Unwanted Attractions

 

Date: 9/7/2022-9/8/2022
Type: CE 4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 11:45pm-12:15am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 11:40pm
State of Mind Before: Depressed
State of Mind After: Upset, Bothered, Scarred (Me), Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: Previous Short CE4 Encounter
Odd occurrences after: N/A

So I know I have been amiss at reportimg many of the encounters over the past two years. It has little to due with Covid-19 or the lockdowns. As many may know I have been occupied with taking care of my Wolfbrother, who is refereed to on here as Earth Dragon. His care is challenging at times, and due to personal circumstance the incidents that have occurred come into to question as he cannot be a reliable source depending on who he is to be classified. I do my best to account a reliable as possible testament to what has occurred to me.

As of 4/22 my Wolfbrother has to be relocated to a care facility. So I have been alone to speak at my home. For about 5 months activity was very minimal, just occasional annoyances of flashing bright lights, whispers, and footsteps. This has been going on for decades and there is nothing I can do to stop these things.... and as long as they are not harmful... I just get note. Early August I did get a brief visit or check in.... they mainly came in and checked the room out to make sure my Wolfbrother was really gone and not coming back. They noted I was in the room... and not to "talk" as I can hear them. There were some mean comments about me... but it was mostly because I can hear them and they have to take precautions. This scouting did bother me as to me it means they were back... which I did my best to put out of my mind since they didn't do a follow up.... and I have bigger things to contend with in my life.

So as far as my mental health.... the incident with my Wolfbrother emotionally heart me in such away... that it did devastate me and cause some physically issues to manifest in 4/22 only. These were stress related, such as seizures and bouts of uncontrollable crying. Eventually I was able to de-compartmentalize the situation to regain functionality and dealt with the physical aspects of the problem to ensure seizures would not occur. 5/22 to 8/22 I began readjusting to the new lifestyle without my Wolfbrother. I will not say I am content.... but managing through life... the Covid issue is a big problem.... but since I am a self-sufficient introvert... it only bother me when they have meaningless and nonsensical restrictions and over reaching authority. Sorry to say, but I am smarter than most people and chafe under the authority of my lesser. So I was just there busy with life. In 7/22 my Wolfbrother and I did reconnect, but he is still away.

So the farthest thing from my mind is "THEM". I had a good day. I went and bought some comics and was reading them around 11pm. Around 11:40 I was told "You are tired. Go to sleep". Usually I just say "No"... but this time I was complacent. I went to lay down and was told "Sleep on you stomach it would be more comfortable."... and I did without question. I normally sleep on my side, and very rarely on my stomach. I cocked my head to the side. I was told "Relax. You will have a pleasant visitor. It is what you want. It is what you desire.....". I put my head on and turned on my side as the door opened and closed quickly...as if it was an air pressure thing. My eyes looked toward the walkway and there was a transparent distortion that moved quickly from the door to the bathroom door. "Relax. Sleep.", I heard once more and lowered my head.... but I was on my side. I could hearing some whisper and mumbling very faintly. I kept moving my head and at one point cupped my ear to hear what it was. At first I attempted to debunk it as noise form my aunts TV..... but this wasn't it. For a few minutes I was trying to pinpoint the sound and wasn't tired. "JUST GO TO SLEEP. TURN ON YOUR STOMACH NOW", and I did what I was told. I was annoyed at this but they started to communicate "You deserve love and you are such a good person. You need to be cared for and loved, that is what you want and desire. You deserve this so much because you are a good person. We know you want this. The man of your dreams will be coming here very soon. He is 6'8", muscular, white, with blonde hair and blue eyes. He loves you and want to be with you and...". I reply "Wait. I don't have the money to pay for him. He sound very expensive. I cannot possible afford him". Confusion on their part...."He loves you and want to be with you. He genuinely wants you. Sleep. He will be here...". I cut them off and reply "Are you kidding, he sound to be perfect in every way. Why would he choose me. Look at the comparison. I am old, not exactly wanted...especially by his type. Why would he choose me. We haven't talked. Why?". Frustration on their part "He will be here. He will come in the door and you will be happy. Now go to sleep!".

I zonked out, but I was awake in another room. I was standing by someone's bedside. It was a lime green room...late at night and they where watching the news. They had a flatscreen tv. I said to myself "Oh wow I am remote viewing", as I was aware someone was stroking my nose in my room. A distant though of "Shhhh. It is alright. Stay calm. You deserved to be loved. Just sleep.". I reply "Stop it" as I was focused and where I was not and wanted to see if could see the television more clearly to verify this was a remote viewing by watching the news on the TV. The only detail I could make out was that this was not local news and seemed to be an east coast station. Someone kept stoking my nose and again I said "Stop it go away. No one loves me and my Wolfbrother said I am a worthless piece of shit that no would would ever want I would be alone forever.". Whoever was stoking my nose stopped and that is when I felt pressure on my back as someone was trying to penetrate/probe  me. I instantly refocused my attention to my room. I was paralyzed unable to move, and there was a being near my head who was stroking me. I got the impression of "Uh-oh. Its not working.". The second being was doing something to my behind with frustration and "He is too tight. He locked up. Not tonight". I was enraged at this point.... fear and anger came to the surface as I struggled and screamed as best as possible. The last thing I hear was "I told you. This one is special. It doesn't normally work with him". I bolt up and they were gone. I check the time...and it was 12:15am. I looked around and listened... sat there for a bit.... my butt was bothered... it had a familiar sensation... so an attempted something physical did occur. I do not have sexual dreams. So what the heck was this. I was angered, afraid, and then began to cry for one of two reasons.... 1) "THEY" are back and... 2) What is wrong with me that I see so little value in myself that I can't even believe the lie they were creating. I think that hurt the most..... cause I am lonely and feel so unloved/unwanted.

So the thing I was trying to vet out is if this was an audio hallucination. As I said I have had communication with them all my life. It has been interactive... and they seemed annoyed that I can hear them and connect. Basically there is a"handle with care" cause I can hear and don't fully go under. Now the odd thing is there is such a disconnect between my thinking process and these individuals that they do not seem to be from my subconscious. They act as independent individuals who seemed bothered and comment on their own. They also seem to not understand how I work. If they were audio hallucinations they should be more nonsensical (repeated phrases or commands) or respond in a scripted manner? They don't seem to be recreations or imaginary beings.