbrother who just still sit there and are motionless. I finally rouse him by nuzzling him. My wolfbrother wants to know where he is and I explain, I show him my phone that I have been trying to reach him. He wants to know how this works, and I quickly explain it is sensor activated and we should leave now. You want me to show you, but I tell you it is a bad idea. I walk up and the film restarts. The message is " You are not real. We made you. You belong to us. You our are creation. You will do as we say". As soon as it started, my wolfbrother goes backs to being motionless and sits down. The men in dark suits come out as the movie was started to early. I run toward my wolfbrother and tackle him, I hold on tight, telling him I love him and we wink out.
I woke up, I was vibrating...not shaking but vibrating.....
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 9am (1-25-19)/ 10:00pm (1-26-19)
Attempted Time of Sleep: 7am and 8pm
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Very Depressed to Apathy (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Disruptive Sleeping, Full Moon, Previous Incidents
Odd occurrences after: On going incidents
Currently my wolfbrother is in the hospital again briefly for pressure sores. There is activity but he will not discuss it with me as he fears that it will label him as schizophrenic. However as one can see, I have no qualms about documentary my experiences.
On the 25th I went to bed early in the morning around 7am, another sleepless night do to the anxiety from visits and trying to help my wolfbrother, I actually fell asleep with most of these thoughts out of my head, as my mind is per-occupied with other thoughts. as I went to sleep I had the unusual jolting sensation, as if I was being shocked. I did not fall asleep, but instead was wide awake but somewhere else. I got my barrings quickly. I was in my car, it was late at night and was overcast. I was in Castiac and my wolfbrother was right next to me. I was trying to figure out why? Is this a dream, deja vu, a memory, or is this happening now. The temperature was cold and I could see the five freeway from where we were parked. I know this road, this is the overlook by "his wall" opposite side. I ask my wolfbrother what is going on, and he told me not to worry.
As if it where about to rain, it felt strange in the car, it was very cold and then suddenly there was a flash of light and "they" were out side the car. My wolfbrother lowered his seat and told me to do the same, I complied and grabbed his hand. I told him don't let go, he didn't answer me and I held fast. I was soon paralyzed, but I could move my fingers and toes, my eyelids, and slightly move my head. Their thoughts were in my head and I was doing my best to run interference. You told me it would be alright, and they were trying to make me do something. I kept fighting back and trying to get you to see... they pulled us apart and I woke up. As usual, my canine friend was crying.... and I felt odd. It was all too real which bothered me.
In the evening I went to go and visit him and cam back right away. I was tried and was told to go to sleep.
My thoughts were bothered and someone kept cutting wood and there was the sound of plastic wrap being moved. I kept and someone else kept "urging" the fact though why isn't he here with you. I woke up and my wolfbrother was here, I got my gear on ready to go...and he needed some of my stuff to go hunting. I told him to wait, but he took off on ahead. When I leave the room and go into the hallway, the AC is running and the lights are flickering. All the doors are open and the blinds are opened up, this is exact opposite of the house. I run and close the doors, and draw the blinds shut. I start putting up wards and check on my aunt. She is scared and told me they came in and did this. One of them was still in the room, invisible and talking to her about us. It was again threatening to take our souls and that we will die soon. I sensed where it was and stated that it was not going to happen, because of who I was. It became angry and repeated I will die, and if they couldn't get to me then others would. I shift the scene, I need my wolfbrother, I call out for him and center on him.
I end up in a theater, lot of young adults are in there staring blankly at a film. I can see and hear the subliming content of the film, I filter the suggestions out. I quickly duck behind seats and men in dark suits come into the theatere. They spotted me popping in and walking, they are making sure that no one got up. No one should be awake. They do not spot me and move on. I trying to wake my wolfbrother up, but no use. I wait till the end of the movie. Most get up and walk out of the theater, there are a few including my wolfbrother who just still sit there and are motionless. I finally rouse him by nuzzling him. My wolfbrother wants to know where he is and I explain, I show him my phone that I have been trying to reach him. He wants to know how this works, and I quickly explain it is sensor activated and we should leave now. You want me to show you, but I tell you it is a bad idea. I walk up and the film restarts. The message is " You are not real. We made you. You belong to us. You our are creation. You will do as we say". As soon as it started, my wolfbrother goes backs to being motionless and sits down. The men in dark suits come out as the movie was started to early. I run toward my wolfbrother and tackle him, I hold on tight, telling him I love him and we wink out.
I woke up, I was vibrating...not shaking but vibrating.....
Wednesday, January 23, 2019
Bloodwolf Moon and continuing threats
Date: January 20th-22nd, 2019
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4am, 10am (1-20-19)/ 2:00am (1-22-19)
Attempted Time of Sleep: N/A
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Very Depressed to Apathy (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Disruptive Sleeping, Full Moon
Odd occurrences after: None
On the 20th I was having a very interesting dream. Normally I don't have any dreams of a sexual nature.
This time I did as I was placed with an ideal partner. They laid me next to him, I was clothed and he was bare chested. I began to caress the individual whom I was told was known to me. The thing was they were unresponsive, unable to move and fully aware. I noticed that a tear came down their face. I stopped.
I asked who was this and they wouldn't tell me, only that I would be happy with them...but they had to be properly conditioned. I told them I am not into forcing an individual to like me and this would not do.
A humanoid with a beard didn't understand why I felt that way. He said that I only have two years left so i should enjoy myself. I woke up out the incident, but the man was there in my room still watching me. In a few seconds, the man with the beard vanished.
I hear my aunt scream, but thought it was just my imagination and forced myself back to sleep.
Meanwhile she saw the man with the beard walk into her room. He was wearing a baseball cap and had a beard. As usual he told her not to be afraid, that he was her to assess things as her time would soon be up.
He indicated that she was in a great deal of pain and was wondering why. He said it will soon be over in two years, that she and myself would be taken from here. She was important, and apparently so am I for what I know and what I can do. He indicated that once she goes, others would come in and attempt to take me. Therefore he was going to make sure we both go. He said it was important to keep me safe till then, make sure I don't do anything to try and fight them or attempt escape.
January 22nd was an odd time, as the dream I was having involved a high school friend. My friend Mary from AMC drove me to his home which was in an apartment building. I had been to this area before, as it was in the fake Los Angeles place I sometimes end up in She left and I walked up to see them, I had the key and went in. As I waited for them I saw that pages from my scrapbook where up there. It was photos about my paternal side of the family. I thought it was very odd that he should have them. A few more minutes passed and he, his mom, and her boyfriend came in. He was happy to see me and they all missed me since they haven't seen me in a long time. We talked for a bit and he let me know they were looking for work. I said that in Irwindale, which is 15min away is hiring at Edison. They let them know who I was and they would probably hire them. He thanked me and I told him it was nice to see him again and left.
While I was down stair I walked to the nearby 7-11 there and began to talk with an older gentleman who had a white VW Van. he man was surprised that I saw him, and soon a sheriff stopped by. He was confused as to why there was a White VW Van parked there. He was not seeing a VW Van and seemed intimidated, I told him just to focus and look at me. That seemed to ease him down a bit, he was kinda hot too....
The man was at odds as he stated I was not supposed to see him, let alone have the Sheriff see him too.I told him that his vehicle was not safe for the children or elderly he had in there, and he should let them go.
Again the main said that I should not know this, and the Sheriff agreed with me that the man should step out of the vehicle and let the people go. I said the vehicle is not safe, that they could loose their fingers.
When I said that, I noticed the long grey fingers on the floor along with some kids fingers that trailed off to another truck. They had been taking kids from this vehicle to another truck in which an evil clown with long fingers was at.
The Sheriff drew his weapon and called for back up, he was nervous but having nearby was helpful. He asked me what was going on and what was that thing. I told him just to remember who he was and to have confidence in his abilities. As we started to approach several green fireballs struck the ground in front of the truck. There was a spill of some blue plasma on the floor that the evil clown caused. It ignited in a blue and green plasma cloud and he disappeared. I woke up, my canine friend started howling and all of a sudden there was a ton of activity on the freeway. Sirens began going off and there was a flurry of helicopters for several minutes.
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4am, 10am (1-20-19)/ 2:00am (1-22-19)
Attempted Time of Sleep: N/A
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Very Depressed to Apathy (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Disruptive Sleeping, Full Moon
Odd occurrences after: None
On the 20th I was having a very interesting dream. Normally I don't have any dreams of a sexual nature.
This time I did as I was placed with an ideal partner. They laid me next to him, I was clothed and he was bare chested. I began to caress the individual whom I was told was known to me. The thing was they were unresponsive, unable to move and fully aware. I noticed that a tear came down their face. I stopped.
I asked who was this and they wouldn't tell me, only that I would be happy with them...but they had to be properly conditioned. I told them I am not into forcing an individual to like me and this would not do.
A humanoid with a beard didn't understand why I felt that way. He said that I only have two years left so i should enjoy myself. I woke up out the incident, but the man was there in my room still watching me. In a few seconds, the man with the beard vanished.
I hear my aunt scream, but thought it was just my imagination and forced myself back to sleep.
Meanwhile she saw the man with the beard walk into her room. He was wearing a baseball cap and had a beard. As usual he told her not to be afraid, that he was her to assess things as her time would soon be up.
He indicated that she was in a great deal of pain and was wondering why. He said it will soon be over in two years, that she and myself would be taken from here. She was important, and apparently so am I for what I know and what I can do. He indicated that once she goes, others would come in and attempt to take me. Therefore he was going to make sure we both go. He said it was important to keep me safe till then, make sure I don't do anything to try and fight them or attempt escape.
January 22nd was an odd time, as the dream I was having involved a high school friend. My friend Mary from AMC drove me to his home which was in an apartment building. I had been to this area before, as it was in the fake Los Angeles place I sometimes end up in She left and I walked up to see them, I had the key and went in. As I waited for them I saw that pages from my scrapbook where up there. It was photos about my paternal side of the family. I thought it was very odd that he should have them. A few more minutes passed and he, his mom, and her boyfriend came in. He was happy to see me and they all missed me since they haven't seen me in a long time. We talked for a bit and he let me know they were looking for work. I said that in Irwindale, which is 15min away is hiring at Edison. They let them know who I was and they would probably hire them. He thanked me and I told him it was nice to see him again and left.
While I was down stair I walked to the nearby 7-11 there and began to talk with an older gentleman who had a white VW Van. he man was surprised that I saw him, and soon a sheriff stopped by. He was confused as to why there was a White VW Van parked there. He was not seeing a VW Van and seemed intimidated, I told him just to focus and look at me. That seemed to ease him down a bit, he was kinda hot too....
The man was at odds as he stated I was not supposed to see him, let alone have the Sheriff see him too.I told him that his vehicle was not safe for the children or elderly he had in there, and he should let them go.
Again the main said that I should not know this, and the Sheriff agreed with me that the man should step out of the vehicle and let the people go. I said the vehicle is not safe, that they could loose their fingers.
When I said that, I noticed the long grey fingers on the floor along with some kids fingers that trailed off to another truck. They had been taking kids from this vehicle to another truck in which an evil clown with long fingers was at.
The Sheriff drew his weapon and called for back up, he was nervous but having nearby was helpful. He asked me what was going on and what was that thing. I told him just to remember who he was and to have confidence in his abilities. As we started to approach several green fireballs struck the ground in front of the truck. There was a spill of some blue plasma on the floor that the evil clown caused. It ignited in a blue and green plasma cloud and he disappeared. I woke up, my canine friend started howling and all of a sudden there was a ton of activity on the freeway. Sirens began going off and there was a flurry of helicopters for several minutes.
Friday, January 18, 2019
TV Series: Project Bluebook
The History Channel as of January 2019 has a series dramatization of Project Bluebook that follows some of the cases Dr. J.A. Hyneck participated in. Season 1 so far promises to deliver 10 episodes; The Fuller Dogfight, The Flatwoods Monster, The Lubbock Lights, Operation Paperclip, Foo Fighters, the Green Fireballs, and other cases. Each episode not only goes into the incidents, but also into the personal life of Dr. Hyneck. Hopefully the series will come out on DVD soon as it is very unwatchable on cable with all the commercial interruptions.
Thursday, January 17, 2019
A Countdown has begun
Date: January 17th, 2019
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 3:30am to 5:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 3:30am
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Very Depressed to Apathy (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Disruptive Sleeping, Mail, Rain, Previous Visit
Odd occurrences after: None
Last night I replied to a friend over e-mail. We haven't ever met in person but shares some commonalities with me. I gave him a brief overview on the status of things since we last communicated. Things I do not necessarily share with my aunt. Information I also recently discussed in private with my Wolfbrother.
As mentioned in previous blogs, we have been threatened in 2018 by a "group". Both myself and my aunt, about or permanent removal from this place....
As stated I was writing an e-mail and certain threats they made were in my head. They were around as I kept feeling them moving about and hearing them whispering. They actively were trying not to let me hear them, but it seems I do. I went to bed and tried to ignore things, letting the cold and dark embrace me and numbing the pain I feel inside always it seems. My aunt couldn't sleep due to pain and her nervousness as see has been seeing more and more of them over the past month. This time while she was reading her book around 4:15 am she states that a white humanoid being, no clothes, but had some sort of baseball cap was in her room. The individual had one black finger, the middle finger. The cap seemed to obscure its eyes. The message it communicated was this:
"Don't be afraid. I am not going to harm you. You know now why are here, why we come. You and your nephew are important to us. We have been watching you, especially your nephew. He is so very different.
We are interested in him because of the things he knows, what he sees, he is so very different. Like you, your are different and you belong with us. We will becoming soon for you and your nephew. You belong to us and you will be with us soon. Do not attempt to fight us, there is little you can do. You will see us again".
It communicated to my aunt as usual in her head. My aunt kept telling it to go away, no to hurt us, just to go away, and praying to GOD.
Meanwhile I was dreaming, running constantly from one dream to the next, switching out. I don't wan to be here. I want to go home. I NEED my companion. I constantly run and cry, desperately searching for home and to be with the man I love. Run.... Rabbit.... Run.... I was warned about in two years I will be gone. My aunt will be gone. I need to fight, find my home, stand with my companion...or seek oblivion to end all of this.
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 3:30am to 5:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 3:30am
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain, Depressed (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Very Depressed to Apathy (Me)/Nervous, Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Disruptive Sleeping, Mail, Rain, Previous Visit
Odd occurrences after: None
Last night I replied to a friend over e-mail. We haven't ever met in person but shares some commonalities with me. I gave him a brief overview on the status of things since we last communicated. Things I do not necessarily share with my aunt. Information I also recently discussed in private with my Wolfbrother.
As mentioned in previous blogs, we have been threatened in 2018 by a "group". Both myself and my aunt, about or permanent removal from this place....
As stated I was writing an e-mail and certain threats they made were in my head. They were around as I kept feeling them moving about and hearing them whispering. They actively were trying not to let me hear them, but it seems I do. I went to bed and tried to ignore things, letting the cold and dark embrace me and numbing the pain I feel inside always it seems. My aunt couldn't sleep due to pain and her nervousness as see has been seeing more and more of them over the past month. This time while she was reading her book around 4:15 am she states that a white humanoid being, no clothes, but had some sort of baseball cap was in her room. The individual had one black finger, the middle finger. The cap seemed to obscure its eyes. The message it communicated was this:
"Don't be afraid. I am not going to harm you. You know now why are here, why we come. You and your nephew are important to us. We have been watching you, especially your nephew. He is so very different.
We are interested in him because of the things he knows, what he sees, he is so very different. Like you, your are different and you belong with us. We will becoming soon for you and your nephew. You belong to us and you will be with us soon. Do not attempt to fight us, there is little you can do. You will see us again".
It communicated to my aunt as usual in her head. My aunt kept telling it to go away, no to hurt us, just to go away, and praying to GOD.
Meanwhile I was dreaming, running constantly from one dream to the next, switching out. I don't wan to be here. I want to go home. I NEED my companion. I constantly run and cry, desperately searching for home and to be with the man I love. Run.... Rabbit.... Run.... I was warned about in two years I will be gone. My aunt will be gone. I need to fight, find my home, stand with my companion...or seek oblivion to end all of this.
Sunday, January 13, 2019
Movie: Be Afraid
"Be Afraid" is a horror/thriller movie released in 2016 by Quest Pacifica. At first glance the movie seems to be another alien abduction film of some sort as monstrous greys are seen, but in the end it is a confusing mess of various related UFO/Alien phenomena from shadow people, tommy knockers, and aliens
The story here concerns Dr. John Chambers who moved out from Pittsburgh to a small country town. He and his family are settling in to a new home. He has a wife named Heather who is expecting a second child, and their oldest Nathan that keep to themselves so far. A few scenes later we are introduced to Dr. Chambers oldest son Ben who has dropped out of college, and seems to be from a previous marriage.
We find that four years prior, farming neighbors of Dr. Chambers who lives in the new town had their child, Emma go missing. Dean sees things that have been visiting all his life, and tells his wife Christine that they are coming and needs to protect the family. During a severe storm, monstrous greys come into the house and steal Emma away. Later we find Dean yelling at a wandering Nathan in the wood if he has seen his daughter and warns him about the woods. Nathan's Brother and Father find him and soon call the cops on Dean.
The local law enforcement knows about Dean's situation and sympathetic to him, and the sheriff seems to be have oddly. Less than a day later, Dr. Chambers and Ben encounter Dean's wife on the road, begging for help as her husband wants to kill himself.
All the while as this has been happen, the Chambers family has been seeing off things in and around the house. No one seems to say anything as they all rationalize it away. Only Nathan seems scared and has seen beings in the house and even Emma. Eventually Dr. Chambers realize too that he is seeing something, but is trying to make logical sense. As the movie go on we eventually find out that the beings are targeting Nathan, and that the Sheriff is aware of what truly is going on since his daughter was also taken some 10 years ago.
The Sheriff's daughter who has an interest is Ben recalls memories when she went missing, after a teenage party and dare leave some of her friends missing. She finds out that the town has a history of cold cases of missing children, and there is something strange about and old abandoned train tunnel. As to be expected, Nathan is taken and Dr. Chambers does everything to rescue his soon.He does so, but in the end become on of the Shadow People who live in the tunnel?
The movie was suspenseful and seems to lead you into believing that this is an alien abduction movie, yet then start to say its a shadow people movie, but then seems to take into account the old legends about creature living in caves and mountains.... where it got really confusing. Even the whole point of Ben being there seemed to be so we could discover the deep dark secret of the sheriff. This is one confusing movie
Sunday, January 6, 2019
Recordings Don't Matter
Date: January 6th, 2019
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:45am to 5:15am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:00am
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Depression to Apathy (Me)/Nervous (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Disruptive Sleeping, Rain, Odd Dream
Odd occurrences after: None
The usual holiday blues are thankfully over.... the depressing season of Thanksgiving and Christmas has passed. As I have commented before, this is the worst time of year as it only reminds me of the bitter loneliness I am subject too. What is worse is that troubles seemed to have happened to impact my ability to move about freely at least to provide some succor. Issues with my Wolfbrother's refusal to cooperate has also provided a strain. It saddens me to say that any joy in life is being drained away and that I can only hope that the peace that I seek my be within my power, to return to the cold and dark where the light will no longer harm me. Life hold little than my obligation and duty, something that needs to end beside the horror of these "visits".
A few days again, important to mention... I was offered a mate. It was a person who seemed to be tan Vietnamese with the initial V.W. He was hired to be with me, but saw that I was something more. He said he wanted me and let me know his name, but not to share it with anyone. I of course have my reservations, but they are playing with me again.... they are introducing random individuals as they have before.
For the past few nights I have been having trouble sleeping. It is mostly an unknown dread of falling asleep.
I been sleeping during the day and really don't want to be alone. This is not to unusual, even though I have done my best to distract myself in positive ways such as watching documentaries and some comedy animation. I been keeping myself busy...and last night was doing my normal research concerning deities.
I started to feel real drowsy and figured my body clock was just hitting exhaustion so I jumped into bed.
everything was normal, I was thinking of some nice thoughts like cuddling up to someone and the noise started. It was that all to familiar hum and I tried to get up but it was already too late. I was facing my room with the back against the wall. It was just there standing behind the chair and stool. It seemed to consider what it should do, as there were things in the way. I began to struggle and move as much as I could. It seemed curious and irritated, mentioning I was going to make this difficult and there is something wrong with me. I tried to struggle and yell and I was able to turn my head. I motioned to my phone. It communicated that it knew, and that it was no good as it wasn't really there and it communicated in my head.
It began to examined me and I was no longer in the room, I was on my side now and again it was checking my back near the base of the spine and my lower mid back. I made a reference that it may have the wrong person, as I had a feeling it was looking for my wolfbrother. It said it mattered little, that we are both the same.
Afterwards it left walking through my bathroom. My aunt says she screamed around 5:30am as something walked through her room. She was awake reading at the time and I heard her screaming. I was crying and too weak to move and just lay there for a few minutes before I passed out. I was looking at the clock.
In the morning I checked my phone and it did pick me up trying to talk.... at the alleged time.
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:45am to 5:15am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:00am
State of Mind Before: Sad, Lonely, Extremely Depressed (Me)/In Pain (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Apathy to Depression to Apathy (Me)/Nervous (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Disruptive Sleeping, Rain, Odd Dream
Odd occurrences after: None
The usual holiday blues are thankfully over.... the depressing season of Thanksgiving and Christmas has passed. As I have commented before, this is the worst time of year as it only reminds me of the bitter loneliness I am subject too. What is worse is that troubles seemed to have happened to impact my ability to move about freely at least to provide some succor. Issues with my Wolfbrother's refusal to cooperate has also provided a strain. It saddens me to say that any joy in life is being drained away and that I can only hope that the peace that I seek my be within my power, to return to the cold and dark where the light will no longer harm me. Life hold little than my obligation and duty, something that needs to end beside the horror of these "visits".
A few days again, important to mention... I was offered a mate. It was a person who seemed to be tan Vietnamese with the initial V.W. He was hired to be with me, but saw that I was something more. He said he wanted me and let me know his name, but not to share it with anyone. I of course have my reservations, but they are playing with me again.... they are introducing random individuals as they have before.
For the past few nights I have been having trouble sleeping. It is mostly an unknown dread of falling asleep.
I been sleeping during the day and really don't want to be alone. This is not to unusual, even though I have done my best to distract myself in positive ways such as watching documentaries and some comedy animation. I been keeping myself busy...and last night was doing my normal research concerning deities.
I started to feel real drowsy and figured my body clock was just hitting exhaustion so I jumped into bed.
everything was normal, I was thinking of some nice thoughts like cuddling up to someone and the noise started. It was that all to familiar hum and I tried to get up but it was already too late. I was facing my room with the back against the wall. It was just there standing behind the chair and stool. It seemed to consider what it should do, as there were things in the way. I began to struggle and move as much as I could. It seemed curious and irritated, mentioning I was going to make this difficult and there is something wrong with me. I tried to struggle and yell and I was able to turn my head. I motioned to my phone. It communicated that it knew, and that it was no good as it wasn't really there and it communicated in my head.
It began to examined me and I was no longer in the room, I was on my side now and again it was checking my back near the base of the spine and my lower mid back. I made a reference that it may have the wrong person, as I had a feeling it was looking for my wolfbrother. It said it mattered little, that we are both the same.
Afterwards it left walking through my bathroom. My aunt says she screamed around 5:30am as something walked through her room. She was awake reading at the time and I heard her screaming. I was crying and too weak to move and just lay there for a few minutes before I passed out. I was looking at the clock.
In the morning I checked my phone and it did pick me up trying to talk.... at the alleged time.
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