Runic Cyphers

So my meeting on Sunday when I got to the table, like last time I got a message. The first time this happened
was when I was showing another member my app on Runes and got a weird message that was oddly specific in the next few moments. As people came in I began to have an anxiety attack and had to leave. It reminded me of something I was told/shown a few days before and I had to leave.

So Sunday, which was very odd as soon as I sat down....there was a message within the wood of the table.
It was faint whirls in the wood, which was stained and polished and had a series of Runes in it. At first I thought it was just my eyes and my brain trying to make sense of a random pattern into something recognizable. However every time I looked at the spot in front of me the same series of runes were there.
I quickly jotted them down on my phone, and noted that it was using two differing runic alphabets (as there are more than one) which made me think it was nothing. However going going over, there seems to be a good reason for it.

So first things first. There are 8 Runes total, which is important because my wolfbrother is that.
Second the 9 is in there as "3 x 3". Three runes from one alphabet (Younger Futhark) and the "three torches". In one alphabet, "C", "K", and "Q" all share the same rune. The odd runes ironically are the individual  version for "C" and "K", allowing "Q" to be single out. 9 is important to me. That leaves the other 5 which are of the Elder Futhark as the another number....the five runes left over. Five is the elemental balance.....in the old world.

From looking at this the basic message I got is that my "Wolfbrother is coming back with knowledge, that a sacrifice was made for us to become better".

However, I do not know if I am being manipulated.....  
  

Fort Ord and UFO Rock Landers....

 Since 1917 Fort Ord operated as a permanent installation of Headquarters, Department of the Army, Forces Command. The primary mission of Fort Ord was to train troops. It provided command, administration, and logistical support and other functions necessary to operate and maintain facilities at Fort Ord and its subinstallations, the Presidio of Monterey and Fort Hunter Liggett.

Fort Ord is near Monterey Bay in Monterey County, California, approximately 80 miles south of San Francisco. The base consists of about 28,000 acres near the cities Seaside, Sand City, Monterey, Del Rey Oaks, and Marina. Laguna Seca Recreation Area and Toro Regional Park border Fort Ord to the south and southeast, respectively. Land use east of Fort Ord is primarily agricultural.
Although Fort Ord was closed in September 1994, the Army retained approximately 5 percent of the property for a Presidio of Monterey (POM) annex and reserve center.

In 1961, John Kennedy was elected president. He orders NORAD not to divulge information about foreign space vehicles. Experiments with ultrasonics and brain lesions are done by universities. Donald Keyhoe begins sending proof of his censorship to Congress. At Fort Ord, 221 military members are abducted and implanted with devices. They and their families are sequestered.
By May 1961, a House subcommittee had been formed to look int the subject of UFOs. It was again put down and the problem seemed to 'disappear' for a while. Kennedy, dissatisfied with some areas in the covert governmental structure, threatens to go public. In 1962 the Bilderbergers meet to discuss the problem.

…There is evidence that new Army divisions, like those at Fort Lewis in Washington, will have a dual foreign and domestic role. Another planned division will be located at Fort Ord, California.

http://actualart.org/angelwk/project/wka02/fortord/aliens.html

Another story takes about "Abduction Terminals in the Military"

https://www.thinkaboutit-ufos.com/abduction-terminals-military/

Now with Giant "UFO" Rock in Lander, California.....
Adjacent to Landers on the north is Giant Rock, covering 5800 sq. ft. and 7 stories high. [http://www.lucernevalley.net/giantrock/ It is thought to be the largest free standing boulder in the world. It was sacred to the Californian Indians in the region, where the north and south tribes met annually. Giant Rock as compared to an average size pickup truck

From the 1950s through the 1970s, Landers was a popular gathering point for annual Spacecraft Conventions of UFO enthusiasts

http://www.lucernevalley.net/giantrock/

Who the Hell is Kyle and I get my Luggage back.....sort of

Date: September 26th, 2017
Type: Dream
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 8:00am -3:00pm 
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:00am
State of Mind Before: Depressed, Withdrawn (Me)/In Pain, Anxious (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Very Confused (Me)/Alseep (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Kidney Issues, More Visions
Odd occurrences after: Contentment?


Throughout the night I was tossing and turning. I kept having small continuous episodic dreams. Again it was at the resort, and again I was surrounded by a group of familiar associates from the past and present. During some of the times walking about there were lectures on plants, farming, and earth sciences going on. It was more like broadcasts directly fed into your head as you were walking about and talking with others. Like a subliminal feed...many were oblivious and continued with the normal activity of socializing, others seems transfixed pre-occupied with the broadcast, and very few were taken aback and startled as if "woken up" and they were escorted out.

As usual, I kept walking about looking for my wolfbrother. He is here, I was so close before the broadcast. I know he is here.

After that we were told to go back to are rooms for the evening. George, Frankie, Alex, and Kyle informed me to follow them. Fraknie started talking to me about unfinished projects we had, I was looking however at the area were we were. Apparently Frankie was frustrated that I was re-assigned, and George was not that great of a partner since he didn't have the intelligence to really help out. He wanted me back as a partner because at least I could keep up with him. I hugged him and said thank you. He was taken aback by that and shoved me back saying "what the hell?". The others guys laughed.
We were in some large dining hall before, it had a buffet, and the lights were blue with a white strobe light mimicking the starts. We were all dressed up to, and at first I though it was some Prom. The way people behaved, it seemed like it was. As we were told to walk out, a series of doors opened in all directions and people formed groups and walked out.
When we walked out it was out of place, we left the dimly light dinning hall and exited into a large white mall. From what I could tell it was at least 4 stories high from the interior. The angles and corners were all smooth, and seemed to made of white ivory. No seems. There were some plants here and there which were spots of green. There were no stairs, but ramps to access the upper levels.

When we got to the "room", it appeared as a standard hotel room but with two king sized bed, a couch and a lounge chair. Every one got ready for bed and the guys laughed that I still had received my luggage yet. Apparently this whole trip my luggage was lost and all I had was my lapbag with my books and stuff. I had been washing my clothes and borrowing some from other during my stay. Frankie and George shared one bed, Alex and Kyle shared another. There were blankets for someone to use the couch and lounge chair. I took the pillow and blanket and went into the corner behind the lounge chair and bundled up.

During the time we slept "they" came in. It was to do a head count. They looked at the couch and then to the lounge chair. They didn't seem concerned with the initial count of four people and left. The didn't bother to check the my corner.

When we all awoke the next morning. It was time to go. I was kinda of weirded out because I don't have my luggage and I am usually left behind. Alex and Kyle showed me that they had my tickets, and when I looked there was a pair, one for me and the other for my Wolfbrother. So I got my things, made sure to grab my flute, and followed them hoping to meet up with my wolfbrother. When we got to the terminal, everyone was filling into "trains". I was told that my luggage had arrived and was ready for pick-up. After 26 days it arrived, all this time since I got here it was missing. However when I looked at it this was not mine, but my wolfbrother carry-on. I opened it up, it had his scent, this was really his. There was no one too talk to and ask, so I picked it up and walked into the "train" with Kyle and Alex.

The next thing I remember is waking up in the back of a moving car. I saw the "Whore" exit, she was extremely upset and waddled off. No matter what, she would always be a Beta and the years are catching up. As the other guys were exiting the vehicle I peaked out and we were at an industrial type area with warehouse and apartment buildings. A lady told me to get out of the car, but called me by my wolfbrother's name. Alex and Kyle were gonna correct her, but I stopped them. Apparent "Freedom" was driving us home in her trans-am. It was almost impossible for us to all fit in there. I got my stuff which was my flute, my wolfbrother's carry-on, and my lapbag. She then speed off.

George and Frankie went into the apartment complex and were gonna play video games with Kyle and Alex. I looked at both Kyle and Alex who were goofing off about the dance last night and how they were forced to dance together. Kyle said bye to me a he knew I was leaving, for a second he seemed to remember something about us. I knew he was the Kyle I was in yesterday.
I told Alex I need to go home. For a moment Alex began "But you live here with...oh right home...I wish I remembered". He then brushed it off and sadly looked at me. He then said "Well you better get started, it will probably take you by noon to get there." I looked at him as it was around 5pm, but then I realized he met the next day. After all I was walking, and I knew how far and where I was. However, I could get there a lot sooner as I knew the bus lines.

Note: Who the heck is Kyle? I have no reference to knowing anyone like Kyle. However I know him, like really well apparently since I was downloaded into him. Something I know I would not willing do. My initial feeling is that someone is trying to override the natural connection between me and my wolfbrother by re-wiring stuff. Also Alex P. showed up again.

Second is why do I have my wolfbrother's luggage. Specifically after 26 days....I didn't encounter my wolfbrother in my waking memory shortly before his 27th birthday. What mixed message is this? They say it is mine....not ours...but mine? 

George Van Tassel 1964 Interview on Aliens,Ufo's and Time Travel

It is amazing of all the inquiries into UFO and Aliens that such interviews are not shown.
This man gave names, places, and concrete scientific information. Apparently this has stuff relating
to UFO and the Project Montuk, and the Lunar bases.
 

More than just Supernatural and Some Historic Sites

Date: September 25th, 2017
Type: Dream, CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:00 pm -5:30pm 
Attempted Time of Sleep: 2:00pm
State of Mind Before: Depressed, Withdrawn (Me)/In Pain, Anxious (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Very Confused (Me)/Alseep (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Kidney Issues, More Visions
Odd occurrences after: Both doors opened to my room, main house door closed


Before this I was in a pharmacy trying to get my aunt her prescription. However this was no pharmacy and was like a social security office. I was in a both waiting, but undressed. I kacky pants and blue button long sleeve shirt besides me. I was groggy and burning up. A white pinkish portly women in flowery dress, reddish blonde bush of hair passed by and was startled. She thought I was a homeless man. Pulled out her cell phone to call 911. She was under the impression that she was at a bank. She was miffed that there was no reception. I quickly put my clothes on then touched one the shoulder lightly, saying "It is ok". She calmed down. I re-assured I have  no diseases or contagions, and that she could call me "Mr. Helix" and I was not a bum. She asked why I was burning up, I was glowing. I told her I have a kidney condition that increase the my core temperature, hence the absence of no clothes. I also apologized for invading her personal space, but I just wanted to re-assure her that I was okay, I was bought up to be friendly and such gesture were of kindness. She calmed down, but said I should be checked out nonetheless because I look like I was in so much pain and holding it back.
I said not to worry and tapped her forehead and said "Forget and sit". She did so in the chair next to me and I got up and walked around the corner. There were others being escorted to various booths by invisible beings that I had trouble focusing on. In my head I had the feeling of don't look or they will see...just keep walking out. As I got to the main lobby, people were in line and talking to asian woman in white lab coats. The people became animated when they got to the desk and willing just gave up information. I kept walking and went out the door.

All of a sudden I was was laying in the back seat of the car and I was hearing a broadcast in my head. Talking about a National Park named "Camp Ord" and "UFO Rock".
It was a male announcer's voice talking about the historic site, "As I went over the horizon and saw the giant rock, I thought I saw a naked man and a women. Buy when I got close and looked own it was just a featureless being, neither male or female, but I was trying to make sense of it. It was like it was trying to figure out what it should be, giving me options so we could communicate". I looked up to get a better idea were I was. We did pass a sign that said "Camp Ord, National Park 20 miles ahead". We were along the coast, something like the drive along the 101 between San Francisco and Los Angeles. Small copses of trees ahead and to the right, which means we were headed north....and a dark blue ocean along the the seacoast cliffs. Then I got interference and I couldn't see. I was in a vehicle with my wolf brother and our "MOM". They were having a discussion  about me.

Suddenly my eyesight was interrupted, it froze like a video camera with only a few areas working. Now I was in another car with two woman. An older woman driving, and in the passenger side a young girl. As I came too the younger one said "Momma, he is doing it again". The mother side "Good Lord, give me the strength. We are almost there honey. We are gonna get you some help". I said I could not see, my vision is messed up. However I wasn't talking to the two woman, whom in my compromised vision were both black females dressed in 1950-1960 era attire. I then switched to a remote view. From what I was getting from reading the person body I was in and them, that my name was Kyle...this was my mom and little sister.
She was taking me to a evangelical church to get us help. "Demons" aka aliens had been coming and troubling Kyle and the family who lived on the outskirts of a small town. She was a lady of humble means, our father had split a few years after my sister was born. Kyle was his mid teens. It was the U.S., and when we arrived at the church, it was one of those Evangelic Faith Healer Tents. I started to ask "What year is this? Where am I? What is my name?" The sister stated, "Momma, Kyle is asking questions again". The mother said "Don't answer them honey. Don't give the devil the satisfaction of knowing what he is chewing. Now go get help to carry him on in". I was confused, when I spoke it was in Kyle's voice. It seems he was in his teens, tall guy with a very strong thin athletic build, and short hair, and other things that I know was definitely not me.

The Image is a 3D Image and this was the layer it was viewing at the moment. The overall shape is that of  funnel. There is a small depression on the top middle about two layers down. The colors shift as you move through the grid.

From there it then jumped back to me and a several other in a class room. I was standing up asking what was going on. Alex P. and my wolfbrother where there. Alex was monitoring the data streams, while my wolfbrother was working the monitor. The blackboard had a flatscreen monitor on it with a grid pattern.
The whole experiment had to do with the upload and downloading of souls. Alex had commented that the signal was interrupted, a huge chunk of "their" data had just disappeared. I interjected, "Do you think then an A.I. or virus was entered into it. That would explain where it went". The thought I had was, "they forget that the data stream is a living thing. There is no copy, paste, delete in most circumstances. Data is literally merged like the collapsing, integration, or a division of bubbles." As I was thinking this Alex said "That is how they change movies and stuff during a showing, if the don't like how the audience is reacting then they change it mid viewing to manipulate things. I have noticed it a dozen times myself". I looked at the screen and memorized the pattern. My wolfbrother walked toward me and said "How is it you are not soooooo stoned? I inverted it, then doubled it. How I am the improved version of you? They never fully explored you unique defects." I tell him back, "Resonance is still in effect, what do you think you are doing? I've taken steps to ensure I am who I always am. Remember? Remember? Remember?". Then he blanked out and the two others that were trying to be invisible in the room intervened and separated us again, and sent me "away". I picked up "Not supposed to happen. Wipe"  

Previous Dream a few hours before
May be important....last nights dream before 4:00am. There was activity in the house and we went to bed around 9:00pm, woke up at 4:00am, 5:00am, and finally 6:00am. Somethings was wrong.
Alex P. is someone I recently met. This is the second time he has shown up as part of a group dream. Last night's odd one is that we and his friends were playing a video games at my home. Which put me in my early teens....

Somehow they managed to get Sam and Dean to show up to my birthday party. I knew that this made no sense as they are TV characters, but they didn't care and were all having fun goofing off. I wanted to go and find my wolfbrother like they promised. However they were having way to much fun with "Sam and Dean" from the Supernatural series, commenting of the infinite worlds I have traveled and I had the coolest selections of things. Dean was drunk and singing karaoke and they thought it was funny. Sam was also drunk and was "drunk cuddling with me". He was talking about how odd it was that one moment they were driving, and now they are here with a bunch of high schoolers. Dean was mad at first, but since they offered him beer and burgers, everyone relaxed. Sam said that this was probably not even all real, and he was probably asleep in his car just having a weird dream. So he felt comfortable talking to me. We had a lot of small talk. He said referring to me and my wolfbrother that "we were a blend". He asked my why I don't drink, I said "I do not like altered states, I prefer individuals to be who they are". I got up and he followed me out with their German Shepard to the from of my house. The German Shepard liked me alot. Their car was being automatically driven and he yellowed out for Dean. Dean came out and was upset that something was messing with his baby and he ran after it. The dog followed. The vehicle suddenly backed up missing Dean but hitting their dog and stopped. We went over to take care of the dog. However as they were trying to give their dog some peace before it died, I saw them hold a fox who was coughing out blood.
It looked at me and said "You are one of the few who can see. They know. Remember what I taught you".

Then I told Sam and Dean I love you guys, don't ever separate. What happens in one world echoes forth in reflections, light and vibrations they are all the same. They looked confused and popped out. I went to the house across the street as people started to evacuate toward Universal City and North Hollywood. Certain individuals started to attack people, they were being remote controlled. I went across the street to the neighbors home to evacuate them and tell hem were to go. People were being ridden again and they are trying to "reset" things. There were dark shadows appearing in places, and in the darkness were many yellow eyes coming forward and rushing into people and inhabiting people. Before I could get into the other house one jumped down and attacked a woman in front of me and was killed. A patch of darkness appeared in front of me and something came forward and flashed out of existence. I willing fell to the floor playing dead.
The yellow eyes that came to me I destroyed. The momentary interaction I had with it was "This vessel is already inhabited, we may be the same but I choose my own path". The one that killed he woman ahead me shot me with a dark arrow, it stuck to me but did not piece me and again it was because I was the same as them. When he got close there was a standard hammer near by, I picked it up and got up surprising him. I said "You like playing gods, then let me give you a taste of the power of thor". We struggled for a bit, not before I finally dented his skull and his body dropped. The odd thing was that this person, was merely a husk with goo inside. The skin of the body was taught and grey, and his innards necrotized and was turning into an orange goop. (The Thor thing was me being witty....I am not thor. I also thought of an alt thing to say which was "You heard of the carpenter of Nazereth? You are going to get hammered now"). I did feel remorse that I had to end that beings tortured existence and the parasite was gone. A lady came out of the house and handed me a baby "Take your brother and go. We found him again. Keep him safe. No run. Run!".

I took my brother in my arms and started walking up the major street. I could see that many people were trying to drive and flee toward Hollywood. I kept "popping" and "skipping" from block to blocks....teleporting short distance when I could. Not to expend my energy or attract "their" attention. I needed to get to the portal.

NOTE: Camp Ord is a real place and UFO Rock too. Camp Ord is located near Monterrey Bay in California and is an historic park. Giant Rock...aka UFO Rock is an actual place too in Landers, CA north of Joshua Tree.  I need to do research on this.

Visions again

Date: September 18 and 21, 2017
Type: Dream, CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 1:00 am (9/21/2017), 3:30am 
Attempted Time of Sleep: Varies
State of Mind Before: Very Depressed, Withdrawn (Me)/In Pain, Anxious (Aunt)
State of Mind After: Very Depressed, Very Withdrawn (Me)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Kidney Issues
Odd occurrences after: Withdrawn, Confusion, Lonely, Emotionally distraught, Violence

As reported earlier my aunt has been having visits. Tall entities in robes come into the room and exit.
Sometime this happens during the day, when she is sleeping and awakened, or when watching TV.
Our canine pal seems not to be bothered, only whimpering sometimes. Several times myself I have caught something for a brief second there, standing in the living room just watching or even worse floating near the ceiling. These reappearances have been more frequent this month and suspect that is due to the upcoming equinox.

My anxiety has increased, and so had the depression and aggression. So far I been able to control this, but it is becoming a struggle to see the point of my existence. My duty and obligation keep me bound, and in those times away I have compel my OCD to kick in in archiving in order to keep my mind off of things. The sociable aspects of a group is keeping me invested, however the lack of any sot of fellowship makes it moot. Lately their concentration on me has been in focus. Prior to the following incidents they have been watching. Sometimes the little ones are watching incognito or behind the bathroom door. I am just aware when they show sometimes, it is a presence. Again this involves my Wolfbrother sadly.

9/18/2017
The following incident occurs after wrestling with insomnia for a past few days. My sleep schedule is variable. I was awake all night, I was bothered and couldn't sleep. Around 3:30am something was about.
I finally forced myself to sleep around 6:00am. I was "getting feedback" as I was seeing a series of wires being connected and re-routed. Someone was re-sequencing something. The thing is I cannot tell if it was physical or a metaphor. I was not dreaming.....I was awake watching this. I finally shook my head and got up and distracted myself for a few hours and eventually fell asleep around 9:00am. This bothered me. The following afternoon when I woke up and did my rounds, I found that I wanted to turn off, however I was told to wear our collar. I did....

9/21/2017
Depressed and I had put my aunt to bed around 12:00am. My guest was up doing his own thing on the PC.
I was okay, but then I felt very very sleepy. I figured it must be a result of insomnia and turned the A/C on in order to rest. The kidneys have been overheating and I figure something is up. As soon as I lay down and put my head on the pillow, I can no longer move. I am able to look around though, but the view is all in grey.
I can see the desk, the PC, and the window. I start to call out and chant a prayer. Someone or people are talking...they are not in the room. I am being monitored and they are aware I am O.B.E. After the prayer didn't working I mention my Wolfbrother. I awake, but not before I hear "He knows?". Although I am weirded out by this I lay down, even my depressed since I mentioned his name. I remember the other day wearing our collar, and that I did cry out for him. I am angry of how weak I am in this aspect, my Wolfbrother has left a priceless scar on our soul. As I lay down "feedback" occurs. I am seeing a computer monitor with some bar graphs, and pie chart, and reports. They come in and out of focus, and then it someone open up a new window and I am looking at maps. Someone is doing a search in a wooded and forested area, like mountains or something. The thing I am getting is "Secure the asset". It makes me think to the other day about the wires.... am I seeing something or being used to see things for someone?

Around 3:30am I awake. Ironically my aunt was hitting the wall because it had my an appearance again.
I didn't get up to check and just lay in my bed tossing and turning for two hours. Something was trying to make me sleep, but I would turn off....but wouldn't go blank. I just started talking to my Wolfbrother as if he was here, half groggy. I couldn't get up, but would not sleep....so I kept busy....why would I focus on my Wolfbrother? Is he in trouble? 

  

Reporting in for the Week

Date: September 17, 2017
Type: Dream, CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 1:30 am, 2:30am, 3:30am, 4:30am, 5:30am 
Attempted Time of Sleep: 12:30am (Me)
State of Mind Before: Depressed, Withdrawn (Me)
State of Mind After: Very Depressed, Very Withdrawn (Me)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Kidney Issues
Odd occurrences after: Withdrawn, Confusion, Lonely, Emotionally distraught, Violence

The past week has been up and downs. We have had to major household issues, well three, which is super stressful. My Insomnia has been in full swing and I am fighting my depression off as much as possible by feeding my OCD archiving issue. It is bad....

Since I last reported, my dreams have had a few violent spikes. My grandmother shows up and tries to make me reconcile with an "evil" aunt. This malign relative is truly a reprehensible individual, one who has done many things to me personal throughout my life. Because of her, I have decided not to join my blood relative in the afterlife, why ruin their happiness with my discord. Each time I am introduced to her, I have violently attacked her. It is a natural an instinctive response to her mere introduction to a scenario.
The odd things is despite my swift and violent response to her presence, everyone seems analytical and clinical. Very detached that I brutally and excessively took out my repressed rage on her. Even I am taken aback by the response, asking myself "Why did I go so far. Quick and efficient". Even there is commentary and discussion afterward with "them" on what occurred.....

This has somewhat spilled on over to the real world. My patience with the stupidity of humanity is thin. I try to take the high ground and be tolerant, but a strong part of me is "Stand up and do the right thing. Damn tolerance, justice is all that matters". Compassion is gone out the window....and I honestly stop and think "What would my Wolfbrother do?"....and that sets off an entire other chain of stuff. I do not want to leave my room, I don't want to talk to people.....I just want to die. I feel so lost and empty... and truly lost...I have no one and have to fight alone. I will die alone if I am allowed too...but like my aunt...we both feel that we are not going to be allowed an escape.

Previously I kept waking up, and when I try to sleep....I keep waking up. Sometime there is synaptic shocks, but I am uneasy. Something is around...and my first thoughts go to my Wolfbrother. However, they have been around. They have been outside and in the house. My aunt has seen them pop in an out.

The Fat Blonde Man Returns

Date: September 10, 2017
Type: Dream, CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 1:30 am, 2:30am, 3:30am, 4:30am, 5:30am 
Attempted Time of Sleep: 12:30am (Me)
State of Mind Before: Depressed, Withdrawn (Me)
State of Mind After: Very Depressed, Very Withdrawn (Me)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Kidney Issues
Odd occurrences after: Withdrawn, Confusion, Lonely, Emotionally distraught

(FYI As I am writing this around 3:30am there is a number of loud pops and noises around the house. Did a security sweep. Someone(s) outside)

This odd series of dreams were continuous despite me waking up every hour and arguing with someone that "I did not want to do this", "I want to go home with Wolfbrother".

Once again I am at a resort. My high school friends are there; Carlo, Alex, Daniel, and Jeffrey. As I saw them walk around and talk I wondered why I never saw Robert. Daniel came up to me and asked how I had been. I never talked much to Daniel as I had a crush on him, but he was being really friendly and asked if it was okay if I shared the room. He noticed that I was alone this time and my friend was not here.
I asked him who he was talking about, and he described my wolfbrother. I sort of became upset, and Daniel comforted me saying that he would keep me company this time. We would have a chance to get to know eachother better. However, like everyone else he soon forgot about me and was lost in the illusion of being in "Hawaii" on a "vacation". As the other began milling about to there pre-programed destinations I headed to the clinic.

The clinic was a facility that was about three stories tall. There was a stair well in the back that I could used to get inside. However this time the landing to the second floor was gated close. The third level was likewise fenced off. It wasn't time, in a few hours or days the building will alter. I had to wait till then. I returned to my room. Daniel came back in and needed to shower. He didn't notice me until he walked out naked while I was just laying in my bed. He asked what I was doing here, and I replied it is my room. He seemed to vaguely remember and asked if I was with him. I turned not to face him, and asked if he felt that in his heart.
He said no immediately, and I told him we are just sharing a room. He went to bed and started to sleep.
I was uncomfortable and went to the corner. Daniel asked in his sleep, "You miss him. I can here it so loud. Who is he Michael? Why are you in such pain?". I told Daniel "Thank you. SLEEP and FORGET", and walked outside. I did not want to be in the room, plus if he came back to rest the building would have changed.

I went back to the clinic and around toward the back. As expected the stairs morphed into a ramp and the gates and fences were removed. The doors were accessible. A doctor in a white lab coat was slowly making his way up the ramp and to the third floor. He was black, but with blue hair. He had a manic grin on his face and was unaware of where he was. He creepped me out and I decided to go to the front. There was a line of people just waiting outside to be processed. Most of them were in a daze, but a few people seemed vaguely aware. As I walked along the line of people, I saw Carlo and Alex by another building that had a market and restaurant. I walked up to them as there was a Filipino guy that seemed out of place. For some reason I wanted to say his name was Marjune. He recognized me and asked why was he here. I took a seat between Alex and Carlo. They were oblivious and explained that I needed a key he had.
The fat gay Filipino guy that was sitting with us outside the restaurant gave me the key. He was rather reluctant to do so, sad almost. As I left the group and made my way to the patio of the restaurant the patrons looked at me rather funny. They were out of place as well, unlike everyone else they were stiff and jerky in there mannerism of just being at a restaurant. There actions were almost mechanical. The patrons were all thin very white human-like beings with whispy blonde hair. Some of them had dyed there hair in green, blue, and pink for accents, and they all wore white elegant suits and dresses as it was a fine establishment. As soon as I entered they focused their attention on me, like a group of birds in unison. They were surprised that I was walking to the restaurant and actually entering. I could overhear the murmurs they were thinking... "How is he able to?", "Is he even human, what is he", "It's him". I ignored them and walked with a purpose and just thought "I am supposed to be here, ignore me" and went into the kitchen area and then toward the restroom.

The restroom was not a normal restroom per say. It was a closet size opening in which you had to then crawl down about 10 feet to a landing, and then walk a few feet and again crawl down a brick shaft. This ended up in a large locker type room with many of them walking around. The males that were here were putting away these collection devices. They were large glass bowl with a open cabbage in the middle. They were used to collect sexual secretions and other bodily fluids that were "sniffed". The devices collected an individuals "data", it was both medical and spiritual...from what I understood. One of them asked if I would like to sniff his collection devices, but I said "No" and almost threw up as it was exclusively female. It communicated and laughed "oh, your one of those specific types, jajajajaja". I made may way through this sub-basement level and along a main hall.

There were other rooms and there were exhaust, water, and electrical pipes along the ceiling. I made may way to a stairwell and ran up. It was a few flights around five, and I was winded. However I managed to get where I needed to be. The door was already open as some women were walking out. I didn't need the key after all. I gave it to them though, and walked in. Apparently I had been here many times.

This place was a massive warehouse and library containing millions of items (books, cd, dvds, artifacts, albums, etc.) There was a small tower within this massive storage space which served as the attendants living quarters which was about four stories high. The walls were made of glass so you could view the entire collection. However the individual I needed to see was on the roof, so I made may way up there.
Once I was on the roof, it was a massive airfield that looked out to a night sky.....and perfectly spaced in a grid like formation where thousand of pods. These pods held data, many were virtually reality programs and A.I.s. The one in charge of all this was a fat blonde man who teleported and floated about. Like the others, he was very pale with wispy blonde hair. His eyes were wide an darkest blue with black pinpoints. He seemed very manic in what he was doing, and I knew he had a tendency to be angry if displeased. As he was doing his thing, one of his servants came up an informed him that the lemon reduction cake would not be able to be made. A senator was visiting and the cooks would not be able to create the special cake. The fat blonde being was upset and disintegrated the servant.

It noticed me and was then in front of me. It looked at me curiously and with familiarity. "You are an interesting anomaly Michael, no matter how many times we do what we do, you are who you are. You remember don't you. You know who I am and what I am doing here." I did recognize him, I had helped catalogue the items below and have used some of them. I know that I am not normal and am some sort of experiment. I been here many times before. We have, my wolfbrother. It noted I was sad and upset at that particular recollection. We are always together. Yet this time we are not. It was not going to go into details, they were watching and they could here. He would not tell me who "they were", but wanted something as to the details of an item that I had catalogued. Once I identified and and let him know where it was located in the collection, he sent me back outside the restaurant. The Filipino guy who gave me the key was shocked I had returned. I told him I come here all the time, amd I am not exactly like him.....but I am not like them either as I gestured at the restaurant. He was surprised and mentioned "You see them too! No one else believes me". I told him about the blonde fat man, and that he had given him the key for me. This time he would remember, it is time for everyone to remember.

I need to find my wolfbrother.

Am I messed up?

Date: September 9th, 2017
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: N/A 
Attempted Time of Sleep: Me 1:00am/Aunt 1:30 am
State of Mind Before: Depressed, Withdrawn (Me)
State of Mind After: Depressed, Withdrawn (Me)
Odd occurrences before: Insomnia, Kidney Issues
Odd occurrences after: Withdrawn, Confusion

Over the past week I been forcing myself to go to sleep early, I have gotten back to some of the activities I like, started drinking green tea powder, and taken an interest in gardening. I know there is something wrong with me.....not just normal wrong...but fundamentally wrong.

First off I have been waking up around 3:50am, I am usually bothered. Something happens..and I am not too sure. One night the bathroom door opened, I knew someone was in there...I knew they were coming...however I just kept lying to myself that everything was fine and the door was closed.
There has been more and more dreams, but all circle back to people from high school....my so called friends and associates. They bother me alot and make me feel worse...why is my brain fabricating happy times with them?

The thing I am worried about is my withdrawn attitude. I do not want to deal with people, I do not trust people's intentions, and I know that I am not worth anything. I been trying to deal with my Wolfbrother's loss and process it in a healthy way. Sadly the whole issue has reinforced some of the deep seated wounds in my life....why people abandon me, why I am never good enough, and that anyone who even appears to love me is only manipulating me and will scar me. It is just how this all ended....I do not understand. However, I know by November it will be over..I think... a part of me is still desperately holding on to what was said... that infection of hope.... I think once this passes I can bury all this...and walk away. My heart is broken, my spirit is bruised, and I do want to end things..... there is simply no point. I am struggling every day to find a reason....apathy needs to set in....I don't want to feel.