Friday, September 26, 2025

Warning or Am I being Watched

Date: 9/26/2025
Type: Unknown
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:45am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 1:00am Aunt/Wolfbrother)
State of Mind Before: Me (Tired, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Ok), Aunt (Pain, Stressed)
State of Mind After: Me (Tired, Apathetic), Wolfbrother (N/A), Aunt (Calm)
Odd occurrences before: Wolfbrother claims he saw grey around 9:00pm
Odd occurrences after: None

 This week has been hectic. Last Sunday was our CERO meeting, and I wrote an e-mail discussing Mental Health and Alien Abductions sent out to the group and one private e-mail to one member discussing abductions I have experienced; Physical, Projected, and Mental. Other odd thing to note that both Monday and Tuesday a person came around 3:00pm.... a male... calling for both my aunt and I. My friend who is here did not hear any of this. Uninvited or Spontaneous Visitors are not welcome..... so I have no idea really who this could have been.

Earlier this evening... 

My wolfbrother was outside in the backyard listening to music. His found died and he started to call out for me to go an get him. I had advised him not to do that.....to check his power and call before his phone dies. Apparently a few minutes before I came out, he says that there was a person who look liked me peering from the corner of the house. Then a grey was trying to be stealthy and was walking around in the back. When I arrived he said the grey faded out. I sat with him and he told me what was going on....and said that there was a grey around....peeking out. I started to bring him back in...but we checked the front. Nothing was amiss.....but he said he would see a shadowy figure.....in the back peeking from behind the house. I told him I could not see anything. Yet when I walked toward the area he indicated the hair and my arms were up. We went in and watched Marvel Zombies on Disney+. 

My aunt was in pain...and I tried to attend to her.... eventually she stabilized. Around 12:30am.... he was going to bed.....and I checked in on my aunt who was in pain still. I adjusted as best as I could.... and she was trying to relax. I had to mop the kitchen and hall....I finished by 1:30am. They were both asleep. So I headed to the apartment to relax. Whyl was playing streetfighter and I watched Youtube. Around 2:30am I decided to try and lay down. In a few minutes I got the impression that someone was standing outside the frontdoor watching me. I tried to ignore it. Then a few minutes later the dog started barking. I left around 2:45am to check my aunt.

She was calm....and I adjusted her. She told me that a tall thin male Caucasian man, hazel eyes, and black hair walked in the room. He was about 6'4", wearing a white button down shirts and black slacks. He told her "I know who you are. I am also aware of who Michael is. He needs to be careful. He is aware of what I am talking about". The he walked out of the room. A few minutes later I came in.

I have not shared information with my Wolfbrother or her.....as to what happened today. My Wolfbrother has his sighting.....and she has hers. I kept the odd feeling about being stared at.  

 

Friday, September 12, 2025

The Players

 The first encounters I recall that I know 100% are called the greys. A few variations have shown up throughout my life. The first encounters were these types wearing a silver jumpsuit. Later one the other types would appear in various skin tones from almond to to tan almond, and various heights. The tall rarely made an appearance..... and from time to time the would show up using the following proxies. 

This one I think might be a Nordic, but seems to be off. He is very tall and very fat, blond hair and has the bluest of eyes. Apparently he deals in artifacts and information, and I call him the archivist. Apparently I been working for him for years, dealing with data management, storage, and retrieval. I have detailed knowledge of where information can be located and what certain subjects/artifacts do. His interest concerns technology, culture, history, biology, literature, geography, and other natural sciences. He can be impatient at times, but overall interested in hos work. There are other working for him, but he keeps us apart.

These are some the fake animal the greys seem to show up as. The eyes are often a lot larger though, these particular animals are always seen staring face forward...clearly showing there large dark eyes, nostrils, and mouth. They stare and don't behave as normal animals would. Patiently staring...and always watching.
 
  This one appeared only once while I was with my wolfbrother. I think this one my have been a bybradized grey of some sort. It was mostly human, with the exception of being sallow skinned with long dark hairs and big black eyes. She also had four fingers. She sticks out as she was giving an injection of cytoplasm to my wolfbrother. She was caught off guard that I was lucid and asking questions. When she was aware that I was awake...she become stressed. 

These are grey pretending to be women. They are originally from the group that has had an interest in me, but split up from the others. They will appear as Caucasian women with blonde hair, always wearing a grey suit with a long skirt. They come off as very business like, and remind me of British nannies. They are mostly involved with my wolfbrother and do not like me.
These appeared once, my hybrid offspring. There is one male and one female. The female is the youngest. They are four years apart. a grey showed up one night and introduced them to their biological father as the girl was curious about me. It also served as a test for the boy to see if he had an attachment to me. Both had paper machette like skin, very thin and frail. They had sparse thin hair, and big black eyes. No teeth really. They were wearing regular human clothes. The female seemed more emotional.
 
 
These guys, MILABS have only shown up a couple of time. My first encounter with them was during my time at SoCal Edison, ironically within the city of Irwindale.This is were I was first abducted.
In that incident I was with several of my coworkers who were all out of it. Just sitting in a cell being quiet. I felt I was sleepy, but managed to wake myself up. Since everyone was quiet I just sat there until the door open and a uniformed soldier told us to get up and follow them. We were lead to a large hanger like structure, were we formed into lines. Other groups of people were bought down here. We were under ground. There were several military officers were grey fatigues making sure we were formed into lines.... and medical personal doing check ups and then inoculating us. I made the mistake of asking what I was been injecting with....then the guards got called over. Fortunately other alarms went off....and they turned to focus on that.
 
The second strangest one involved a grey walking into my room. It levitated me off the floor and left. A few moments later a black ops soldier walked in and took a picture and left. I was confused as I was levitating off the floor by 5 feet. Then I was dropped... I was awake during the entire time....as the humming was heard before the grey walked in.
 
Although not military there is a period of missing weeks in which I worked for a company that doesn't exist. During a period in which I was looking for work, I happened upon a data entry job in a brick building near 110/105 freeway by railroad tracks and a residential area. They tried to make sure we always drank the free coffee and at the donuts before selections began for the day...and the rest would be sent home to return tomorrow. This went on for a few weeks. However I have no record of this.....but my aunt recalls I had a job for a few months were I would leave and sometime get back before noon.
 
The last of MILABs involves being off world. Apparently I work in some sort of administrative roll, and have a husband who is an officer. He was killed during an attack by the Draconians at our base. Though this one is on the fantastical side for me, too many of the events echo information I did not know at the time. I have no idea.....what this was...but it hurts when I think of him and knowing that my memories have been tampered with.
 
 
These guys like hiding in the background, usually using a tall white as a proxy. However the other I had a vision/dream seizure. I felt off and had to lay down. It was around 3:45pm, and I immediately knocked out. I ended up outside in the front, and could hear my neighbors. When I looked to the roof...there was a 1 1/2 tall plump mantid ....watching  them from the roof. It was not aware of me watching it. When I saw it...I knew I had to wake up. I woke up and it was 4:00pm.   

The Player's Are All On Board

Date: 8/25/2025
Type: Unknown
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 5:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:45am
State of Mind Before: Me (Tired, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Upset)
State of Mind After: Me (Depressed, Tired, Apathetic), Wolfbrother (Happy), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: None
Odd occurrences after: None

Over the past few months I have been having some strange dreams in which I haven't had time to properly catalogue. Something always seems to get in the way when I try to document. I have kept notes as these dreams are odd and unsual, often reflecting some type of Alien involvement or sleep patterns.

This particular one was unusual as I feel asleep around 4:45am and entered a deep REM state
immediately and woke up at 5:45am.

Section One
I am working at Kaiser Permanente again in the offices.  It is a large office pool with no cubicles and just desks. White walls, grey carpet and desks. As I check my email, apparently there is a corporate function that I am required to attend. I am tired of the corporate BS, and don't want to participate in another glorified ceremony. I submit my resignation and begin to clear my desk off, ensuring that unfinished tasks and items are marked so they can be taken over by another worker.

Two of my other co-workers, G & S, walk by my desk and ask why I didn't go to the ceremony.
I just brushed them off by saying the "food" made me sick. They sort of nodded and noted that many people were sick due to food issues. I went on to say that this wa different, as there was an odd chemical taste to the food and it also made me feel very light headed. I was doing everything to not faint from it. I do not tell them I have resigned, but let them know in case I am out of commision.... I need to make sure that the unfinished work is re-assigned to another to complete so no prjects are delayed or interupted due to my absence. I finsh and head down to the basement level to meet my Wolfbrother.

Down in the basement there is a company store. My wolfbrother and I go shopping for supplies,
as I need to stock up as I am resigning from this place. Although I am quietly moving about and finding my items....he keeps calling attention to us. He insists that we get help, asking to be attended to for very simple issues. He finally fustrates me and we "pop" out.

He is taken by surprise that I "pop" us out of that situation, and appeared in another office environment. This one was different. No office pool, just a front desk check in station. It was a small office with a man at the desk. He gave us a quick assessment and said "They are watching. I have full confidence in you. You are one of my best. Now go at it." Again I "pop" us out.

Section Two
This time we arrive at an RV that belongs to my Wolfbrother's dad. We are somewhere in the desert.... badlands type of canyon area. Sandstone. We try to get the wheelchair out of the RV and I tell my wolfbrother that we can get in and out. He will be fine. We find his dad outside and I let him know we are ready to go. He drives the RV to a resort and parks under a stone outcropping built into the canyon wall. Part of the RV extends and sticks.... and it doesn't  seem like the RV after all. The color is off, as it is is all a whitish color and the RV resembles more of a tanker. I am cautious as this is not right. My wolfbrother those is excited, because we have tickets to watch Avengers Doomsday at 7pm at the resort. We are to meet his sister and her BF there is a few hours. Since we are early we explored this resort.

When we drove to the resort it was along a packed dirt road. We left from one large desert canyon area
to a large desert basin with some mountains in the distance. We hugged the foothills along the drive
until and we turned into another canyon area which opened up into a dry valley.

The road straightened and came to a roundabout with a large pound in the middle. To the right was the admin buildings and check for the resort. Going forward would be the resort itself with the mall, theaters, dining, and amusement attractions. To the left would be the were the RV parking and canyon suites were. 

My wolfbrother and I left the RV to explore the resort, going first to the Admin and check in area.
We had to pick up our tickets there and I thought to look for some supplies as well. While we were waiting for the tickets there were a few people here in line and sitting around. One guy approached me and asked if I knew where the book on gambling was? Automatically I told him that his book was left on the chair next to him. A fat man in a blue suit came up and took the book. I recognized him. He was the archivist, a fat male with blonde hair and a blue suit. He just nodded at me an smiled. I got the tickets and told my Wolfbrother we needed to leave asap. He just seemed to be having fun.

We approached the roundabout with the large pond. Suddenly a flock of baby ducks emerged from some of the grass and stones and starred at us. Likewise several baby turtles emerged found the pound and watched us. The ducks and turtles kept watching us as we walked into the distance toward the resort. It was already 6pm.... and we had an hour before the move started.

The resort area was interesting, as there was a main and side entrance. The Main Entrance was the Cineplex that lead into the mall where there were restaurants and shopping. The side entrance there was a large outdoor area with a Ferris Wheel, patio seating, and fountains. We decided to go to the side entrance. After spending some 20 mins there...we started making are way to the main entrance to meet my wolfbrother's family. His sister called us and said her bf is not coming. Her call seemed off as her voice was very automated and scripted. I advised my wolfbrother to hang up immediately. Then I got a call from his dad saying that they are waiting for us at the front entrance. Something is very off... as I start to realize there is more to this. I let my wolfbrother know we are going back to the RV. As we approach the roundabout the ducks and turtles are watching us. I "port" us to the RV directly..they were freaking me out now. I feel exhausted, not use to "porting" two people. I do feel drained.

Supposedly his dad, mom, and a pilot show up in an aluminum craft. Its like a boat, but a disk.
Before I can say anything my wolfbrother gets in and I have to follow. As we take off the dad says
he has a map for the resort. My wolfbrother are happy that his parents are here. However, I notice
these are not his parents. The women's disguise is fake...and his dad's disguise is a bit better...but they are not his parents. I let his fake dad know that I can see the tracker on the map. I advise him not to take things from strangers....and again grab my wolfbrother and we "port" out to the road. We managed to leave the craft just as it accelerated off into the sky. The map falls down....with the tracker beeping away in the distance. Suddenly a blue beam shines on us and we are taken up to the aluminum craft. The fake mom sarcastically says "You did very good". There is a tan person, the pilot. He retrieved the map and says "He knows way more than the results suggest" and that despite me avoiding the others...its only a matter of time before I get caught. The other players involved are all moving now.  

See part two regarding other players.....  

 

Thursday, July 10, 2025

Lights and Shadows

Date: 7/10/2025
Type: Unknown
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 12:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 1:00am
State of Mind Before: Me (Tired, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Upset)
State of Mind After: Me (Depressed, Tired, Apathetic), Wolfbrother (Happy), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: White Flashing Lights
Odd occurrences after: Shadows

So this is a bit of a report of some odd occurrences that have been occurring for about two to three weeks. At fist I didn't think much of this and attributed it to old age and eyesight.....but that is just me not wanting to deal with the "weird". Every so often I would see a flash of light in specific spots, as people may be aware it is often attributed to Posterior Vitreous Detachment were you eye gel starts to not be as effective due to old age. However I was seeing flashes of light at specific point in my window....and the light source inside was not experiencing a surging in power. To make it more interesting...yes I paint my windows black...but as time has gone on there are small pinholes here and there. So every once in a while when I am outside depending on my POV and if the lights are on I can see the light very clearly...which is white-yellowish. However the flashes I was seeing where white light from on specific pinhole. At first I thought someone was in the room walking by the light...then I realized that is not possible as the would have to be standing on the bed. Plus there was no fluctuation in power that would cause the light to "flicker". I cannot explain this particular anomaly.

The second odd flash of light which are more of 4 second projections happen during the day in the same room. As it has been warm I tend to keep myself in the dark and in the cold as much as possible. While laying down for a nap several times.... there would be a flash of light and then a projected image on the ceiling about 4 inches long of a parallelogram (a lopsided rectangle). Again I though it was my eyes.... but it has happened at least four times....in the same room...and during the afternoon and evening. I keep that room dark....no outside light should cause that image to appear....and nothing within the interior of the room should cause such an image to appear either. Again I cannot explain this.

My wolfbrother has shared that he is likewise seeing the flashing lights every once in awhile too outside and inside of that room. He like myself thought it was his eyes....but again..... does not seem likely that it is tied to a problem with our eyesight.

The second thing is that he and my aunt have been reporting more frequency of shadowy figures. For my aunt it is usually a group of two shadowy silhouettes that come into the room and stand at the foot of her bed....then leave. My wolfbrother sees them outside in the walkway facing him or inside the house within the room at night. Likewise last night...around 4:30am I woke up spooked....and lay there for a while on the floor. Sometime when I get up I kick to get some momentum going. There is very soft background light from the power strips and chargers around the room that provide a minimal amount of light...but are great indicators of something is moving around in the dark. When I got up....and kicked...at the foot of the bed something small was caught off guard and moved toward the door. It was a small black mass around 3 feet that was crouched by the bed. Again I immediately dismissed it thinking it was just the silhoutte of my leg kick.....but quickly realize my leg went in the opposite direction and there is no lights to cast a shadow. I turned on the lights quickly .....but nothing was there. I was already awake for some five minutes so I wasn't "asleep".

 

 

 

Wednesday, May 28, 2025

Images and Strangeness

Date: 5/28/2025
Type: CE5?
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:30am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 1:00am
State of Mind Before: Me (Tired, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Agitated)
State of Mind After: Me (Depressed, Tired, Apathetic, Worried), Wolfbrother (Upset), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: None
Odd occurrences after: Door was unlocked

As mentioned I been spending more and more time isolated at night in the other area. This is mostly due to my Wolfbrother not allowing me to sleep due to his issues at night. Since I am always on alert....I have a hard time trying to go to sleep since I never feel safe. I usually trying to relax and create a somewhat personal relaxing environment. 

I was watching TV to relax, LOL: England final episode.....to my surprise I became alert at a white hand with a set of long fingers was opening the door to the living room. The hand was furled along the door and then vanished. I looked at the door for a few minutes as I grabbed my phone. I had locked the outer door and closed the door....but the door was now slightly ajar as if an arm and hand had poked through. The hand was not typical alien.... but creepy long with long fingers. An image of one standing out there flashed in my head and I rushed to close the door. I knew I locked it......but that would mean that it was unlocked now? I sat back down and checked the time...It was around 2:40am.... I continued to watch the TV and door for 30min more. Watching the windows and listening. Eventually I had to use the bathroom and as soon as I got up....a flash of three of them standing behind the curtain in the hall. I was made cause I was beginning to become fearful. I grabbed my phone and turned the light on. As I passed the other open bedroom a figure was standing there and I ignored an made my way to the bathroom. I did my business walked back and side glanced the room....nothing there. Yet before I got to the living room another flash of one standing at the shelves made my pause.....yet I walked in and nothing unusual. Eventually after 45minutes of waiting and watching the television the fear subsided...and wondering why I got spooked.

I fell asleep around 4:00am. Woke up at 5:45am and was strangely refreshed as if I had slept longer than that. I went back to sleep though and woke up at 7:30am. Again I locked at the phone confused...and went back to bed. I woke up at 9:30am.... pestered that I keep waking up then going to sleep. I lay down and woke up again around 10:30am. When I left the area....the door was indeed unlocked.... and that scared me.

Impressions...these were not mine....if there was an incident at all. They were very different in feel and operation. Plus there may have been a chance that I was not really at home from 2:30 till 5:30 am when this all started. It just is weird. 

 

Sunday, May 25, 2025

Alien Church: Mind Evolvers


Located in Los Angeles, California....the Alien Church: Mind Evolvers is a Christian Based Church that incorporates various beliefs which includes Extra-terrestrials. If interested it is located at 1250 S. Flower St., Los Angeles, CA, 90023.

The video above showcases what the center is all about, which serves as a meeting place to discuss the topic of Aliens, UFOs, and Spiritual Beliefs. It also is a bit of a Metaphysical Shop and Artist Commune with some original merchandise such as T-Shirts and some fractal art which can manipulate the energy around you.There is also a psychic there available for other services as well.

For the most part they claim to be based on Christian Beliefs, as much of there iconography is based upon the Catholic Tradition. However, as mentioned they are open to various ideas and interpretations that there is evidence within the biblical narratives that extra-terrestrials have made they appearance to early man.

Monday, May 19, 2025

Oddly Scary Wake Up

Date: 5/19/2025
Type: Unknown
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 4:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 3:45am
State of Mind Before: Me (Tired, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Agitated)
State of Mind After: Me (Depressed, Tired, Apathetic), Wolfbrother (Happy), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: None
Odd occurrences after: None

Due to my Wolfbrother's agitation again I am retreating to the other room. I do not like being isolated, but have made it comfortable with distractions and that do keep me entertained. Around 3:45am I went to bed reluctantly as I was sad and felt very alone. 

I started to immediately dream in which I was at the end of a party in my home. I was in the kitchen finishing cleaning. I turned off the lights and headed into the living room to sleep. A few people decided to stay over and sleep so I carefully made my way across the living room to the couch. I had accidentally kicked the keys and wallet of my niece that was on the floor and she grabbed it instinctively as I said sorry. When I got to the couch and laid down and just look around the living room. It was dark with some soft ambient light and I started to drift off to sleep, but was alerted by a weird flash of light in the skylight. I sat up on the couch and look and nothing was there....however there was an odd hum. As I looked up I heard and saw the underside of a ship pulsating. It was a disc with a fan over fan spiral propulsion.  I tried to get up but felt dizzied and the odd ringing started in my ear.

I was fold on my back with my but up and knees to my face. They came into the house and two began to touch me in the odd position and there was a comment as to why I was like that? I was then moved and taken to a white room in which I was floating in. The unfolded me and extended my limbs. I started to breath in and out, and thrum violently to get out of the paralysis. I was trying to get out of it by attempting to shake my leg and hand. They seemed bothered by my attempts.... but then surprised when I broke out and fell to the floor....

Which I feel and was awake on my couch now. I was very scared and didn't want to move and took some 10 min to get the courage to get up. It was 5:15am. The sun was already coming through the window. I didn't want to get up as I was tired...but I was also scared.  I didn't like that in less than 15min I started dreaming and there was an episode. My body being tired and I was sad because of things I decided to go back to sleep. Again I started dreaming again of a similar situation in which I was meeting others for a camping trip in a parking lot...and I really didn't want to go...and I woke up and it was 8:00am. I fell asleep again, but was awakened at 9:30m by my wolfbrother...... and then I fell asleep again and woke up around 10:30am.

I do not like that this is another Sleep Paralysis incident with then in it? I do not understand how my dreams/mental incidents are in sync with what is happening on the outside.

Tuesday, April 8, 2025

Chorus of Frogs Trigger some stuff

Date: 4/8/2025
Type: Unknown
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 3:30am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 3:30am
State of Mind Before: Me (Tired, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Agitated)
State of Mind After: Me (Depressed, Tired, Apathetic), Wolfbrother (Happy), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: None
Odd occurrences after: Noises in adjacent location

I was supposed to go today for some car maintenance, however my Wolfbrother kept me up all night. Hw refused to go to sleep despite the numerous mentions that I need to get the car looked at....and I am planning to go on this date. He finally decided to settle down around 2:30am and then wanted food. By 3:15am I had to call it quits as I had to be up by 7:00am. My mental state is not well as he is wearing me down both physically and mentally. My physical health has been impacted by his constant smoking. He is aware I am not doing well, but refuse to quit or lessen his usage as it is a "me problem" and I have to do better. 

As expected I had to retreat to the second location (his emotional abuse gets to me more as I am having trouble breathing...right now he did it again... on how he hates me and hates being here.....but I am only the best alternative for right now). I don't like being in there since it isolate me from the rest of the house. At first "they" were confused as to where I was....but they know I am there. Most of the time I have no thought about them and I am ok...... but when they have found me.... it wasn't pleasant. I am not sure if I am accurately put to pen the incidents since my wolfbrother is eroding things or it is their doing or I am trying to safe guard my own sanity (*&*).

So reason why I am reporting. As I go to sleep I often use some ambiance to help sleep....from oceans waves, rain, crickets, bubbles, etc. Not only does this relax me, but helps my Wolfbrother too. Last night though I tried to use frogs by a stream, something I have not used in years. It is soothing....but I had a horrible reaction. As soon as I tried to lay down... images of "them" came to my head... and the strong feeling of "we are coming". Then the odd noises in other areas of the adjacent location had a few weird noises. Immediately I started imagining a barred door and a wind to scour the area and block entry. I turned off that frog sound as it was freaking me out. I couldn't go to sleep and was having a minor (by my level) anxiety attack. At this point I could not sleep. Finally I felt some what safe around 5:20am and physically knocked out. Sadly my attempts comfort myself were sabotaged by "their" previous intrusions.

(*&*): Since February there having been secondary scenarios that started to run as dreams...basically it was stuff with unrequited love finally be returned by certain characters from my path. I was confused in these dreams, as I knew these weren't real and do not know why these were coming up. However, I went along with them because it felt nice. I knew it was "them", but really didn't care as I hurt soooooo much. I figured out it was them after the second such scenario as I was getting secondary audio commenting on the situation, my response, and how detailed things were getting. After a week it switched... to were I was told and experienced the complete opposite.... on how I was worthless, unwanted, despised, sickened, a disappointment, a disgusting creature, not even a real man, an aberration to humanity, that no one their right mind would want to be with, someone who deserves to be unloved, that I am nothing, that I am sick, I have no redeeming value, and if people are kind to me it is only because I am a sap with no self-esteem who is willing let other use him for the least amount of acknowledgement, that is how pathetic of a specimen that I am. 

At first I was confused. I have heard worse. Yet they kept representing anyone who showed me any kindness...."reveal" the truth. I am trying not to let it affect me and just remain apathetic. If I can't feel I can't get hurt....they stopped as I became unresponsive to "their" insults. However for now there  negativity echoes....I do not know if it is a way to continue to isolate me or they just decided to go here? 

I am not doing well. I can function though despite this. However they are right..... as long as they are involved in my life I am a hazard to others. I am already aware of this. I wonder if they are trying to push me to certain eventualities that are planned?   

Sunday, March 16, 2025

Short Visit before the 50

 

Date: 2/13/2025
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 12:30am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 11:30pm
State of Mind Before: Me (Tired, Depressed), Wolfbrother (Upset)
State of Mind After: Me (Depressed, Apathetic), Wolfbrother (Upset), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: None
Odd occurrences after: Loud Thud on Floor of Garage

When Wolfbrother's father visits it is usually time for me to retreat to other room for rest. As mentioned to him, I don't want to be isolated this month as it is my 50th. As it is I am showing my symptoms of my depression, usually this does manifest as hard. I do not have anxiety that they may show up....but personally I don't feel well mentally or physically.

As for Wednesday, I went to the room and watched some stuff on youtube to try and elevate my mood. Around 11:30pm, I got myself in bedding and lay down. I know I was mentally and physically exhausted, but I was unusually fast tracked to knock out (it take me an hour or so to ease my mind and feel comfortable to sleep). The next thing I am in a white fluffy room, almost like felt. There was ambient lighting, nothing stood out except for this felt room. There was a conversation going on, not vocal, but "their voices". 

"Is he relaxed?".... "Seems this is not causing any hostile reactions. Proceed"..... from there an appendage stretched out... cotton and felt like... that began to caress my cheek and mouth. "Is he responding? I hope is is somewhat aware".... "That is it. Something you like. Something you want. You deserve to be loved"... the appendage is being a bit more forceful and I am becoming angry... "He loves you doesn't he? Wait. He loves you doesn't he? Why are you angry? He loves you doesn't he?" ... I start to breathe hard in rapid succession trying to get out of this....."Why is he there then? Why do you care? You make no sense. Nobody loves you? Why are you hurt? So much pain. So much sadness".... they let me go.

This situation was about 5 minutes or so.... it could have been longer but as soon as I was aware and triggered I did everything to get "ejected". I noticed despite being bundle up and warm, there was a specific cold spot on my left shoulder and chest, as well as where the appendage was stroking me along my face. I lay there angry.... I hate when they bring up relationship stuff.... and begin examining my personal "feelings". They don't get why I am this way nor why I feel certain things about situations and people. As I lay there for about 15 minutes, behind the wall in the garage there was a thud.... one that sounded like a very heavy iron ball falling on the ground. That made no sense as the garage is locked, no one was in there, and there is no such items that would make such a sound. The neighbor was asleep and they did not cause the sound from their dwelling. In the morning I checked the garage and there wasn't anything out of place. What concerned me was the odd sound was right behind the wall where I was sleeping necx too.  

Sunday, February 16, 2025

Visitation in the adjacent room

 

Date: 2/15/2025
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 2:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 1:00am
State of Mind Before: Me (Tired), Wolfbrother (Upset)
State of Mind After: Me (Depressed, Apathetic), Wolfbrother (Upset), Aunt (N/A)
Odd occurrences before: A Bump in the kitchen
Odd occurrences after: Distortion Field, Diffused Light Field

This Friday evening my Wolfbrother's dad came to visit and they usually watch some movies. I did have to have a talk with his dad about my Wolfbrother recent behavior and concerns, especially the increase in smoking. As one it is not good for my Wolfbrother, and two it is a financial burden. My Wolfbrother seemed to be out of it that evening and was not too happy about the news that he need to stick to a set number of packs per week. We watched "Lady Ballers", which I found funny and was in an overall good mood. I then told them I had to perform my other duties and would go to bed, so I left them to watch "Wicked". I did my nightly routine and checked in on my aunt, and around 12:00am I went to our auxiliary area to sleep.

Over the past year this overflow area is my place to get away from my Wolfbrother when he has issues. It is comfortable, and in the room I have a bed-tent which keeps me nice and cozy. I have a soundboard playing cricket music and the windows have a diffused privacy screen. I have my wards in the room to keep my safe. The other rooms in there are an empty kitchen and another room with a TV and couch. I got ready for bed, I was just tired and needed sleep since it has been a couple rough days with my Wolfbrother. I had the soundboard on with crickets and was nice and cozy in my tent. Right before I went to sleep something bumped/banged in the EMPTY KITCHEN. I was too tired to care....and tried to clear my thoughts to sleep and not be depressed.

DREAM

For some odd reason I was having a dream. I was visiting my mother and stepfather in a Victorian style house they went to a vacation at. They were asleep. I had some supplies with me, food that I had picked up for later and the trip home. I went to the drawing room and lay on the couch to take a nap as I was tired. I knew that I was dreaming....and was fine with it. The Victorian house was detailed quite well, with the mahogany would paneling the velvet green wall paper, the couch I was on was appropriate, would floors, hutches and tables, and a nice rug. The couch I was on was comfy too with the appropriate era pillows. I did joke "Why can't I ever dream of being with a hot guy". As I relaxed something felt really sinister in the background, as if it were approaching. The dream was not warping or anything....it felt like something was coming.

AWAKE/????

I am now awake in my bed-tent on my right side, still covered up in my bedding. I cannot move. I am also still being told I am laying peacefully on the couch. I know I am not, but something is trying to convince me otherwise. It is not words...but an enforcing thought of me on the couch and relaxed. I immediately start to growl and call out for help. I am making a lot of noise....something(s) are behind me. I can heard them and feel their thoughts. There are three of them. This is what is overhead...

-"You said he was sleep. Why is he struggling?"

-"Wait. He can here us. We should go. This is not supposed to happen. What is he doing"

-"No. We are not leaving. He will stop. They do this sometimes"

-"This one is different. Something is wrong. We need to leave."

-"He can hear us. He know. We need to leave."

-"No. I am not leaving."

At this point I know I am alone. No one will save me, I am in a secluded part of the house. I should have paid attention to the noise in the kitchen. I am in my tent. They are set on making me believe I am on that couch. They are arguing and having trouble doing what ever they are trying to do. One seems very angry that I am resisting. I change tactics an start to "thrum"...it is a noise crocodiles make. A deep throat rumble. This begin to worry the other two and the "couch" idea is dropped and they depart.

-"No. Comeback. What are you?"

It then leaves as I start to convulse and "Thrum" harder.

When they are all gone I can move. I notice I cannot hear the soundboard. The crickets are off and it is very silent. I sigh. and turn over to my left side to see if the tent was opened. The tent is secure, nothing physically breached it.....however it is really cold like a freezer. As the moonlight is shining through the window I also notice that the light is oddly diffused. There seems to be some type of field in this freezing area. I close one eye at a time, and the barrier/screen is there. I am not going to touch it.

I wait for five minutes, the sound from the soundboard is still not on. The weird diffusion of light is there. It is like looking at a soap bubble and seeing the swirls of color "but there is no color here, just the outlines". I turn back on my right side. Next month they are probably gonna come cause of my birthday. I want to die. I have no one. I am haunted by "them". What is the point.... and I drift off to sleep.


Tuesday, February 11, 2025

Wolfbrother's Markings and Attitude

Date: 1/26/2025 and 2/9/2024
Type: CE2
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: N/A
Attempted Time of Sleep: N/A
State of Mind Before: Me (Stressed, Tired), Wolfbrother (Stress, Agitation)
State of Mind After: Me (Stressed, Tired), Wolfbrother (Stress, Agitation)
Odd occurrences before: Wolfbrother Contact Communication
Odd occurrences after: None

As many longtime readers know, my Wolfbrother has certain issues due to his injury and contact with an unknown Alien Intelligence or beings. Like myself he has had encounters with UFOs, Ghost, and Aliens. However, we differ in our understanding of them which can be a real challenge as its come down to belief vs fact. He leans toward more spiritually oriented beliefs, while I lean toward scientific understanding and logic. What complicates things is that our experiences are intertwined.

On my end, the regional group that has been abducting my family had some reorganization issues. A team splintered off and did their own things in North Los Angeles County area. My Wolfbrother's encounters and observation are linked to whatever stuff they have been doing to me. Officially we never meet prior to 2015..... I meet him with them when I was younger and he was just a kid. When we were "reintroduced" both groups were upset, more so his, that we found are way to each other. Both groups have shown their aggression toward us over the years. His being far more aggressive toward me, but somehow never crossing the line since I am a pre-cursor/base to what ever they have done to him.

Beginning December 2024, he has been having communication with them again...which has had messages to indicate that they want him to harm me. That I am responsible for his current state and he would be better off if I wasn't around. He know that is not the case and we do talk about it, but it does eat away at him since they keep repeating the same thing over and over to him. I hear his group as well broadcasting this sometimes, which makes me worry. What is worse is when he confirms what I over hear....which just reinforces this is not a mental illness or our imaginations. Eventually after discussing this we can walk things back to a level understanding. Personally I am worried and stressed as I do not want a repeat of the previous incidents in which he did physically attack me.

January and February of 2025 have produced some worrying items as I found that he has now been marked like myself in the same place.

 


These markings appear on his left shoulder (as mine did), in the same pattern. The first marking showed up January 2025, and that is the "Chevron" with the five dots. These dot are 1/2 inch apart from each other and located toward the arm. About two weeks later a triangle closer to the neck appeared, with the dots evenly space about 1 inch from another, near the neck. He has not had any history of odd marks on his skin there since I known him from 2015 to 2024. He wouldn't let me me photograph it, though he has it one his phone so he saw what I can clearly see. It bothers me cause this is similar to what I have had and reoccurs once in awhile. (Note my aunt has never had these markings).

He is talking to something.....and I wont press him on it.. as he has his issues. Yet I do over hear a lot of things which worry me. I have told him in the past that, you can listen...but don't engage. I really don't know what to do....as I am doing my best to try to maintain our well being. Myself I know I am not in a good place, and hanging by a thread for so many years. Endurance is something, but it should not be a life style. No one will save me, but what is the point of being saved when these is no one around anyway?