Finding You are Alone in the End

 Date: 12/22/2021

As all of us have suffered these past two years with the Covid Propoganda, general chaos with our governments, and breakdowns of our social support networks..... it makes me feel that we are really alone. Especially when you do not follow the masses blindly or you see the actual threats coming and move a different way.

I thought having my wolfbrother by my side what stop them from coming. He is dealing with his own stresses on top of trying to cope with his versions of them. Something is still going on and it won't stop. I feel so isolated in the fact that it is just me.... as the world crumbles around me.... "they" are still here. I am able to function, putting duty before self interest and and self care..... but it is getting harder and harder to deal with this "new world", "THEM", and my own worthless personal self. I having nothing left, but duty and responsibility, and I feel so hollow. No matter what I can do I cannot change the grand schemes of things nor can I escape to a better place. I walk alone. I stand alone. I am alone. 

As usual the only thing positive I can do is continue to record and archive, and try to correct this broken reality one chip at a time before I am gone or go missing. I guess that is the only thing we can do right now.

The Sixth Month Extension

Date: December 5th, 2021
Type: CE4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 5:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 4:00pm
State of Mind Before: Tired (Me)/Ok (Aunt)/Ok (Wolfbrother)/Ok (Guest)
State of Mind After: Bothered, Very Tired (Me)/Ok (Aunt)/Ok (Wolfbrother)/Ok (Guest)
Odd occurrences before: Sound Machine Alteration
Odd occurrences after: Physically Exhausted Monday

Things have been just there. The whole Covid scam has me in a bad mood, the where the country is going is depressing, and the SJWs make me sick. Life in general sucks and the people walking around make it worse. I dread turning on the radio or TV because of the brainwashing that goes on. All in all I am unhappy. Despite all this I am doing my best to continue to try and get through all this. So after I feed my Wolfbrother and put him to bed I went to the living room to sleep. I had thought I made it safe. I added a night light and bought a sound machine to off put them from showing up. Pretty much this worked for a month, then things took a strange turn.

I don't know if it is my own head that picks up the repetitive nature of the sound loops, but I began noticing distortions in loops. The train or rain sounds no longer were relaxing, as I noticed the sound loops were being distorted. I started to notice where the loops were pasted at, and it was like a scratch on a record. Then there were odd patterns forming, as if something new was trying to manifest. I would change the "soundscape" or reposition myself to try and stop the distortion. Sometime it worked, but others it persisted.

On Sunday morning I went to sleep in the living room. I was just tired. It is cooler in there so I though I would be comfortable. I had the rain soundscape on, snuggled in and drifted calmly off to sleep. I was on my left side, covered with my back toward the sound machine and nightlight. At some point I woke up and didn't feel right. I was going to reach for my phone when the familiar tone began in my ear. I immediately tried to fight it off, then there was a bright flash of light behind me and I knew it was them. They were doing there best to make me forget, I was attempting to wiggle as much as possible. My ankles and arms I was doing my best to contort. I could hear in my what they were saying, but one of them kept blocking me out. They kept showing me "westerns". They were actively showing me a film with no sound, though speed up a bit. Finally I broke free or was too much trouble and they left.

Normally I would reach for the phone and look at the time and begin texting. However, what kept running through my mind was the western. My right side was numb and very cold, despite being in the cover. From my ankle to my shoulder. In particular my ankle, wrist, and shoulder ached. I knew something happened, and when I tried to recall the western would play again. Something was wrong. I wanted to get up, but was told to sleep. When my guest got up I grabbed my cell and quickly texted. "They came". "Flash of Light". "Don't let me sleep in living room".

I soon knocked out and was unable to get up. However, I was going over what had happened in my head. Again I got the western. So I went over it again. They were blocking me. So since I was getting feedback from them, I watched what they did. Apparently two appeared in the living room, both greys. One behind me and one in the walkway area. They saw me awake and put me under fast, they also moved me out of the living room. I was being examined on a table. They poked me on my right ankle, right wrist, and right shoulder. They were concerned about the injury on my right wrist. As soon as they asked, they read what happened. They responded with a comment "We have nothing to do with him. We were not the cause. We do not know of whom he speak to." They also mentioned."Immune to Covid" and "Sixth-month extension until relocation". 

Again I was awakened by my guest leaving. This time I did my best to get up and move to the bedroom. I was still getting feedback from the individual I was viewing the memory from. They were in an elevator and walking down a hallway. It was disorienting since I was moving to. I got to the chair and drifted off to sleep. Despite some 5 hours since I awoke from them dropping me off, the right side was still cold. I did my best to warm myself up...but to no avail. My body was physically exhausted.

I would not awaken until 5pm.