Date: 12/13/2022-12/15/2022
Type: CE3,CE 4
Location: Los Angeles, CA, 90023
Time of Incidents: 9:30am/12:00am
Attempted Time of Sleep: 2:00am/8:00pm
State of Mind Before: Bothered, Christmas Depression, Tired of Life
State of Mind After: Upset, Bothered (Me), Scared (Aunt)
Odd occurrences before: 12/13/2022 CE4 Encounter
Odd occurrences after: N/A
As many know this has been a very trying year. My association with my Wolfbrother, Earth Dragon, imploded. As of June we re-established a dialogue and once again things are headed back to how they were.
As noted the year has been quiet, at first "they" wondered what happened. Testing the waters to see if he was gone. They have been reluctant to do anything than the few incidents this year. Although the September incident was extreme. Since Wolfbrother is coming back.... "they" are aware.
Tuesday
As usual due to things I went to be late, although nothing unusual about that. Wasn't particularly bothered by anything other than the jury summons I have to get out of. The previous week I was contacted by Earth Dragon's mother, and it finally happened where he was caught being in Care Facility and the deductible was due. She is a dishonest person who tries cutting corners. I don't like dealing with her. However, I have to associate with her in order to take care of Earth Dragon. So basically its not financial feasible for him to be at the Care Facility... so guess who is needed. Me.
I went to bed around 2:00am, jumping in and out of semi-real dreams where I was not sure where I was cause it kept coming back to me in my room waking up. I would get up do stuff on my computer, watch TV, walk around the house, and then go lay down. It was as if someone was trying to callibrate a behavior. I felt that it was "testing". I was also being asked question about Earth Dragon, during all this; "Why is he coming back. Where is he now? Is he there. Why are you talking to him. He is going to hurt you again. He is interfering. You know what will happen [Threat to me from them]". I know at times I am yelling "Go away. Leave me alone. Leave wolfbrother alone. Leave me alone. I will hunt you down and make you sorry". I found this odd, but it was buried under the mundane activities I was doing and going back to sleep. I have trouble recalling who I was talking to.... as my mind just goes back to doing boring stuff. Wasn't sure if I was dreaming or awake, it went on for a few hours until I feel asleep around 7:00am. Anyhowzit, around 9:30am I am awakened by footsteps in the hallway. I noted it was windy outside, as the aluminum foil was moving on the window and I could hear the breeze. What was odd is that I was told "Go back to sleep. It is ******. He probably was told to come in late today or was sent back early". I seemed to accept the thought, though it was odd it wasn't my thought. So I stayed awake and listened. Someone was walking in the hall and kitchen. Someone was moving things around. It didn't sound like my guest, and was there more than one person? Again a thought popped into my head, "Go back to sleep. It is just *****. No need to worry. Go to sleep". I noted this and feel asleep.
At 12:00pm I awoke and was bothered. Why was there an outside voice trying to be my thought. I doubt it was my guest. There was more than one person? So I decided to ask my aunt if anything odd occurred. She did indicate that she heard someone at that time in the living room, hallway, and kitchen. They were moving something and that it was windy. Oddly enough.... the weather was not as such throughout the morning, at least to the level that it would have been audible.
Thursday
Christmas is depressing and the state of the world sucks. I feel so alone... to bad I don't live in Canada... as at least they could help me with M.A.D. Being an abductee, gay, and abused by the world.... what is the point right? I know I have duties to fulfill...but I really feel awful. It is mostly likely due to the damn holidays, as it always illustrates I am on the outside in the cold and alone....while everyone else is on the inside pretending to enjoy life. I went to be early as I have errands to run... and I don't want to be awake. Sadly the solace of sleep often eludes me.
Instead I awake in my old room, but I am sleeping there. At first I was afraid, as bad memories of the room pop up from the scenarios done there. I know I am in my real room, so I ignore and try to go to sleep there and not pay attention. I wake up a bit and I am in my room again...I feel my begging and see the ceiling. I know I am ok, but there are others in the room. I think "go away".
[Something occurring right now. Low tapping on the window"]
I am not sure if I am awake or asleep now. I keep my eyes closed. I am in my room. I am responding to questions "Go Away. None of your business. He is my Wolfbrother, I don't know. Leave us alone. No I won't. What am I supposed to do? No. Then fix it. You know what I want. No". During this time a pressure was building on my legs then chest. I couldn't move. Something was atop of me pressing down. I attempted to wiggle out. A noise started like a high pitched sound, attempted to counter with howling. It bothered them that I wasn't under. They started tapping, it was a threat in the sense "WE ARE REALLY HERE". I continued to struggle until I was able to punch outwards which everyone left.
Although bothered at this point I was exhausted and depressed, I went back to sleep. It would be so nice to have that special someone by me so I could finally feel safe and happy.
At 2:30am I woke up to do my obligations.... I tried writing this down so many times... but I keep getting...."distracted".
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